32. Aromatic tangled
"For the first time, I thought it would be better for me not to be so impulsive at that time, but now I seem to be in a more awkward situation...... Well, it's not too bad, though. ”
Aroma looked at the crowded streets at night with some interest.
After doing the math, Aroma found that she didn't have much time left. Because of the stubbornness of the early years, she overdrew the strength she gained in the future and life, and objectively speaking, whether the "cost performance" is high or low, Aroma herself can't say, but she can still be sure of one thing, that is, this behavior must be worth it.
What you have made up your mind to do, you can look back, sigh, or even regret it in the future, but if you question its own value...... That's really too cowardly.
It's just that, thinking of the information she just got from Aisha, Fang Xiang still realized what it means to be "people are not as good as heaven" - originally, she also planned to use the clues and evidence collected this time to deal a serious blow to that evil and mysterious organization before the end of her life...... The size and concealment of this organization is much more exaggerated than Fang Xiang once thought, even if it took ten years, she didn't get to know the details of this organization, but Fang Xiang, who has mastered a few key clues, still has some confidence that she can break one or two hands of the other party. But now......
"Hey, do you startle snakes? It's a headache...... That's why I don't like this kind of mission!"
If something happens to me at this time, it is not easy to take the initiative in information. Maybe it's going to be lost again because of this—maybe it's best to let it go?, but it's a bit of a loss for the aroma.
Is this really the rhythm of going to death in a bland way?
Obviously, she used to be a nun who was cut off when she was evil, and she waited until she cut it for more than ten years. Not to mention that when the body and even the soul have begun to get used to slashing people, they are silently transferred to perform an extremely cheating task...... Let a believer who believes in the light give up his human body to go undercover in a mysterious organization as a black magician, I have to say that if this kind of mission is not because he happens to have such an example of himself, he will probably be ignored in the Holy See.
However. Ten years of letting a nun who serves the light play a thoroughly wicked person actually feels far more exhausting than Aroma once thought. It's not that she's not determined enough to be persistent, even if it's for her to kill innocent people. Aroma can also say sorry in her heart with tears in her eyes, and at the same time show an excited and cruel smile and mercilessly kill the killer - she just feels tired. For more than ten years, people with sins around her can be seen everywhere, but she must suppress the "instinct" to sanction them, and at the same time. She also had to kill a lot of innocent people. Aroma has all of this in mind.
Although she herself knows that it is impossible for the innocent people who were killed by herself to prevaricate the past with the words "necessary sacrifice", people are watching the sky, no matter how many reasons there are, the crimes they have committed with their own hands cannot be whitewashed with words. If she could, she would prefer the end of her life. I can make up for some of the sins of the past ten years - even if there is no meaning in knowing the Tao, but. At least make yourself feel a little more relaxed.
But now it seems that it is not working.
The organization had just been cheated by Xia, a peripheral member, unintentionally or unintentionally, and now it must be very tense. Originally, Aroma's plan could have dealt a heavy blow to the organization, but now after Aisha's analysis, she found that what she did in the plan could not cause fatal damage to the organization's plan. And if because of her own actions, the organization begins to converge, after her own death, it is still a big question whether the Holy See can send additional personnel to infiltrate the organization that has increased its vigilance. After all, if you encounter two major betrayals in a short period of time, no matter how careless the other party is, they will raise their vigilance on the issue of recruiting members, right?
At that time, it was difficult to get the inside information of this mysterious organization.
“...... Whew—it's a little annoying. ”
He exhaled a long breath and fragrantly combed his somewhat boring mood.
Maybe some people like to die quietly, but Fang Xiang is not that kind of character after all, besides, if she looks back on her life, she will be very embarrassed to find that her life experience really has nothing to do with that quiet and peaceful way of leaving.
If you think about it, if a person like himself dies in such a plain way, there is really an inexplicable sadness...... It's a little depressing. According to what Aroma thinks, it's better to be a little more vigorous, okay? It's just that the current situation doesn't allow for this at all......
"Even when the last one dies, do you have to be a black magician? ”
Fang Xiang shook her head, and drove these thoughts out of her head that made her somewhat depressed - in the past, she would not have been so "sad and sentimental" at all, right? Most of you think that you who have the energy to worry about these things now can be classified as a group of people who "moan without disease", right?
Speaking of which, just now, I thought it would be okay, but it turned out to be the end of the matter - the child named Lin, who was very optimistic about her, was not suitable for accepting her strength.
