Chapter 30 The horror of Jiaorou's heart
Coming out of the hut, He Xuanya and I climbed the uneven stone path behind the mountain to the north of the western slope.
What presents to us is a paradise on the western slope.
He Xuanya looked at this beautiful hillside and said, "It's really nice here, what kind of place is this?"
"West Slope. I replied.
He Xuanya glanced at me and said, "Listen to Weilong, you often go to the west slope to play. I never understood what was so fun about the West Slope. Looking at it today, I really think it's a natural paradise. ”
I said, "Then you come with us." ”
He Xuanya glanced at me and said, "Where are there girls all over the mountains?" ”
I didn't know what to say for a while, so I pointed down the slope and said, "There's a stream below, do you want me to take you to see it?" ”
She was silent.
I jumped down the western slope first, and she followed.
By the stream, the grass was covered with greenery, and on the grass, the wolf poison flower bloomed savagely like crazy.
"This flower is so beautiful. He Xuanya said.
"We use it a lot to weave straw hat straps. As I spoke, I pulled two handfuls of flowers and knitted a wreath for He Xuanya.
"You take it with you. ”
He Xuanya took the garland, put it on her head, and said, "Is it good-looking?"
I looked at her and said, "Beautiful." ”
She lowered her head when she heard this, and her face turned crimson.
I also felt ashamed. Because I meant to say garlands, but when I saw the way she looked, I felt like I was talking about people.
In the midst of embarrassment, I heard a strange cry coming from the top of Konishi Mountain.
I looked up with Xuanya He.
I saw someone waving at us.
If you look closely, it turns out to be Zhiyong.
That's when I realized that the strange scream just now was made by Zhiyong. Because he is deaf and mute, he cannot speak, and when he communicates with others in person, he mainly uses gestures to match the sound of babbling, and when he greets people from a distance, he makes a strange cry from his throat. This sound is like the sound that a chicken makes when it grabs its neck. People who hear it for the first time may be taken aback.
I also beckoned to Zhiyong, and he drove a flock of sheep to the other side of the mountain. These sheep are the only source of livelihood for him and his mother.
He Xuanya looked in the direction of Xiaoxi Mountain, her eyes began to glaze, and she sat on a big stone in the west.
I sat down on another rock two meters away from her.
In order to break the embarrassing situation, I said, "Sister Xiaoya, why can't I understand a word of what you just said to the fairy grandmother?"
He Xuanya didn't answer my question, but asked me, "Do you want to hear my dream last night?"
I said, "I want to hear it." ”
He Xuanya had a pained expression on her face again.
"At first, I felt like I was floating in the infinite darkness and void, and I felt that I was the darkness itself, the void itself, because I couldn't confirm my existence at all, as if only my mind was wandering through the universe. I wanted to open my eyes, but I couldn't, maybe I was open, but there was nothing but darkness and vanity in my eyes. I wanted to listen, but what I heard was my own heart, and perhaps it came from darkness and vanity. I wanted to shout, but before I could utter it, it was swallowed up by darkness and emptiness, and perhaps I didn't have the tongue to shout at all. I wanted to move, but I couldn't, maybe I couldn't notice my own movement at all, or maybe there was no difference between movement and stillness in the darkness and the void. I was like a prisoner in captivity, like a fish frozen in ice. Utter despair and endless fear were corrupting my consciousness, and I couldn't tell if I was dead or alive. I couldn't tell if I was desperately longing for life or death. Pain, indescribable pain, never-ending pain. This kind of pain is enough to destroy all great willpower. ”
He Xuanya began to cry in pain again as she spoke.
I can understand her pain and suffering, but I can't.
"I don't know how long it took,—— I felt like I had gone through the whole cycle from the beginning of time to the end of time - suddenly, I was attracted by a powerful force, and fell into the depths of darkness and void, like a feather tied to a 10,000-ton boulder thrown from a height of 10,000 meters. I experienced a sense of joy that I had never experienced before.
"When I hit a shell hard, it was like something bounced back and sank into the shell.
"The moment I opened my eyes, everything in front of me changed, the darkness and the void disappeared, and everything familiar was presented before me.
"I wanted to get up, but my body wasn't under my control.
"I saw a round yellow piece of paper on the table, and I wanted to reach for it, but it wasn't my hand, it was just my wish.
"I was like being pulled by a myriad of invisible ropes, I got up, walked outward, walked all the way and walked and walked and walked .......
"I wanted to speak to the people on the road, but the words I said were all in vain, like the breath of winter, which dissipated into the air as soon as I came out. I tried to shout again, but I couldn't.
"As I was being dragged to a valley, I began to realize that there was not only myself in my body, but something else. All my right to act has been encroached upon by this thing.
"I want to resist, I want to take back my body, I can't be a puppet of something unclear.
"I started trying to move my fingers, moving my tongue, trying to control my breathing.
"The first thing I took was my breath.
"When I'm short of breath, my body is forced to move a little faster, and when my breathing is slower, my body moves a little slower.
"I'm going to let the stuff in my body die, and I decided to hold my breath.
"My body began to climb up the mountain, and when I reached a cave on the side of the mountain, my body fell to the ground.
"In the cave, I felt that what was inside me was repelling and polluting my consciousness. I started hallucinating. Strange fragments of memories appeared in my head. These fragments of memories are not like common things in our lives, but rather bizarre scenes that people can't understand.
"I have a vague feeling that something in my body is going to expel me from my body, and it is going to dominate my body.
"I began to recite a name in my heart, and when I pronounced it three times, I felt a stream of heat flowing in my body, and in the middle of this stream of heat, it seemed like a small bead rolling.
"I tried to concentrate my will to match the flow of heat in my body, and at the same time, I tried my best to control the movements of my limbs and my entire body.
"My brain started to switch scenes like a comic book at a rapid pace, and the switch got faster and faster,......。
"Suddenly, I felt my body swell violently, not visually, but in my mind.
Then, with a boom, I felt my body explode. ”