When Jingming was very young, he followed his father to carry out folk fire activities.

His father is the one who stepped on stilts and played Guan Gong.

is the protagonist of the social fire.

Jingming's father usually drinks three catties of liquor before playing Guan Gong, and for ordinary people, three catties of liquor is already considered lethal.

But for these Guan Gong actors who make a living from social fire, three catties of wine can make the villagers believe that he is really possessed by Guan Gong.

Jingming has always been very incomprehensible.

Obviously, a moment ago, he was an illiterate person who couldn't read big words, and he wouldn't be respected anywhere.

But after his face was covered with red paint, three catties of white wine went down, and his eyes were blurred, he became the object of the villagers competing to kneel.

"It's not me who they kneel, it's Guan Gong who I'm performing."

His father saw his doubts and explained to him.

When he was a child, Jingming looked up at his father and asked curiously, "Is there really a martial saint?" ”

"Nope."

This is the affirmative answer given to him by his father, who is the actor of Guan Gong.

"Martial Saint Yi Bo Yuntian, if he became a god, he wouldn't have watched us suffer, he would have come to help us a long time ago."

The father gave Jingming a seemingly absurd, but unexpectedly reasonable reason.

Jingming's little face was very entangled, "Then why do they still worship you, even your father can figure out the truth." ”

“……”

The father was dumbfounded, but he couldn't refute it

The father sighed and said something that a little child might not understand: "Don't stand outside the quagmire and criticize those who are already in the mire. ”

"They are...... Willing to be deceived. ”

Seeing Jingming's ignorant eyes, his father stopped talking, but continued to sigh: "You will understand when you grow up." ”

Jingming continued to ask, "If there are no martial saints, are there other gods?" ”

“……”

My father was silent for a long time,

"Remember, there is no god in this world."

"Not before."

"There won't be any in the future."

"And even if there were, what does it have to do with us?"

Jingming retorted: "He's a god, just a little thing that peeks out of his fingernails can make our lives a little better, right?" ”

"He's all gods, why do he still care about us ordinary people?"

Father asked Jingming with a word.

Jingming was stuffed for a long time.

The father continued, "Do you know why we live in pain? Because we are human beings, we have five emotions and six desires, there is pain, there is love, there is no suffering, and there is no suffering. ”

"What is God?"

"They don't have the pain we have, they don't be greedy, they don't get angry, they don't get jealous, they don't cry because of the suffering, even if they look down and see us by chance."

"What will happen?" Jingming raised his head and asked expectantly.

"There are only two outcomes."

"Or, they'll ignore us, just as we ignore the ants under our feet."

"Or, they'll stop and watch with curiosity like we do with ants, and then ...... Step on it without any burden. ”

“……”

When he was a child, Jingming didn't understand his father's words, he just looked at his father's hideous face that was tortured by three catties of liquor, and remembered this sentence deeply in his heart.

Years later.

Jingming took over his father's inheritance and played the role of a non-existent martial saint, stepping on stilts, drinking unpalatable liquor, and stepping over those who died of the plague.

Pray for them.

Even if his father died because of excessive drinking, he had to continue to live for a living.

Look at the man kneeling towards him.

Seeing the peasant woman crying bitterly, she had just finished scolding the injustice of heaven with her front foot, and pleaded with the martial saint to save their child with her back foot.

Seeing that the poor family couldn't eat, the poor peasants who also had to offer a bag of rice to "Guan Gong" on the day of the social fire.

Jingming felt that this group of people was stupid and pitiful.

So he deliberately broke his stilts on an important social fire occasion and lay on the ground drunk, deliberately showing his "mortal" side.

Let them understand...... There is no god in the world!

You are deceiving yourselves!

If you really want God, why don't you save your father?

If there really is a god, why is he so miserable when he plays God?

But no one believed it.

They only think that Jingming has not learned his father's skills at all, and has lost the ability to possess Guan Gong, and his father's death is not excessive drinking at all, but just ...... Completed the task given to him by Guan Gong.

Even, on the day of his father's death, the villagers also rumored that his father and Guan Gong died on the same day, which is ...... Fuck auspicious!

After that day, Jingming disappeared into his hometown.

Since then, no one has been able to drink three catties of liquor, and people who can still step on stilts to stay sober.

Jingming originally planned to die of old age in Daming Temple.

Until this day.

God, it really appeared.

As his father said, he kicked like an ant at a time...... took away Daming's stability, and also took away the last trace of bottom line in Jingming's heart.

"I want to become a god."

“……”

It's a dream in a cocoon.

is like a marquee, going through the first half of his life.

There are many things that he doesn't know as a part of Jingming's personality, especially why Jingming became a monk and why he did such things.

The marquee before death, and the new life after breaking the cocoon and being reborn, helped him solve many mysteries.

Jingming ruthlessly separated his five personalities, greed, anger, stupidity, slowness, and suspicion, because he wanted to become a god, and his father's sentence "God is inhumane" became the words that changed Jingming's life.

When playing Guan Gong, he saw a greedy landlord, an angry father, and a foolish peasant woman.

I have seen the Emperor Ming whose arrogance covers his eyes like a mountain.

and the suspicious nature of oneself.

Only by giving up humanity can we become gods.

Jingming didn't want to be the ant in his father's mouth, and he hated the stupid people who "killed" his father.

Even, after Jingming was ordained, he could see believers in the monastery who were as stupid as the villagers who bowed down to him at the beginning.

People, all the same.

Stupidity.

Ignorant.

Greedy.

Arrogant.

Suspicious.

Want to become a god...... That's what you have to do.

As a result, there is greed, hatred, ignorance, and suspicion.

Anger also finally understands why only he is the most special, because Jingming is not a person who likes to get angry.

His anger came from his father.

Because of the three catties of liquor like poison, the pain made my father's face become vicious all year round, like "anger".

He didn't hate the liquor.

It is not the ignorant prostrate who are angry.

He resented ...... This unjust world!

"Mi'er, since there is no god in the world, then we will become their gods!"

"Mi'er, raise the knife in your hand, cut him, cut them!"

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