It's April 1st, April Fool's Day.

Today's mood is too broken, my mind is messed up, so I take a day off.

Let me share with you some of the latest developments.

"Red Face Helps Me Prove Immortality", this book has had no new readers for nearly a month, and the data has become very poor and poor.

I went to ask the editor today.

"You are this because the conversion rate after your exposure is too low, so the smart push is gone."

"Hundreds are booked and only a few dozen are followed."

"It's too bad, it's a catch-up."

"It's equivalent to exposing you, and it's useless."

"It's too inefficient."

"I still have exposure in the background, but the amount is relatively low, mainly in the shelves and stacks."

“……”

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Roughly speaking, due to poor grades and follow-up, this book will not have traffic and exposure in the future, and the only few new readers at present are also from the library tags and book friends recommending books.

This means that the income is gone, only full attendance and a few hundred yuan of follow-up subscriptions, not even a few hundred.

The editor advised me to finish the new book.

Originally, I still didn't think it mattered, so I continued to write it.

Our book, at the beginning, did not achieve anything, and it was written slowly.

We have alliance leaders, there are many alliance leaders, many of them in book friend groups, post bars, Douyin...... Friends who push books everywhere.

It's a lot better to be transparent in our editing, but we're being eliminated from the market.

I've always been optimistic.

But what really broke me down emotionally was ......

For a long time, the biggest supporter of the author's writing -

Chenchen.

That is, Chen Chen in the pen name 'Chen Chen fought with you', the author's girlfriend and fiancée.

She doesn't support me anymore.

Due to too many realities, she also asked me to cut off.

Because people need to live, I am no longer a college student, I can do whatever I want every day, I need to earn money.

We had a big fight.

……

There's no way I'm going to cut the book.

This book has never been a tool for me to make money, but a story that I have done myself as a reader.

There's so much work I've put into it.

Especially Shuyue, Qinghuan, Auntie, Si He, and Sister Ning.

I told her she didn't understand.

I will cry when I write about Ningmei, laugh when I write about Qinghuan, and feel very warm when I write about Shuyue......

I said, "I want to finish these stories, and the people in the stories are important to me." ”

It's like the project I'm responsible for has been forced to stop, like an old man in the lab being kicked out of the Academy of Sciences.

But it's ridiculous.

Dreams are nothing in the face of reality, and the people in the book are just the people in the book.

She told me that even if I don't eat or drink the stories and characters I write, because I don't have traffic and readers, it will only be something I will read on my own.

Yes, I admit that I wrote very poor online articles, and the business rhythm was a mess.

But I absolutely don't admit that I write about characters worse than them.

It doesn't matter what others think......

Each of these characters is a real person to me.

In my dreams.

Shuyue will be happy and aggrieved, crying, shouting, and laughing: "Can I be with you for a long, long time?" I'll cook for you, don't bring anything back from outside to eat. ”

"What do you say Miss Leng and Qingci are doing now? Under the mountain? Or are you out and about? ”

Qinghuan will struggle hysterically and silently, will lean quietly by her side, will express herself clumsily and enthusiastically, expressing that she has nothing, this life is like this, some are all guarded and held, and if they are gone, they will be gone, she is all willing to bear it, and she is also immersed in enjoying all this.

Auntie will wake up early in the morning, be in a daze for a while, may laugh unconsciously, or may not, count the past days, look at today's tea, as long as everything is fine in this family, it will be fine.

Si He will be confused, will look at the family from afar, and want to get close to breaking in, will feel relieved and occasionally jealous, will try to become like them, to express himself, to take a step, to meet his own story.

Hongling will wear a bath towel, look quietly in the mirror in her room, and smile brightly and generously when she looks back at the window, maybe for this laughing and noisy Chu Hongling, she will also be very depressed when she is alone, what should the relationship between Taoist couples be? You can't just travel with two cultivators, right? Maybe something else? She had already thought of a new note, and maybe she didn't.

The mood was really broken.

I'm like a clown.

I think Gu Qinghuan, Chu Hongling, Si He, Aunt Shuyue, and even Zhang Jinyi, etc., everyone is shining.

But others don't see it that way.

I can only tell these things to the book friends who are reading this book, and to the people who have watched them change together.

……

My mind is messed up, and I don't know what I'm talking about.

It can only be guaranteed that the book will not be cut.

Definitely, definitely.

I had an anxiety disorder while writing this book, and for a while it was very severe, and I didn't stop updating it.

But now it's really a bit overwhelming.

Sorry, I need to take time off work to adjust my mood.

No decision will be made today.

About the future of the book...... You can only take one step at a time.

I might go out and find a job and earn money to support these stories.

But these stories are long, long.

The water is clear and shallow, the peach blossom robbery, the wind and dust, the sword wine poem, and the secret of longevity.

At present, it is less than half complete.

It may also shorten the content, dilute the main line, and leave the future story to the daily life of the heroines.

Because our heroine is already very good.

The stories are relatively perfect, and for me personally, as long as the stories belonging to Xiao Zhao's family are perfect, there are actually not too many regrets.

So you may choose this kind of route, which is mainly daily and small home, and completes all the extra routes.

But the plot can't touch the Xia Huang realm, and it always feels like there's too much missing, and maybe it can only be done with a foreigner.

In a word.

These are just some of the thoughts that the author has sorted out in his current state.

Really broken and helpless.

Take a day off.

In the next chapter, ten walks together to laugh at the little emperor, and then Tianxiang City ...... Slowly adjust the state and see what to do.

But what is difficult to change is that you really have to leave more shots and stories at home.

Whatever the reason, I want their stories to be intact, more, more.

I will not cut it by all means.

Certain.