After sitting in front of Xu Zhihan's tomb for a while, the sun was no longer as bright and dazzling as before, but it struggled out of the gradually accumulating clouds, still with a gentle warmth.

Su Chengyi's gaze swept over the tombstones, and as time passed, many stone tablets had been eroded by wind and frost, and even the name of its owner had become blurred.

"Shu Wang"

Su Chengyi stopped, looking at these two words that had obviously been wiped and caressed repeatedly.

It's a nice name, with a gentle and gentle temperament.

Although there was no photo attached to the stele, Su Chengyi felt that he could almost imagine what she looked like.

After all, Chen Jinzhi said that she looks more like her mother.

In this way, Chen Jinzhi's name is probably also given by his mother.

Jin Se gratuitously fifty strings, one string and one pillar Si Hua Nian.

Before the college entrance examination, Su Chengyi was brought here by Chen Jinzhi.

She said that every time she wanted to talk to her mother, she felt that she couldn't hold on anymore and wanted to give up.

She knelt here and asked her relatives the question she didn't know how many times she had thought about:

If death is a bad thing, then why would you make that choice? If death is a good thing, then why don't you bring me with you.

Su Chengyi said, because this world is not so good that people don't want to leave, and it is not so bad that people want to leave immediately. She's seen enough of the bad in this world, but still wants you to see the good that she doesn't see.

Then Chen Jinzhi said that she saw it, so she brought him here and let her mother see it too.

The moonlight was clear, and she smiled gently.

Su Chengyi always felt that this time was to meet his parents.

The subsequent meeting with Chen Wende, of course, does not count.

Su Chengyi really had a bit of murderous intent towards Chen Wende at that time, after all, this person really deserves to die, and it is difficult for people to think about the consequences when they are emotional.

Fortunately, the last reason in his mind at that time reminded him that finding Chen Jinzhi was the most important thing.

Fortunately, she was fine, but now that I think about it, I am still a little afraid.

Su Chengyi was silent for a long time, forcibly blocking his thoughts.

The weather is so good, I don't want to mention scum.

Chen Jinzhi was willing to bring him to Shu Wang's tomb, and he must have made a lot of determination.

After all, in the time she came for Xu Zhihan, she didn't expose any signs that her mother was also buried here.

It's just that I don't know what kind of mood she will be in at that time, and I can't understand it anyway.

Su Chengyi suppressed his mood and squatted down to insert the candle into the dirt.

The flickering light of the fire swept through his fingers in the wind, it should have been hot, but he didn't know it.

Unwrapping the plastic seal of another stack of paper money, Su Chengyi looked down at the red-green numbers swept by the flames, coughed, and said a little crampedly:

"Hello, Aunt Shu. My name is Su Chengyi, and I am Chen Jinzhi's boyfriend. ”

Knowing that there was no response, he felt extremely nervous, as if he was really under the scrutiny of his mother-in-law.

"I don't know if she mentioned me to you, we met after she transferred to No. 1 Middle School."

Speaking of this, Su Chengyi paused slightly.

Talking to someone who has passed away, it seems that there is nothing to hide?

"In fact, I saw her before I was born again. But at that time, we were just passers-by and big stars.

She is the high-profile and shining star Iris, I am just an ordinary worker, only waiting for the gap between red and green, when passing by the LED screen in the mall, I will see her giant poster. ”

Su Cheng thought about the advertiser's slogan on the big screen: "Iris's choice, trustworthy!" I wanted to laugh for a while.

In that timeline, Su Chengyi clocked in to work in the office building, typing out complicated codes day after day; Chen Jinzhi held a concert tour on the other side of the world, surrounded by tens of thousands of people, on the other side of the world with a time difference of more than ten hours.

At that time, the two of them probably couldn't imagine that they would intersect with such a person who was far away in the world.

"Auntie, you don't know, she was really red at that time. I'm an otaku who never pays attention to entertainment news, but she's so famous.

That's why after being reborn, I recognized her at once.

It was a really impactful feeling, like someone in a movie walking out of the screen. ”

Looking back now, the first time I saw Chen Jinzhi, I still had a feeling that my heart had missed a beat.

Yun wants clothes, flowers and flowers, but it's just like that.

"I don't know if it's because I was so stunned by the event of the big star falling from the sky at that time, which piqued your daughter's curiosity, in short, she started to approach me inexplicably like studying alien creatures."

