243. Self-love
Mochi and Angul are moving forward at the same time.
"Gone?" Mochi stared at the south in disbelief, the expression on his face was also overwhelmed by sluggishness and horror, "I...... I can't feel Lynn ...... at all."
"Calm down!
Angul put a knife on Mochi's forehead with one hand: "I know that you and Lynn's child are one and the same, and whatever happens to Lynn will be communicated to you - but don't blindly believe this feeling, what can be determined now is that 'Lynn's soul sense is completely gone', it does not mean that she is dead!"
Angul also knew what kind of connection existed between these two people, and if you seriously counted Lin and Mochi who were the same person, the soul was perfectly and harmoniously united. It is not for nothing that Mochi is so nervous and frightened - for these two people, they are a whole, ordinary means that it is impossible to cut off the connection between Mochi and Lynn...... Even if we can't get in touch for a while, the most fundamental bond is still there. And now, Lin is completely in the perception of Mochi and Angul, completely disappeared, Angul here is connected by a contract, there is still some leeway, but how to explain to Mochi that her "other half" soul is completely cut off from herself, and there is no news?
That could only be because Lynn was killed and destroyed!
Seriously, Angul himself doesn't quite think that there is any chance that Lynn will be spared in this situation.
However, I got some news from the witch in the gap between time and space. So that now, she still firmly believes that Lin is still alive - since the witch is limited by many treaties. If the answer can be given in the affirmative, it will never be overturned by reality! Lynn may encounter some extremely dangerous dangers. But it won't be the last.
Otherwise, why did the witch go to great lengths to find "Lin" from another parallel world, continuing her fate and changing Lin's own fate? What's more, now that Lin can no longer be regarded as a "human", she is moving towards a new realm, and there is no mysterious witch behind this series of encounters - Angul can conclude that Lin will not encounter an accident at all before this "potential stock" has grown completely.
Lynn ...... Are you still alive?"
"Do you want to believe the fact that she's dead?"
Mochi shook his head flatly.
"That's it. Angul looked far away to the changing south. "Since you don't want to believe it yourself, you should stick to this idea, and not evolve into 'dare not believe' - you are not a weak woman who is powerless, you have enough power in your hands to make the world revolve around your ideas to a certain extent. β
In fact, mochi has always had some hidden inferiority complex, which Angul is also very clear.
Maybe it's because Lynn's light is too bright. Mochi subconsciously attributes herself to the position of a "loser" - why is she so willing to make a wedding dress for herself in the parallel world? You know, even though Mochi herself is a strong-willed and righteous person. When encountering this situation, it is inevitable that there will be a pimple in your heart...... Why should I have to suffer that kind of tragic life, and the other world of my self. But can you easily rise to the top and get the favor of nobles?
However, the mochi did not dwell on any of this.
Because she is from the bottom of her heart. He felt that he was "unqualified" to compete with Lin for the power of master and slave. Of course, Lynn's appearance can greatly evoke the affection of mochi. But it is by no means the decisive factor...... Mochi is the ideal form of Jiang Lin, who regards it as a continuation of her unsatisfactory life, and an ideal form that makes up for her past defects, which makes Mochi willingly serve as a green leaf for the "good life" of the parallel world.
That's certainly a good thing, both for Lynn and for mochi.
But on the other hand, this has also made Mochi have always looked down on his current strength. She thinks that her life has ended, however, since the witch of time and space has accepted her into this world and linked her to Rin's fate, Mochi's life has continued - Lyn's fate is Mochi's fate, Rin's future is Mochi's future, and Lynn's power is also Mochi's power.
Did Lin really treat mochi as a servant? No.
"You...... In my heart, there is a trace of lack of self-confidence and a trace of inferiority, have you ever found it yourself?"
Angul didn't go on with the question of Lynn's life and death, but turned back to Mochi with a question that didn't seem to matter.
- Myself...... Not confident, and have low self-esteem?
Angul's voice was so demagogic that Mochi's current turmoil actually settled down, and instead of dwelling on Lynn's question, he unconsciously shifted the past along Angul's topic...... There was a hunch in her instinct that this question was very important, both for her and for Lynn.
"Of course, I understand the source of your confusion, and I can also understand your thoughts...... However, have you ever wondered what is the decisive difference between you and Lynn as 'the same person', where the two bodies of likeness, inclination, emotion, and good and evil are infinitely close?"
Angul didn't say any more, believing that Mochi was able to wake up to the key on her own.
β...... What is the decisive difference between me and Lynn?"
No, mochi did not distort his three views because of that bad life, although personal experience will have a great impact on the formation of people's character, but for mochi, it is by no means a decisive factor.
Is that power? No, although Mochi is good at martial arts and points to warrior talents, while Lin is more of a mage type, but it's just a difference in the way they exercise their power - after all, the power they use is the same.
Could that be character? That's even more wrong...... After all, Mochi is not a twisted person, and his compatibility with Lin is extremely good. There is no personality problem.
What could that be......
β...... Is it a mentality?"
Mochi slightly understood the root of Angul's point.
"I ...... I'm afraid of the end. Unable to do anything about yourself...... Although I was not afraid of death, I felt powerless at the beginning. In fact, it has always been rooted in my heart like a nightmare. I hated being powerless, and later on, I tried to avoid that fact, because under Lynn's light, I ...... I feel inferior......"
