Volume 4 Zhige City Chapter 105 Depressed
After he left, Liu Jizu sat down to rest alone, and he was often uneasy when he was alone in the past few days. Today is another eighty-nine lives, plus those who were killed by him before, he has already killed many people, and his hands are already covered with blood, and he often feels that his heart is being condemned.
He could only comfort himself that these people deserved to die, and killing them by himself was a last resort, and they were all self-defense. But after comforting himself, he thought again, is it true that everyone deserves to have died so many people? He felt that his heart was still not hard enough, not ruthless enough, and not suitable for these things, and he often had the idea of retreating.
If this development continues, he already has a hunch that more people will be killed in the future, because all his troubles have not been completely solved. In the past six months, in order to solve the previous trouble, he has continued to cause greater trouble. The family members of the four evils, the academy, the Wuwei Valley, the King of Chu, and the Jianghu sect behind these people who have been killed by him now, there are more and more enemies, and the trouble is getting bigger and bigger.
He wanted to go home but didn't dare, for fear of luring the enemy to his door. He also wanted to leave with his seventh sister, live in seclusion, and live incognito. But is it possible? Is there such a place? Is there a place for him in the world? There are so many people counting on him, relying on him, especially the children he rescued, and these are putting a lot of pressure on him. But he didn't dare to say these things to anyone, on the contrary, he had to pretend to be calm and strong in front of others. This made him feel depressed and tormented, and he had nowhere to vent.
Looking back on the less than a year since he left home, he has experienced too much and deeply realized what it means to 'enter the rivers and lakes, and he can't help himself'. Many things are not what he imagined at all, and the rivers and lakes are not fun, romantic, or beautiful at all. He hadn't taken a bath for a long time, slept in the car every day, was bitten by mosquitoes, defecated in the field, was worried all day long to guard against the assassination of the enemy, didn't eat well, didn't sleep well, couldn't make love with the seventh sister, and had to worry about the eating, drinking, and future whereabouts of so many people.
From the time he came out of the house to the present, the only one who brought him beauty was the seventh sister. Fortunately, there is a seventh sister, so that he can get gentle comfort, otherwise he would not have been able to hold on. Thinking of the seventh sister, he slowly regained his strength, and his eyes became resolute.
At this time, dinner was ready, and the seventh sister came to ask him to eat, seeing that Liu Jizu's expression was a little painful, he asked with concern: "Son, what's wrong with you, are you injured somewhere?"
Liu Jizu smiled: "It's okay, I'm just hungry! Today's exercise is too much, just eat more." ”
The seventh sister was suspicious, she had already noticed Liu Jizu's strangeness, but when she asked him, Liu Jizu refused to say anything. For this reason, she also told Wu Lun about her worries, but Wu Lun said that this is a problem that men will encounter when they grow up, and he will find opportunities to enlighten him.
Today's food is horse meat again, but after Wu Lun's concoction, a lot of seasoning has been added, and the taste is much better than before, but Liu Jizu has no appetite, and the food is not fragrant.
The seventh sister took the opportunity to give Wu Lun a look, Wu Lun understood, smiled and nodded.
When he was almost done, he deliberately let Liu Jizu drink a little wine, and Liu Jizu's mood was slightly better under the influence of alcohol. Wu Lun also drank a few sips of wine, then pulled Liu Jizu to a place where no one was there and asked, "Do you feel that navigating the rivers and lakes is not as good as you imagined?"
Liu Jizu was stunned for a moment and nodded.
Wu Lun said with a smile: "Don't think too much, the rivers and lakes have been like this since ancient times, and the killing has never stopped! The peaceful era is slightly better, and the imperial court and government maintain the stability on the surface, but it is only the stability on the surface." Now that the troubled times are gradually emerging, even the apparent stability has been slowly lost, and the great turmoil is coming. So don't think too much, what we have to do now is to continue to strengthen ourselves before the country is completely chaotic, and with the power of self-preservation, we can survive in troubled times.
The four kings were the first to move because of their identity, and now four huge forces have been formed, and the country has been divided because of this. The people around you feel the danger, either intentionally or unintentionally, and leave the house to follow you. Everyone is mentally prepared, you also have to be conscious, you have to be more proactive, the stronger we are, the safer we are. In troubled times, the truth is as simple as that!
Some of those whom you have slain have indeed sinned unto death. But like I told you before, one is responsible for one's own actions. He stands in your way, and if he doesn't give you a way to live, you should think of the possible consequences. What's more, you warned them before this move.
Not only that, but a person is also responsible for his or her family or the organization he or she belongs to. We Central Plains people have never belonged to ourselves, but to a certain family or organization. It seems unfair that a member of a family or organization does evil and retributes it to a clansman who did not do evil, but it is reasonable for us to do so.
Because if someone in the family or organization gets a benefit, other people in the family or organization can also share in the benefit, this is called 'one person attains the Tao, and the chicken and dog ascend to heaven.' But no one can just take advantage of it without taking responsibility, otherwise the family or organization will not be able to sustain it, which is called 'one is prosperous, and one is lost'.
