Chapter Fifty-Eight: Life is like a mustard, and the heart is sad
That night, Xue Ning lay down on her bunk to rest under the care and arrangement of the steward Mama Li, and there were two palace maids who were slightly older than her who slept next to her.
Xue Ning didn't talk much about the other palace maids when she first arrived, in order to get familiar with the work as soon as possible and avoid causing chaos in the palace, she was careful in everything and paid attention everywhere.
The housekeeper Mama Li was resting in another room, and the two little palace maids, one named Ah Zi and the other called Bing'er, couldn't sleep, so they lay there whispering.
Bing'er said, "Sister Zi, I'm so scared, I can't sleep." ”
"What are you afraid of?" asked Ah Zi calmly.
"Sister Ah Zi, I don't understand, are you pretending to be confused or are you really confused, there are so many strange things that have happened in the palace recently, don't you know?"
"I know, but what can we do? Our lives are like mustard, even more insignificant than those concubines, who are still unable to protect themselves in this palace, let alone us ants.
However, Bing'er, don't worry, the strange things that have happened in the palace recently are nothing more than the palace people who have been favored by the emperor have all disappeared magically.
Although these things are terrifying, if you think about it, what do you have to do with us palace maids? I don't know if the demons and monsters who hide in the shadows and kill people are staring at those jealous concubines.
Maybe the murderer is not a demon or a monster at all, but a living person.
Bing'er, as long as we are honest and don't think about those things that are wrong, I don't think bad luck will naturally befall us. In order to comfort Bing'er, Ah Zi plucked up the courage to say.
"Sister Zi, what you said seems to have some truth, but I am still very scared, as soon as I close my eyes, a black shadow seems to appear in front of me, stretching out his hands to grab me. ”
Bing'er is free and timid, so after Ah Zi's persuasion, she is still nervous.
"Come on, Bing'er, if you're really scared, come to me, let's sleep together. Ah Zi said understandingly, "Really, how can you be so timid, you can't compare to a little girl, look at the new boyish Xue Ning, don't you sleep well?"
"Yes, Sister Zi taught me a lesson, but the old saying says that people are big ghosts, newborn calves are not afraid of tigers, she is quite bold, today there is such a big thing happened to the little brother, the people who stayed next to me at the time were frightened, I and you and the grandmothers are at a loss, I don't know how to rescue, but you look at how calm the little girl is, how calm, she actually reached out in danger and saved the little brother, don't you say, this little girl is really a noble person in the life of the little brother. ”
The two of them whispered, Xue Ning listened to it in her ears, and couldn't help but be happy, but when she heard the two of them talk about the terrible things that had happened in the palace recently, Xue Ning was also a little frightened at the moment.
In the dark night, as long as she closes her eyes, her eyes seem to recall the scene of the night when she met the wolf demon with the fox demon father by the river.
Where is the fox demon father now, she wants to know more, she hopes that the fox demon father and her sisters can be killed and escape from the clutches of those wolf demons, but she feels that her hope is very slim.
If it weren't for the murderous fox demon who was so cruel, how could my mother and a few sisters lose their lives, and how could Zimo's family die in the fox hole?
Those man-eating wolf demons were tall, with bloody mouths and a pair of cold eyes, as long as she thought of those ghostly eyes, Xue Ning felt that the fox fur all over her body was going to stand up.
She was so scared that she covered her head with a quilt, but Rao was so, it still didn't help, the thoughts of her mother and her deceased sisters, let this little demon fox who had been away from home for many days, wandering, and missing the fox demon father, came from it, in the dark night, she couldn't help crying, and the low sobbing sound quietly sounded in the lonely room, which made people feel distressed.
Xue Ning's tears are blurred, her mind and eyes seem to appear in front of her mother's cordial appearance, she wants the fox demon father, but she wants to be more motherly, her mother is charming to her on weekdays, everything depends on her and let her spoil her, so that all the sisters are jealous of her, she fully understands the love and spoiling of the nine-tailed fox mother to herself, but now the mother is killed by the wolf demon alive, and her soul is scattered, since then, she has never had the opportunity to see each other, so how can she not be in pain.
She is also a child, is a child who longs to get the love of the mother, today, when she saw the queen mother holding the little brother, the little brother is so pampered, tears in the eyes, moved a mess, how she envied the little brother, although he is just an ignorant baby, but there is a mother who holds him tightly in her arms, kisses him and hurts him, nervous for him, and the soul is not reluctant.
But what about himself, since then, he can no longer experience this kind of strong family affection and maternal love, as soon as he thinks of this, Xue Ning, who is sad, can't help choking, and tears wet the pillow.
"Silly boy, my sister praised you just now, why did you cry again in the blink of an eye? Are you homesick or do you miss your relatives at home? Or are you scared?"
