The sudden joy, until a group of classmates burst into laughter, made me completely erase the tension in my heart. I pushed Zhao Ya away, looking at her shy and happy eyes, and felt warm in my heart. But the doubts that breed inferiority complex have also surfaced.

"Zhao Ya... Are you sure it's not because I've always been very protective and grateful to me... If that's the case and you don't really like me, then I'm not going to force you, really..."

"Not really!"

Zhao Ya categorically denied it, looked at my eyes so cautiously as if she was afraid of saying the wrong thing, and finally pursed her lower lip.

"Stupid..."

"Didn't you notice that since I was in the second middle school, I've always, I've always only talked to you, a boy? I'm timid, but I'm not so timid as to be friends with boys? I don't know why, but I feel very satisfied to stay by your side, and it seems that you are the only one who stays by your side..."

At that time, I looked at Zhao Ya's shy face, my heart was warm, I wanted to say something, but I didn't seem to think of the content, just when all the words were condensed into a sincere smile...

"Knock~"

There was a sound behind me, and I was immersed in happiness at that time, and I woke up.

Looking back, it was Zhu Xiaomei. At that time, her face was pale, and her eyes looked at me and Zhao Ya with empty eyes;

I never responded, but today I replied to another girl in front of her.

Scum, I'm such a scumbag! Even if there's nothing wrong with that... At least, it shouldn't be in front of Zhu Xiaomei, why did you look at Zhao Ya just now and ignore everything!

It turns out that people are selfish, and I am no exception, and I may even be more selfish than many people...

"Zhu Xiaomei, you..."

But at that time, the situation was far from being as simple as I thought...

I originally thought that she just felt sad and lost when she saw me who liked me and agreed to Zhao Ya's confession. But I didn't expect Zhu Xiaomei to shake her body and poof...

Fall to the ground.

At that time, all joy was instantly like being washed away by a great flood...

"Zhu Xiaomei??"

I panicked at the time, Zhao Ya stuffed the box in her hand and immediately ran up, shaking Zhu Xiaomei's hand nervously and asking her what's wrong, wake up!

The teachers are still not there, some people say that they are waiting for him to call the teacher, but when he turns his head, he feels a wind blowing, and when he looks at it again, he only sees me in a panic, and he picks up Zhu Xiaomei and runs outside the school without looking back.

I was literally like crazy that day, running around the playground and just yelling disrespectfully at any teacher who cared about the answers to them and told them to get out of the way. Looking at Zhu Xiaomei's pale face, I knew that sending it to the infirmary was just a waste of time!

Ran out of the school gate, it's not yet the school point, there is no taxi outside, and the vehicles come and go without the intention of stopping, and finally I put Zhu Xiaomei down in the screams of Zhao Ya's class of girls, gritted my teeth and ran directly to the middle of the busy road with straight hands and waved vigorously, and after almost being hit by two sharply turning cars, I finally stopped a Bai Hyundai.

"Emma, what's the matter, heat stroke, right?, hurry up, it's time to get stuck in traffic after work!"

The car space is so big, I carried Zhu Xiaomei in, and Zhao Ya pursed her lips and looked at me very complicatedly, what did she want to say, but when she heard Zhu Xiaomei's ***, she left it all behind and followed. After shouting out the window of the car and telling them to go to the senior grade to tell Xiaomei's sister Zhu Qianqian, the bald uncle who was driving didn't ask anything, and drove straight to the corner of the People's Hospital.

That day was a very unforgettable day, from the joy brought by Zhao Ya's confession, the mood fell to the bottom suddenly after Zhu Xiaomei fainted. Until Zhu Xiaomei was sent to the emergency room by a cart, the bald uncle patted her shoulder and said that it was okay, don't worry too much about leaving, my heart was still hanging...

I don't know how long she waited, Zhu Qianqian ran to the hospital in a panic, her face was white, and she was so anxious that tears flowed out, and she grabbed the nurse who didn't know who was in the emergency room and cried and asked her sister what was wrong, what happened to her sister? ?

Looking at her like that, I felt panicked and uncomfortable as if I had a resonance, and for the first time I found that Zhu Qianqian, who has always been so cold and bold in my eyes, is like a boy, and it turns out that she also has such a fragile side...

I was nervous and scared and didn't know what my expression was, so I just rubbed my hair and squatted weakly in the corner of the hospital, anxiously waiting.

Zhu Xiaomei... Something must not happen, must...