"No, that's not the most critical thing. β
"Huh......?"
Angul's answer made Mochi stunned -- wasn't this Angul's ideal answer? Angul thought that there was nothing more important than the trace of evasion and cowardice that he had unconsciously hidden. Is it also more of the core sticking point?
"Well, although you didn't have the self-consciousness to realize your most serious problem, I was a little disappointed, but looking back, you are actually a person with this kind of character...... Forget it, it's okay if you're not perfect, at least, a fool like you. I still like it. β
Angul let go of her previous cold and solemn expression, and even though Lynn's condition was still unknown, she still showed a rather relaxed and warm smile - a smile that had no hint of embellishment at all. It was indeed a sincere joy, and even the mochi did not feel strange or uncomfortable because of it.
Because mochi also has a vague feeling...... The almost inexplicable sense of despair that existed before. Now there was an indescribable loosening - perhaps, as Angul said. Things weren't as scary as she thought?
"I guess you'll never be able to figure it out on your own. So I'll tell you straight down - the biggest difference between you and Lynn is that you don't have any ideas for yourself anymore...... You can't deny that you can give everything for the sake of Lynn, a child, even this 'life' that has been inherited by a 'miracle', right?"
Mochi couldn't help but be stunned, because, as Angul said, she did think so.
"However, have you ever thought about how to avoid, or prevent, the most terrible situation from happening? Have you seriously considered how to avoid situations that require you to 'have to' sacrifice yourself? No? In your cognition, has the idea of 'sacrificing for the sake of Lynn' become a matter of course? In fact, in fact, you yourself subconsciously faintly expect this kind of 'self-sacrifice' to appear?"
Angul's series of questions made it impossible for Mochi to make any rebuttals.
"Cowardice, fear, avoidance...... These are not the key. Because these emotions are actually shared by everyone, but the existence does not mean that you are dominated by them, just like you, although there is a trace of cowardly thoughts in your heart, but it will not affect your behavior and decision-making. As a life that actually lives in the world, it is normal for this kind of emotion to exist. β
The crux of my problem is not here, so where is it?
"You're indifferent to yourself. β
"You're -- you're even belittling yourself. β
"You've lost your 'self-love'. β
...... ...... lost self-love?
Angul's words pierced Mochi's chest like a sharp knife, tearing open the cover of the part of "privacy" that she herself subconsciously wanted to ignore, and exposing it bloodily.
"Lynn is always improving...... Perhaps, there are too many 'coincidences' in this - well, I must admit that even if Lynn's talent is very good, she can grow to this stage in a 'short time', and there are many external factors in all aspects...... However, what are you doing while she is constantly working hard, seeking opportunities to become stronger, and persevering to improve herself? As far as I can see, you are not excited, but as Lin's strength increases, you are also elevated, aren't you? Aside from the transcendent power that you have acquired later, to put it bluntly, is there any qualitative improvement in your strength compared to that before you died?"
Mochi lowered his head.
What Angul said is entirely true.
Her own situation, in fact, is to put it more ruthlessly, that is, she is "eating the old book".
"Have you realized that you and Lin are already inseparable and unified individuals? Your willfulness affects more than just yourself - you must know that your personal lack of 'self-love' also includes Lynn. Without the enthusiasm on your side, no matter how hard Lin tries, the room for improvement is limited, because the burden on you is no longer something that one person can carry!"
Well, Angul's so-called "limited room for improvement" is absolutely a mockery for other people who are struggling for strength -- damn it, can this rocket-like speed of the plug-in be considered "limited"? Is it really a cerebral infarction that makes all the "mortals" angry?
However, this is indeed the case.
Beautiful jade...... In other words, Lin and Mochi, their strength should have improved more rapidly, and the heights they reached should be even more terrifying.
Otherwise, why did they go to great lengths to forcibly fuse two individuals with completely different destinies from the parallel world, and why did they both retain the minds of Lynn and Mochi, not rudely mixed together, but harmoniously maintained their independence and unity?
Guy was imposing on them an unprecedented expectationβa new force that even the Holy Spirit, who had reached the pinnacle of the power of this world, was eagerly awaiting.
Aisha was not willing to cultivate Lin because she had feelings first, but after deciding to cultivate this little guy, she slowly developed feelings in the relationship between day and night...... Of course, fortunately, Lin is also a simple and cute little ghost in this regard, which is very much in line with the heart of a certain purple old woman, otherwise it is really doubtful whether she can achieve the current relationship.
"Because of my lack of self-love...... Is it already a drag on Lynn?"
"No, it's a drag on 'you'. β
Angul emphasized that Mochi finally understood the key - from the beginning, when her fate was connected with Lynn, her personality was no longer "herself" alone.
Her passivity and slackness are undoubtedly holding Lin back...... In fact, if Mochi is willing to "think more", he must also be able to think of this key layer - Mochi, who has already had the experience of being manipulated by others, has a keen sense of smell in this regard, and it is not difficult to find that layer of expectations on himself and Lynn.
That is to say...... If I hadn't been so slack in the past few years, ...... now."
"yes, a guy of that level is not going to be your match at all. (To be continued......)