Chapter 385: Paranoia and Heartbreak

"How did you know I was here?"

Su Chengyi glanced at the water ripples on the lake blown by the evening breeze, turned sideways and asked with a smile.

"Whoa."

Chen Jinzhi raised his chin and motioned for him to look at the other side.

Su Chengyi turned his head and saw Xiao Zheng leaning on the pillar of the lakeside pavilion, looking like he was not smiling.

It seems that he accidentally exposed his location when playing the video, so that he took Chen Jinzhi to the door.

"You came with him?"

"Yes, he said that the recording studio arranged by the big producer needs to be personally accepted by the artist."

Chen Jinzhi said half-jokingly.

Su Chengyi said "um", noncommittal.

However, the matter of this recording studio was handled by Li Lao, and when Xiao Zheng relayed it to Chen Jinzhi, he didn't know whether he wanted it or not, and it seemed that this paragraph was hidden.

Probably because she was afraid that she would be under psychological pressure.

But with Chen Jinzhi's temperament, she can guess even if she doesn't say it.

Li Lao had always said that he wanted to come to the capital to see him, and Su Cheng thought that maybe it would be a good opportunity to introduce the two of them to meet.

Last time the first middle school celebrated, Li Lao also praised Chen Jinzhi, and the first impression was very good.

In addition, there is also what Xiao Zheng said before, about Li Lao wanting him to inherit the mantle, he also needs to talk about it in person.

So far, Su Chengyi's thoughts have not changed much.

However, how to refuse Li Lao is also a difficult matter.

As Xiao Zheng said, although Li Lao seems to be easy to speak, he actually has the kind of stubborn temperament that belongs to old artists.

This can be seen from the fact that he can play so well with his grandfather.

After all, things gather by like, and people are divided by groups.

What's more, in the case of the two of them looking for soulmates in the mountains and rivers, they must be quite compatible and similar in personality and soul.

"Do you want to go around school before you go to the studio?"

Su Chengyi turned over and stood up, and bent down again and stretched out his hand to pull her.

Chen Jinzhi held his hand and got up with his strength.

As soon as she shook her head, Su Chengyi pulled her into her arms as if she had expected it.

Then leaned over slightly, which meant to examine.

"Why not?"

Chen Jinzhi was amused by his posture as a prisoner, but he lowered his eyes and did not look at him, not knowing what he was thinking.

This reaction. Something is wrong.

Su Chengyi always felt that Chen Jinzhi was a little worried today.

Could it be that you saw the bow on the hood cord?

No.

If you see it, it won't be this kind of reaction.

"Because there are too many people, do you find it inconvenient?"

Su Cheng thought about it and asked thoughtfully.

Before Chen Jinzhi could answer, he continued:

"Or do you think school is boring, there's nothing to visit?"

"I have to go to the studio at night, and I don't feel like I have enough time."

"Ah, because Xiao Zheng is following, you feel uncomfortable. That told him to wait here for us for a while. ”

Xiao Zheng on the other side: "."

Is it possible that I am only five meters apart from you? Master, can you consider other people's feelings when you speak?! At least give the assistant a meal card so that they can try the Beijing University canteen! Who wants to blow the cold wind here?!

Su Chengyi said a lot to himself, Chen Jinzhi heard it funny, and reached out to cover his mouth.

"What do you say?"

She sighed softly.

At this time, the street lamps by the lake are lit up one by one, the boulevard is dotted, and the coolness of early spring blends with the warm yellow halo, which is a unique atmosphere on campus.

"Okay, let's go for a walk."

I don't know what came to mind, but she suddenly relented again.

The boulevard is paved with brick and stone slabs, and the bushes along the roadside are more luxuriant than the trees that first sprouted green shoots, and there are faint cicadas and insects chirping during the period.

Su Chengyi held Chen Jinzhi, and the two walked side by side, and the echoes of the footsteps that fell were deep.

A path was empty, and when I looked up, it was just the two of them.

It's strange, there are a lot of people here.

When I walked with Chu Tianmian after dinner before, there were always many young couples here in pairs, and it was almost about to form a traffic jam.

Su Cheng thought about it and reacted, today happened to be another large-scale teacher-student networking event.

When I went back to school in the afternoon, I seemed to have seen a propaganda banner.

Li Tao and Matthew, who are in the same dormitory, have both signed up to be volunteers, one for volunteer hours and the other for brushing their faces in the student union.

