The diary began on the 12th birthday of its owner, Xue Zhao.

He is the most fond of reading in the whole welfare home, he is naturally sensitive to words, he is familiar with it quickly, and he doesn't even need the teacher to teach him deliberately, when he was a child, the dean taught him some words, and then he himself held a worn-out Xinhua dictionary and gnawed it, gnawed and gnawed, and most of the words could be read.

At that time, there was only one school in the town, and reading was expensive.

It was already very difficult for the welfare home to be able to barely support these children, and of course there was no extra money to send Xue Zhao to school.

Xue Zhao knew this, and although he also longed for the campus, he had never told the dean about such an unrealistic thing.

However, when he was 12 years old, the dean gave him a brand-new, leather-covered notebook.

The director of the orphanage encouraged him to create and to keep a diary.

It wasn't a particularly expensive birthday gift, but it was Xue Zhao's favorite.

He regarded the diary as a treasure, and recorded some trivial things about growing up in it, and recorded the growth journey with other friends in the welfare home.

It wasn't until the day of the winter solstice that his journaling style changed.

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[2051,12.17,Heavy rain]

[It has been raining heavily in the past few days, some children in the welfare home are sick, and the director goes to the town center to find medicine]

[The weather is very cold, the winter of previous years has always been dry, occasionally snow, never rain]

[I heard Aunt Cui say that there is not enough firewood in the welfare home, so I have to keep it for everyone to cook porridge, and I can't burn firewood for warmth]

[It's raining too much outside, so I can't chop wood]

[I hope the rain will stop soon]

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[2051,12.19,Heavy rain]

[The rain shows no signs of stopping, and the clouds in the sky are getting heavier and heavier]

[Little Peaches went to the kitchen to steal steamed buns last night when she was hungry, fell on the stairs outside, and fell unconscious in the rain, and when we found her in the morning, she had frozen to death]

[I'm very guilty, I'm sorry for Little Peach, although she always likes to play tricks on me, but there are delicious things that will always be shared with me, but when she asked me if I had eaten last night, I lied]

[I hid half of the bun under the pillow, if I gave it to her last night, she might not die]

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[2051, 12.23, heavy rain]

[It's still raining]

[Everyone's mood is very bad, everyone's communication is becoming less and less, I haven't seen the dean recently, the children who had a fever before have their fever subsided, I don't know if they have taken medicine]

[This rain has been falling for too long, I know what everyone is worried about, can't pick wild vegetables, leaves, can't hunt, and there are fewer and fewer things to eat in the welfare home......]

[The pen is also going to run out of ink, it's annoying, I have to go to the kitchen tomorrow to get some charcoal, and I mix it with water ......]

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[2051, 12.25, heavy rain]

[In order to cope with the non-stop heavy rain in the past few days, the dean went to the town in the rain to see if he could get something to eat back, and our meal was cut in half, and there was almost no rice in the rice soup]

[I didn't want to go hungry, so I drank several bowls of rice soup, and I woke up in the middle of the night by urine, and I wanted to go to the toilet, but I heard that the toilet was blocked because of the heavy rain, and the smell was terrible, and after thinking about it, I still decided to go downstairs]

[Downstairs, I saw the dormitory manager Bai's mother, she was standing alone in the rain, she didn't have an umbrella, I didn't know what she was doing, I greeted Bai's mother, she didn't seem to hear]

[I was uneasy and screamed a few times, but she finally turned around and smiled at me]

[I don't know why, when I saw that smile, I felt an indescribable fear, as if I ...... Standing in the rain was a stranger I never knew.]

[I ran back to the third floor in one go, solved the needs in the smelly toilet, and then got back into the bed]

[I didn't sleep that night]

[As soon as you close your eyes, it's the terrifying smile of Mother Bai]

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[2051, 12.26, heavy rain]

[The rice soup is thinner, and I can't drink as much as I want, but with last night's experience, I don't dare to drink more]

[After nightfall tonight, I tossed and turned in bed and couldn't sleep......]

[I'm scared, but I don't know what I'm afraid of]

[In my mind, I always hovered with the smile of Mother Bai last night]

[The roommate's snoring is also noisy]

[The rain seems to be heavier, and it is still thundering]

[I looked at the window, and suddenly remembered that this window was facing the yard downstairs, and I couldn't sleep anyway, so I got out of bed and came to the window to check the yard carefully]

[In the wind and rain, Mother Bai was still standing in that position, she lowered her head, not knowing what she was looking at......]

[In the past, Mama Bai was very kind and kind to us, and from time to time she would sit at the head of the bed and teach us to sing and tell us stories, but in recent days, I rarely seem to see her in the daytime]

[Out of curiosity, I kept staring at Mama Bai in the heavy rain to see what she was doing]

[But she suddenly turned her head to look at me]

[She smiled at me]

[That smile again]

[I was so cold that I sat in place, covering my mouth with my hands to keep myself from screaming]

[Mother Bai used to tell us ghost stories, saying that some ghosts can not move their bodies and turn their necks around]

[That's how she is now]

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[2051,12.27,Heavy rain]

[I don't know how I survived until dawn last night]

[After thinking about it for a while, I decided to tell Uncle Cai Quan about this, he is a security guard in the welfare home, and I heard that when he was young, he was a very powerful hunter in the town, and he once hunted tigers in the mountains]

[Originally, the uncle would not believe what I said, but when I told the uncle about it, the expression on his face changed a lot]

[He suddenly became very serious, and asked me if I had told anyone else about it, and if any other children had seen it]

[I said no, only myself]

[Uncle Cai told me not to contact Bai's mother these days, never leave the room at night, and don't tell anyone about this matter, he will deal with it]

[I believe in Uncle Cai, but I'm not a child anymore, his expression is very strange, obviously there is something to hide from me, but no matter how I ask, he says it's okay, let me not worry]

[Kashi's mother was very good to me, raised me from a young age, and taught me to read, although I was scared, but I didn't want Kashi's mother to be hurt]

[I must find out what happened to Kashiwa's mother]

[Tonight, I will follow him ......]

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pS: Good night!