Lu Yuling and Jiang Nian glanced at each other, understood the meaning in her eyes, he and Wang Chuanhu retreated, closed the door, and let Jiang Nian and Xiaojia be in the same room.

"Bai Momo wants to crush me with online remarks, and her fans are sending me vicious messages all the time, in my comment section, on the barrage of my videos, and in my private messages. I don't dare to broadcast live, I don't know if I wrap myself up in the face of these malicious remarks, do I not have to be hurt by these if I don't go online? ”

Xiao Jia cried and recounted what she had experienced for more than a month.

"They found me, those keyboard warriors who claimed to be righteous people, they disguised themselves as delivery people, community properties, couriers, came to knock on my door, and as soon as I opened the door, they took my mobile phone to shoot me, insulted me, sprayed me with water that I don't know what I don't know. I tried to call the police, but we are an old community, and the monitoring is not very widespread, and many of the surveillance is too old to provide any useful information to the police. I don't dare to tell you that you have suffered more on the Internet than I am, and you have just given birth, and I really feel very troublesome to you, like today you came to see me, it is really unnecessary. Xiao Jia raised her teary face as she spoke, and looked apologetically at Jiang Nian, who was frowning.

Jiang Nian understands her current situation very well, she is also a victim of online public opinion, she doesn't dare to look at those vicious remarks at all, some people say that it's better to turn it off and not read it.

However, people are social animals, and they always care too much about what others think of them, and even if they turn off the channels for watching these vicious remarks, they will still unconsciously and secretly watch them.

It's sad not to look at it, but it's even more sad to see it.

Jiang Nian thought about scolding back, but it was obviously irrational, and she vetoed this way of fighting back without even trying.

She can only retreat to the next thing, ignore these extreme remarks, and do not sit idly by, looking for clues to refute those false information.

But this process is extremely long, for example, Jiang Nian found the person who filmed the video of Bai Momo kicking her, no matter what she asked, he didn't want to mention half a word of the video, obviously someone had told him.

The clues came to an abrupt end at this point, and she couldn't do anything now.

"I can't stand it every day, I think so many people say that I am wrong, they must have their reasons, I think it is my own problem, if I hadn't sent a love letter to Lu Yuling, and I hadn't competed with Bai Momo for the position of recitation leader, wouldn't I have to be bullied? I don't pretend to be smart enough to contact you, won't I be angry and not suffer this cyberbullying? I took the wrong step, which is why I became such an unbearable. ”

Jiang Nian tilted his head slightly, his face couldn't bear it, "You have never been wrong, everything is someone else's problem." ”

"But, Jiang Nian, why does God have to catch me and punish me, my family was very happy when I was very young, but because I was a girl, my father didn't like it, my parents started an endless quarrel, I cried and shouted for them to stop arguing, my dad slapped me, my mom protected me, I thought she would comfort me, but she just dragged me to the bathroom, looked at me viciously, and said why am I a girl? Why can't it be a boy? Is it only when I'm dead that my dad won't quarrel with him? ”

Jiang Nian looked at Xiao Jia, who was chattering, and suddenly felt how difficult it was for her to be strong and live until now.

She was brave, but she felt so tired.

"I sometimes feel like there are all sorts of people talking in my ear, and every one of them is cursing at me, and I want to run and scream, and when I stop, they will come back. I seem to have been sick for a long time, and this time it seems to be even worse. When I think about dying, wouldn't it be a lot more painful? I bought a ticket for a long trip, thinking that you are the only one in this world who cares about me, and I left you a letter to comfort you, sorry, I lied to you. I took away the sleeping pills I had saved for a long time, and used the remaining 50 yuan to rent a small room in a dilapidated old hotel, I closed the door, and there was the sound of people with different accents talking outside, and I looked at the mottled walls, and felt a little embarrassed if I died here. I thought about it for a long, long time, and finally, I asked the front desk for a glass of water and poured all the sleeping pills I had saved into my mouth. Xiao Jia stopped crying, she looked at Jiang Nian, but her eyes were extremely empty, as if she was looking at other people through her.

"I didn't die, I wasted a lot of police and medical resources and survived. Wang Chuanhu came to me, and he asked me why I had to run so far to commit suicide. I was very aggrieved, and I also wanted to question him, who was only 17 or 18 years old, why did he do such a thing to me, I know that he was inspired by you, he helped me a lot, and he even cried when he saw me half dead. I felt like he was a stranger, he actually realized his mistake after Momot broke up with him, and apologized to me every time he bumped into me. I was in the same university as him, and sometimes when I met him, his first reaction was to apologize to me. But I just won't forgive him, he's a part of my suffering, I hate him, and sometimes I hate myself, and I have to live on an abuser. Xiao Jia frowned, revealing a self-deprecating smile.

"Sometimes I think he's hateful, but at least he knows that he's on the wrong side, much better than the people who indiscriminately criticize me on the Internet, do you think I'm not generous enough? Am I being too stingy? Xiao Jiawen didn't say a word Jiang Nian.

Jiang Nian shook her head, her heart wrinkled with sadness, she thought that if she encountered something like Xiao Jia, she didn't know what would happen, she was already very brave, and sometimes it was a very brave act to refuse the abuser's forgiveness.

"Jiang Nian, thank you." Xiao Jia squeezed Jiang Nian's hand, and said to herself: "I haven't seen Lu Yuling for a long time, he is much more handsome than on the screen, I sometimes hate him, but if I think about it carefully, he just doesn't like to interfere in other people's affairs, I liked him at the time, but in his eyes, I am just an extremely difficult classmate, what does it have to do with him that I suffer from this?" I'm sorry, my remarks may have induced you to be biased against Lu Yuling, and I was surprised that he could come today. ”

"Thank you for thinking of Lu Yuling like this, I know that his personality is not a good person in the pure sense, he is too indifferent, he is a bystander in that school bullying, and he is undoubtedly a helper, thank you for thinking of him like this."

Jiang Nian's heart was surging, and there were many words of relief in his heart that he wanted to say, but when it came to his mouth, there were only repeated thanks.