So, you're not fighting against someone or someone, it's a family or an organization. There must be good people in these families and organizations, at least they will not sin to death. He is not an enemy of you, not because he has an enmity with you, but because his family or organization is at enmity with you.
When he embarrass you, he is fulfilling his responsibility to his own family or organization, or by his own choice. So you don't have to have any psychological burden when you kill them, and you don't take the initiative to provoke them. The seventh sister has been observing you all this time and is very worried about you. I've noticed it too, and I know you're depressed and don't want to do these things. But to tell you the truth, no one likes to kill people in normal people, as long as you can keep the bottom line of not killing indiscriminately. ”
Although Liu Jizu did not completely agree with these words, there was a certain amount of truth, which made Liu Jizu feel a lot better, and untied Liu Jizu's heart knot to a certain extent. He was very grateful to Wu Lun, it seemed that the master still understood him, and he solemnly saluted the master to express his gratitude.
Wu Lun just smiled, returned to the fire and continued to eat meat and drink.
Liu Jizu's mood was much lighter, his appetite was also opened, and he went back to eat a lot of meat, but he was only half drunk.
Seeing that Liu Jizu seemed to be relaxed and eating more, the seventh sister finally put her mind at ease.
After eating, they still teach the children in groups.
The children learn more seriously, especially archery.
Today was their second actual battle, this time during the day, which made them feel the power of the bow and arrow more intuitively, and gave them a great boost of confidence. Many girls are also full of confidence, they didn't dare to think about going into battle to kill the enemy before, but now they can do it, so they learn more carefully.
Now that there are more horses, Liu Jizu began to teach them to ride horses again, and the children are very interested in this new content, and they are all rushing to learn and refuse to rest.
When Liu Jizu saw this, he said: "If you don't rest, the horse will have to rest! This will tire the horse to death!"
Then they gave up and went back to their cars to rest.
Early the next morning, they set out to continue north, and at noon they came to the border of Gangbuk Province. It was built on a hill, with a simple pass, and hundreds of soldiers were guarding it. Like the Daojie of Gyeonggi Province, they hardly care about the people who come in, but the people who go out are extremely strict, and without the approval of the government, they can't take things and money out, and they can leave after the search.
Liu Jizu discussed with Hou Huaigu and decided that Hou Huaigu would take someone to deal with it.
Sure enough, as soon as the group heard that it was Hou Huaigu and them, and there were so many people, they didn't wait for any means to use, so they scared them into a lot of urine, and they didn't care about the pass, and ran away with people.
Everyone successfully passed this pass and entered the boundary of Henan Province.
But for some reason, there were no officers and soldiers guarding Henan Province at all. Henan Province has been the core area of the Central Plains since ancient times, with fertile land, flat terrain, dense population, and many towns. It is still under the control of the imperial court, and the situation is better than that of Gangbuk Province, and there are post stations. However, the people in the border areas are also panicked and worried all day long, and people are constantly dragging their families along the road to move to the cities in the north.
The situation is very similar to the border area of Gyeonggi Province, and Liu Jizu and the others are not so conspicuous among these people. But they still did not dare to take it lightly, and still insisted on not going into the city, not staying in the store, not eating things from unknown sources, always being cautious, and camping and resting on the edge of some market towns.
But Liu Jizu knows very well that no matter how cautious they are, so many people will still be discovered, it is only a matter of time.
Sure enough, on the third day, trouble came. That afternoon, they had just passed through Guangxian County and found a suitable place to set up camp. Not long after the spies sent out by the back road, they came back in a panic to deliver the letter, saying that a large number of Jianghu people had come from the north of Guangxian County, and they were already very close to them.
When Liu Jizu heard this, he immediately ordered the arming.
After the first two experiences, the whole camp quickly took action, in a hurry but not chaotic, the speed was extremely fast, and in less than half a burnt incense, it was used to circle one large and one small. Liu Jizu briefly sorted it out, got on the horse and picked up the gun and came to the back road first, blocking the intersection.
He first had to look at the surrounding terrain and decide what countermeasures to adopt based on the situation.
Soon, Hou Huaigu, Elder Long and others rushed over and gathered behind Liu Jizu.
After a while, you could already see the dust kicked up by the horses' hooves. Looking at the scale of that dust, Liu Jizu's heart sank a little. After passing through the mountainous areas, the terrain of Henan Road is very flat, and the roadside is full of flat wheat fields, unlike the many waterways and ditches on both sides of the road in Gangbuk Road. This makes it impossible to concentrate the enemy in a small area on a narrow road, reduce the enemy's striking surface, and thus break through one by one. In such an open place, the enemy can bypass them directly from the wheat field and surround them.
Liu Jizu looked at the terrain, analyzed the situation, and ordered: "The four heroes follow me in front, and arrange for thirty warriors to follow us." The grandfather brought thirty warriors on the left, the Hou seniors brought thirty warriors on the right, and the master led the rest to guard the back road. The rest were in the middle, except for the wounded, who were ready with bows and arrows and weapons, and were ordered to act. ”