Chapter 109: Guilt or Reluctance
Cheng Jingmo's eyebrows moved, and there was a hint of surprise in his soft eyes.
Probably because of his weak body, he spoke in a much softer tone than before.
"If you fall off a cliff and die that day, I won't live alone."
When he cut the rope that day, every knife seemed to cut his heart, and his heart was as distressed as if he had been stabbed two days ago.
But his mission did not allow him not to do so, and even he could not show panic and grief.
He had already prepared for the worst at that time, if Yu Xiangnian died, he was willing to accompany her.
Such a delicate person, the last time she let her wait for him on the cliff alone, she was afraid that she would be pushed down.
How could he rest assured that she would fall at the bottom of the cliff alone.
Moreover, he promised his parents who were too obsessed to take care of her, but he did not fulfill his promise.
He is sorry for Xiang Nian, and he is sorry for Xiang Nian's parents.
Yu Xiangnian laughed when he heard him say this, "Are you guilty or reluctant to me?" โ
Cheng Jingmo was silent for a while, "Both." โ
He is inferior in front of Xiang Nian.
He is a dirt bun who has never seen the world in her eyes, and he can't give her the same good conditions as her original family.
His family and background doomed him to only look up to her from afar and dare not approach.
In the past, he was able to restrain himself and keep his distance.
But now, he knows that he is not worthy, but he still wants to possess it selfishly.
Yu Xiangnian naturally didn't know Cheng Jingmo's inferiority complex.
She didn't know Cheng Jingmo's original family, she only knew that Cheng Jingmo was an outstanding person in the army, and he would become the commander-in-chief admired by all soldiers in the future.
The corners of her mouth were even bigger, and she wanted to ask Cheng Jingmo, "Do you like her?"
After thinking about it, forget it.
It should be the same as how she feels about him, he can't like it, it's just tempting.
Besides, Cheng Jingmo's muffled personality is already very surprising that he can answer "both".
If you continue to ask questions, I am afraid it will scare him.
This is just after heart surgery, and the heart is fragile, so don't stimulate him.
Yu Xiangnian smiled and said, "Then don't you work so hard when you perform tasks in the future?" I was stabbed last time, and I almost got stabbed to death this time, you have to think about your family, no. โ
Cheng Jingmo: "Hmm. โ
This time, if he didn't fight so hard, the spy leader would have run away.
It's been almost a year since they've been tracking down this spy organization, but this gang is too cunning.
He was exposed once in May, the last time he was stabbed.
Although three people were caught, the leader fled, and only the skin of the spy organization was injured.
It took more than four months to track down the group before it was discovered again.
After the last battle, this time Cheng Jingmo and the others made a more careful plan.
But these people fought for their lives with the idea of becoming benevolent if they didn't succeed, and everyone worked together to cover the leader's escape.
It was Cheng Jingmo who fought for his life to catch this leader.
Through later interrogation, it was learned that the gang was carrying stolen materials and was preparing to leave the country.
If we don't catch it this time, it will cause great harm to the country.
Yu Xiangnian asked again: "Why do you never hear you mention your family?" โ
Cheng Jingmo's eyes lowered and said: "They are all farmers, I haven't been back for so many years, and I don't know their situation." โ
"Oh..." Yu Xiangnian nodded, "Then when will we go back." โ
Cheng Jingmo's eyelids lifted, a bright light flashed in his eyes, and then dimmed, "Let's talk again." โ
Yu Xiangnian just said it so casually, he couldn't take it seriously, otherwise he would only be disappointed.
Besides, his family ยทยทยทยทยทยท
Although they chatted with each other, the corners of the two of them never pressed down until Yu Xiangyang came to deliver food and take over.
Early the next morning, Yu Jiashun and Zhao Ruozhu came to see him.
Cheng Jingmo said that he wanted to eat a bowl of wontons, and he would open it in Xiangyang.
Cheng Jingmo asked the same question again, "Dad, Mom, what is the name of the doctor who operated on me that day?" โ
Zhao Ruozhu didn't think much about it, "Experts in Beijing, I don't know what they are called." I didn't sign a word, I didn't say hello to anyone, I left after the operation, and I didn't know when I left. โ
Cheng Jingmo pondered for a moment and then asked, "Then have you seen what he looks like?" โ
"I only saw a back, not tall, very thin, and the military uniform seemed to be stolen on the body. I said at the time that Xiangyang was looking for such an unreliable person, but I didn't expect that he was really an expert! โ
Cheng Jingmo said quietly, "I haven't heard Yu Xiangyang mention it before, and he still knows experts in Beijing. โ
Yu Jiashun noticed that Cheng Jingmo's words today were a bit too much, and asked, "Is there anything wrong?" โ
"Nope." Cheng Jingmo said, "I just want to thank him." โ
Yu Jiashun said: "Don't think too much, take care of your injuries." โ
Ten days later, Cheng Jingmo was discharged from the hospital.
Yu Xiangnian took Xiaojie and cleaned the house yesterday.
During this time, Yu Xiangnian accompanied Cheng Jingmo in the hospital every afternoon, and the relationship between the two seemed to have progressed a lot, but there was an indescribable sense of imminent separation.
Especially, when the two of them meet their eyes, it is as if something that cannot be caught is gathered around.
Yu Xiangnian unilaterally believes that this is a manifestation of the ambiguous period between men and women.
If the two want to go further, they need an opportunity.
It just so happened that Cheng Jingmo said that there were two days left on Xiaojie's birthday, and he was going to take Xiaojie to the martyr's cemetery to see Xiaojie's father.
No, here's the opportunity!
She first discussed with Cheng Jingmo how to arrange for Xiaojie's birthday.
Cheng Jingmo didn't have a birthday, looking at Yu Xiangnian's smart eyes, talking about those bells and whistles, and muttering in his heart.
It doesn't matter what you mutter, just approve of it anyway!
Whatever Yu Xiangnian says, he must raise his hands in approval!
This is one of the qualities that a good husband should have when he listened to Xiang Nian in the hospital during this time.
Yu Xiangnian secretly looked for Xiaojie again, with a disdainful look, "Xiaojie, you will be eight years old soon!" Eight-year-olds don't dare to sleep alone! โ
Xiaojie naturally said strongly, "Who said I wouldn't dare to sleep alone?" โ
"Then why do you sleep with your uncle every night?"
"There are only two beds at home, I want to sleep alone, where does my uncle sleep?"
Yu Xiangnian squeezed his eyes at him, "What do you say?" โ
Xiaojie said vigilantly and incredulously: "Didn't you not let my uncle sleep with you?" โ
Yu Xiangnian opened his mouth and came, "You don't understand!" There must be an inspection period between husband and wife, and after the inspection period, they can sleep together. โ
Xiaojie: "ยทยทยท" I always feel that his aunt is uneasy and kind!
I can hear the eldest girl and Dong Jiannan say that their father and mother sleep in the same bed!
Xiao Jie was silent and said, "My uncle has an injury, what should you do if you kick his wound?" โ
Yu Xiangnian patted his chest and promised, "I promise!" Besides, you don't want to think that my legs are so long that I can only kick his legs if I want to. โ