075 Some questions about self-perception
About two hours later, Rika Fujimaru, who had thoroughly inspected the psionic operation of the Taylos Cathedral, returned to the Storm Frontier with Kellya and Ranmarok using psionic teleportation.
Ranmaroch is just here to excuse himself that he is going back to the Lion's Mane to preside over the scheduling matters. Rika Fujimaru had no intention of paying attention to whether their one-by-one operation would change during this mission, and the Dark Angel assured her that the city's defense mission would never go wrong, and she was sure that the outcome would be enough.
Kelia looked at it with a little curiosity, clearly interested in the setting, which was very different from the usual decoration style in the Empire. Fujimaru Rika found another vacant room near her room and settled her, and brought Koku to lend her temporarily as a guide on the ship. It took a moment for Kellia to accept the existence of such a living doll, the good news was that she didn't think in the direction of hating intelligence and the like of touching the red lines of the Empire, and the bad news was that she might have developed some misunderstanding of Chaldea itself as a result.
Rika Fujimaru was very uneasy and told her again and again: Asclepius would come later to make a further diagnosis for her, so that she could formulate an effective course of treatment, that the things in the room could be used as she pleased, and that if she was hungry, she would go to the cafeteria...... and so on, until Kylia was also annoyed, even so annoying that she could muster up the courage to push Rika Fujimaru out of the room directly.
The latter stood in the doorway and reflected for a few seconds, and came to the conclusion that "I may have become the appearance of Emiya's mother", and then shrugged his shoulders indifferently and turned in the direction of the main control room.
Unfortunately, it wasn't until she actually arrived that she remembered that Somny wasn't here now. None of the three men on board the Glory of Maculag returned as delegates, and were only allowed to send two communications. Now what exactly they are doing on the flagship of this fleet, I'm afraid only the parties and the regent know. In Somney's absence, it was Conrad Coetzes who took his place in the control room.
The Midnight Lord was originally made very clean. The meaning of this sentence is that even his last life is counted, and it may only be when he has just come out of the amniotic fluid tank, or when he has just been reshaped, that he will be cleaner than he is now. At the same time, he was even fiddling with the small portable star map projector on the console, studying the current battle situation as if it were on it, as if he were speculating about where the Midnight Lord's fleet was about to leap out of subspace, as if he were indeed going to take on the role of a "primordial".
Rika Fujimaru was sure that Koz had listened to what she had said so impassionedly on the Talon of Doom. But she had no idea what had happened between those words and the original ingrained preconceived notions in his head, and why he had become the way he wasβafter all, she couldn't even tell what Coetzes was "the way he is."
But you can't see anything like that. She circled around to Coetzes warily, reached for the projector the size of her palm (and the latter was at her fingertips), glanced at the other's expression, then looked down, changing the projection to match the situation the Emperor had shown her in her waking dream the previous night.
"I noticed that the doctor didn't come back with you." Kotz, who didn't look like he had left the main control room, said, "The number of Dark Angels has decreased, so naturally they have been deployed to the battlefield on the ground. But to let life-saving doctors leave you on such a battlefield? I don't think it's a wise choice. β
Rika Fujimaru glanced up at him in a little surprise because of this, and then moved her gaze back to the projector: "Just for now, those wounded soldiers and sick civilians need his strength more than I do. What's more, Asclepius won't stay on the ground forever, and when he has standardized the infirmary's procedures for fighting the subspace plague, he will be able to return to the ship from the planet's surface. β
Kotz was noncommittal: "I also noticed that you brought back a girl about the same age as Ling. β
"The Emperor has found her physique to be well suited to carrying his psionic energy." Fujimaru Rika didn't raise her head, "I have to intervene, otherwise she will become a corpse in fifteen days at most." β
"Maybe it won't take fifteen days, or maybe it's a hundred and fifty years." Kotz snorted, "Sometimes I really hate you - the future that was so clear that you could see it at a glance turned into a mess of uncertain futures. β
"Isn't that a good thing for you, because it can effectively control you to make stupid moves again according to the prophecy you read." At the end of a phase of work, Rika Fujimaru raised her head from the projector and looked directly into Coz's almost pure black eyes, "How do I think, you have been showing off your ability increase in these few words." β
"I'm just more aware of myselfβthanks to you, ma'am." Kotz deliberately picked up his tone, "In every sense of the word. β
"I have no doubt about that, but I'm afraid that your so-called 'recognizing yourself' just means that your thoughts have gotten into another bull's horn that ordinary people can't quite understand."
"I can't say, after all, I realize that I have never understood what you call 'ordinary people'. But what does it matter? With a cheerful smile that would be classified as a "horror scene" for anyone familiar with him, Coates suddenly said, "I just came to realize after thinking about it that 'people' are indeed complex and unpredictable, and that 'gods' are basically a bunch of bloodless and tearless bastards, and as for 'primordials', they are something sandwiched between the two." β
ββ¦β¦ It's a novelty. What do you want to express with this? β
"Which side do you think I was more inclined to look like before?"
