Chapter 7: The Real Sense of Distance
Once again, I went down the stairs back home, familiar furnishings, the big wall clock only showed that half an hour had passed, I originally thought that the time of my disappearance and the real time were 1:1, but according to the current situation, even if more than two days have passed in the game world, it is just a moment of reality, my parents have not come home yet, I ran upstairs to open the door of my brother's room, there is still no brother inside, my brother has not come back, my heart chuckled, silently praying that nothing would happen to my brother.
I paced back and forth in front of the wall for a long time, until I saw a familiar figure coming out of the wall, "Brother, why didn't you tell me anything!" threw himself into his brother's arms, holding his brother tightly with both hands, he didn't dare to let go, the place where the door was originally a real wall, my brother's hand gently ran my hair, with a faint smell of blood, only at this moment I was more relieved than ever.
"You went too. The elder brother's voice came from above his head, and there seemed to be a faint sadness, but more of a relieved tone, not a question but a statement.
"That place! Brother! How are you? Why don't you tell me that you've been through so many terrible things! Is it that if I don't follow you in, I won't know what you're going through for the rest of my life! Is it that even if you die, I won't know, I don't want to lose you forever!" It's like a nightmare, that kind of death, that kind of bloody killing world, that feeling as if you will lose your life at any time, it is really uncomfortable.
"Well, it's okay now. All the persistence, all the stubbornness, all the disguises were broken up in an instant, I pulled my brother's shirt like a child and cried, the layers of strong psychological defense I built by myself collapsed in an instant, I should have lived a plain and carefree life, but I can never go back, I can't go back to the original life, and even my life is not something I can control.
"Brother, I'm afraid, I'm afraid I won't survive, I'm afraid you'll die suddenly, I'm afraid, I don't know what I'm going to do. "The fear in my heart is like an invisible black claw pulling me into the darkness, what I fear, what I despair, what I don't want to face, but it is shown one by one in the nightmare space.
"You have to be strong and have no one to hurt you, but you should tell me what you've been through. "My brother held my shoulders and made me stand up straight, that indifferent tone and calm face made me feel strange, compared to my brother who suppressed himself before, now he always makes me feel that there is a gap that cannot be crossed, just like between the rookie and the big guy in the game, the rookie is still groping how to play, and the big guy has been playing the game in an orderly manner like a strategy.
I tried to shake off the thoughts in my heart, and the two of us walked up the stairs side by side, and I talked about what I had experienced there, and what I had changed, and my brother just listened to me quietly, and finally concluded that you are already good for a new person.
I looked at my brother, and my brother looked at me, and he was a little speechless, "Brother, I'm tired, I'm going to rest first, and you can ...... Rest early. Almost panicked, I ran back to the room and closed the door, and slowly slid down with my back against the door and sat on the ground, I thought that there was nothing wrong with my brother and sister experiencing the nightmare space together, but now I feel that the gap between me and my brother is not just a few world gaps, maybe a lot of days have passed here, what my brother has experienced and felt, maybe he has already tortured my brother into another him, and before that, in order not to worry us, he suppressed himself and did not let another him appear, and my intervention allowed him to have a close person to show his other sideγ
Is that existence like an outlet the meaning of my existence, and if that's all there is to it, what is the point of everything I am holding onto? I held my head, and the indescribable feeling deepened in my heart like a demon, I don't know how I climbed into bed and fell asleep, but in my dream, my brother was still the same brother I was when I was very young, not so unfazed, and still very young, but he was like this he would protect me in front of me.
The dream went round and round, as if I had experienced all the things I couldn't remember when I was a child, and finally stopped at my brother listening to me indifferently about what I feared, and the analysis in his eyes seemed to be just calculating my gains and losses this time, as if I had missed out on how many side rewards, as if I had wasted so much time and done so many stupid things, I was standing on this side of the chasm, he was on the other side of the chasm.
I woke up again in the early morning of the next day, I went downstairs after washing, today my parents still went to work in the hospital early, downstairs my brother sat on the sofa, with a cup of coffee in front of him, I don't know when my brother who didn't like coffee like me gradually turned out to be able to drink coffee expressionlessly.
"Are you awake? go have breakfast first, I'll tell you later." He took a sip of coffee, picked up a stack of papers in front of him and began to flip through it, I walked to the dining table and ate a simple breakfast, Yu Guang looked at my brother, usually at this time, my brother is either staying in the room, or I don't know what to do when I go out, I really haven't read the information at home like this, I finished breakfast and sat next to my brother with a cranky thought, he looked at something like game equipment, but the price was surprisingly expensive, I looked at it, it should be the equipment of the nightmare space, right? But last time, I didn't have many reward points and just looked at the cheapest things, and the price of these equipment was sky-high for me.
"After you've gone through the trials, in the next world, you'll have so-called teammates. He put down the information in his hand and leaned back on the sofa a little lazily.
"Teammate, I thought it was like a single-player game. "It's a bit easier for me to think that I don't have to face danger alone, and if I have teammates, at least I won't be so panicked when I'm in danger.
"I'd rather be a single-player game. My brother's voice suddenly cooled down, and I could hear the displeasure in him word by word, "There are no absolute teammates in the nightmare world, killing and betrayal have become a daily routine, maybe you think that the teammates who are born and die are often the ones who retreat you to death." β
"How come!" I looked at him in disbelief, and my brother seemed to be caught in a memory, and the look in his eyes was unpredictable.
"For the sake of profit, for the sake of seizure, if you don't kill your teammates, you will be killed by your teammates. This is the definition of Nightmare Space, hypocritical kindness and friendliness, the most reliable are not living people, but the NPCs in these games, who are better understood than those who have their own careful thoughts. The elder brother's voice was very calm, and he did not slurred words because of emotion, and he stretched out his hand into the air, "In order to protect myself, the blood on my hands has long been irreversible." β
I looked at him dumbfounded, digesting the unbelievable words he said, but I could understand that what Nightmare Space had always revealed to me was this kind of killing, there was no so-called real peaceful way, and the birth of which tasks meant that this world was not a friendly existence, but at this moment I suddenly felt very sad, and reached out to hold my brother's hand and put it on my cheek, "If God is not willing to redeem you, then I will be your salvation, I want to live and take you out of this world alive, brother, I will not give up." β
That's it, even if it will be a catastrophe, I still believe that my brother will protect me, the person I believe in depending, in this world, can understand my pain, and the only one who can share the nightmare space with me is my brother, the bond in blood has existed in life since the moment I was born, and I want to save my brother away.
"This kind of thing, I should do it, protect you and take you out of here. "My cheek was pinched and pulled by my brother's hand, as if I was back in my childhood, and my brother also pinched my face like this, and then I shouted in pain to let go of the big villain.
"Let it go! Big bad, it's going to be red!" "It's only this moment, I'm not afraid, with my brother here, I can be afraid of nothing."