"Chu Yunyun" doesn't have a deep memory of going to school, but remembers that the place where she lived at that time was very big and beautiful, and every time she went to another room, she had to run for a long time, and she was spoiled by her parents like a princess. At that time, she didn't think there was anything special about this kind of life, because she had been like this since she was born, and she had become accustomed to it, until her father began to return late and her mother was sad, she began to notice the difference around her, and for the first time she was afraid.

One day, the family moved to a very small house, and my mother said that she would live here in the future. Looking at the room that was not as big as her room at a glance, "Chu Yunyun" wanted to resist, but she didn't dare to say anything in front of her ugly parents and grandmother, so she had to accept it silently, but she always recalled the home she lived in before, and it also made her realize what the difference between rich and poor was.

The father who is always full of alcohol makes "Chu Yunyun" strange, and it also makes her disgusted, because her grandmother loves to talk to herself when doing housework, and she knows that all this is caused by her father now, but he doesn't want to solve it and keeps drinking, she doesn't like this kind of father, and she doesn't want to get close. It's been a long time since I've seen my mother laugh, some classmates in school bullied her, and she was scolded by the teacher for not doing well in the exam, she didn't dare to say this, because there was nothing that could make her mother laugh, so she had to hold it in her heart.

The death of her grandmother is the first time that "Chu Yunyun" feels that people really die, I used to hear my mother say that my grandparents died, she didn't have any special feelings in her heart, anyway, they didn't see each other much, it was the same for her. But this time it was different, her grandmother was always by her side, but when she died, she could never see her grandmother again, so who else could accompany her? And what did her grandmother's last sentence mean, what did she regret? What did she choose? Is "choice" a multiple-choice question she has done? There are times when it is right and wrong.

After not having a grandmother, "Chu Yunyun" felt that this room was actually not small, and she was still a little empty, no one accompanied her and no one talked to her, which made her always feel scared and couldn't help but want to curl herself up.

Since then, all she can remember is her father's drunkenness, crying, scolding, and her mother's tiredness and indifference. Gradually, she stopped talking, not crying, not laughing, not noisy, and remembering that when she heard other parents praise other people's children for being well-behaved, her mother should like it if she did it herself.

After graduating from elementary school, they moved back to their grandmother's city, where their mother grew up. Although the conditions here are worse and the buildings are more dilapidated, "Chu Yunyun" is very happy, because this is her grandmother's home, and she misses her grandmother very much, but she is afraid that her mother will be sad and has not dared to mention it. The most important thing is that she can change schools, and her classmates in the original school always scolded her as "a poor girl who was beaten back to her original form" and "the daughter of a gambler", and she hated to hear the word "gambler".

Although she changed to a new school and new classmates, "Chu Yunyun" still ranked at the bottom of the academic performance, especially the multiple-choice questions, which were almost wiped out, and she could only get single digits for papers like English, which had only multiple choice questions and essays.

Originally, her grades have been very good, maybe her grandmother's last words were too impressive, maybe her father was drunk and always said "I shouldn't have chosen this path" and "I shouldn't have met him again", maybe her mother's indifference acquiesced in her regretting her decision to choose her father, maybe it was ...... Many, many, let "Chu Yunyun" gradually realize that these "choices" are very important, and they will affect the life of a person or even a group of people, and if she is not careful, she will end up like the people around her who regret it, and live in pain forever.

"Chu Yunyun" was scared, afraid of all choices, even the multiple-choice questions on the paper made her feel afraid, especially looking at the more and more red X, which made her even more convinced that she could not and could not make any correct choice. As long as she stays quietly and accepts it silently, as long as she doesn't take the initiative to choose, even if she is wrong in the future, she won't have to suffer as painfully as they do.

Originally, life was relatively peaceful, but not long after the start of the second year of high school, an accident happened, and Tang Feibin announced in public that "Chu Yunyun" was his girlfriend. After the initial shock, she was happy and did not refute, let alone object. Although in the next two years, the "Chu Yunyun" labeled as someone's girlfriend is no different from before, she feels very satisfied, and will even make some plans for their future life, she must take care of her home very warm and comfortable, so that her children are no longer as cautious as herself, always shrinking in the corner and watching others laugh.

It's a pity that this kind of imagination can only become a fantasy, and on the eve of the college entrance examination, Tang Feibin officially announced that they broke up. There is no reason, no explanation, just a sentence of "let's break up", "Chu Yunyun" is even more shocked than when he knew that he had become his girlfriend. She had so much to say and a lot of questions to ask, but years of habit made her choose to accept it, so she nodded, watched him turn away without hesitation, and suddenly felt a little ridiculous.

How could she forget that she was not suitable for making a choice? Which of the lives she had fantasized about in the past two years was not chosen according to her own wishes? Although she was only secretly imagining it in her heart, she was too carried away, and sure enough, she couldn't even think about it, so she would still wait for the choice of others in the future.

The road after "Chu Yunyun" went very smoothly, he studied in a college that was not in the stream, and accepted a blind date not long after graduation, and after being selected by the man, he got married and had children, and lived an ordinary life. Both of them belonged to the type of people who lived together, and they didn't talk much except for the necessary exchanges, and the married life she had once fantasized about was not realized, and every day was just a numb mechanical life, without joy or sorrow, until she died in her sleep at the age of forty.

There are too many regrets in her life, but among these ten thousand regrets, if the most important one is to ask Tang Feibin why he broke up with him, obviously he didn't do anything wrong, and he didn't cause him trouble, and he didn't have anyone he liked, and he didn't even get married when he died, let alone heard that he had other girlfriends besides himself, perhaps, is he waiting for himself? This is the only time that "Chu Yunyun" has narcissism and extravagant hopes.

After receiving the memory, Chu Yunyun was a little tired and weak, not only physically, but also mentally and psychologically depressed and decadent, this should be the emotion of the original body, he can't be affected by her, he must calm down quickly.

"She can do it, she can sleep for a class. What did the old class think, saying that we should be equal and respectful and not arrange seats based on grades, then I can't arrange such a table, I don't feel that this is respect for me at all. Jiang Hui, who was at the same table, saw that Chu Yunyun had been sleeping since the beginning of class, and now that the next class was about to start, he hadn't opened his eyes yet, so he couldn't help but turn around and say to Xu Youyou, who was sitting behind.

"At the very least, she's quiet and won't disturb you. Bear with it for another month, it's going to be the end of the semester soon, and when the next semester begins, you will be reassigned directly according to the arts and sciences, and it is estimated that you won't be able to see her if you want to see her in the future. Xu Youyou persuaded, and then turned around, "Maybe the two of you have a special fate, and you will be at the same table in the future, you have to treat your classmates with a tolerant heart according to what the head teacher said." ”

"Don't, let the broad-minded people tolerate it to their heart's content. You don't know how much I envy you for talking and laughing with your tablemates, I want to hurry up to the next semester now, so that I can even save the final exams and the parent-teacher conference, how good. Jiang Hui clasped her hands together and looked forward to it excitedly.

"Dream less. Xu Youyou was amused by her appearance. "Lao Zhao is here, sit back. ”

"Oh, isn't it, I'm here early, I guess I have to drag the school after school, this devil, pity my juicy bun......" Seeing Lao Zhao walking in with a book, Jiang Hui couldn't help but wail quietly.