"Qin Feng, I have already left Bishan when you read this letter, don't go to the trouble of looking for me in vain, I said that if I leave, I won't let you find me."

"Coming to Bishan is just a temporary decision for me, work is secondary, and more is about relaxation. It had been agreed before I came that I would only stay here for two years, and now that the two years have passed, they will not allow me to stay even if I want to stay, and I must leave whether I agree or not. ”

"Of course, the biggest reason that made me insist on leaving was not them, but you."

"You like me, you love me, I can see that. You said you were going to marry me, and I was so happy because I found out that I was starting to fall in love with you too. However, there are some things that can be said, but they cannot be done, let alone taken seriously. ”

"You're twenty-five, I'm thirty-five, and by the time you're in the prime of life, you'll be gray-haired. I've been married, I can't have children, I'm not a good match for you, I can't give you a perfect home. ”

"I have completely despaired, even feared, about marriage and affection, and I will never have the courage to take that step in my life. And your youth, your life and the world that belongs to you have just begun, I can't delay you, let alone ruin you. ”

"A year and a half before Bishan, is the quietest and most peaceful period of my life, and you have come here for half a year, is the happiest and most wonderful half a year in my life, I originally thought that my life will be a black and white landscape painting, but I didn't expect your occasional stop here on my black and white paper left a striking color. That's enough for me. ”

"Yu Bishan, I'm just a passerby, and to you, I'm just a passerby in your life. After I leave, you may be sad and sad, but time will drown everything, just like the ancient city of Loulan in the desert, no matter how wonderful it once was, when the wind and sand blow, everything will return to memories. ”

“……”

Qin Feng held a letter in one hand and a cigarette in the other, sitting on the ground next to Hu Jiayun's bed, leaning his back against the edge of the bed, smoking one cigarette after another.

It was dark outside, and the room without lights became darker and darker, and it was getting darker and darker, and the dark room was quiet, only the cigarette in Qin Feng's mouth was emitting a little fire, reflecting his half-haggard face.

Time seemed to stand still, and for Qin Feng at this moment, time had no meaning.

I don't know how long it took, with a snap, the room suddenly became bright, and Qin Feng, who was blinded by the light, couldn't open his eyes, he stretched out his hand to block his eyes, and after getting used to it, he put down his hand and saw a woman standing at the door looking at him.

"Why are you here?" Qin Feng used all his strength to squeeze out a reluctant smile.

Hong Yue was very distressed when she looked at Qin Feng's haggard appearance and the cigarette butts that were about to pile up on the ground, put the lunch box in her hand on the table, and then walked over slowly, and gently took half of the cigarette from Qin Feng's hand and snuffed it out on the ground.

"Smoking too much is not good for your health. Let's eat something first! Hong Yue said softly.

Qin Feng nodded, stood up, walked to the table and opened the lunch box, which contained the food made by Hong Yue herself.

Qin Feng was eating, although he didn't have an appetite.

Hong Yue took a broom and cleaned up the cigarette butts that Qin Feng threw on the ground, and then sat beside Qin Feng and watched Qin Feng eat.

Hong Yue could feel the pain in Qin Feng's heart, and she could also guess that the relationship between Qin Feng and Hu Jiayun was not a sister and brother relationship. From the moment she entered the door and saw Qin Feng's painful appearance, she knew how much Qin Feng loved Hu Jiayun.

Although she was sad, Hu Jiayun had already left, and she couldn't let go of the man in front of her, especially at such a difficult moment for this man.

"It's delicious, the craftsmanship is good, but ...... I'm not too hungry. Qin Feng took a few bites, but he really had no appetite, and said to Hong Yue with some apologies.

"It's okay, I know you don't have an appetite." Hong Yue nodded.

"Thank you!" Qin Feng said gratefully.

"I ...... It won't comfort people......" Hong Yue said with some self-reproach.

Qin Feng smiled: "It's the greatest comfort that you can come over." ”

"I can see that you love her very much!"

Qin Feng didn't deny it, but said to Hong Yue with apologies: "I'm sorry! ”

"I'll tell my brother that I don't like you, and ask him to stop talking about me and you." Hong Yue gritted her teeth. She wanted to cry when she said this, but she held back.

Hong Yue's words surprised Qin Feng, and he had a lot of thoughts in his heart, and finally moved his lips a few times before he arrived: "I'm sorry, thank you too!" ”

"Since you can't eat it, then I'll go back first." Hong Yue stood up and packed up her lunch box.

"I'll send you." Qin Feng also got up.

"No, although Bishan is remote and backward, it is very safe." Hong Yue shook her head and continued, "You should rest early, don't smoke so much." ”

"Good!" Qin Feng nodded.

Hong Yue put away the lunch box and walked out, Qin Feng sent it out of the corridor, and watched Hong Yue leave with a flashlight alone.

From the moment Hong Yue turned around, she left Qin Feng with a strong back, but she had already burst into tears, and her breathing was a little painful.

That night, Qin Feng did not leave Hu Jiayun's house, nor did he turn on the lights.

Early the next morning, Qin Feng went back to his house to pack his things, and then rode a motorcycle to the dormitory that Hong Haifeng assigned to him last time.

Qin Feng walked into this dormitory, only to find that this is a dormitory, this is an apartment, two living rooms, one bedroom, one kitchen and one bathroom, the most important thing is that it is finely decorated, and all kinds of furniture and appliances are very complete.

Later, Qin Feng learned that this dormitory was also Chang Yong's before. At that time, in order to curry favor with Qin Feng, Hong Haifeng gave Qin Feng all the offices and dormitories left by Chang Yong.

Qin Feng glanced at this room and shook his head helplessly, Chang Yong's house was decorated like this, then Wang Yunfei and Xu Guoli's house standards must be higher than this.

Qin Feng heard Li Dejun say that the renovation of the leader's dormitory was made by Wang Yunfei with the 300,000 yuan left for road repair in Niujiaoshan Village.

Niujiaoshan Village has a road related to the lives and safety of all the people in the whole village because it has not been able to build it for more than ten years because of lack of money, but the township leaders live in extreme luxury, is this the biggest irony? Qin Feng suddenly had an inexplicable disgust for this room.

Qin Feng sighed, put his things into the room, and closed the door and went to the office without tidying up.