Looking into her eyes, I felt that she thought that I should not be in a relationship and get married, and she was full of expectations, because she knew that I helped her at the time, and as for how she knew, I found out later.

"Oh, I'm talking about a girlfriend." After I said, I don't know why I didn't dare to look at her directly, I looked at the side slightly, in fact, she left me at that time, although I loved her, missed her, experienced a long time of pain, and then the pain was numb, let go, and then I went back to China, I came together with Lisa, that time, I had a cold and fever, Lisa has been taking care of me, for two years, Lisa has paid a lot for me, although I feel that I have no passion with her, but I am moved, Lisa is very good to me, 100 obedient, she likes me very much.

At that time, I thought that I would definitely get married and have children in the future, and it would be better with Lisa, if Sister Xu didn't leave me at that time, or told me that she loved me and asked me to wait for her, I would be alone.

It's just that there are no assumptions in life, time has passed, and three years later, I have my new life.

"Oh, that's good!" She was stunned for a moment, then a little unnatural, but said quite generously, and then said happily: "Then your parents must be very happy, what does your girlfriend do?" ”

"She is the daughter of my great-uncle I know, she is relatively simple and kind." I laughed and said that these words were just instinctive.

"That's good, good, get married early!" After she said that, she didn't say anything, I didn't look at her all the time, just nodded slightly.

After eating a good meal, everyone chatted together, Sister Xu suddenly talked more, she lived in Inner Mongolia for more than ten years when she was a child, her female classmate said that it must be colder over there this season, and she wanted to go there to play, she smiled and said: "Go at this time, you can't stand it." It's cold over there, and it's like a knife slashing your face. ”

"Then you can find us a few Mongolian big men to warm up." One of her female classmates said.

"I don't know many Mongolians, and besides, I don't feel like a muscular man, but if it's strong, it's very powerful."

"Have you tried?" Sister Ren laughed.

"How could I? I'm scared when I see them, but men should like women over there, they're tall and plump, and if I'm a man, I'll like them, and it's very comfortable to lie on them......"

At that time, it was winter, and it had been snowing in Nancheng for a few days, and it was snowing outside again.

Her face was already a little red because the heating was turned on in the house, and the white skin would be obvious, but now the flush seemed to be more obvious, and the light in her eyes was brighter, she was wearing a white tight woolen sweater, her hair was tied very neatly, and it looked really smelly, but thinking of what I just said, I don't know why my heart hurts slightly.

The laughter of the women faded in my ears, I lit a cigarette, smoked it, and we left.

They were going to sing, and they asked me to come along, and they were right next to me, and I said I had something to do.

Everyone wore coats together, I saw Sister Xu pick up the tweed trench coat at the back, the style was very good-looking, after putting it on, tidying up, she paid attention to the image, and when tidying up, I looked at her a little distractedly.

Her eyes suddenly lifted, just her eyes raised, those phoenix-like eyes, dazed, deep, it seemed that only this glance was the gaze of the past, seeing my heart, let me see her who she used to be, and it was just this glance, she lowered her eyebrows, sorted out her clothes, and then picked up her bag and walked out with the others.

I followed behind me and looked at her back, the familiar and elegant back, she looked so different, talking to other people, with a smile on her face.

At that moment, I missed her, but I knew that I already had Lisa and couldn't do that anymore. And I don't know what she thinks.

When I went out, the snow was blowing outside, and I said goodbye to them.

When it was time for her, Sister Xu looked at me and smiled generously and said, "Drive slower on the road!" ”

"Well, Sister Xu, take care!" After I said that, I quickly turned around, walked to the side of the car and pulled the car door, sat in the car, they waved to me, and I saw Sister Xu standing in the corner, motionless there.

At the meeting, I saw in the rearview mirror that they didn't seem to be singing, they all got into the car, Sister Xu didn't drive, she walked to the side alone, and after walking down the steps, she walked directly into the snow.

Then I drove to the front, turned a corner, and then at another intersection, I saw her walking along the road.

She walked across from my original Chinese medicine hall, where she sat on a bench, and the snow kept falling, and she sat there alone, letting the snow fall on her.

Later I learned that she was looking forward to it that day, but it was like this.

Sitting in the car, I parked the car at a distant intersection, the car was covered with snow, I sat in the car and smoked, it was warm in the car, looking at her, I thought about it for a long time.

Bits and pieces of the past come to mind.

That summer, when we went back to the county seat of our hometown, we were so happy, full of happiness, a young woman was happy like a shy girl.

I could have spent so much money and risked a lot to save her, but at that moment, I didn't pass.

Sometimes I feel like I'm a very contradictory person in some way, I want to be rebellious, but I'm bound by traditional morality, just like I used to be, I want to be like her, I can't resist the temptation, but her husband treats her like that, I sometimes feel that I'm immoral with her.

Probably related to the original family, my father instilled in me those rules and regulations since I was a child, he said that he was generally right, but sometimes he didn't give his children any ideas of their own, I felt that I was shrouded, so I wanted to rebel, I used to be too honest, and then I always wanted to rebel.

When it comes to resisting temptation, you have to experience temptation first, and if you haven't experienced anything, how can you resist it?

She sat there like that, and after an hour or so she left.

After meeting her that day, I got to work.

One day I was in the office of the company, and a girl walked in and said to me, "Scumbag! ”

I froze and looked up at her.

She looks very temperamental, tall, fashionably dressed, quite plump, I have always been not very interested in young girls, peers, even if she is good-looking, but she is a little special.

"Who do you say? Who let you in? I hurriedly picked up the phone, and the security department said: "Mr. Gu, she, she said it's your girlfriend, I, I ......"

"In the future, no one can come in except me, without my permission!" I put down the phone and looked at her and said, "When did I have a girlfriend like you?" What are you doing? ”

"Isn't it worthy of you? Do you think you're handsome? Rich, right? She squinted her eyes, a little fierce look, and looked a little cute.

"I don't have the time to talk nonsense with you, what's the matter? Don't say it, get out of here! I said in a bad tone.

"Did you play with my sister and abandon it like this?" She suddenly said pitifully.

I'm stunned, Sister Xu's sister?