Important words are put up front, this is not an April Fool's joke.

This book 4.1-4.30 is suspended, and 5.1 is resumed.

I'm sorry to the readers who read this, the last few chapters have been really perfunctory, maybe the bottleneck has arrived, and it may be really busy. Some people should know that I am learning to draw, and the painting thing is at least half a day a day, and I am now a junior and I still have a lot of classes, so I have very little time to devote to novels.

In April, I won't be holding the book a bit, I'll be working on the latest chapters and starting the first 100,000 words of rewriting.

Okay, that's probably the end of the page, I'm going to reveal the true face of my title dog, and some two people won't click here anyway.

I felt as if God had played a big joke on April Fool's Day this year.

Let's talk about the result first, I blocked my dad before, and today I blocked my mom.

Don't laugh, I can't laugh.

Let's talk about the cause, I'll talk about my dad later, and I'll talk about my mom first.

3.31 Thursday, my boyfriend said that he had a birthday event tomorrow and asked me if I could take a day off, and I said yes.

Because my professional counselor is not very easy to talk to, and there are many people who ask for leave for various fancy reasons, most of the time I still have to ask relatives to confirm that I really have something to ask for leave, and then I think of my nearest relative, Mom.

I said mom I want to take a day off tomorrow, can you call the counselor and say xxxx (I think the reason). My mom asked me what I was going to do, and I told the truth, anyway, I already knew about my boyfriend, and I had been talking about it for a long time.

I can't remember exactly what my mother said, but here I list a few key words: graduate school, academics, painting, and lying. My mom was adamant that she would never lie to help me take a day off.

As for the first three words, the general situation is that I majored in economics and finance, the worst of the two universities, and my mother said that I couldn't find a job if I didn't go to graduate school.

And said that painting is not serious, thinking that there is no way out of this path.

I originally listened to it at first, and I didn't want to ask for leave, but even if it was okay, the insurance practice could ask someone to teach on my behalf at that time.

But as soon as I heard the word "graduate school entrance examination", I felt no different from despair.

It all started at the end of February, and as of today I would be home every weekend and Friday at the end of February.

I didn't want to take the exam, I never wanted to, but my family wanted me to take the exam, and they thought that I could only get a job in the future.

That day I cried and told them that I wanted to paint and that I didn't want to go to graduate school.

Maybe they saw that I was really wronged, so they agreed perfunctorily and lightly, saying okay, okay, you can paint, don't go to graduate school, and then reprimanded me with reason.

My dad said I didn't see your efforts at all, and you put the sketchpad I bought for you in your third year of junior high school and kept it in the cabinet for three years.

When you were a child, you said you wanted to learn piano, and I bought you a piano in the first grade, and you played it for a year and then put it at home until now.

You say I'll buy you whatever you want, and then what?

Okay, the first grade is so young, it's definitely not sensible, but the three years after the third year of junior high school are the three years of high school?

I said, but I'm picking it up now and drawing it.

My dad said I didn't see it.

Hmm, didn't see = doesn't exist.

Well, the bandit logic ends here, and then, all I can hear in his words is sarcasm, belittling, and making the profession of a painter useless. Ah, I'm sorry, I'm overgeneralizing, he probably means that if I become a painter, I will definitely be useless.

That's all for that day, and when I got it back, I was desperate after hearing the word "graduate school" on 3.31.

If you say that I lied about taking time off, then why didn't you abide by what you said that day, don't let me go to graduate school, let me learn to draw?

Suddenly, for the first time, my position became so firm, and I thought to myself, since such a small favor would not help even the closest people, then there was no need for me to seek them again.

Since these two people can't give me anything but money, and if talking to them and getting along with them will only make me feel wronged, then I don't have to stay in this house anymore.

Some people think that I am doing this extremely, so your parents must be better than mine. In other words, you don't know how bad my parents were.

One of her roommates had taken a leave of absence to go home on Wednesday because her relatives wanted her to go back to play.

The second roommate told me that when she was in elementary school, her mother called the principal's office to complain because there was no electric fan in their class.

4.1 In the afternoon, in the KTV private room, others laughed and played cards, and I sang hoarsely alone.

I wasn't tapped on the shoulder until the end.

Speaking of my dad, my mom was also very affected, she said that my dad had a brain problem.

To put it technically, it's psychotic.

There's nothing to hide, domestic violence.

I've been able to stay at home for such a short time, and I've seen more than two or three times.

He has a very bad temper, he must say that he will win you, and what he says is very vicious, if you don't return the mouth, you will feel uncomfortable, and you will be beaten if you return the mouth, plus more poisonous curses.

My dad cursed me for being hit by a car, scolded me for being a bitch, and scolded my boyfriend for being a beast.

After saying too much, one day I finally couldn't bear it anymore and blocked it.

Today, my mom called me on my phone and I didn't answer any of the calls, and my dad found my boyfriend and said that I should not come back in the future, and I would stay at his boyfriend's house, well, it was said in that kind of ugly statement that you can't imagine.

Actually, I had such a plan for a long time, so there is no need for you to inform me again.

Because I don't get anything positive when I go home?!

"Since it's such a small favor, and I don't even help the people closest to me, then I don't need to look for them anymore. I sent it out in the second person.

Then my dad said, your mom won't lie.

You can support yourself by lying in the future.

Around the same time, my dad blocked my boyfriend and I blocked my mom.

I think, above understanding. Understanding is much more important than breaking up a family because of a resolute refusal to lie once.

I don't have any true friends, and now that I have no family, I am grateful for my strong will to support me to live to this day.

I'm done crying, and I'll start a new round of concept art training tomorrow after dawn, and I'm also going to work on my three-year-old novel.

Someone must have asked me, what are you writing this novel for, why are you studying to draw so desperately, then I answer, for the sake of my life.

You're going to call me crazy.

I don't know, maybe this life is just an opportunity, and when I go through these thorny paths now, she will guide me to become better.

What exactly my natal destiny refers to, those who know it will naturally know.

Most authors stop to adjust and rest, and I don't take a break.

To quote a sentence I recorded in my mobile phone memo, I was in the middle of the winter vacation at the time, and at the same time I signed up for the CG painting online class to study, and posted it here to encourage others and myself.

“2016.2.16

People ask you why you have to force yourself to code as many words as you want every day, and since you don't have much money and no one reads, why don't you make it easier for yourself?

Don't take it easy.

You'll get farther and farther away from your dreams. ”