The kind-hearted Sister Ah Zi heard Xue Ning's low sobbing voice, put on her clothes again and sat up, and asked Xue Ning with concern.
"Hey, sister, we all thought she was asleep, but we didn't expect her to hide in the bed and cry.
Sister Xue Ning, I'm sorry, it's all my sister's bad, I shouldn't have talked nonsense just now, it scared you, you don't have to be afraid, those are all hearsay from my sister, and I can't believe it, so please don't take it to heart.
Our sisters are blessed to live here with the queen, so they are naturally safe.
My master is gentle and virtuous, and he treats people very kindly, you will slowly realize this in the future, okay, Xue Ning, don't cry, if you still feel scared, you might as well sleep with your sisters. ”
Bing'er mistakenly thought that Xue Ning was afraid of her nonsense, so she was busy apologizing and comforting Xue Ning.
Xue Ning was quite touched by the kindness and benevolence of the two sisters, she embarrassedly got out of the bed, showed a delicate little face, and explained, "Xue Ning made the sisters laugh, and I won't tell you that I am homesick and miss my mother and father." ”
Ah Zi learned that Xue Ning was crying because she missed her relatives, she couldn't help but feel a lot of emotion, she lifted the quilt, got out of bed and put on her shoes, walked to Xue Ning's bedside, sat at the head of Xue Ning's bed, and talked to Xue Ning about her life experience.
"Little sister, we are all hard-working people, why should we have known each other, I am the same as you, why don't I miss my hometown and relatives?
To tell you the truth, I haven't been back to my hometown for a long time, and home has gradually blurred in my mind, and I don't even remember the way home.
And my mother is even more blurred in my memory, I am homesick, but I can't imagine a complete home and a familiar relative's voice and smile. ”
"Why doesn't my sister remember her relatives at home?" Xue Ning asked curiously and sympathetically, her life was hard and she lost her nine-tailed fox mother, but at least her mother's kind and beautiful image, no matter when she recalled it, she would vividly appear on her eyebrows and heart, but this Sister Azi, why is it that even the shadow of the relatives she misses is blurred?
"Sister Xue Ning, I have been poor since I was a child, my father and mother gave birth to a few girls in a row, and the family is really difficult to support me, so they gave me to a distant cousin of theirs, when I left home, the age seemed to be only four or five years old, I vaguely remember that my mother was reluctant to abandon me, and gave me away, she cried and leaned on the wood door in pain.
The distant cousin took me away and named me "Brother Zhao", and sure enough, after two years, my adoptive father and adoptive mother added another boy to their family, and since then, my life has become even worse and very sad.
Because they have their own flesh and blood, they no longer love me, a foreign girl, and beat and scold me at every turn, and always dislike me for eating family food, which adds to the burden on the family.
Seeing that my adoptive parents no longer loved me, I thought about running away and returning to my own home, but I didn't think about it, and after escaping for a while, my adoptive parents found me and chased me back, and they were angry and beat me with sticks, scolding me for being ungrateful, and trying to run away if I didn't repay the kindness of my upbringing.
From then on, I lived in that loveless and dead home, and I became a faithful servant to my new brother and the whole family, washing and cooking for them, making beds and quilts, sprinkling the yard, and working in the fields.
Nevertheless, when I was thirteen years old, they ruthlessly sent me to the palace, and after that, I heard that the war had caused a change in my family, and that my adoptive parents and younger brother had died in a foreign land.
Since then, I have been as deep as the palace gate, and I have never returned to my hometown to visit my relatives.
After many years away from his hometown, reminiscing about the past has gradually become a dream. Ah Zi said sadly.
"Sister Ah Zi, I didn't expect your background to be so pitiful, we are all hard-working people, from now on, in this palace, I will treat Sister Ah Zi and Sister Bing'er as my own sisters. ”
Xue Ning obediently snuggled up to Sister Ah Zi, feeling the warmth transmitted from her body, and her heart felt like reliving the sweetness and warmth when she was with her sisters in the past.
"Come and sleep, Sister Xue Ning, let's squeeze in with Bing'er tonight, and it's not too late to sleep alone when you're familiar. Ah Zi was kind enough to invite Xue Ning over.
"No, sister, I understand your kindness, Xue Ning is not a timid person, sisters, sleep at ease, you have to start work very early tomorrow."
I can do it by lying alone. Xue Ning knew that she was a fox demon, and she was afraid that if she had hysteria at night and had a lazy attack, it would be really bad to expose her fox tail.
"Look, Sister Ah Zi, Sister Bing'er, our bed is really narrow, and it's already very crowded for two people to lie together, Sister Ah Zi, you can stay with Sister Bing'er tonight, I don't have to worry about you. After speaking, Xue Ning hurriedly lay down, pulled up the quilt, closed her eyes obediently, and pretended to sleep.