Xiao Yan sighed, and found that he was crying, he couldn't help but want to laugh, wiped away the tears, paced, and walked towards the Dantang.

I met the disciple who held the night again, but the disciple was obsessed with a certain legendary novel, and when he saw that it was Xiao Yan, he didn't come up to greet him, Xiao Yan settled down and stretched out his hand to push the door open.

In the Dan room, Lan Yan'er didn't know when she woke up, she had already changed her clothes, although she was wearing Xiao Yan's robe, but it was also very good-looking, she looked at the direction of the door of the Dan room, the figure was against the light, and her face was faint, but she was quite relieved.

Lan Yan'er hurriedly got up and saluted Xiao Yan.

"Tell me, I want to hear the truth. Xiao said disgustedly, his voice was cold and calm, and he couldn't hear any emotional ups and downs.

"Ah......" seemed to be squeezed out of the depths of her throat, and Lan Yan'er's expression hid a kind of helpless sadness, "I, my mother died in childbirth after giving birth to me, and my father was a gambler and lacked money, so he only raised me until I was twelve years old and sold me to Qinglou in exchange for gambling money." ”

"Since I was 12 years old, I have lived in a green house...... My mother taught me to sing, and in order not to pick up customers, I studied music very hard, and soon I was out of school and sang outside. Lan Yan'er said word by word, trying to hide her emotions, and her lips were bitten white.

Xiao Yan listened to this, and the blue smoke raised her head, compared to earlier today, her haggard expression and pale complexion were like the two of them, although her body was thin, but it was extremely exquisite, which made people feel pity. Xiao Yan no longer looked at her, but looked at the fire on the ground, which illuminated people warmly.

Lan Yan'er got up and poured a glass of water, drank it all, and continued to speak: "Suddenly one day, a distinguished guest came, and he made an extraordinary move, he saw that I was not bad, and he wanted to be my guest of the curtain, I had no choice, I really had no choice." Lan Yan'er choked up a little when she said this, "After that night, he told me that he was a monk and thought I was gifted, and asked me if I would like to be his furnace, and he was willing to teach me the Tao. ”

"I didn't want to at first, but he was too tough, ransomed for me, kidnapped me, and then in a cave, let me do what I didn't want to do, and when these days, when the Liangyi Mountain Tongtian Sword Sect accepted disciples, he ordered me to go to the door to be a miscellaneous disciple, and then seduce the male monks, absorb their Yuanyang, and then replenish him. ”

"I don't want to, but I can't control myself at some point. Lan Yan'er hugged her head in annoyance, she resented this powerlessness, this kind of irresistible and insubmissible.

She slowly spoke again: "I also hate myself for being dirty, but the only thing I don't want is to die, I don't want to die, I haven't lived enough, really." After Lan Yan'er finished speaking, her two eyes stared straight at Xiao Yan, this is the desire for life and the resistance to death.

"He promised to let you live?" Xiao Yan didn't believe in his heart, how could the demonic cultivators let her live.

"I, I don't know. Lan Yan'er smiled gloomily, "It's just my wishful thinking, and now that I have nothing to say, let you deal with it, Senior Brother Xiao." ”

"I won't deal with you, because something has passed, and the man has been killed, and you have no worries. Xiao Yan said to Lan Yan'er, "I regret what happened before, since this is the case, you have to live for yourself in the future." ”

Lan Yan'er bent her neck and lowered her head, her side face was hidden in the black shadow illuminated by the firelight, her face became obscure, Xiao Yan only heard her sigh shallowly, "How good it would be to die, how easy it would be to die, how difficult it would be to live." She repeated this sentence repeatedly, her face miserable, her eyes trembling, and her voice broken.

"How good it is to die, how hard it is to live, who isn't?" Xiao Yan repeated her words in a loud voice, "If that's the case, why should I bother to lift your demonic barrier, and throw you deep in the mountains, so that you will be eaten by wild beasts." ”

"What do you say I'm trying my best for?" Xiao Yan's voice gradually lowered, as if he was saying to Lan Yan'er, and as if he was saying to himself, "I think that what you did against your nature can be atoned for by your actions or forgiven, but before that, you have to pass your own level, do you understand? The person who hurt you has been punished, you are innocent, and now you are not thinking about how to die, but thinking about how to live." ”

"I don't want to hear about your death the next day after I saved you. Xiao Yan's voice became cold again, "That makes me look low." ”

"Senior Brother Xiao, please don't say that, Lan Yan'er's life was saved by you, what you want Lan Yan'er to do, Lan Yan'er will listen to you. ”

"Then let me tell you my story," Xiao Yan looked at Lan Yan'er with a pair of bright eyes, and said to her: "If I were still a beggar under the wall that year, it is estimated that I would not survive the snow of that winter, if I didn't work hard to beg along the street, I wouldn't have met my master, and naturally I wouldn't have had the opportunity to feel the fairy road, if I gave up, the corpse would have been eaten by wild dogs, and how could I be now." His voice is relaxed, but if you listen closely, there seems to be a hint of sadness and softness.

