Those five or six hours were purgatory, and I can't remember it. There staring at the phone, my person is in the hospital, and if there is a situation over there, they will tell me immediately.

This time I reunited with Sister Xu, she told me that in the year I was in prison, she went to a temple in Nancheng, and the monk told her that she was in bad luck with me, and that we would have trouble together, so she tried her best to restrain herself, but every day I thought about it, I couldn't sleep, and I took sleeping pills.

I think it's possible, but that love has too much energy. With other women, I can't find that feeling, only with her, I can swim freely in the water like a fish.

The day I knew her, it had been a long time since I thought about it, and I was filled with instinctive desire for her, and I didn't expect that I would fall in love with her so much that I went crazy. At that time, I had just stepped into the society, opened a small Chinese medicine hall, while seeing a doctor, while giving massage, friendly and polite, I thought that in the future, I could buy a house in Nancheng with one million. In the future, if I fall in love, get married, have children, and bring my parents to Nancheng, then I think I feel very good that I have a female classmate, and we should be able to fall in love.

But after meeting Sister Xu, everything was different. I love her with sincerity and purity, my first time for her, it seems to me that will never be erased, I always think that she is the woman of my life, I am careful, sometimes stretched, I don't tell her, I don't want our love to be mixed with anything else. Just want that love is pure, she loves me very much, baby me, treats me like a little one, she seems to see all my thoughts.

Sometimes take me to eat delicious food, eat Western food, I start to think about which hand holds a knife, fork, in fact, it doesn't matter, but there will be no money, reluctant to go to those places, she sees it in her eyes, and tells me, I am the best, especially at that time, she looks at me and touches my face, let me be a king, she gives me the confidence to face women. She would always ask how my parents were doing, and let me call my parents more, but don't marry a daughter-in-law and forget my mother!

At that age, I felt that everything seemed a little blurry, I couldn't understand her clearly, I understood her words and her state of mind when she faced me.

As I grew up, I came to understand that she was a loving, mature woman. Of course, in front of me, the later it gets, the smaller the feeling.

Her kindness seems to be innate, and even feels that it has nothing to do with her parents, it is a soul who came into the world through them. She has never looked down on people because of how much money she has, she has any kind of contempt, she seems to be afraid that she will make people feel like that, and the beauty in her heart seems to be not of this world, like a clear spring.

People who know her, as long as they say that they are not that kind of evil person, it is difficult to say that they hate her, they like her a lot, and she has that kind of energy.

Thinking of her situation, many images of the past flashed through my mind, and I was afraid of this feeling, I guess it wasn't a goodbye.

At that moment I felt a sense of heart, a sixth sense, I felt that very real energy, I was calling out to her, and she kept shouting, and she seemed to be telling me that she had heard, and then there was silence, and the ups and downs were like she was struggling, and she knew that she couldn't leave me, that I couldn't lose her.

Keep praying for her, God, don't take away such a beautiful woman, don't, you let me see her, see the beauty, I can't do without, don't take her!

The phone rang suddenly, I hurriedly picked up the phone, I didn't dare to answer, I was afraid to hear something bad.

Answering the phone, my hands trembled.

I got the good news that Sister Xu was out of danger.

What a blessing it was for me.

As long as she was fine, I leaned there, tears welling up in my eyes, and I lit a cigarette and smoked hard.

I think all the tribulations are nothing, as long as you are well, I think if you are in an extremely safe place, even if you forget me, just don't remember me, can not worry about me, don't want to save me, the future life can be very happy, just when we have not come, I can hold the suffering of longing, although this suffering is very bitter, but what is compared to life? It's nothing, when you feel worried about the life of the person you love and out of danger, you will feel that those are not so important compared to her life.

This also allows me to think openly when facing some things in the future.

Life needs to go through these things to be experienced, and sometimes I feel that a thing may not be so serious and I think it can't be passed. Actually, it doesn't have to be that serious.

I was still worried, but my people kept bringing me good news over time.

Just transient amnesia, started in the intensive care unit, unable to eat.

Later, I knew that she was crazy that day, and she quarreled with her mother, and her mother also had a strong temper, so she asked her to choose me or her, all kinds of serious words, saying that it was good for her, saying that it was a disaster to follow me, those people would not let me go, and if I followed, my life would be ruined in the future.

She cried, begged, angry, crazy, her mother always pressed her with filial piety, for kind-hearted people, this is a weakness, it seems that no matter how your parents are, they can only endure it, if you don't accept it, you are not filial. What a terrible thing that is.

Sister Xu and I knew that we would face too many tribulations, the enemy was too strong, and it was unrealistic for you to fight them without paying the price.

But I also know that no matter how great the tribulation, we are born as human beings, and we must have the belief that we will not admit defeat, and as long as there is a chance, I will not let them kill me, and then laugh there, I can't accept it.

Whatever the consequences, I'll admit it, but I don't want it to be that way.

No matter how I am, as long as she is fine, even if I am covered in mud in the future, as long as she is well, it will be fine.

It was two days before I was able to relax and eat.

But my heart has always been painful for her, and the thought of her suffering makes me feel pain too.

When I was fine, I sat on the prairie, looking south, looking in the direction of Nancheng.

I think one day those people were brought to justice, everything was calm, Sister Xu and I snuggled up on the grassland, and we still had a few children, and she said she wanted to give me several children. Said that her ass is great, she can give birth, and she must be beautiful when she is born.

It must be yes, one day, we hugged each other warmly, I chopped wood to feed the horses, she washed and cooked, in the sun, I happily looked at this big baby, the woman who belonged to me, the woman who was connected to my heart, that would make me fearless, no regrets in this life.

What a blessing that is!

The thought of that gives me an extremely strong motivation.

Uncle Lu called me half a month later, and he brought me an opportunity.