"And then a lot of things happened."

"It's because I didn't plan well enough to protect her.

In the end, she still embarked on the road of debut.

It's hard every day, but it's good.

She is really powerful, and now she is a well-known and popular traffic.

The road of domestic girl group idols is very difficult, and there are many obstacles and prejudices, but the appearance of Chen Jinzhi successfully broke the doubts. ”

She is not only an idol now, but also a female singer, and there are two songs on the new song list.

Everyone wonders why she trained in South Korea but didn't suffer from many of the problems of South Korean assembly line artists.

Many music critics say that her singing is very tasteful, with the charm of Chinese style, which is very rare.

But I know that it's because you taught her to sing Huangmei Opera. ”

Recently, she received an invitation to the first variety show in her life, and she is preparing for it.

So I came to see you for her and talked to you.

Auntie, I know that the entertainment industry is deep, there are opportunities everywhere, but there are also traps everywhere.

But don't worry, I'll protect her. ”

"She will definitely get better and better in the future, Auntie, you and I both know."

Su Chengyi lit the last stack of paper money and coughed because of the smoke.

After saying so much, he suddenly got a little tired, so he sat down on the spot.

Let the burning ashes fall like snow on his knees and shoulders.

The sun ironed his black tweed coat very warmly, and Su Chengyi lowered his head to tie the buttons on the cuffs and unfastened them again.

After a while, he took out a bouquet of flowers from his pocket and carefully placed it in front of the monument.

White carnations, very simple packaging.

- because he pierced it with his own hands.

Xueba, surnamed Su, who is confident no matter what technique he learns, finally admits defeat in the matter of handmade origami after wasting several pieces of colored paper.

He looked at the bouquet and finally cut off the packaging during the photo.

After sending the photo to Chen Jin, her status quickly changed to "the other party is typing", but there was no message for a long time.

Su Chengyi was not in a hurry, he looked up at the clouds floating in the mountains, the sky and the clouds were blue and white, the color of the uniform of a middle school.

Chen Jinzhi is very small-minded, and he can look good in school uniforms without violating school rules and discipline.

In the days when she skipped class and went to the rooftop to catch up on sleep, when Su Chengyi woke up and opened her eyes, she could always be seen leaning against the railing in a daze.

Her figure was thin, as if she was about to blend into the scenery behind her at any moment, and there was a vague sense of unreality.

Whenever such a strange thought came to him, Su Chengyi would sit up or cough.

Until she turned around and asked him with a smile, "Wake up?" He would nod his head and pretend he had just woken up.

Pretended not to stare at her back for a long time.

Today's sky looks just like it did in those days that won't return.

The phone vibrate, but instead of a message, a phone call came.

Su Chengyi picked it up and didn't speak.

It was quiet over the earpiece, save for the sound of her soft breathing.

After a long time, she finally spoke slowly.

"How did you come up with the idea of going here?"

"Tang'an has always had this custom during the New Year, you don't have time, so I'll come."

Su Chengyi's tone of voice was very relaxed, suppressing Fang Cai's low and sad emotions.

He didn't know Shu Wang, and the reason why he had these emotions was only because he liked Chen Jinzhi, so just thinking about it from her position would fill his heart with sadness.

Chen Jinzhi was quiet for a few seconds, and suddenly sighed softly.

"Thank you."

Su Chengyi originally wanted to say "no, no" and "talk to me about this", but after thinking about it, he said "um" instead.

Chen Jinzhi was originally very busy today, she owed a lot of advertising shooting, the new songs in the troupe were catching up with the schedule, she was busy rehearsing the stage position, and she spent last night in the practice room.

When she felt a dull pain in her stomach, she suddenly remembered that she hadn't eaten all day.

If someone knows, I'm going to be angry again.

This person always thought that he was angry and hidden, but in fact it was hard to guess.

Unlike his own imagined mature and stable self, Chen Jinzhi knows very well that he is actually a stingy and naïve guy.

She will be angry if she doesn't eat well, and she will be angry when she sees the marketing account casually pulling cp for her.

The most important thing is that when you are angry, you will always say no.

Chen Jinzhi thought about it, and couldn't help but raise the corners of his mouth.

With such a smile, the staff who were in a hurry next to them were stunned and stopped: God, how can we, a small broken company, sign a beauty of this level? !

