It was almost evening, and I went to the park, pretended to be a walk, and walked in the park.

My thoughts are complicated, I miss her, I want to be with her, but I know it's impossible, it's not a question of self-confidence or not.

At that age, facing such a woman, many are unknown. Although we have been together many times, she seems to me to be a mystery, and the more I try to get to know her, the more difficult it becomes, I have a lot of guesses, a lot of cranky thoughts.

I sometimes think that she is a very good woman, and sometimes I think that she is actually the same as those young women, she has desires, she wants to play with little men, just like getting prey to try it, but I feel that she is not that kind of woman, she is very good, she has a shelf or something because she is rich, she is not only like this to me, but also to the staff, and to the patients who come to my Chinese medicine hall to see a doctor.

Once she came, it had just opened, she called the older people uncles and aunts or something, and poured water for them, those people were a lot of people from the countryside, some were quite poor, she looked very distressed, I said I didn't want them to have some money, Sister Xu said that I was really kind-hearted, and said that she could come to pay, I was afraid that I didn't want her money at that time, and the Chinese medicine hall could not be opened, so there was no way to help more people.

Probably because of these, I also like Sister Xu very much.

But I can't say a lot of things because she is a good person, and I don't have ideas, such as many things between men and women.

Sometimes I think I'm not wrong with her, her husband is like that, and sometimes I think even so, they didn't get divorced, and I shouldn't be.

I was caught between that attraction and that moral condemnation.

That day, I walked to the place where she took Niuniu to play basketball last time, and I saw that she happened to be there, not only was she there, but her husband was also there, and they were playing basketball with Niuniu.

She smiled happily, Niuniu also smiled, and Ding Kai was also laughing there.

When I stood behind the pine tree and saw all this, I suddenly realized that she was on a business trip and would have to live a few days, but in fact, she was not on a business trip, she was just avoiding me.

Watching their family of three having a good time, looking at Niuniu so cute.

It's very warm to watch all this, and I thought of what Sister Chen said to me, there are many rich couples in Nancheng, there are outside, but it doesn't affect their lives, they know each other, but they look very open, and they won't get divorced.

Sister Chen also said that marriage, in fact, whoever marries is almost the same in the end, it is nothing more than tea, rice, oil and salt, they are just a pastime in ordinary life.

At that moment, I thought about it, don't mess around with her anymore.

I don't want to be her pastime, I should go the right way.

I should have gone and lived that normal life, or else my life would have been ruined.

And she has a family, and she has children, she can't give sincerely.

She was older than me, and she said she loved me, but she was just lying to me.

The more I think about it, the more heartache I feel, and then there is some anger, in fact, there should be no anger, don't I also get my happiness? It's just that I'm not supposed to be emotionally invested. If I don't get emotionally engaged, that's a fair thing to do, and that's not a problem at all.

It's not good to say that I'm not good, and I can't blame others, but it's not a good taste to think about it in my heart.

Anyway, I won't continue with her, even if she says she misses me and wants to meet me, I don't want to continue anymore, I don't want to do this anymore.

When I got back that day, I drank, and then I got drunk, and I thought about it over and over again, and the more I thought about it, the more I became more and more determined.

It should be stopped in time and not to suffer from the pain between men and women.

Be sure to make up your mind.

So a few days later, Sister Xu took the initiative to call me.

On the phone, she whispered, "Miss you, little villain!" ”

She said very sensitively, I think you are really prodigal, you said that you didn't go on a business trip, you played with your husband with Niuniu.

You said that you and your husband have been separated for a long time, maybe they are still doing that kind of thing together, you say a lot of intimate things, you say that you love me, and you call me husband, I think all this is just to coax me.

"Really? What do you think? What's going on? I asked her, and she said, "I, I think about everything, I think in my heart, I will miss you every day, little husband!" ”

She came to tempt me again, thinking that day with her at her house, her husband sleeping next door, we were doing that kind of thing, I think she was really profligate.

Thinking about it, she still had some great temptation for me.

Such a woman naturally has an incomparably great temptation for men, but at this time, I have to resist.

"You're a wave!" After I said that, she gasped and said, "That's right, I can't control myself in front of you, I can't restrain myself, I can't stand it when I think of you." She said obediently, even more profusely.

"Have you said the same to other men?" After I said that, she hurriedly said, "No, what's wrong with you?" How do you ask this? ”

I suddenly became indifferent and said, "It's nothing, we're just playing, in fact, you and I both know what's going on, it's dishonorable, it's unseemly, it's not to be said." And now I think about it, I don't want to be like this anymore, I want to live a normal life anymore, I don't want to be like this anymore. ”

After hearing this, she said with some uneasiness: "Well, good, good! ”

I didn't say anything more and hung up.

After breaking up with Sister Xu, I didn't associate with Lisa, but devoted myself to my work.

I love my job and have been inspired to become a doctor since I was a teenager. It would be because a Chinese medicine grandfather treated my stomach disease, at that time I saw a lot of Western medicine, the family spent a lot of money, sometimes the pain in class was shivering, the lips were blue, and then the old man prescribed me a bottle of Chinese medicine pills, I took it and it was fine, and I have never committed it again.

The old man was a very good man, he was relatively poor in those days, he lived alone in the mountains, and later I often used my spare time to pick up scrap copper and scrap iron to sell, and get some money to buy something to thank him.

He felt that I was a good boy, and then he told me if I wanted to learn Chinese medicine with him, he had no children and no daughters, and wanted to hand over Chinese medicine to me, so I learned from him, and when it was time to take the university entrance examination, my grandfather said that I wanted to take the university entrance examination, and I had to be admitted, and I did not have a university diploma, and I was not qualified to treat patients in the future, and he was arrested several times for the so-called illegal practice of medicine.

Later, I was admitted to the University of Chinese Medicine.

When my grandfather left, he told me that he wanted to treat the poor and pity them, and I always kept it in mind.

After about three months like this, one day I was seeing a patient and was about to leave work, when I looked up and saw Sister Xu sitting in front of me.

I was stunned, she looked even more beautiful than before, her complexion was so good, the weather was cold, she was wearing a black fluffy trench coat, her skin was very fair, because it was cold, the room was warm, and her skin looked more tender.

Those dark and deep eyes, breathtaking, like autumn waves, her eyes are the most beautiful I have ever seen, God is really powerful, can create such perfect and beautiful eyes.

Elegant, she is really an elegant woman.

"What's wrong?" I asked her, and she lowered her head slightly and said, "Oh, I'm a little uncomfortable." ”

I looked at her and said, "What's going on?" What's uncomfortable? ”

"Oh, there." She said seriously, as if she was a little embarrassed, and gently stroked the hair from her ear with her hand.

I think it's probably due to irregular menstruation!

But judging from her charming expression, she seemed to mean something else.

You want me to give her a needle!