Chapter 168: Between Persistence and Abandonment

"I said no, let's go!" Yang Shaolun reluctantly landed, put on his robe, and walked straight out, Chen Luoqing hurriedly went up to help him tightly. Lin Haihai touched the coldness of his eyes, the tears on his face fell, and he stepped aside, wanting to say something, but he didn't know what else to say at this time.

He suddenly looked back at her and asked coldly, "Lin Haihai, you never thought of going with me from beginning to end, did you?"

The lightning pain captured her in an instant, she shook her head, choked up, and said, "I want to go with you, I've always wanted to go with you!" she looked at him, "It's just that it's not the time yet, can you give me time?"

"No, if you want to go with me, leave right now, I can't wait any longer, I can't stand the days without you!" he was struggling to the death, he was afraid that without Lin Haihai, the past month, life would be better than death!

She shook her head, biting her lips, tears blurring her eyes so that she didn't see his dead eyes.

"Let's go, Luo Qing! In the future, I will have nothing to do with you!" he ruthlessly threw down a sentence, along with his bloody heart, she hurt him deeply, which he did not expect. I can only flee in a hurry!

This sentence pierced Lin Haihai's heart like a sharp blade, and she was torn apart by pain before she had time to think, and only one sentence was left in her empty mind: I have nothing to do with you!

She turned around numbly, and saw his back as he drifted away, and he had nothing to do with her anymore? Was he about to fade out of her life? She was in great pain, and on the smooth road behind him, dripping red bloodstains, like the red plum blossoms blooming in the ice and snow, it was dazzlingly red, and it was terrifying! She couldn't bear the intense pain, and for the first time she had the urge to die, Yang Shaolun, are you hating me? How can you hate me? I am really willing to go with you! She said in a low voice, accompanied by a series of hot tears.

She walked out numbly, kept walking, kept walking, and had nothing to rely on in her heart, and saw that how many of these floating beings had something to do with her? She abandoned the man she loved most for the sake of the people of the world. On the road, someone who knew her greeted her, and she smiled, and she could still give a smile to a stranger, but he was the only one, and there was nothing but silence. Is it really such a difficult problem between them that cannot be overcome, or is she not confident in him? From the beginning, she did not believe that he was capable of handling it, so she repeatedly chose to evade and retreat, if in the morning, before the sixth child did not have a heart for her, she made public the fact that she had been suspended, and now everything is different, and everything today is all caused by her indecision. Who is she to complain about his irrationality?

"Doctor Lin!" A cold salutation sounded in front of him, Lin Haihai subconsciously looked up, it was Nangong Zixuan, the disgust in her eyes did not decrease, she looked at him blankly, and did not say a word.

Nangong Zixuan looked at her strangely, she exuded a powerful sadness, enveloping her whole person in sorrow, was it an illusion? Or was she acting? He couldn't be sure!

"Nangong Zixuan, I hate it, don't I?" she asked suddenly, looking at him Yingying, her damp eyelashes curled slightly, and there was a growing mist in her eyes.

Nangong Zixuan's heart was violently struck, and he looked at her in a daze, not knowing how to respond.

A poignant smile rose on Lin Haihai's lips, "I hate it, I am the most hated woman in the world, but I want to tell him that I really love him, I love him very much, and if I lose him, my heart will hurt very much, and I don't know how to breathe, but I can't tell him, do you know why? Because I am a vain woman, in addition to loving him, I also love the support of this people, I have many things on my hands that I can't let go, I can't just walk away." I thought that love was not the whole of life, but why did I feel like I had lost my heart, and my chest was empty, because I had lost him? You look down on me, is it because I covet all kinds of vanity in the world?" hot tears fell out of her eyes, and she didn't reach out to wipe them, and her heart was numb for a while, and after the paralysis, there were bursts of tingling pain.

Nangong Zixuan was completely shocked, looking at the irrepressible sadness in her eyes, her heart was sour, and her voice softened unconsciously: "Are you okay?"

Lin Haihai smiled bitterly, did not answer, and walked forward slowly. She was bitterly depressed in her heart, and she actually said such things to a stranger, who had always been prejudiced against her.

Nangong Zixuan followed her, and Lin Haihai didn't pay attention to it, she wanted to find a place where she could grieve freely. But she couldn't find it, the world was like there were people there, and she couldn't find a place to be alone.

Nangong went to see her thoughts, and said, "Follow me!" After speaking, regardless of whether she agreed or not, she pulled up her sleeves and left, she didn't resist, and followed him stupidly!