Only when he thought of Su Chengyi could Chen Jinzhi briefly withdraw from his tired work, like a black and white silent film suddenly appearing with a bright color.

The staff packed the salad, and she avoided the sweet sauce and poked a cauliflower into her mouth.

Then he took a photo in time and prepared to send it to Su Chengyi.

This is evidence that she is eating well.

Unexpectedly, I saw the message he sent first.

A bouquet of carnations lay quietly in front of the monument, and she almost immediately recognized the familiar location.

In the years since he left Tang'an for South Korea, Chen Jinzhi has not been able to go to the cemetery to fulfill such a tradition.

In an unfamiliar country, he caters to the habits of clothing, food, housing and transportation that are very different from before, and learns a new language by syllable.

No matter how much vulnerability and longing there is, there is nowhere to vent.

So after returning to China, the first thing Chen Jinzhi did was to go here.

I thought there would be a lot of things I wanted to say, but after all, the trainee career that lasted for four years was a waste of time.

But at that time, she stood in front of the monument, and suddenly felt that there was nothing to be wronged about.

After all, when I returned to my homeland, I heard the familiar local sound, and I was closer to the only relative in the world.

After meeting Su Chengyi, this feeling became even stronger.

In the first time the two got along, she was still curious, kept a safe distance, and wore a mask that she was accustomed to.

When did she realize that she couldn't get out of it?

Chen Jinzhi thought that it probably started from the time she reflected on herself in front of Shu Wang's monument.

At that time she said:

"Mom, I've been thinking a lot since you left, if I could go back in time, what would I do to save you?"

"If I can prevent all this from happening, even if it will change the trajectory of the future, even if everything I have now disappears, even if it will make me never appear in this world, I am willing."

"But lately, I've suddenly started to waver."

"Because I met someone I liked very much. I can't help but wonder if I could change this process if I went back in time. Will it erase my encounter with him?

Thinking about this, I suddenly started to get scared. ”

"Mom, after so many years, in the timeline that you left me, I finally experienced some emotions like happiness for the first time in a long time.

Sometimes I wonder if his presence is another fantasy of mine, like the scene I have fantasized countless times about if you were still there. ”

Fortunately, he does seem to be real. I kind of believe what you've said now, maybe the world isn't that bad. ”

"Mom, I hope you can forgive me for being selfish.

It would be nice if you could give me a little more blessing. ”

Chen Jinzhi once folded his hands and had such a monologue in front of his mother's monument.

And now someone has come here and gently placed a bouquet of flowers for her.

It seems that he still tied it with his own hands, and the crumpled piece of wrapping paper accidentally exposed at the bottom of the picture is obviously not the craftsmanship of the flower shop.

Chen Jinzhi's fingers holding the mobile phone unconsciously forced, and the fingertips turned slightly white because of this.

"Ahem, you don't have to think too much. I happened to remember it, so I came over and took a look. ”

Perhaps thinking that her silence was a little unusual for a long time, Su Chengyi cleared his throat and spoke.

"After a while, during the Qingming Festival, see if you can spare time, and we'll come back and see"

"Teacher Su."

Chen Jinzhi's voice was very soft, like a floating cloud.

"Huh?"

Su Chengyi subconsciously responded.

"Thank you."

Chen Jinzhi's voice was more gentle than just now.

Su Chengyi was slightly stunned when he heard this, so he had to say "um" again.

"Mom would love you if she could see you. She used to praise an actor with a temperament very similar to you."

Chen Jinzhi continued, his tail note rising, and he seemed to be in a good mood.

Su Chengyi felt that he could imagine her eyebrows and eyes, but he felt that something was wrong.

Listening to the voice, she was laughing, but she inexplicably felt that her eyes were red.

"If I can see you, just in time for the day, she will give you rice balls with osmanthus filling"

On the side of the earpiece, Chen Jinzhi's voice became smaller and smaller, and in the end, it was blurry and could no longer be heard clearly.

Su Chengyi pressed the speakerphone, and heard her sentence so faint that it was almost like a dream - "I miss you so much." ”

and very, very quiet, suppressed sobbing.

Su Chengyi just listened silently, he knew that he didn't have to do anything at this time, just accompany her quietly.

He looked at the burned paper money, and the green smoke rose above the ashes, drifting away in an instant.

The green smoke carries silent thoughts, and the flowing clouds will also convey unfinished whispers.

(End of chapter)