The two also asked him if he was going, but of course he was decisively refused.

Matthew also complained, saying that the possibility of an asteroid hitting the earth was greater than the probability of the young master participating in collective activities.

In this regard, Li Tao made a perfunctory past, and Su Chengyi himself deeply agreed.

To get him to participate in such a pointless fellowship, he would rather write ten literature reviews.

Although everyone resisted listening to the lecture and felt that the content was lengthy, complicated and boring, Su Chengyi felt that he could still learn something, maybe nutritious knowledge or not.

That's not pointless, it's a waste of time.

Su Chengyi thought like this while chatting with Chen Jinzhi.

"This side used to be the remains of the stone boat, and in history, this side was once the Shuchun Garden that Qianlong rewarded to Hekun, and Hekun spent a lot of money to expand this private garden. Later, Jiaqing ascended the throne and intended to liquidate Hekun, and Shuchunyuan became the most favorable evidence to prove his corruption. As soon as he saw the stone boat here, He Kun was afraid.

However, now it has become one of the famous attractions of the graduation season, commonly known as the untied boat. ”

"Over there is the Moon Tower, which used to be the place where He Kun raised his concubine. Of course, he was later criticized for this, and married the woman out of the palace as his second wife, which was shameful. ”

"It's unbearable to be outside the wall, and prejudice is waiting for the moon building."

Su Chengyi cherishes words like gold on weekdays, but at this time, he introduced the architectural remains of the school like a tour guide, and pointed out the direction of the dormitory to her.

"Most of my classes this semester are on the South Campus, which is quite close to the dormitory, so I don't take the shuttle bus much."

"In terms of classes, it's a little bit more than last semester, but it's okay. After the sophomore and junior years, the core courses of civil procedure, criminal procedure, administrative law, and private international law will be taken together, which will make people feel tired. ”

"I didn't expect Mr. Su to feel tired from studying."

Chen Jinzhi smiled quietly when he heard this.

"Of course, I'm actually a hard worker."

As soon as she finished speaking, Su Chengyi paused and reached out to straighten her forehead that was disturbed by the night wind.

"But it's definitely not as tired as a female star."

Chen Jinzhi is tall among girls, but she stands here in a wide coat that doesn't fit, as if a gust of wind can blow it away.

Strict body management, a diet that can ensure basic survival needs, and a work and rest routine that is reversed day and night.

It's strange to be healthy.

Under the halo of the street lamp, Chen Jinzhi raised his eyes, and he was so beautiful that his heart beat a little for a while.

This face doesn't need any makeup at all to set off, she rushed the high-speed train over, the boat was tiring, and now she is in a state of pure makeup.

No wonder it is said that beauty is in the bones, not in the skin.

Chen Jinzhi's bones are really superior, natural, and completely like a work of art.

It's the kind of look that South Korea, which is not famous for plastic surgery technology, can't reproduce with much effort.

It's just too thin.

Su Chengyi sighed and pinched her reduced face.

"Female stars are not tired at all."

Chen Jinzhi painted a scoop according to the gourd, and also poked Su Chengyi's face.

Then she turned around and walked on.

Humans are strange creatures, she couldn't help but think.

When a person does many things, she never feels how difficult it is, maybe she has already fallen into the most depressed situation, so she can accept it calmly no matter what happens.

Only at this time will it be easy to break the defense.

As soon as the distress in the eyes of the person she likes spreads out a little, she feels like she has been caught off guard by the flames that burst out, and she actually wants to shed tears.

Su Chengyi, who was two steps behind, didn't notice her mood change at all.

At the end of the boulevard, you can see the playground in front of you, and tonight's activities are being warmed up.

The searchlights dazzle the eye with dazzling lighting effects, and the bass drum rhythm comes out of the stereos.

Su Chengyi felt that this scene was a bit like a literary performance in the 90s, and looked a little funny, so he asked with a smile:

"It's noisy, isn't it?"

Chen Jinzhi didn't speak, he stood in place, looking at the gathered crowd from afar.

Su Chengyi quickened his pace, walked next to her, and continued:

"There are a lot of activities like this at school, but it's not fun, and there are a lot of people. Did you see a banner on the road when you came in the afternoon? It seems that it is a performance organized by the community, and it has been done before, so I don't know why this battle is so big.

Do you want to check it out? If someone recognizes her, they say that they are special guests. ”

He said jokingly.

