I walked all the way with Ruyuan, and Ruyuan dragged my injured body, and the journey was very slow. So, it gave me time to sort through the mess of information.

For the first time, I dug out my memories from the depths of my heart, and thought about the things I had experienced, seen, heard, and loved and missed since I had my memory, and the people I had loved, missed, and hated. From the Lush Forest to the Demon Domain, from Zhuoyun Xiaozhu to Mengjun Villa, from Qixian Waterfall to Wushan, from Mother to Nalan Mosheng, from Xiaolu to Rouying, from Cangli to Meng Yunzhong......

And how are these people, these things, and me involved? Perhaps, it was when I was brought into the Demon Realm by Cang Li, perhaps, when I decided to start devouring the true essence of the demon to enhance the spiritual power to avenge my mother, perhaps, at the moment when my mother was brutally killed by the demons, perhaps, when I entered the secret realm of the temple without permission despite my mother's ban, or perhaps, when I was forcibly taken back to the Lush Forest by my mother...... My destiny has begun to change, but what is the power that controls my destiny in the dark?

I suddenly felt lonely and ashamed, confused and hopeless. I thought I was just an ordinary demon living in the Lush Forest, but because of the sudden hatred, I was getting farther and farther away from the Lush Forest, and I didn't even know if my mother was alive, and I even began to wonder if my mother was my mother...... What is this? Should I question my mother? But what reason do those who seem to have nothing to do with me lie to me?

In the blur, I was curious about my own background. Where the hell did I come from? What the hell am I? A long time ago, my mother said that I have a special constitution, and the demonic energy in my body is much weaker than other demons. But later, someone actually said that I still have a breath other than demonic qi on my body, why is this? I suddenly remembered that Guichen had said when I was in Yifeng Valley, I have a strange aura on my body, is it just because of my special physique?

At this moment, I even began to question the vows my mother had forced me to make. My mother told me that it was the demons who killed her, but why did the demons put her to death for no reason? If it was for the sake of the True Yuan Neidan, then why was the Mother's True Yuan still there? Which demon killed my mother? What was the reason? Why didn't my mother let me find out and let me kill all the demons? If my mother really didn't die, what was sealed in the Monument of the Oath? Why is all this? Why? Why?......

Suddenly, I found myself living in doubt and passive revenge for many years, but what revenge did I have? I didn't even have a real enemy!

Not only that, but I am no longer the same person I used to be...... It was someone else's blood that flowed in my body, and even my memories began to erode.

And at this moment, I am trying my best to save a demon race, or a god. No matter what it is, this person has hurt me, saved me, and even wanted to marry me, but to this day, I still don't know how complicated his relationship with me is. Is it just because I look like his beloved wife?

There is another person who worries me, makes me helpless and entangled, and even makes me want to put everything aside and spend the rest of my life with him. His back appeared in front of my eyes again and again, he seemed to be able to turn his head at any time, looking at me with those deep and affectionate eyes, that face, that look, as long as I think of it, I feel that it has been engraved in my life, how can I forget? How can I let go? Is it really as fate said, my fate with him was destined three lifetimes ago? Or earlier?

All of this, a trace of memories.

I was lost.

For many years, I have either lived in the strict discipline of my mother, or in the confusion of hatred, or under the strong protection of Cang Li, or in the entangled love and hate with Meng Yunzhong, when did I really think about how I should live? How to live?

Cangli's thousand-year-old dedication to protecting the Holy Spirit Mountain, Wushan's goddess's dedication to Dayu, Zhifan's attachment to the unicorn in her heart, You Ruojun's dedication to Meng Yunzhong, Ruyuan's dedication to her sister, and Nalan Mosheng's dedication to the mission of the forest master...... And what about me? What am I obsessed with? Is it only hatred for the demon clan for killing my mother? It's a pity that now, I don't even seem to have a reason to be attached to hatred. My mother is not dead, so how can I hate me? Is it just my feelings for Meng Yunzhong, which has a bleak future? It's a pity that now, I don't know if the lust and poison in my body can be resolved, if I can, then Cang Li will also be resurrected, and if he is resurrected, can I still go with Meng Yunzhong without scruples?

For a moment, I just felt that no matter what I chose, it wasn't necessarily the outcome I wanted. Am I not a demon? Isn't the world of demons supposed to be simple? But why do I have to go through this passively?

"Yinluo!

The call of fate pulled me back from my long thoughts. Somehow, I said quietly:

"I can't just live like this, these long years, I have to find my own attachment......"

"What's wrong with you? Could it be the influence of that magic weapon again?" Ruyuan stopped and stood in front of me, looking at me with some concern.

I looked at her anxiety on her face, and only smiled faintly: "It's okay, but I suddenly feel that I still have a lot of things to do." ”

After saying that, I took a step forward and walked forward, leaving Ruyuan behind me inexplicably.

