Chapter 44: Remorse
In the dream, he used a long sword to penetrate Jiu Lieli's chest, and blood gushed out, so hot that he splashed all over his body. As soon as he drew his sword and turned around, Wind Groan stood behind him crying, staring miserably into his eyes.
It's just a dream, but it hurts my heart.
Avoiding this pain is the reason why I have been an accomplice all these years.
It is also an excuse to cover up his sins over the years.
However, after all, it is just wrong.
If you really can't hide it anymore, you are not afraid to face it.
It's just that if she really wants to know, she doesn't want to relay it to her through someone else's mouth. There are some things that you still have to tell her yourself.
But before that, I just ask God to send mercy again, and leave some more time for herself, just a few days, so that she can have time to arrange before she is punished, and arrange the path she will take in the future.
Changing out of last night's clothes, Wu Jifeng walked out of the room with a solemn face.
The door opened, and Li Ji, who was napping on the door frame, stumbled and almost fell to the ground, and a spirit stood up straight and came to his senses.
Shaking his right arm, which was a little numb, Li Ji bared his teeth and walked to Wu Jifeng's side, and said with a nasal voice in his voice: "Master, why are you getting up like this." I slept so late last night, I should have slept a little longer, what time is it, and it's not in the camp, why don't you know how to be lazy. ”
Wu Jifeng had no intention of arguing with him, but looking at his half-asleep appearance and not waking up, he knew that he must have arranged hard last night, and he must have not slept much, so he eased his expression and didn't care about him.
Li Ji followed behind his master, rubbed his eyes and asked, "Master, are you hungry, do you want to have breakfast?"
Wu Jifeng didn't stop, and asked as he walked, "How are all the things I ordered?"
As soon as Li Ji heard this, he immediately replied: "Don't worry, everything has been arranged, and there is no mistake." Our house is now an impenetrable iron bucket, and not even half a fly or mosquito can fly in!"
Wu Jifeng knows Li Ji's temperament, although he usually looks careless, he has always done his things beautifully, and there has never been a mistake in so many years, so as long as he says yes, he will definitely be at ease.
Wu Jifeng nodded and didn't ask any further.
Li Ji knew that the master was satisfied with this, and as soon as he was relieved, he followed again, and said, "Master, you eat first, and then go to check after eating, and make sure you ......."
Halfway through his words, Li Ji choked there. With a mouth big enough to hold an egg, he stared at Wu Jifeng with a different face, and stopped his steps.
Wu Jifeng noticed his abnormality and stopped his steps.
Seeing his expression, he thought it was something on his face, so he frowned and reached out to touch his face, but both cheeks were touched and nothing foreign touched, and he couldn't help frowning even tighter.
Li Ji swallowed his saliva, stretched out his finger and pointed to his chin, and gestured, "Master, it's here." ”
Wu Jifeng immediately slid his hand to his chin, was stunned for a moment when he touched the hard stubble, and then laughed self-deprecatingly.
was so confused, no wonder Li Ji was so surprised.
Turning around and walking back to the house, Wu Jifeng instructed as he walked, "I'm going to take Fengyin to see Wuyan in a while, you go and prepare first." After speaking, without waiting for Li Ji to answer, he pushed the door shut.
"What...... Today?"
Li Ji's mouth grew in surprise, and then he frowned.
I've never been to Longyan Temple today before, what's wrong with the master.
Besides, this is the New Year's Festival soon, even if you are not busy with the New Year, don't the masters of the people have to buy New Year's goods, clean up the temple, how can they have time to take care of you!
"But you're ......"
Do you want to take the two of you with you, or do you want to follow us all like before?
You'd better make it clear before closing!
Hey, I really don't know how to understand the hardships of others!
Sighing helplessly, Li Ji walked out of the room slowly.
It seems that the horse and the sedan chair are ready, let the master choose for himself.
However, from last night to now, what are these things that the master has done for?
Thinking about the appearance of the master's unshaven beard just now, Li Ji became more and more suspicious in his heart. I have followed my master for so many years, but I have never seen him so sloppy.
The master's temperament is the most calm, and even the general can't be compared.
Always looks like he can hold everything in his hands, so he is even more respected by the soldiers.
Over the years, no matter how busy and chaotic he was, even if there were thousands of enemy troops, the master had never lost his posture in front of others. As long as you go out of the room, you will always be a well-dressed and handsome general, but what is the reason for today?
Li Ji turned to stare at the door that had been reclosed in front of him, and couldn't help but sink his heart.
I'm afraid that something big is about to happen.
Blink of an eye to look at the lively and lively General's Mansion outside for the New Year, Li Ji sighed, I'm afraid that this New Year will not be good.
All the way to the door of Fengyin's small courtyard, Wu Jifeng didn't meet any subordinates.
Because the New Year is approaching, the sister-in-law is about to give birth again, and the entire general's mansion can be described as a double happiness and lively.