In order to obtain the power to punish all evils, Fang Xiang herself gritted her teeth and withstood the unimaginable and unbearable torture of ordinary people, and even paid for decades of her life, and this strength continued to grow in her past life, and finally reached an unprecedented level even in the history of the Holy See.
Aroma itself is not absolutely admired for the strength she has - she has always believed that she can make herself invincible. It's not such specific strength, but the firm belief and persistence that flows in my heart. In the beginning, the strength was stronger than her, but eventually fell at her feet. And there are a lot of demonic ways that have become the nutrients for her growth. Although, after that, she never saw an evil person who could defeat her in a head-on battle.
Even, many times, Aroma does not choose to release the powerful light power in her body. Just choose the most direct white-knuckle battle, and use the most primitive means to dismember those criminals - because once you use that too strong force, you can easily crush the enemy in front of you. Such an almost crushing crusade made Fang Xiang worry about whether she would gradually lose herself in it and become a slave of "strong power". In order to avoid their dependence on this absolute force. In the absence of the necessary reasons. She prefers to use some ordinary blessed Demon Breaker Blade - as a result, this situation has made her colleagues think that she has a strange paranoia and penchant for brutal killing, and over time, she herself has become somewhat obsessed with this method of brutal execution of the wicked by inhuman means.
Fang Xiang knew that this was a disease, but for her who was quite paranoid and lacking in her mental state, it was also an extremely rare behavior that could bring her "joy" emotions. And. Compared to the blind pursuit and trust of those colleagues in the powerful power of light, Fang Xiang is still more willing to use this morbid psychology. to maintain their own scales. She doesn't blame those who disagree with her, but what she pursues is slightly different from her peers—she needs to be on top of it at all times, because there's no guarantee when she'll need to go out to slay the intractable demons, and she has to put out the haughty emotions that are the deadliest for someone like her, who can almost walk on the edge of the light. The emotion of arrogance, put on other people, just makes them difficult to get along with, but if it is changed to themselves, it is not good to say that one day this emotion will distort and degenerate their thoughts and mentality, and maybe it will be.
For the amount of power she has, Fang Xiang is actually not disgusted - just kidding, she has paid enough for her consciousness and paid enough price, and such a powerful force is completely what she deserves. It can even be said that when there is no fighting, Aroma is often satisfied with the power of light surging and boiling in her body...... It's not pride, it's not pride, it's just that I'm simply happy that I have such strength and the resources of such a strong man.
In other words, Aroma has always loved herself.
At that time, there were many people in the Holy See who cared about her, and in their eyes, this young girl was a person who did not cherish herself. In order to get enough power to slay demons and demons, she can destroy her life with her own hands, in order to carry out her persistence, she can not hesitate to let herself become a killing machine that others fear and exclude, and later, when there is no more difficult task for her, she can even give up her glory and throw herself into the darkness just to be able to obtain enough information...... There may be many people who are afraid of her, but there are still many people who will sigh for her after witnessing the trajectory of Aroma's life.
This was not supposed to be the life of a 14-year-old.
But they didn't know it, deep down in her heart, she had never been as humble as she looked like she was doing - what she did might seem like self-torture, but in fact, after experiencing the torture she faced in order to gain strength, and her childhood even more recently, this level of things was no longer "torture" in the eyes of Aroma.
She has always had feelings that she has no regrets about the life she has chosen. Contrary to what those people think, Aroma's almost masochistic madman's posture did not stem from the initial psychology of atonement, nor was it based on hatred for the evil ways that brought disaster to the innocent...... That kind of dependence is too weak, and that's what she thinks.
There's no reason not to love yourself.
My heart and my deeds are as clear as a mirror, and everything I do is righteous...... Since I have done this, even if it is only my own subjective opinion, then what is not to be happy about completing the posture I longed for and becoming the person I longed for in the past?
The same is true for the amount of power she possesses - years before she threw herself into the darkness, Aroma couldn't find an enemy that could let her go in battle, but even so. While she discarded the powerful power of light in battle, she continued to strengthen it in normal times. Because I can see that there is such a bright and clear light in my body, this light is getting stronger and stronger. Until you look at it, you will have the illusion of being burned...... You won't be upset, will you?
The power of light, which is purer than anyone else, is exactly what she believes in what she does.
The most important thing is that this is still a sustenance in the heart of the fragrance itself - if it is just a simple and powerful force, although the fragrance will be happy, but it will never be valued, because that kind of "force" is to put it bluntly. It's just a by-product of their own growth and strength, and they can do it to a great extent. It's just a "tool" to fight with others.
But Aroma has paid almost her entire life for it, but it's not so simple.
