Su Wan's mind became heavy.

Intuitively, something big happened to Gu Beixian.

It was so big that even Gu Aoting was nervous.

Su Wan nodded at him, "No matter what happens to Beixian, I won't divorce him." When I married him six years ago, he was in a wheelchair and had no hope in sight. At worst, that's not the worst. ”

"That's different, six years ago your family was destitute. Now you are the daughter of the Lu family, famous, rich and with a background, and you have a lot of objects to choose from. ”

"Your worries are unfounded. We young people are different from you, we don't pay as much attention to background and family background as you, and we are not as realistic as you. ”

If these words were left in normal times, Gu Aoting would not like to hear them.

But now, listening to his ears, it is like heaven.

He bent his eyes and said three times in a row, "You are such a good boy, my old lady is not wrong." Go find the North String, that kid must have been thinking about you. ”

Ordinary words, but Su Wan listened to it heartache.

She hurried out the door and went downstairs.

Get in the car and say to the driver: "Go to Suhewan." ”

Along the way, she thought of many possibilities.

But Gu Beixian was so well disguised that she couldn't guess.

Come to Suhe Bay.

It's a beautiful place, a quiet environment, and away from the downtown.

In the entire villa area, there were very few people, and along the way, Su Wu didn't see a few people.

Find the six buildings where Gu Beixian lives.

Su Wan said to the bodyguard guarding the gate, "I'm looking for Gu Beixian." ”

The bodyguard knew her and opened the door to let her go.

Su Wu walked through the courtyard and walked to the front of the building.

The door was not closed tightly, and a crack flickered.

Su Wan gently pushed open the door and walked in.

I saw Gu Beixian standing in front of the floor-to-ceiling window, facing the window.

The long and tall back is straight, lonely, cold, like a cedar that has been silent for thousands of years on the top of a high mountain.

Su Wu held her breath and shouted, "Beixian." ”

Gu Beixian's body froze, and he quickly turned around, a trace of surprise flashed in his eyes, and he wanted to laugh, but he smiled reluctantly.

Today's laughter, for him, is just an expression, not a mood.

Su Wu's pestle didn't move there.

felt that Gu Beixian was unfamiliar.

He has a very cold feeling, he used to be cold, but there are fireworks, and now he is like a big Buddha who has no desires and no desires, and does not eat fireworks in the world.

It's obviously smiling, but his eyes are indifferent

Su Wu panicked, feeling that something was wrong with him.

Gu Beixian raised his feet and walked over to her, "Why are you here?" ”

Su Wu looked at him with wet eyes, "Why did you lie to me that you were on a business trip?" ”

Gu Beixian pursed his lips and was silent.

Su Wan stepped forward and hugged his waist, "What's going on?" ”

"Lao Gu didn't tell you?"

"I didn't ask, I want to hear it yourself."

Gu Beixian didn't make a sound, just raised his hand to stroke her beautiful long hair, his eyes were deep and silent.

The slender and good-looking fingers, trembling slightly, are a side effect of taking medicine.

Su Wan stood on tiptoe to kiss him.

Gu Beixian lowered his head, closed his eyes, and went to greet her kiss.

kissed it, but Su Wu felt that this kiss was wrong.

His lips were cold, and the kiss was a little perfunctory, without emotion.

Su Wu felt a little uncomfortable, "Don't you love me anymore?" ”

Gu Beixian pulled the corners of his lips and made a smiling expression, "No." ”

"But you don't feel right to me."

Gu Beixian leaned over, put his chin on the top of her head, and said very calmly: "No matter what I become, you have to remember that I love you, very much." ”

But the hot love was sealed by the drug.

All emotions are suppressed, and people become colder and duller than usual.

Laughter is pretended, love can't be hot.

If you don't take medicine for treatment, your mood will fluctuate, either manic or depressed, wandering between heaven and hell.

Seeing that he refused to speak, Su Wu pulled out of his arms.

Walking around the living room, rummaging non-stop.

Finally, in the cupboard next to the water dispenser, I found a bunch of pill boxes, lithium carbonate, risperidone, lamotrigine, sodium valproate, etc.

She picked up a pill box, opened it, and read the instructions.

It is written in black and white that the drug is suitable for both acute and chronic schizophrenia......

The words that follow become blurred.

Su Wan's hand holding the manual was shaking.

Sometimes, things are too big, too unexpected, and people don't have time to react.

Su Wan's brain crashed, and it was blank.

