[I've been having a great time. 】

After pondering for a moment, he sent such a sentence.

[Most of the time, I don't think about the past.] 】

Dr. An: [You are the most self-healing person among my patients, and you are happy every day. 】

[Thank you.] 】

Twenty-ninth of the lunar month.

Chushuang said that she was going out to buy something, and she went out early in the morning.

After going to the most expensive restaurant and buying three sumptuous dishes, and going to the flower shop to buy chrysanthemums, she drove to the Mid-Levels Cemetery.

Winter in my hometown is not too cold, and there is still some sun today, but it is covered by clouds from time to time.

The cemetery was less deserted than usual, and people occasionally came to pay their respects.

But she came early, and there was no one in the cemetery at this time.

When she arrived at the tomb, Chushuang looked at the bouquet in front of her parents' tombstone and was a little stunned.

The flower is still fresh, either today or yesterday.

After walking a few steps, I went to my brother's grave, where there were also white chrysanthemums.

Looking up, there was no one.

Not for the first time.

I saw such a chrysanthemum in front of the tomb a few years ago.

This person used to come almost every year, and there was a break of two or three years in between, and the first frost almost forgot about it, and this year, the chrysanthemum appeared again.

I don't know which of my parents' friends it is.

Put chrysanthemums and lunch boxes in front of the tomb, and the first frost burns paper for them.

"It's the New Year again, so I brought you something delicious."

"It's still your favorite dish in that restaurant when you were alive, his business is so good, I made an appointment three days in advance."

Lowering her eyes and turning over the paper money to burn the paper seriously, her eyelids curled quietly, just letting time pass.

The paper money was burned, and there was a gust of wind in the garden, and the hair was slightly messy.

Pulling her hair behind her ears, Chushuang took out four bright red oranges from her bag and placed them in front of the grave one by one, and she sat next to her and peeled them and ate them.

"Ten years, but that's it."

The light tone of the wind blew and dispersed.

She looked at the trees in the middle of the mountain with vain eyes, which were growing toweringly, but they were a little depressed.

These trees weren't that big before.

"It's been ten years in a flash, and it's like a dream. I sometimes dream of playing on a swing in the yard, my brother pushing it behind, and my parents looking at it with a smile, and everything in the dream is bright, as if that is the real world. ”

"It's been a lot better in the past few years, I won't paralyze myself, and I can distinguish between dreams and reality."

"But when I was young," the oranges in his mouth had a salty taste, and Chushuang reached out to wipe away the tears on his face, and his voice was slightly choked, "When I miss you very much, I always feel that the world is very fake, everything is fake, and I can't wake up from a big dream, so I can't find you." ”

"It's boring, I thought."

"The day I decided to commit suicide, I dreamed of my brother, the person who doted on me and loved me so much since I was a child, scolded me that night to the blood, saying that he would never recognize me as a sister again......" Chushuang looked at the words on the tombstone, tears fell on the stone surface, and the damp circle was blurred, "How can a person with such a gentle brother scold, he must be too angry." ”

"Alas," she sighed slightly, "I'm still upsetting you when you're all down, I'm really a failure." I don't know if you told your parents about it later. ”

"Not anymore, Dr. Ann said I was a very self-healing person. In fact, most of the time I can make myself happy, I am not a sad person by nature, and I don't like to get caught up in emotions, you don't have to worry about me. ”

"By the way, Sheng Ting is very good to me, I like him a little."

In front of your parents, you can say something without pressure.

"We all want to live a good life, he is a reliable person, and my grandmother has a good eye."

After chatting with his parents for a while, Chushuang got up and smiled brightly: "Happy New Year, I still have to go to see my grandmother, and I will come to see you later." ”

Packing up everything, she descended the bluestone steps.

Today, I said that I was going to see Dr. An at the clinic, and the car turned around and drove away.

In a car in the parking lot, the man lit a cigarette and stared quietly in the direction she left, unable to distinguish his emotions.

——

When he arrived at the clinic, An Jingyu was having lunch, and when he saw the first frost, he put down his chopsticks and handed over a food box next to him.

"The dumplings across the street are good, I bought them for you, and you didn't have lunch, did you?"

First frost took a seat, "What filling?" ”

"Cabbage tofu, I know you've been a vegetarian for the past two days."

After taking apart the disposable chopsticks and taking a bite, she nodded, "It's really good." ”

"I heard you're married."

"Yes, it's been more than three months."

Looking at her, An Jingyu smiled: "It seems that you don't need to ask, he should be very good to you." ”

Chushuang raised her eyes: "You can also see this?" ”

"Well, you look happy."

Hatsufrost smiled.

After eating, An Jingyu took her to the psychotherapy room.

The room was simple and quiet, and he sat on the soft sofa and ordered a scented lamp on the table.

The dim yellow lamp and pleasant aroma are reassuring, and the first frost closes his eyes and takes a light breath, a little drowsy.

"Do you still have the idea of doing stupid things now?" The man's voice was slow.

She opened her eyes, a little amused.

"You have to ask me this question every time, it's a long time coming, I didn't lie to you."

An Jingyu: "You can feel at ease by asking every time." ”

"Do you have any particular people or things you want right now?"

She once said frankly that after healing the wounds of her loved ones' departure, she seems to have lost her worldly desires, she still has the ability to be happy, she is still optimistic, but she has no attachment, and everything is dispensable to her.

It's very Buddhist.

At that time, An Jingyu suggested that she find someone she had a good impression of, maybe a good relationship could be beneficial to her.

She also spent a long time looking for such people.

But most people don't want to know, and the process took about two years.

Later, I heard that she was finally in love, and An Jingyu was happy for her at first, but it didn't take long for the relationship to end.

On the day of the breakup, An Jingyu asked her if she was sad, and she said three words.

"It's boring."

He said it to himself.

She said a few things about how the man was, and more about facing her own heart.

[His fault may not have caused a breakup, it's because I'm too afraid of trouble, as if love is just like that, it brings a little different happiness, but that's about it. I found that I was not attached to this person, and he didn't like me, so it was better to end it early. 】

[I'm sorry, but I still haven't regained the ability you said.] 】

What she thinks is the most important thing in life has been lost, and there is no attachment, as long as she is optimistic and alive.

Whether it is study, work or material satisfaction, she has to get by, so she has become stingy with herself, and she doesn't like to get entangled too much with others.

Her parents left a huge inheritance, and when she was eighteen years old, she had the right to dispose of it and donated half of it to a charitable foundation.

said that she was a poor girl, and that money was the guarantee and confidence left to her by her parents, and even if she encountered a major change in the future, she could protect her for a while, and she could never donate it all.

Even if she didn't donate it, she didn't usually touch that money much.

Can you spend your parents' inheritance with peace of mind?