Chapter 4 – Returning Home
We all expected each other to speak first, but awkwardly, neither of us spoke. I withdrew my eyes from him, quickly lowered my head, and smiled. His steps were light, and I saw his shadow getting closer and closer to me when I didn't even pay attention. Until I saw his feet.
He raised my chin with his index finger as before, and I didn't know how, but I didn't resist like I had when I was a child, and just looked at him quietly. After some time, I looked away, and coughed a few times as if there was phlegm in my throat. He didn't seem to hear it, but I didn't know if he heard it, and continued to look at my whole body.
I finally couldn't help it, "Have you finished reading?" The corners of my eyes and eyebrows were thin down, and my words revealed a trace of entanglement that I wanted to give up and reluctant.
"I'm sorry" He silently took a few steps back, turned to me, and continued to sit cross-legged on the mat, taking out a string of beads in his hand, keeping the original silence.
I am very fond of antiques, and when I saw the string of beads in his hand, it was a supreme treasure, and I quietly walked to his side and squatted first, and then saw that he ignored me for a long time, so I took the cushions around me casually, and did not sit upright like him, on the contrary, I was like a little ruffian, and I would change my posture for a while. I looked closely at the string of beads, it was sandalwood, and in the middle was a small steamed bun-like ivory.
I was about to take a good look at this treasure, but his head was slowly turned sideways, and his indifferent eyes did not show any brilliance.
"Where did this string of beads come from, and how much did it cost you?"
"The old man sent ......," he said, his eyes becoming more affectionate, and he looked at the Tibetan family on the mural, pausing for a few seconds. In the past few seconds, he may have been recalling something from the past. My first impression of him was that he had a lot of stories, a lot of pain, and a lot of thoughts......
I secretly gave him the name "Mo Sanduo" in my heart, and snickered again, joking with him: "Which old man who is not long-eyed casually gave you a string of priceless treasures?"
His eyes were sharp, he stopped plucking the beads and stabbed me mercilessly. I didn't know what to do for a while, and I wanted to explain that I was just a casual joke and didn't mean to target him. But I also understand that he is such a cold person, not only in his body, but also in his heart, that he should not trust anyone as easily as I do, so it can be seen that what I say in front of him is simply. To my surprise, however, he would be angry at me for an unintentional move. Although he didn't say it, and he couldn't even find a trace of expression on his face, his eyes were so terrifying at that moment that I can still remember his eyes, and they were very clear.
On his face, a pair of ethereal eyes seemed to be able to release polar ice, and I unconsciously stepped back, but his eyes were still staring at me. I sat on a mat with my ass on it, looking scared. I always felt that my whole body was in the extreme cold realm, and I got goosebumps all over my body.
"I ...... I...... Right...... Right...... I'm sorry, I didn't know it was so important to you......" I was scared to the point of incoherence. It's funny that I wanted to read him and understand his psychology, and then took the opportunity to use the Xu Tai who controlled him no longer exists, and now there is a soft and pinched empty skin bag left.
I closed my eyes and turned my head, thinking that he would be angry at the crown and kill me as easily as he did when he pinched the imp to death with his bare hands at the funeral home, and maybe he wouldn't even have the strength. Now that I think about it, I'm so scared, and those who don't smile at me is an effect.
He straightened up, his face full of disdain, and walked straight towards me, and I could feel the gust of wind that he carried as he walked past the candles on either side, coming from all directions, sending a chill down my spine.
He stretched out his hand and patted me on the shoulder, his face was full of arrogance and disdain, my closed eyes gradually opened, he stretched out his hand in front of me, I ignored him in a daze, his hand shook again, and suddenly I woke up.
I reached out to him a sweaty hand, and he didn't hesitate when he touched my sticky hand. In an instant, he held it strongly, and pulled me, a strong man, up. At this time, the other hand was still rubbing the string of Buddhist beads.
In order to avoid embarrassment, I smiled indifferently on my pale face, and complimented: "Mo Guardian, I'm really sorry." I, Xu Tai, am a rough person, I don't know any noble rules, I have no sense of proportion, if you are offended, please be magnanimous!" I stood with difficulty, my legs were still shaking unconsciously, as if I had walked a 25,000-mile long march in one go, and I became a waste man who could be paralyzed at any time.
"It's not a rule that must be followed, I just don't want to see a junior's vexatiousness, and I don't want to see a person who is willing to die for me fall into the abyss. His eyes overflowed with a deep sadness and melancholy, but a firm and powerful feeling came from nowhere. "Chenxi, why are you so strange, why are you so sudden?"
