He said in a light tone: "...... Everything has been done, what is there to regret. ”

That's how he replied.

But then I dreamed back every time I was midnight.

Gu Changce was alone in the study, knocking on the door of his heart over and over again.

..... Does he really have no regrets?

When he was young, he wanted to hold the best things in the world in front of Shen Zuihuan.

He wanted her to be happy every day.

But now, all of Shen Zuihuan's heartbreaking hearts and livers are caused by him.

If I hadn't done that.... If you don't do that....

Could she be a different person now?

At the beginning of the tenth year of Motogaku.

Because of the perennial depression in his heart, Shen Zuihuan's body became thinner and thinner.

Her back was as thin as a piece of paper, and when she put on her plain clothes, she looked like a small bamboo that had just broken through the ground.

As soon as the wind blew, it was about to break.

Gu Changce felt sorry for her, and often let the small kitchen in the house stew warm soup and send it over.

I am afraid that she will feel uncomfortable when she learns that she ordered someone to do it.

So these things came in the name of the Lan family.

But even so, Shen Zuihuan couldn't eat much in the end.

But fortunately, at the end of March of this year.

Lin Yi'an came to see her once.

She told her about her mother-in-law in Guangchuan, Lin Yi'an's mother's name is Huo Hanlian.

She used to be the lady of the Chungkoku Mansion.

She took a fancy to Lin Yi'an at a glance, her father who had not yet gained fame and was innocent.

So despite the dissuasion of his family, he resolutely married him.

Later, she followed her father all the way to the sparsely populated Guangchuan.

This is a couple in distress.

didn't expect that within two years of loving life, her father was tired of her mother.

and remarried two beautiful concubines.

Two sons were born.

And Lin Yi'an, who is the eldest daughter, is also living day by day.

Her mother couldn't get out all day, and now she is only in her thirties, and she has been sick for a long time.

It's been a mess all day.

When she said this, she had a blank expression on her face, and even took a piece of pastry in her hand and ate it casually.

Lin Yi'an told her that the original intention was to tell her that all men in this world are the same.

As long as he wants to take a concubine, you can't stop him even if you put a knife on his neck.

Besides, Master Gu is good to her, Lin Yi thought with peace of mind.

After thinking about Shen Zuihuan's face for so many years, he has never included his outer room in the door, which can be regarded as the friendship of their childhood sweethearts.

Thinking like this, she gently patted Shen Zuihuan's hand.

Said meaningfully: "No matter what, the children are there, and this life has to go on, right?" ”

She meant to persuade her to want to open a point.

Unexpectedly, Shen Zuihuan heard her words, his expression was in a trance for a moment, and his eyes suddenly lit up.

She muttered, "..... Yes, you're right, life has to go on. ”

“...... I can't go on like this..."

She suddenly lifted her pale eyes.

Keep an eye on the girl in front of you.

The plain white wrist raised slightly and held her palm.

Shen Zuihuan said in a firm tone: "Yi'an, I want to leave!" ”

...... After so many years of tormenting each other, they can't go on like this anymore!

Even if Gu Changce doesn't like her, is there only one man in her life?

Thinking like this, her heart suddenly relaxed.

It was as if the dark clouds that had been bothering her for a long time had suddenly disappeared in front of her eyes.

When the words fell, Lin Yi'an's fingers trembled.

She looked up at her in disbelief, her apricot eyes widened slightly, and she explained, "..... That's not what I meant...."

But where can Shen Zuihuan listen to what she said now.

She sat at her desk and wrote a letter of resignation.

Seeing this, Lin Yi'an was afraid that this disaster would lead to him.

hurriedly found a reason to say goodbye and went home.

Don't wait for this and the book to be handed over.

I waited for the news that Gu Changce was sent by the emperor to quell the border rebellion on behalf of the county.

This is not something that can be achieved in a moment.

She was afraid that he would be distracted on the battlefield, so this and the book were only temporarily hidden in the drawer box of her desk.

Didn't take it out.

Thinking about it, after Gu Changce came back this time, the two might have nothing to do with each other.

She rarely went to Kongshan Temple with peace of mind and asked for a jade pendant that Master Xuanrin had opened for him.

Every day, he quietly took his own small carving knife and carved all the scriptures on it one by one.

In the end, it was handed over to the shopkeeper Tang of the Treasure Pavilion, hoping that he could make a silver jade buckle suitable for wearing on people.

Shopkeeper Tang recognized Gu Changce, so he naturally recognized her and listened to her orders.

Nodding his head hurriedly, he said, "I will definitely satisfy Madame." ”

Hearing this, Shen Zuihuan instructed some of the details he wanted.

At the end of the day, she secretly thought about the next day in her heart, thinking that Gu Changce would be able to come back by mid-June at the latest.

So she said to the shopkeeper Tang: "I came to pick it up in person on June 21, and it will trouble the shopkeeper." ”

Shopkeeper Tang hurriedly waved his hand and said, "Madame is polite." ”。

After doing these things, Shen Zuihuan walked out of the door of the Treasure Pavilion, only to feel that his mood was suddenly enlightened.

That night, when I had dinner, I even drank a whole bowl of porridge, and I was very happy to the autumn geese waiting on the side.

On the day Gu Changce set out on the expedition, she ran to the city gate to see him off.

plucked up the courage to say to him: "Gu Changce, when you return this time, I have something for you." ”

Actually, it's two things.

and the book with the silver jade buckle.

...... Even after the separation, she hopes that he will always be safe.

You can take care of Gu Tang, or you can.... Marry your true sweetheart.

And she.... can finally let go of the obsession when she was young, and let go of the things that have broken her for so many years.

At that time, after Gu Changce heard this, he didn't have a big reaction.

He just whispered to her, "Okay." ”

But Shen Zuihuan was still very happy.

She sincerely hoped that he would come back safely.

After Gu Changce left, she always wanted to get closer to Gu Tang.

But for so many years, she felt that she had never fulfilled her responsibilities as a mother, and now she had no face to see her.

Every time I walked to the door of Gu Roujia's courtyard, I was always embarrassed to go back again.

That month was the most leisurely month Shen Zuihuan had in the past few years.

What love can't be, what other people's eyes are, now she doesn't care about it.

She thought about it, and her appetite naturally improved.

Seeing this, Qiu Yan thought about the law and instructed the small kitchen to make her all kinds of soups that replenished qi and blood.

raised all the meat she had lost weight.