Passing through the deep streets and narrow alleys, a chic manor appeared in front of her, Nangong Zixuan looked at her with judgment in her eyes, "What kind of person are you, I am noncommittal, maybe I will have the opportunity to see your true face in the future, but now, I think you need a place for you to vent the grievances in your heart, this villa is empty, you can stay inside until you want to leave!" After speaking, he opened the door and made a gesture to Lin Haihai!

Lin Haihai smiled sadly and said, "Thank you, but I'm already well, and I don't have any grievances in my heart, everything is my own fault!"

Nangong looked at her strangely, hesitated for a while, "Actually, vanity in the world is really not worth nostalgia, it is far less than a person who treats each other sincerely! Why do you give up the person you love for the sake of vanity? This is a very stupid act!"

"Stupidity or not stupidity depends on how you choose, I have been a doctor since I was a child, and my grandfather told me that the purpose of studying medicine is to fight for life with death, in order to redeem those who are tortured by illness. When I grew up, I was admitted to medical school, and in my first class, the professor told us, "Doctor, is not only a profession, but also a mission, and this sense of mission will let us know what to persist in and what to give up in the future medical career! Every time I snatch my life back from the hands of death, I know what to hold onto!" she said slowly, painfully and undoubtedly. This is the cruelest trade-off, and no matter which one you choose, you are not destined to have the best of both worlds!

Nangong looked at her suspiciously, and didn't understand what she said, was this woman acting? It's just that her sorrow and tears were all over her face, and she couldn't be disguised, who was the man she was talking about? She really wasn't a person who deceived the world and stole fame? But just a weak woman, how could the people of the whole capital be unanimously praised?

Lin Haihai said goodbye and walked back slowly, the pain in her heart was still clear, but she was more resolute in her decision, she said silently in her heart: If you are willing to wait for me, no matter which time and space I go to, I will definitely come back to look for you, if you don't understand my heart and insist on thinking that you love me wrongly, I can only wish you happiness.

As soon as Chen Luoqing helped Yang Shaolun out of the gate of Linhai Hospital, there were immediately secret guards to guard, and the carriage also arrived immediately, Yang Shaolun got into the carriage, and at the moment of parting, he couldn't help but look back after all, whether she would chase it out, the door of Linhai Hospital was full of people, but he never saw the beautiful figure, and he was silent, he said: "Get up!" The carriage gradually moved away, leaving Linhai Hospital behind, along with his love!

Yang Shaolun closed his eyes and let Chen Luoqing treat his wounds, the blood dripping unnoticed, the gauze stained with a faint medicinal fragrance had been soaked in blood, like a defeated flag, and fell to his feet in embarrassment.

Chen Luoqing's heart was extremely bitter, how could he not understand the bitterness in Yang Shaolun's heart? But as a bystander, he also thought that Lin Haihai's approach was right, and now he really can't just leave!

"It's a good thing that she doesn't go with you!" Chen Luoqing looked at Yang Shaolun's dead face, and his movements couldn't help but lighten up!

Yang Shaolun was silent, no matter what he said at this time, he couldn't stop the sharp pain in his heart. For a long time, when Chen Luoqing sighed, thinking that he would not answer, he suddenly opened his eyes and looked at Chen Luoqing in a daze, with a sad tone in his tone: "I thought she would choose to go with me without hesitation, I have always had this confidence, I thought that if I opened my mouth to ask her to go with me, she would really go with me at the ends of the earth, it turned out that everything was my conceit, and she may never have me in her heart." She never believed me, she didn't believe that I could handle things well, she ran away, forced me to run away with her, she flinched, I had to retreat with her. She said that life is not only about love, well, I believe in her, and I force myself not to think about her. Luoqing, I haven't seen her for a month, I know that I can't lose her, ask her to go with me, it's not impulsive, as long as she agrees, I will immediately cut the mess quickly, suppress King Pingnan, and then give the throne to the sixth brother, take her away from this mortal world, and live our life. As long as she is willing to nod, as long as she says yes! But she doesn't, she is silent but silent, she doesn't believe me, she thinks that giving her time, and then going to reduce the harm to everyone, is the best choice, she paves the way for everyone, and hurts me alone! She leaves me no hope, and even when I say never to see her, she is silent, she is forcing me to be cruel to her, so that she can have an excuse to convince herself to leave me. Chen Luoqing was shocked, he didn't know where their relationship went, but judging from the emperor's sadness at this time, he believed that he had sworn by the mountains and seas, otherwise he would not be so sad today.