It was like a bolt from the blue in my head, why? Do I care if he calls me by the wrong name or does I care about the simple phrase "it became so sudden." The corners of my mouth twitched slightly at the corner of half of my face, heh, fool, this is the person you care about.
I finally exposed my true self, reversed the gentleness I had just given him, and showed the hypocritical smile I used to treat ordinary people: "What am I talking about, big brother, you recognize the wrong person, my name is Xu Tai, there has never been any Chen Xi, it seems that your brain has been rusted for sixteen years and still hasn't turned around." I have never changed, since a liar deceived my heart, my bones have been soaked with deception and hypocrisy, I will give you another advice: your indifference cannot stand, but my hypocrisy can step on the obstacles.
He was stunned and silent.
After a while, his body towards the gate suddenly turned towards me, blocking the little light I was still greedy and inhaling, "I am not mistaken, this matter is very important, and the bell must be tied to the bell, and you must let your father explain it to you personally." ”
I snorted, "That old thing, that old thing, that shitch who abandoned his wife and children and only ran away? I don't want to look for him at all, the important thing is that we can't find him." ”
"Don't you want to know the truth? Why do you see evil spirits? Why does your father run away? Why do you call Xu Tai? Why do I only look for you?"
I was taken aback by his aggressive presence, and I don't know where to start, but these are the questions I want to know. I knew that once I got into this pit, I would never want to get out. Once inside, I will be held accountable for my actions, and I will never wonder if it will cost me, perhaps my life. Do I want to know everything, am I just curious on a whim? But I already know very well that curiosity kills cats.
I felt that two personalities suddenly appeared, one was as weak and kind as God, and the other was cruel and fierce as Satan. One keeps telling me what it means to be careful, and if you step into this circle, you will never be able to turn over, and the other is instigating me to open Pandora's box. The two personalities quarreled fiercely, and what was even more terrifying was the question mark like a ghost hook, like a Sanskrit sound of exorcism and exorcism, and now I became a lonely ghost.
I knew that it was my own demons that were doing the trick, but I didn't know why I wanted to sprinkle the fire in my stomach on Mo Yu, I covered my head with both hands, squatted on the ground and got up suddenly, I didn't stand firm at the moment I just got up, my head was still slightly dizzy, and my eyes were dark, like a sick and weak scholar.
After a few shudders, I returned to normal, and the hateful eyes were just to hide my helpless, overwhelmed heart: "Enough, what do you want to do? What do you think you are?"
Seeing my angry look, he seemed even more flat: "I have no desires and no desires." ”
Hehe, I laughed, hastily and perfunctorily
"Then what am I waiting for you for? If you're just looking for an ordinary mortal to play tricks on like a pet, please let me go. Because, I'm not your dog. If you're just trying to laugh at me or take advantage of me, I'm not a tool!"
"I didn't look for you, but you yourself looked for me. ”
"Oh, okay, I was wrong, I came to this place because I was dizzy and got into the water!" I pointed at him and scolded. But then I also wondered why I was so angry because he made the psychology I had studied for so many years useless, and scolded him for making me wait so long without apologizing...... Actually, I don't know it myself.
After standing still for a long time, I was afraid that I would have too many flaws, so I turned around and left without saying a word. The moment I stepped out of the ancestral hall, it turned out to be morning, and I was startled by the sudden stinging sunlight, and the gloom in my heart for many years jumped like dust that had been beaten up, and scattered because there was nowhere to hide.
"Tatsuki, we're waiting for you. The sound spread to my ears, but it was warm and warm.
I shouldn't have looked back at him, anyway, I always had this face, and it would be embarrassing to look back, so I just stopped a few seconds late, clenched my hands into fists, and walked out resolutely.
"The door is open, no need to climb the wall. ”
He actually followed me, standing behind me all the time, watching me struggle to use my hands together, like a bear in a zoo sticking to the wall to reach the poor handouts of the visitors, I felt ridiculous myself, let alone look at his face now. I lost face. Don't expect to establish prestige in front of him, and this is the end of the first failed experiment of reading people.
It can't be compared to the scene in the dream at all. He didn't laugh, I didn't cry, he was as light as a spring, and I was as dry as a fire.
I laughed stupidly in the car on the way back, causing the driver to be baffled for a while, treating me like a madman and almost taking me to the hospital. I was embarrassed, withdrew my smile and thought to myself: What the hell is wrong with me?