Sheng Yu covered the corners of the quilt for her, and turned around to get the diary.

Then he sat down on the bed next to her, leaned against the head of the bed, and turned it over to look.

Sneaky and very open.

When I opened the diary, several pages were blank, and when I turned to the tenth page, I finally saw the handwriting.

[I lost the person I liked

It's uncomfortable

My heart hurts]

Only these three lines were written on the entire page, and there were signs of irregular smudging on each word, not only on the handwriting, but also on the margins with irregular traces of being soaked in liquid.

Sheng Yu's heart tightened when he saw it, and there was an undercurrent surging in the depths of his eyes, and his fingertips couldn't help but rub on the traces of smudging.

It must have been her tears.

In an instant, his heart seemed to be torn apart and hurt, and he suddenly felt a weight on his leg in the midst of emotional distress, it was Qin Sang who was sleeping and suddenly turned over, a white arm on his leg, and even held his leg to his side in his sleep, and continued to sleep soundly.

A greedy little action instantly dissolved the deep undercurrent in Sheng Yu's eyes.

The past cannot be changed.

Now that she was by his side, he would never let any more accidents happen between them this time.

He then flipped through the diary, page by page, of each of her emotional breakdowns over the years.

[I saw you on TV today, you are so handsome and stylish in a suit and leather shoes, you look different, and you don't seem to have changed]

……

[Sheng Yu, I saved up money and bought you a tie, which matches your suit that day, I really want to give it to you, but I never have a chance again]

……

[Sheng Yu, my mother's condition has deteriorated, and I can't do anything]

……

[The news in Hong Kong City is reporting that you have been seriously injured, so serious that your life is in danger, how can this be, how can this be......]

[Sheng Yu, you must be safe]

The whole page was filled with 'peace and security' written by her, and every word had traces of tears.

He looked at the date in his diary, which was the time when his injury was widely reported by the Hong Kong media.

[Sheng Yu, I have been queuing for a long time, and I have asked for the Buddha beads to protect your peace, you will definitely be fine, you must survive it,

I miss you so much...... Think about it, think about it......]

……

[In the news, there is less and less news about you, are you doing well?] 】

……

[Sheng Yu, my mother has left me forever, I really want to cry in your arms, I miss you so much, I want to go insane]

……

[Sheng Yu, my parents are gone, and I'm the only one left]

……

[I really want to go to you, Sheng Yu, do you remember me? ] Do you still want me]

……

[Sheng Yu, I have encountered a lot of bad things, I feel like I'm dying, I want to go to my parents.

But I really want to see you again......]

……

[I suddenly found that my eyes couldn't see clearly, and I was a little scared, but I didn't dare to go to the hospital, and I didn't want to go to the hospital. 】

[Will one day, you reappear in front of me, and I won't see you anymore]

……

[I'm the only one in the house, I'm so scared, I miss you again]

……

[Sheng Yu, will we meet again?

That's it, you're fine.]

[You are safe and sound]

……

The small notebook, Sheng Yu looked at it all night, and saw a heart beating suddenly, and the flesh and blood that was about to crack were blurred.

The fingertips trembled faintly and touched the traces that were soaked in her tears.

Almost every page has her tears in her eyes.

Turning the pages and pages, it was as if she had experienced every despair she had experienced over the years.

He desperately memorized every word she wrote, recorded every moment of her collapse to despair, and vowed to squeeze her collapsed memories out of his mind with beauty and happiness in the bits and pieces of the future.

He has to make up for all the grievances he has suffered for her little by little.

The morning sun shines through the gaps in the curtains.

Qin Sang, who had slept peacefully in the bed, moved his body and showed signs of waking up.

Her curled eyelashes blinked slightly, sleepy-eyed raised her hand to rub her eyes, slowly opened her eyes, and it was not this world that fell into sight first, but the man she loved.

I saw Sheng Yu lying sideways next to her, supporting his head with one hand, and touching Qin Sang's sleeping red face with doting eyes and spoke:

"Baby wakes up."

"Woo~~" It is rare to see him when he opens his eyes, Qin Sang groaned lightly and hugged his waist and arched into his arms, and when he raised his eyelids and looked at the man in front of him, he saw that his slightly reddened eyes seemed to have not slept all night, and hurriedly asked:

"Didn't you sleep last night?"

"Hmm." Sheng Yu didn't hide it, he lowered his head and kissed her face with a smile in his eyes: "I'm secretly looking at Sang Sang's diary." ”

Qin Sang's expression, which was still a little foggy, instantly sobered up at this moment, and his eyes widened in astonishment, but it seemed that she expected it, and when he saw the diary, she guessed that he would definitely find a chance to peek.

There wasn't really anything in it that he couldn't see, it was something he already knew.

I don't want him to watch it, but I just don't want him to relive the unbearable five years again, and I feel sorry for her again.