I don't know how long it took, Gu Beixian's voice came from behind him, "I'm sorry for hiding from you." I wanted to wait for a while and tell you the truth. ”

Su Wan was like a person in a dream who had been woken up, her heart beat suddenly, and she hurt sharply.

"What the hell is the disease?"

"Bipolar disorder, also known as manic depression, is medically known as bipolar disorder, alternating episodes of mania and depression."

Su Wu's heart was full of cold snow.

From the top to the bottom.

The drowning sensation spread throughout the body, and I couldn't breathe.

She clearly remembers that when she was in college, she had a roommate who was sick with this disease, and finally committed suicide.

There are also Van Gogh, Hemingway, Haizi, Sanmao, etc., without exception, all of whom died by suicide.

This bipolar disorder, known as the "genius disease", has the highest suicide rate.

She suddenly turned around and grabbed Gu Beixian's hand and grabbed it very tightly.

It hurt to scratch my hands.

It was as if he would disappear as soon as his hand was released.

"Why is this happening?" Su Yu's teeth were trembling, and she could clearly hear the gurgling sound.

Gu Beixian gently touched her delicate face, "Don't be afraid, it's not as serious as you think." I had it when I was four years old, I was treated for two years, and then I stopped taking the drug, and I haven't relapsed, just like a normal person. ”

"Is it because I'm relapsing this time?"

"It's not just that there is a disease, and it is easy to relapse when irritated, and I don't blame you."

Su Yu buried her head in his arms, her shoulders trembling slightly.

I felt so guilty in my heart.

It's sad and heartbroken.

Gu Beixian raised his arm and wrapped her in his arms, "Don't be afraid, you see I don't have anything to do now, and my mood is very calm." As long as you cooperate with the doctor to take medicine, do psychotherapy, and have a good rest. When the condition is stabilized, you can slowly reduce the dosage in the future, and finally stop the drug, and you will be fine. ”

Su Wu restrained her emotions, raised her head, and smiled sweetly at him, "It's going to be okay, our brother Xian is so powerful, and you can't do anything about the disease." ”

Gu Beixian smiled, "The little mouth is getting sweeter and sweeter." ”

Su Yanran, "I am not only sweet, but also shine." From now on, I'm going to be your little sun. ”

Gu Beixian hooked the corners of his lips and deepened this smile, "Say you're fat, and you'll gasp." ”

Su Wu said a little domineeringly: "I'm not only breathing, I'm sticky." From now on, I will stick to you inseparably and not be annoyed by me. ”

If it was placed in normal times, Gu Beixian's heart would be warmed by her.

But now he was emotionally sluggish, and he could only make a moving expression.

He pressed her into his arms and whispered, "My actions may gradually become strange, my emotions will be capricious, and anything can happen." If you can't stand it and want to leave, tell me in advance, don't leave without saying a word. ”

Su Yu curled the corners of her lips and smiled, "Who do you think of me?" Am I the kind of person who is ruthless and unrighteous? ”

But my heart is sour.

Tears suddenly reached his eyes.

Afraid of being seen by him, she buried her face in his arms and rubbed tears on his clothes.

called Shen Yuan to explain.

Su Wan stayed and accompanied Gu Beixian.

Whether he eats or sleeps, she accompanies him.

Because of the medication, he was surprisingly quiet and emotionally calm.

It's not like a young man in his twenties, ruthless, clueless, and unwavering.

Su Wu felt heartache to watch.

It's not as good as when I was in a wheelchair before, when I lost my temper, but I had flesh and blood.

Night.

After the two washed up, they lay on the bed.

Gu Beixian took the medicine and soon fell asleep.

Su Wu couldn't sleep.

Turning off the lights and lying in the dark, she stared at the ceiling in a daze, in a daze.

I don't know how long it took.

Suddenly, there was a very light footstep outside the door, "Knock knock." ”

Footsteps are getting closer.

"Click."

The door was pushed open from the outside.

There was no light in the hallway, it was pitch black, and it was impossible to see the faces of the visitors.

Su Wu lifted the quilt and jumped up.

As soon as he grabbed the glass bottle on the bedside table, he rushed towards the visitor.

The bottle is filled with itchy powder that can make life worse than death.

Before she could reach her, a chill suddenly appeared on her neck.

Then a thin blade came to her neck.

The visitor whispered, "Who are you?" ”

It's Qin Ye.

Su Wan grabbed the tickle powder hand and hurriedly withdrew it, "It's me, brother, Su Wu." ”