And Chen Jinzhi's eyes still fell on the crowd gathered in the distance, and he didn't know what he was thinking.

In the next second, she said lightly:

"I've been here for Christmas."

Su Chengyi was stunned for a moment, raised his head and reconfirmed the location of the playground.

North, it's really here!

I didn't pay attention just now, but I actually walked here.

Su Chengyi admired his blunt sensibility for a while.

Maybe it's because I've been living too well lately, and I don't have any awareness of emergency avoidance in Shura Field.

Thinking about it now, it's no wonder that Chen Jinzhi is unusually silent today.

Probably from the moment she walked into the school, she had been thinking about the last Christmas.

Su Chengyi was silent for a long time, thinking about what to say.

I knew that silence was the easiest reaction at this time, but I still couldn't open my mouth.

Especially when I saw Chen Jinzhi's expression.

Her eyebrows and eyes were lowered, and she was a little lonely.

Last Christmas, the whole school was in a lively atmosphere, with red and green lights hanging from pine trees and loaf candy and chocolates scattered along the roadside.

The crowd of people who were coaxed was surrounded by liveliness.

In the corner where the lanterns could not be reflected, Chen Jinzhi came alone and left silently.

At that time, it was too far away, and Su Chengyi couldn't see what her expression was.

And at this time, I finally saw it clearly.

"I'm sorry."

Su Chengyi paused, and finally could only say this.

I don't know what I'm sorry for.

Because when it comes to it, it's not just this one thing he needs to be sorry for.

Chen Jinzhi seemed to be dragged out of her memory by his sorry sentence, she raised the corners of her mouth, and asked as if curious:

"Why are you sorry?"

"That misunderstanding before."

Su Chengyi was even more weak when she asked like this, and tried to maintain the same tone as usual.

Unexpectedly, Chen Jinzhi didn't seem to have the intention to dwell on this issue, she tilted her head slightly, and her eyes were serious.

"Teacher Su."

"Ahh

Su Chengyi responded, and even the Adam's apple rolled nervously twice.

"Wouldn't it be hard to fall in love with me?"

Unexpectedly, Chen Jinzhi asked such a question.

"Huh?"

Su Chengyi was a little stunned.

Chen Jinzhi's eyelashes trembled slightly, still waiting for his answer.

Only then would she be a little paranoid.

Obviously he was not questioned about the Shura Field, but Su Chengyi was more nervous than just now, he moved closer and tried his best to make his tone appear firm.

"No, it won't. Why do you ask? ”

"Because a lot of the time, I can't be there for you."

Chen Jinzhi looked away, her tone was light, but it made people feel a little sad inexplicably when she listened to it.

"I don't know what time you're going to end class on Friday, I don't know where the second cafeteria you said is, and I don't know why your favorite is the teacher who teaches criminal law."

"I can't go to class with you, I can't walk with you in the evening when the weather is nice, I can't walk like everyone else, I just have to walk from one dormitory building to another when I want to see you."

"I can't even tell everyone openly that I have a boyfriend, that he is very good, that he is a very powerful person, and that if he proposes in the next second, I will say yes in the next second."

"Since the end of the college entrance examination, our pace has been completely inconsistent. It always seems like you're pandering to me, and you've done a lot of things you didn't like to do to accompany me. ”

"So I guess you're going to find it hard."

Chen Jinzhi sighed softly as he spoke.

"After last Christmas, I thought about it a lot.

At first, I just felt sad, and it was not an exaggeration to say that my heart was about to break. ”

When she said this, Su Chengyi felt that she was about to break her heart.

She has always been a person who is very good at hiding her emotions, so when she talks heart-to-heart like this, she feels even more empathetic.

"But I don't blame you, and I can't even be angry with you. I just kept wondering if there was something wrong with me. ”

"After that, I suddenly realized that I would never like and love you less than anyone else, and that I could lose everything I had for you at any time.

But if I want to be with you, if I want to stand by your side with confidence, I can only move forward, and my life seems to be the only way to go.

This seems to be an unsolvable proposition in the first place. ”

Su Chengyi looked into her eyes and suddenly realized that Chen Jinzhi's tears seemed to be getting more and more recently.

She used to be such an invulnerable person.

After Christmas, Chen Jinzhi didn't ask, so Su Chengyi avoided talking about it.

He thought it was over, but she never seemed to have come out of that Christmas Eve.

(End of chapter)