If the power of light in other people is the amount of power applied to oneself, then the power of light flowing in the fragrant body. Its essence. But it is a bond, a bond that can be handed over and passed on. In order to gain this power, Aroma chose what could almost be called "heresy", which even in the Holy See is an either-or-nothing approach...... Because once it fails, although people are not going to die, but. He will also become an evil demon that the Holy See cannot tolerate, and it will follow. It's a merciless crusade. It's just that under the double pressure of body and mind, the fragrance finally succeeded.
It is precisely because Aroma is the only successful example of a taboo that has challenged the taboos of the Holy See for thousands of years, that she has been able to obtain more restraint than anyone else. If it were someone else, even if there was a good reason to make the scene miserable in front of others, like Fang Xiang, he would be severely punished and warned that he must not commit a second time, right? Because such an act is not only very damaging to the image of the Holy See, but most importantly, it itself represents that the person who committed this act is already in a rather dangerous state psychologically. Such a person is already occupied by a certain degree of darkness in his heart, and if he is bewitched by the outside, the possibility of betraying the light is definitely not low.
This is definitely not uncommon in the history of the Holy See.
Aroma is an exception. Having challenged the taboos of the Holy See, and succeeded, is in itself a sign that her heart is resilient enough to be stronger than anyone in the history of the Holy See. The concept of the same act made by her is completely different - if it weren't for the fact that she chose to kill and stop killing, she would definitely be offered the position of saint.
However, it is precisely because of the fragrance of a "monster" that most people are afraid of, that there are no restrictions in the Holy See and has never undergone any punishment, and the rumor that "the Holy See keeps monsters in captivity" will spread...... Of course, the demonization of the Holy See is something that many non-believers like to see, and there was a time when the Holy See's actions were indeed a bit extreme, so the Holy See had nothing to do about such rumors. Fortunately, Fangxiang's aunt's judgment of "evil" is still quite rigorous, and she really hasn't taken this kind of verbal harm to heart to heart.
And the light power held by Fang Xiang also has a different characteristic, and she has never told anyone in the Holy See, even the Pope, she is just as tight-lipped as she is. Because no one has ever succeeded in the past, everyone sees that Fang Xiang has more powerful and abundant power than ordinary people, and they just think that this is the reason why this "taboo" is dangerous. And in fact, the reason why Aroma is not mentioned to any member of the Holy See is because of this property, which is really a bit terrifying.
Her light power can be transmitted to others, and once she leaves the original "master" and finds a new "host", her power will be even stronger than before. Theoretically, if it is passed down from generation to generation, this light will shine more and more brightly, and it will become more and more powerful, and it may be unknown when the limitations of human beings or living beings will be broken......
Perhaps, this is the reason why it is listed as "taboo"?
After all, in theory, as long as the inheritance continues, one day, it can create a god, a god from the light...... Although the current Holy See is much more lenient than in the past, Fang Xiang still feels that it is not appropriate to say such a crooked thing.
Because she was not sure that the Holy See would be able to accept this power—and she very much wanted it to be passed on.
After the first baptism, the fragrance knows very well that it is not just the power of power, it can even be said that it should not be called "the power of light" - it is the purest light. Not as others thought, it was the power that Aroma had received from the gods, and Aroma was clear that she didn't feel anything from the outside world blending into her body from the beginning to the end...... On the contrary, it was my heart that first felt the warmth that this light brought to me.
This is the light that comes from one's own heart. It is for this reason that the fragrant power of light grows much faster than others, because it grows in a different way than others.
Aroma is desperate to find someone who can take on this light.
Although the strength of his whole body has now become dark in nature, but because the starting point of this light is his own heart, although there is no such huge gift of light power, but the original fire is still there, if you can find a new host, I believe it will be stronger than in the fragrance of your own.
However, this selection is a big question.
Because it is the power of light that comes from the heart, if you can't make Fang Xiang feel the resonance of her heart, you don't have to think much about it to know that a person like Lu Dao can't be the inheritor at all, right? In the past, Fang Xiang was very sorry, she didn't meet a single person in the church...... Later, the wild black mage Xia was unexpectedly fragrant and had sufficient qualifications, but after all, the complicated situation on Xia's side, and the fragrance also knew a little bit about it, so it could only be ruled out.
Before, Lin, who was unexpectedly fragrant, was very in line with the standard of aroma - but unfortunately, Lin's situation was similar to Xia's, and it seemed that Lin's strength still came from her soul, and there was no way to even rebuild it......
In the past, the fragrance of the gods who had never panicked in the face of several demon lords was really entangled at this moment.
Can't you find anyone?(To be continued......)