The wait was half an hour, and no doctor came out during that time.

Anxiously waiting, Zhu Qianqian looked at me with tears but cold eyes, and slapped me several times, at that time, she did it very early on and then pumped me back, but I didn't return it like that, and I kept thinking of Zhu Xiaomei looking at me in the playground, the lost, empty eyes as if the most important thing had been taken away. I knew that there must be a heat stroke factor when she fainted, but it was absolutely inseparable from the sudden change in mood at that time...

And what happened next made my heart even more flustered. That is, Zhu Xiaomei was pushed out of the emergency room, but she was not sent to the ward, but after the doctor said a few words to Zhu Qianqian, she was directly pushed to the ambulance in Zhu Qianqian's sudden stiffness. We all got out of the car with us, and when I was about to get in a hurry, Zhu Qianqian grabbed me.

"Get out, Chen Qian, you killed my sister, you killed my sister! You bastard!!"

Zhu Qianqian said this cruel sentence crying, and that desperate tone made my whole spirit wither and wither like a winter flower in an instant. I watched the ambulance disappear into the courtyard with empty eyes, but when I remembered to chase it, I couldn't see the car anymore.

"Xiaomei, is she okay, Chen Qian??, is she okay 55~"

Zhao Ya and Zhu Xiaomei have a good relationship, as can be seen from the last time they came to the office together to help me talk. Seeing her scared like that, I could only bitterly comfort her not to be afraid, it would be fine, and then I hurried back to the hospital and found the doctor in the emergency room.

"Oh, you said Xiaomei..."

"Do you know her????? the doctor"

"Of course... This kid has been here many times, alas..."

Listening to the doctor's words, my heart tensed, and my ears seemed to sound again the sound of her heavy and difficult breathing in the garden that day, and I hurriedly asked him, what is Xiaomei's disease?

The doctor hesitated for a long time because it was almost private, but he couldn't bear my persistence from the hallway to the office, and from the office to the door of the conference room, and finally he told me that this girl had Haver syndrome, which is a hereditary disease.

"Haver syndrome is a literal translation of English, and the literal translation of Chinese is "withered heart". Zhu Xiaomei's genetic disease is also relatively rare, and there should be no more than 1,000 cases in the world. As its name suggests, this disease is a withered heart - ventricular septal defect, atrial atrophy leads to insufficient blood supply to other organs, and the immunity is lower than that of ordinary people; similar to congenital heart disease, it is easy to cause pneumonia, recurrent respiratory infections, etc., and the disease has a lot to do with emotions, and excessive excitement or low emotions may lead to death such as respiratory tract blockage. And Xiaomei is a very strong girl, this kind of illness makes the survival rate of infants and young children very low, but she has never given up the desire for life, but this kind of illness will continue to worsen, just like she just now because of emotional control caused by irregular heart rate, if it is not sent so timely, it is really life-threatening. But no matter what, Zhu Xiaomei's current situation is not optimistic, it may happen at any time, and there is a possibility of death..."

"Death..."

The doctor's words have been haunting my mind, letting me come out of the hospital and out of the courtyard, the expression on my face has always been so wooden, Zhao Ya opened her mouth to say something in front of my eyes with tears, but I couldn't hear anything, I couldn't hear anything...

"A withered heart is actually a very apt description of this disease. Sick people can work and go to school like normal people, but they can't be as happy and sad as them, they can't do some strenuous exercise like normal people, so their body shape is generally relatively obese, and because there will be many complications caused by symptoms, people with Haver syndrome can be said to have been suffering from big and small illnesses all their lives, and it is very difficult to live in the torture of illness, just like a withered heart, alive, very tired and tired..."

"Drip ————"

A dry horn whistled past me, with Zhao Ya's exclamation and the driver's scolding, I was like a ghost wandering in the darkness and hollow, turning around and continuing to walk mindlessly, like a walking corpse, with a lot of auditory hallucinations in my ears...

"The first time she didn't come to school was when you refused her confession, and the second time she didn't come to study was when she hugged you in the garden and cried alone, it was you who hurt you, Chen Qian..."

The pace is getting slower and slower, and the face is distorted the more you go. Walking, walking. Tears flowed silently... Flowing. Across the cheeks, down to the lips, so bitter, so cold...

"You killed my sister, you killed my sister..."

Again... I couldn't go any further, I curled up at the fork in the road of people, but I was like an orphan who had lost everything, crying tears, crying and breaking my heart...

Mei...

Mei...