"Where is this?" I don't know how long it took, but I opened my eyes and looked around, "It's so dark, why can't I see light here?"

I don't know what kind of place it is, there is no light at all, I can't see my fingers, it seems to be dark under the lamp.

I tried to walk a few steps, and found that I could actually move, and suddenly remembered what happened before, and immediately touched my chest, "Hey, it's okay?"

"Am I not dead?" I was a little unsure, and put my hand on my heart to feel the heartbeat, I had never been so eager to feel the feeling of a heartbeat.

After a long time, I was disappointed and a little desperate, "It looks like I'm really dead." ”

"However, death really doesn't hurt, and it doesn't seem to be terrible. "I'm a little happy and a little curious.

"This is the place after death? It's so dark, I can't see anything, I don't want to stay here forever, do I?" I suddenly panicked, if I stayed here all the time, it would be boring to death, although I was alone here, but I was scared.

"Forget it, leave it to fate. "It's not a good thing that I sit on the floor and think boredly about my life, but I can't remember anything.

"Hey, I'd better go to sleep. I lay on the ground again and slept with my eyes closed.

I don't know how long it took, I only knew that it was a long, long time, I opened my eyes and said with a wry smile: "I don't even let people sleep." ”

I got up and tried to move forward, I didn't know the direction around me, I had to take one step at a time, I didn't know how long I walked, I just knew that no matter how I walked, I couldn't see anything.

Closing your eyes is the same as opening your eyes, because it's all darkness. But I still opened my eyes, which can be considered comforting.

"Won't you get tired here?" I actually found that my feet had never been sore or tired after walking for so long.

"Sure enough, it's dead, it's really dead. ”

I just walked aimlessly, maybe one day, maybe a year, maybe ten years, I couldn't feel the passage of time here.

Maybe a hundred years later, this hundred years I don't have the same panic as before, I seem to be completely adapted to this environment, I just know how to move forward.

I don't have the longing for the light at the beginning, and I don't have the attachment that I want to remember my memories of life.

After a few hundred years, I suddenly felt that immortality was nothing more than that, perhaps, this is immortality.

After a few hundred years, as I was walking, I suddenly noticed a light in front of me, although it was not strong, it was very small, very small, only a spark like a firefly.

However, it was such a small spark that sparked the hope that had been lurking in my heart for many years.

I started running, yes, I was running, even though I couldn't feel the wind, I didn't have the youth that sweated before I was born, and I didn't exercise to exercise.

But I just want to run, maybe you haven't experienced real despair, you don't know the joy when a person sees hope when he is desperate and helpless, and the impulse when he sees hope when he desperately wants to hold on to it. It's like a person who can't swim desperately trying to grab anything around him when drowning, it's an instinct, even though I'm a dead person.

A year, two years, I've been running, and the light is getting stronger and bigger, as if it's close at hand.

Finally, I saw that the light was already covering my world, and I began to rejoice when I saw the small hole-like black hole behind me. I didn't give up, I kept walking, I firmly believe in a truth, as long as I go, I can get out of here, I haven't given up, I've been walking.

Maybe it was God who took pity on me, a dead person, or maybe it was my perseverance that moved God, and I finally left here. When I left here, it was like a time machine, I only had white light in my eyes, I covered my eyes with my hands, I was afraid that I would be blind, this feeling of gain and loss was not good.

When I opened my eyes, I was greeted by a lake, a wide spiritual lake sparkling with weeping willows and fragrant grass. The slopes are filled with the strong aroma of plants. The shores of the lake are lined with forests, and the viewing platform offers a view of the vast water.

In the middle of the lake there was a boatman, and when I saw him, I was so happy, and my hands danced with joy, like a child.

I stood on the shore of the lake and shouted, "Hey, old man, come here!"

The first call I called didn't respond, I thought I didn't hear it. I started a second time, and it still didn't, and I thought it was the boatman's bad ears. When I struck the third time, the boatman finally turned around, and I saw that it was coming towards me, and I smiled happily.

At this time, I was so easily satisfied, and I was so happy that I was just a boatman's turn.

I can't help but try to imagine if I can be as happy as I am when I was a child, a piece of candy, or when I see my favorite toy.

I don't know, it's useless to try to remember now, the past is the past, just live in the present. Oh no, I'm dead.

The boatman swung over one rod after another, and as the ripples grew larger and larger, the boatman got closer and closer, and I could already see the boatman's face.

Under the straw hat, the gray beard, the shallow wrinkles, and the eyes that are always smiling, all make people think that he is an amiable old man.

I'm glad I still have a partner, but not a partner!

"Hey, old man. ”

"You're here?" the old man looked at me with a smile and asked, "Get on board?"

I smiled and nodded, and couldn't wait to get on the boat, looking rustic, like a little bastard who had never seen the world. But the first sentence made me a little confused, and the old man seemed to know that I was coming, but I didn't care, because I was already on the boat.

I sat on the boat and looked at the old man with curious eyes, but the old man was embarrassed, just like a little daughter-in-law who saw a man for the first time.

It's no wonder that it's the first time I've seen someone after I die.

"Grandpa, are you human?" I took the liberty of asking, I was ready to be dumped, and anyone who was asked like this would not have a good face.

But the old man's answer surprised me.

"Me?" the old man stopped paddling in his hand and pondered for a moment. I'm not in a hurry, after all, I have time.

After a while, the old man smiled and said, "I am a human being, and I am not a human being." ”

"Is it a person, is it not a person?" I wondered, what kind of answer is this, perfunctory to me, or not an answer?

"Are you human?" the old man asked me rhetorically.

I smiled awkwardly and replied, "I'm dead." ”

"If you're dead, why can you talk to me?" the old man asked again.

"Isn't this the afterlife?" I wondered, and let the old man tease me.

The old man shook his head with a smile, pointed to my heart and said, "Touch your heart"

I touched my heart again, there was no beating, only the temperature, this temperature is like the temperature of spring, it is the feeling of spring.