"Every individual is different to me, so you are you."
"Flattering statement, but in front of me, it doesn't work." Coetzes shifted his position slightly menacingly, moving closer to Rika Fujimaru's direction, "I'm the 'Inquisitor', and the 'Inquisitor' doesn't need ambiguous answers, 'A', or 'B', you have to choose one." β
ββ¦β¦ Ay. Fujimaru Rika sighed heavily, "In a few hours at most, you'll have to meet your brother." Do you have to force me to say something nasty to you before such an important occasion? β
"I don't think it's a big occasion. We've never liked each other, and I don't like the ones my dear Lord Regent prefers...... Gentle and cumbersome tricks. β
"But the Empire will feel that this is an important occasion, and Mr. Robert will certainly make some compromises because of it." Rika Fujimaru was expressionless, "Do you think he would bring a credible outsider to record this scene?" β
"You can just ignore that. Say what you really mean, and you'll find out I'm not what I used to be. β
"It's better to be like this." Fujimaru Rika lowered her head again, looked at the star map in the projector, and began the next stage of correction, "Give me a little time to organize the language." β
The silence continued for about four minutes, save for the small click of the projector's buttons as they poked. After all the sorting and correction was over, Rika Fujimaru put the projector back on the table in front of her, sighed lightly, and then spoke without pause:
"If I want to judge, you used to be a 'monster'."
"'Monsters.'" Coetzes was surprisingly not angry, but chewed on the word with interest.
"That's right. Monster. 'Human' is a social animal, and many of the qualities that make a 'human' a human are not innate, but need to be acquired in society. But you are clearly missing the link of being taught by your parents, and Nostramo's society cannot teach you the right things.
"You have a sense of good and evil and a sense of justice from the emperor, and your paranoia about these things, combined with your great power, makes you look like a 'god' who is obsessed with strict justice and creates obedience through fear. But in fact, you are not God. God is a being who must adhere to his own rules even if he is self-destructive, and you can't do that.
"The Emperor didn't have such a cold and ruthless mind for you when he created the Primordial, and you will be questioning, weak, and terrified of the future you foresee. These are a necessary part of being a human being, a necessary factor that will enable you to better understand the thoughts of ordinary people, but they will lead you astray from the way of God. But your crippled mind makes it obvious that you can't be a 'human', and you end up stuck in the middle of either. β
Rika Fujimaru finished speaking, and silence returned to the main control room for a while. Surprisingly, and very commendablely, Coates himself wasn't discouraged by this series of tirade comments β Rika Fujimaru could see that he was a little angry, but he did suppress his anger and force himself to think about what the other person had said.
The Primordial's mind turned so fast that Coetze's thoughtful expression lasted almost for a second, and he sorted out his words: "Since the path of the 'monster' is impassable, what do you think I should become?" 'Man' or 'God'? β
Fujimaru Rika thought for a moment and replied, "'Primordial'." β
"That's an option that doesn't appear in the question." Koz looked a little annoyed again, but Rika Fujimaru was remarkable:
"But you're the original." She said, "You were born between man and God, and since you don't have the ability to get close to either side, why don't you just make a way out in the middle?" Besides, that's what you did. β
Coetzes, strikingly, doesn't seem confident at this point: "I 'could' fail. β
"Failure is the mother of success. Take it as a lesson to remember and tell yourself that it's wrong. Fujimaru Rika said nonchalantly, "Someone once told me that a true warrior is not someone who has never failed, but someone who has failed hundreds or thousands of times and can get up again and attack the same goal." You're the primordial, and you've got a lot of life to do. β
After she finished speaking, she turned around twice in place, silently counting what she was going to do next, and finally reached out and picked up the star map projector that had been put back on the table, stuffed it into her pocket, and then turned around and left the main control room.
"Don't forget, we'll have to meet Mr. Robert later." She finally dropped the sentence and left the room.
Miwoo (none).
In fact, this paragraph, it was only after the plot stepped on the accelerator that I remembered to step on it too much, and before the flash of Parmenho, there was originally a night conversation between Coz and Sevita (?). Story. If you want to see it, I'll pick it up, and wait for the whole thing to come out one day.
In addition, there was originally a story of Lixiang and the bat cubs betting on the traditional card game of Nostramo, but I really didn't find what the rules of that thing should be used for a long time, and I forgot about it when I looked for it. If you want to see it...... (Shut up)
(How did you start using a loan to delay the progress of the plot)
Stop! Impossible! The biggest problem with playing Yu-Gi-Oh is that I'm not a card guy!
(End of chapter)