In the past few days, the entire General's Mansion has been full of laughter. The maids and ladies are busy decorating the whole courtyard with a new look, and the sound is louder at the same time, even if there are few maids in their yard, but in recent days, they can often hear the sound of laughter and noise from outside the courtyard, so it is not lively.
Just when he came out of the courtyard, he saw three or three maids passing by in front of his courtyard with a smile.
He likes to be quiet, so when people are near their courtyards, they are always behaving and cautious, for fear of disturbing themselves. But this is the case, but these days of the year can't stop. It's like this in front of my door, so I can imagine how lively the entire general's mansion will be.
But it didn't take long for Wu Jifeng to know that he was wrong, how outrageous his mistake was.
When he walked out of his yard and came to the small courtyard where the wind was singing, the closer he got to the courtyard, the fewer people there were, and when he arrived at the gate of the courtyard, there was not even a single subordinate.
The surroundings of the small courtyard are still the same as before, cold and deserted, and there are few voices.
The carved red paint of the gate has long since faded with the touch of time; a few withered weeds occasionally grow in the crevices of the stone path, little by little, without the slightest life; the dead leaves of the small trees on the roadside in front of the gate that had been knocked down in the heavy snow a few days ago are still soaked in the snow and rotted into pieces, but they have not been cleaned up.
Wu Jifeng looked at everything in front of him, and only felt that desolation had spread from his eyes into his heart.
Where is this, it is going to be the New Year.
Obviously, they all live in the General's Mansion, and they are all the masters of the General's Mansion. His courtyard is festive and bright, but the wind is desolate here.
Wu Jifeng's heart was extremely sour, and he was so guilty that he had no strength to move forward.
I've never been here before, but it's like this.
But when you think about it, isn't it like this every day? It's just that the excitement elsewhere today gives me too obvious a contrast, and I finally notice the difference here.
And he put her in this situation for four whole years, and he wanted to love Feng Yin the most.
always thought that he was the one who could shelter her from the wind and rain, but it turned out that he had always been so incompetent.
When he finally walked to the courtyard door, his fingers had already touched the door knocker, but Wu Jifeng still didn't push open the wooden door.
She was inside, and she could be seen by pushing the door open.
She will raise her head and smile at herself as usual, and she will run over and hug herself.
No, she can't even be coquettish, she just hugs herself tightly and doesn't let go, puts her face on her chest and doesn't speak, she knows that she misses herself, she never says, but she can feel it.
She will also hold her hand and talk to herself, in fact, she says very little, but as long as she is by her side, even if the two of them don't speak, there is a quiet warm current around, she is warm, and even the air is warm.
Can ...... now
Will......
Wu Jifeng lowered his hand weakly and sighed deeply.
After all, I still didn't dare to show up rashly, if there were only two of them, it would be fine. But after all, there is a mother-in-law in the yard, if she detects something, then the eldest brother and sister-in-law may not do anything.
I can't, and I won't dare to, let this happen.
Turning around and walking to a corner far from the courtyard gate, Wu Jifeng jumped onto the wall.
There is a tall poplar tree on the inside of the courtyard, and although the leaves are dead at the moment, the lush branches can still hide the shape of a person.
Wu Jifeng stood firmly, and hid behind a pile of branches with a dodge.
Brushing aside the dead leaves and branches in front of him, Wu Jifeng cast his eyes on the courtyard, hoping to see the wind and see if she was as usual.
I don't know if it was God's intentional care or the time was just in time, Wu Jifeng just hid for a long time when he saw his mother-in-law walking out of the house, and her somewhat rickety body moved slowly, and slowly walked into the small kitchen in the northeast corner of the courtyard.
Wu Jifeng knew that she was going to get the medicine.
Sure enough, when her mother-in-law came out of the small kitchen, she was holding a delicate white porcelain bowl in her hand, and the thick black decoction was swaying from side to side in the bowl with her mother-in-law's movements.
With a tremor in his heart, Wu Jifeng closed his eyes and couldn't bear to look at the black anymore.
He had always known that Feng Yin was taking medicine, but he had never seen it with his own eyes.
Because he knew that it was not medicine, but the poison that controlled and harmed her, he deliberately didn't understand, as if he could convince himself that the medicine had nothing to do with him, and that he had never touched the things that hurt her, and that he was just her uncle, and he would always only be in the position of a protector.
After comforting myself for a long time, I believed it. It has always been the eldest brother and sister-in-law who hurt her, and she is extremely innocent.
has been deceiving herself like this, so that she can stay by her side for so many years with peace of mind.
In fact, how can I not be guilty, I have been watching my eldest brother and sister-in-law cause her pain but never stopped, this bystander is already the biggest sin.
Almost unable to suppress his impulse to fly into the hospital, Wu Jifeng wanted to snatch the medicine bowl and slam it to the ground.
But at this moment, a pale blue skirt stretched out from the bright red cotton curtain, and Feng Yin carefully lifted the curtain and walked out of the house.