Pink was my first impression of Zhu Xiaomei's bedroom at that time. The pink bed, the pink table, the pink wallpaper, everything is pink, like the princess's bedroom in a fairy tale.

Zhu Xiaomei, lying on the bed, with a tube in her nose, and the complex wiring on her body followed by the bedside instrument that shows her heart rate, she was stunned when she saw me.

"Chen Qian..."

"No, no, don't get up..."

"Don't get up..."

Seeing her so weak, and seeing a glimmer of light in my eyes struggling to sit up, my heart was as tired as a big stone tied.

"Cheeky scoundrel, you still have the face to see my sister, do you still want to make her sicker! This is my house, not a school and not a vegetable market! I let you go out and hear?!"

"Sister!"

Zhu Qianqian's hand had already tore my hair, but it stopped in Zhu Xiaomei's firm and pleading tone. She wanted to cry when she looked at her sister's weak appearance, her eyes were red and she wanted to say something, but after being called by Zhu Xiaomei pleadingly, she glared at me with hatred and walked out with two steps and one turn around.

"Xiaomei... 555, are you okay?"

Zhao Ya also walked in, Zhu Xiaomei looked at her with complicated eyes, but finally smiled sweetly, and said weakly It's okay, it's good.

Pretty good...

Pretty good...

Why are you so stubborn??? why are you so stubborn, why do you never tell me when you're so sick??? why!??!!!

My heart was roaring, my eyes were already moist, I didn't look back when I looked at Zhu Xiaomei, I just said weakly, Zhao Ya, let me and Xiaomei say a few words alone, okay...

Maybe Zhao Ya's eyes changed a lot when she looked at me at that time, but I couldn't grasp it when I was so distraught, and she didn't respond to the whispered hum and went out, and closed the door.

Drip ~ Drip ~ Drip ~~

The sound of the instrument sounded again and again, like Zhu Xiaomei's heartbeat. It wasn't until it was quiet that I smelled the sweet looking house with a very bitter smell of medicine. The furnishings of the house are actually very simple, there is no computer, there is no wardrobe that this kind of family girl seems to have, only a cabinet, a bed and a big puppet, on the bedside table, there is a book "Pride and Prejudice" and "Jane Eyre", on which there are photos of a family of four.

"Xiaomei..."

After I scanned the photos, I tried to be as careful as possible for fear of breaking the equipment and sat on the edge of the bed.

"You're also... Are you alright?"

"Well, it's fine. The doctor said that it was just heat stroke and anemia, and after a few days of rest, I could go to school~"

Heat stroke, anemia... I took a deep breath and felt very uncomfortable.

Still lying to me, why? Are you afraid I'm worried...

Zhu Xiaomei, why are you so good to me? It's so good that it makes me feel guilty, and in the guilt, maybe "friend" represents a deeper emotion...

"So, don't worry about me..."

At that time, she smiled so strongly with pale lips, stroking the back of my hand, but I didn't know that the first time I looked carefully at her wrist, I saw the scars left by the dense needles, I looked at her smiling face, and my heart was even more uncomfortable!

"I'm sorry Xiaomei, I'm sorry..."

“...”

"It's strange, what are you sorry for? Interrupt your confession to Xiaoya, I should say I'm sorry, and don't look at me like that, it's really okay..."

In order to show that she was okay, she was going to sit up again, and I said okay, okay, I won't look at you like that, and she just smiled and lay down.

"Also, thank you for carrying me to the hospital, hehe, I'm heavy, right?"

Seeing her look at me, as if she would smile and give me a warm face at any time, I choked up, forced a smile, smiled and said not sinking, not sinking at all...

She seemed to look at her body with a little unwillingness and disgust.

"Actually, I used to be quite thin, and once I received a phone call and heard that my mother had an accident, and I didn't know why I passed out..."

"When I woke up, Uncle Wang said that I had hypothyroidism, and after that, I never lost weight again..."

"Do you hate chubby girls?"

I was stunned, if I did dislike big girls before, then Zhu Xiaomei made me realize that body size has little to do with whether I like to appreciate him, so I shook my head. She seemed to smile very happily and said thank you.

Time flies very slowly, I wanted to ask so much before seeing her like this, but I felt choked in my throat at that time and couldn't ask, just gently stroked her hair, she, smiled sweetly at me, and said Xiaoya just confessed to me today, go and accompany her, my side, it's okay...

Never mind...

When, it doesn't matter...

Laughing, laughing, my tears flowed down forever.

"I know everything, Zhu Xiaomei..."

“...”

She froze, looked at my tears, and fell silent.

"Why, why don't you tell me about it, Xiaomei..."

"So painful, so tormented, why do you have to bear it alone... We're friends..."

"You said it, you promised it! If there's anything stuff that is boring, just tell me... Just tell me..."

"Why... Lie to me... Why are you all like this, you're still... Still lying to me..."

Tears were dripping, but so many words were choked up and couldn't be spoken. Zhu Xiaomei, who has always cared so much about me, this time, she didn't cry because of my crying, she just lay quietly on the bed and looked at me, smiling all the time, as if she had said in the garden that day that she was just looking at me, she was satisfied...

Finally, with a hoarse voice, he said something to me that I will never forget until I die.

"Give you tenderness, and you will be able to put me down in your eyes...

"Amuse you, I can find my happiness in your smiling face...

"It's hard for you... I... What do you get...

Tears, one by one, slipped silently from the corners of her eyes...

"Chen Qian, I'm selfish... Because I like you..."

"So... If you like someone, let him be happy and miserable, and keep it to yourself..."

She brushed away her tears, looked at me deeply, choked with sadness and forcibly endured not to shed tears in front of me, but finally suddenly pursed her lips and closed her eyes, such painful tears burst the embankment, as if she was very firm, but as if she was asking me, she smiled and said, Chen Qian...

"Love is selfish, isn't it..."

...

Love is selfish...

Isn't it...

At that moment, I could no longer stop the sadness surging in my heart, and tears rained down...

I clutched her cold hand, and she struggled to sit up from the bed, the smile on her face abruptly stopped, and she pressed her forehead against my forehead and closed her eyes tightly, crying out in such a painful release.

"Bang Dang~"

The doorknob was loosened, and Zhu Qianqian, who had been guarding the door, could no longer remain cold, and curled up helplessly by the eaves of the door, burying her face in her knees, sobbing.

The sky is clear outside, but inside the house, it is raining sadly...

That day was very tormenting, and it was also the second time I shed tears for a girl, crying was ugly and ugly, and in the end, Zhu Qianqian walked in and helped her sister down with an expressionless face, and never drove me away, just lying on the bedside and kissing her forehead, she kept looking at her sister with *** naked and loving eyes, and stroked the broken hair in front of her eyebrows.

They seem to have a thousand words, but they all express them tacitly in their eyes.

Zhu Xiaomei looked at her sister, smiled sweetly at her, and finally turned her head to look at me calmly.

"Dad often said that love is time, and only when the time is right will you understand, and when you understand, you will love;"

Mom also said that love is an invisible scene, and only when you love will you understand. ”

"Chen Qian, you are the one who made me understand what love is after love; Xiaoya, you are the right person you met at the right time, so..."

"Go Chen Qian. She's been waiting for you outside for a long time... She's really cute, nice and pretty... And simple. Don't worry about me, I'll live well, and I'll find someone like I love you, so don't feel guilty, you shouldn't feel guilty, because I..."

"I'm relieved, really..."