Xiao Yan is an outcast, born blind in one eye, raised by the kind-hearted neighborhood Grandma Wang, after Grandma Wang died, he was mixed in the street beggars, filthy, that year was cold early, he was thinly dressed and shivered all day long, stretched out his hand that was frozen and bruised to beg passers-by, but was kicked down again and again, Xiao Yi knew that his life was cheap, got up, continued to beg, and begged to give him some scattered silver taels to tell him to go away.

One night, by the moonlight, Xiao Yan had a very shabby old man, with a dirty face, dragging two broken shoes, kicking and kicking towards Xiao Yan, who was huddled in the shelter at the end of the alley, and asked him if he could hide from the wind here for a night. The old man saw that Xiao Yan was covered with bruises, so he asked Xiao Yan:

"You're so tired of living, have you ever thought about dying. ”

When Xiao Yan heard this, he felt very unreasonable, but it was impossible not to answer, trembling and shaking to drive away the cold air, and said: "I thought about it, but I don't want to take the initiative to choose to die, I want to wait for it to come to me." ”

The old man's eyes suddenly welled up with a lot of tiredness and sadness, as if in an instant, many wrinkles around his eyes suddenly disappeared, the old Long Zhong's body seemed to be ten years younger, and the dirt on his body disappeared automatically.

"What's your name?" the fairy asked him.

"I only heard Grandma Wang say that his deceased husband's surname was Xiao, but he had no name. Xiao said respectfully.

"Dao is intelligent, tired of death and life, you will be called Xiao Yan in the future, be my Tianjimen person. The fairy stroked the top of Xiao Yan's head with his hand, and the smoke and clouds under the feet of the two suddenly rose and ascended to the sky.

......

"In this way, Senior Brother Xiao and I are the same kind of people. After listening to Xiao Yan'er's story, Lan Yan'er wiped her tears, "In this case, I should continue to cultivate?"

Xiao didn't answer, was silent for a while, and spoke: "You are actually very talented, a rare aquatic spirit body, but," paused, "It's just that someone destroyed it." ”

Lan Yan'er's body stiffened, but she returned to normal, and said, "Senior Brother Xiao, in this way, is there any possibility for me to recover again." ”

"Yes," Xiao Yan nodded, "But you also need to work your own, complete the quenching as soon as possible, and then cooperate with the Water Spirit Pill to complete the recovery after washing the muscles and bones, but it's ......"

"But what?" Lan Yan'er asked eagerly.

"Washing the muscles and cutting the bones is like rebuilding, if you want to hold the spirit body undefeated, you must maintain the integrity, not rejoice. Xiao Yan told the whole story.

Lan Yan'er nodded and said, "I know, for now, I don't want to contact any more men except for Senior Brother Xiao, let alone that." It's just that this water spirit elixir, please bother Senior Brother Xiao. ”

"It's okay, these are trivial matters, now that I am a disciple of Dantang, refining the Water Spirit Pill is only a matter of time. Xiao Yan told Lan Yan'er.

Lan Yan'er gave Xiao Yan a blessing to Xiao Yanying, and gave Xiao Yan a salute, saying: "Senior Brother Xiao, Lan Yan'er is willing to follow you, and whoever uses Lan Yan'er can just order me." ”

"It's serious, I don't ask for retribution for saving you, I just think you are worth saving, I hope you will practice hard in the future, if you don't understand anything, you can come to me. Xiao Yan opened the door and sent Lan Yan'er out.

Lan Yan'er walked a few steps, turned back to Xiao Yan and said, "Senior Brother Xiao, I remember where the Demon Cave is, there seems to be a lot of natural treasures there, maybe Senior Brother will need it." Go to the northern suburbs of Julu City, it is Tiandang Mountain, there is a strange peach forest growing on the shady slope of the mountain, there is a strange stone in the depths of the peach forest, move the strange stone away, it is the cave of the demon, but Senior Brother Xiao should pay attention, there are one hundred and ten snakes in the cave, which is very scary. ”

"I see. Xiao Yan noted the direction, "If I can, I will go and have a look, and if I find something suitable for you, I will come back and bring it to you." Xiao Yan thought to himself that it would be best if he could find something useful, now he has no Xuandan, if he relies on his own cultivation alone, it will be a drop in the bucket.

Taking advantage of Xiao Yan's moment, Lan Yan'er came over and kissed Xiao Yan's jaw gently, Xiao Yan looked at her, but saw a faint look of pain in her eyes, so he didn't say anything anymore and retreated in. Through the doorway, Xiao Yan heard a faint sigh, but he didn't think about it anymore.

On the futon, Xiao was tired of not being able to settle down for a long time, staring at the fire churning, and actually fell asleep, and when he woke up, Xiao was tired of the bursts of stinging pain in his heart, the kind of real pain like a piece of flesh had been dug out of his heart, his emotions surged, his hands trembled, and his body began to collapse. Stabilizing his mind, Xiao Yi used the Heavenly Secret Skill, and the true yuan in his body drilled out from all positions in his body, like water droplets, blending into the skin and flesh, repairing the rout.

"There are some things that you can't remember. ”