The Lingzhi Forbidden Domain is indeed a miracle, and I only found out at this moment that almost all the trees around us are towering giant trees full of spiritual energy, and every grass and every inch of soil under our feet seems to exude an incomparably pure divine breath. Her face was so much better.

And what surprised me was that there was no sunlight in this Lingzhi forbidden area, how did these plants grow? Could it be that it was all dependent on the remnants of the spiritual power of the goddess?

I have never been to this path, and I only follow Ruyuan to the depths of this unknown secret realm. The last time I went to the Lingzhi Forbidden Domain, I was only interested in getting the Restoration Spirit Grass, so I just found a small path to sneak in, and when I saw a Restoration Spirit Grass that emitted a light purple light, I took it and left in a hurry, not paying attention to how big this place was. And now I found that this is really another space, and after walking for a long time, I can't see the edge at all, only more and more dense grass and trees. Looking deeper, there is only a faint darkness, only in the darkness, for some reason, everything is clearly visible.

"Ruyuan, is it almost there?"

"Well, it's not far off. However, there is an abyss ahead, which can only be teleported through with space spells. ”

As soon as Ruyuan's words fell, I suddenly felt a light breeze blowing on my face, and there seemed to be a damp smell in the wind, mixed with a slightly different feeling. Only when the wind gradually dissipated, not only did I not feel cold in my heart, but there was a trace of warmth, and in the depths of my memory, there seemed to be some voice calling, so the delicate tenderness hidden in the deepest part was excavated. I remembered the man who was deeply engraved in my heart, as if he were right in front of me.

He smiled at me, incredibly gentle.

"This abyss is said to be formed by the precipitation of the goddess's endless thoughts about Dayu, boundless and bottomless, and all spiritual power will fail in the sky above it, which is the purest and deepest longing. In my mother's memory, when the Nine-Tailed Fox Clan first came here, many of them accidentally fell into it and never came out again. We all call it the Abyss of Thought, and if you want to go over, you can only use space spells. After this abyss, it is the stronghold of the Nine-Tailed Fox Clan. ”

Listening to Ruyuan's words, I stopped, and when I looked closely, not far in front of us, there was indeed a dark crack that cut the ground in half. And the gust of wind just now flowed out of the deep darkness. It is really the purest thought, and it can evoke the best memories.

It's just that the goddess has nothing to sustenance for Dayu, only deep precipitation, and it has become this bottomless abyss, which is really sad. I don't know what kind of mood the goddess felt in the face of endless thoughts at that time.

The abyss of thought, the abyss of longing can also become a bottomless abyss......

"Let's go over. ”

I was looking at the abyss, and I walked up to me and said lightly.

"Do you really want to go over?"

My sudden question made Ruyuan look at me with wide eyes again.

"If I'm not mistaken, this abyss is the boundary of the Sealing Enchantment. Are you sure you'll get lucky out of the enchantment this time?"

Ruyuan hesitated slightly, and then said: "How can you have so many concerns? Since I promised you to come, I will give up my life to accompany you...... Woman!"

I laughed again.

"Could it be that you are willing to give up the world of flowers in the world? If you are sealed here forever, won't your peerless elegance be useless?"

"If that's the case, I'll trap you here too, and never see your lover!"

I found out that I hadn't seen her such a charming posture for a long time.

"What about your sister?

"Sister...... It's because you have to take care of it, that's why you have to go in! She will definitely not end well when she mixes with that monster, and when you resurrect that god, the monster will disappear. Maybe, my sister was just deceived by that monster and lost her mind, so she became like this......" said, Ruyuan was a little sad because she mentioned Ruyu, or thought of Ruyu's decision to her, or even she felt that her assumption was too far-fetched.

"Then let's go, you don't regret it. I deliberately interrupted her thoughts.

"Hmm. Of course I won't regret it!" Ruyuan suddenly said firmly, "She is my only sister, and I won't let her fall into the magic barrier!"

I looked at her determined expression and suddenly felt very relieved.

Actually, I think you're pretty good, at least, much better than that skill! Besides, my poison is also from me, so I'll help you find an antidote. Don't worry, you 'woman', this girl is accompanied!"

Ruyuan's voice was crisp and soft, tactful and enchanting, but at this moment, she was looking at me solemnly. I think I can vaguely know what she means. After Xiaolu and Soft Wing, I haven't found such a feeling in a long time.

"Why did you listen to You Ruojun in the first place...... What about the technical commanders?"

"Listen to her? That's a terrible sound! I can make a deal with you, but can't I make a deal with her? She said that as long as I help her harm you, she will give Yu Ruyi to me. But I didn't expect her to go back on her word after that! No, I had to make a deal with someone else. Ruyuan stroked the hair on her sideburns, with a very simple expression.

"You always think of everything as simple as possible. ”

This time, Ruyuan stopped talking.