Chapter 5: Apologies and Remorse
Maybe it's because the renewed hope in Allen's heart is too contagious, whether it is in the room or in the hearts of these people, all the gloom is almost instantly swept away.
"Huh...... This is the Alan I know. Cynthia chuckled and breathed a sigh of relief.
"Then ask Mr. Adrian to come in!" Riel exclaimed, "He's been standing outside the door for a long time!"
"Hmm. Alan nodded and put his hand on the doorknob. This time he didn't hesitate any longer.
The old man had heard it all outside the door. At the moment he was bowing his head deeply, burying his face in the shadow of the brim of his hat.
"Mr. Audrian......" Alan whispered, "sorry to keep you waiting outside the door for so long......"
Old Adrian looked up, his eyes met.
"No......" Old Adrian said slowly, "I am the one who should apologize......"
Only then did Alan realize that the old man was also full of tears.
But what Allen didn't expect was his next move......
"I'm sorry......," said old Adrian, kneeling down slowly......
Alan was momentarily overwhelmed.
"I apologize to you for him......," said old Adrian, weeping, "for Arn...... My son ......"
After hearing this, Alan was completely stunned, and his hand stopped in mid-air when he wanted to help him up......
This was the answer that Alan had known for a long time, but now that he really heard old Adrian say this himself, he still felt a little excited......
There were still some people in the hallway. Although the old man's voice was not loud, and the others did not hear what he was muttering, they all looked curiously when they saw an old man suddenly kneeling down in front of a young man.
"Please...... Stand up......" After a moment, Alan finally reached out and helped old Adrian up, "Please follow me into the house......"
"Would you like to hear me tell me about all this, then...... "Old Adrian asked.
"Hmm......" Alan nodded, "please tell me everything you know." ”
Riel and Ian, who were blocking the doorway, heard this and quickly let old Adrian in.
Frey closed the door and poured another glass of water for old Adrian.
"First of all, I want to say that I'm sorry for your parents......" As soon as he said this, Old Audrian couldn't help but get a little excited, and held Alan's hand tightly, "The blame for this situation is not only on Arn, I am also responsible...... In a way, I hurt them!"
Hearing this, Alan also wanted to choke up a little, but he gritted his teeth and held back.
"As his father, I failed to lead him on the right path......" said Old Adrian, wiping the corners of his eyes again.
"Don't get too excited, and don't blame yourself too much......" Seeing Old Adrian's appearance, Alan couldn't help but comfort, "Please tell us the ins and outs of the whole thing......"
"Good ......" Old Adrian took a few deep breaths, wiped away his tears with his cuffs, and slowly adjusted his emotions.
"That's the ......" After a moment, the old man's face finally regained some of its former calmness, and finally slowly spoke, "Arn is the child I gave birth to fifteen years ago, after an unexpected acquaintance with a woman in Krivari......"
There was silence in the room, and everyone gathered around the old man. Time instantly went back to more than ten years ago.
"A long, long time ago, I had a wife...... We were very close to each other and respected each other, but unfortunately, she contracted the epidemic at a very young age and eventually died...... I have never been married since, and I never imagined that one day I would be able to meet again a woman who would like to be with me for the rest of my life, and have children of my own......" said Old Adrian, "and I am overjoyed to have a successor...... I didn't expect this child to be born with a curse......"
"Curse?" Allen's heart tightened when he heard the word, and he vaguely guessed something.
"His mother had become depressed and unstable since she was pregnant, and she had died in childbirth in order to give birth to him, so I loved the child very much, and I was full of hope for him......," said old Adrian, "Arne, the name which means 'Hepp' in the local dialect of Crivari...... But it backfired, and he had a rather strange personality since he was born...... Withdrawn, cowardly, and self-contained, not only does he not speak to strangers, but even my father rarely hears him take the initiative...... At first I didn't know why, until one day he suddenly pointed to his chest and asked me 'Daddy, why is this place all black in their place'......"
Alan immediately remembered that this was a fragment of Burestu's memories that he had seen.
"It wasn't until then that I realized that his eyes seemed to be able to see something that we couldn't...... And that's what gave him a strange personality...... "said old Adrian," I tried to guide him to pay more attention to the positive things, to teach him patience, but then I realized that I was wrong...... The shadows in those people's hearts were everywhere, and he couldn't avoid them, and although he followed my teachings and tried not to get into arguments, these things still took root in his heart bit by bit...... Finally, it all broke out after he entered the Klevari High School of Magic......"
"Yes, I saw it all in his memory...... He was bullied from the beginning of the basic magic school until he entered the school......," said Allen, "and that's what happened fifteen years ago......
"That's right," said old Adrian...... unconsciously agitated, "and I couldn't believe my ears when he came back and told me all this...... I've lived so long and I've never heard of anything so appalling...... It was like waging a war! It was only then that I finally realized that I might have been making mistakes for so many years...... He shouldn't have been in this world at all!"
"So...... You ......"
"It's me...... I ended his life with my own hands!" "Old Adrian rose from his seat and walked excitedly to the window, "I have never felt so regretful...... I regret my indulgence all along! I regret my incompetence! I regret his birth!"
Old Adrian bowed his head deeply and turned his back to the silent crowd.
"I don't remember what was going through my head at the time, and the irrepressible impulse and the anger of renunciation took over my heart completely......" Old Adrian spoke again after a moment, "and then ...... By the time I came to my senses, he was lying on the ground, breathing......"