Chapter 173: Can I Trust Myself?
The winter chill is getting thicker, and the leaves on the branches are violently thrown into the air.
Jian Fan cocked his collar and walked through the square in front of the Yun T Building against the bleak north wind, merging into the flow of people rushing to work and entering the lobby through the revolving door. Jian Fan raised his hand and flicked off a thin branch stuck to his shoulder, folded the collar down, and patted his face.
After many days of hard work, with the help of Yang Chao, some of the project team members who resigned have been persuaded to change their minds. However, the situation is still not optimistic. There is still a week to go before the project kick-off meeting is held as planned, but the attitude of the remaining people who need to be persuaded is relatively tough, and the reason for resignation does not seem to be easy to refute. Jian Fan took a deep breath, suppressed the anxiety in his heart, and reminded himself to be calm.
"It's so cold!" Xiao Ke ran in from outside, noticed Jian Fan beside him, a touch of contempt appeared on his face, and the corners of his mouth were raised to hide it, "Jian Fan, big project manager, how is the project going? ”
"Kosuke, morning. Jian Fan raised his eyes and smiled.
"Jiayu explores the e-government market in other places and travels for a long time. If he's in the company, he can help you. ”
"What did you say?" The people who rushed to the elevator hurried past Jian Fan, and Jian Mao couldn't hear what Xiao Ke was saying.
Xiao Ke inadvertently hooked the corners of his mouth and detoured back to Jian Fan's side, "Oh, it's nothing. I heard that Yang Chao is helping you, but Yang Chao is about to leave his job, so it is estimated that it will be in the past two days. ”
Jian Fan's slightly puzzled expression, Ke Zhu made a mistake.
Xiao Ke snorted with a smile, "I'm going through the resignation procedures for him, just go through the process." ”
"Why did Yang Chao leave?" Jian Fan didn't want to believe. Since working together, there has been no sign that Yang Chao is leaving.
"He walked the wheat city on the project and was idle. I estimate that his entry into your project team is just an expedient measure, and some foreign companies poached him to change jobs, and he still has a lot of face in doing projects here. ”
Jian Fan was in a heavy mood and walked into the office belatedly, his face slightly pale.
"I don't have a good face, and I stayed up late again. Yuan Tao asked softly.
Jian Fan looked at Yang Chao's seat not far away. The seat was empty, and I couldn't help but feel more and more gloomy, "Hmm." ”
Yuan Tao got up, "Jian Fan." I have something to talk to you about. ”
Noticing Yuan Tao's cramped expression, Jian Fan had a bad premonition, "Okay, let's go to the small conference room to talk." ”
There is a café on both sides of each floor and many small meeting rooms that can accommodate about six people, so that developers can exchange ideas and discuss solutions at any time.
Jian Fan and Yuan Tao searched two floors before finding an empty conference room. Yuan Tao went to coffee and poured two cups of hot water in.
Jian Fan took the water cup and held it in his hand, the warm feeling made the palm of his hand very comfortable.
"Jian Fan, I want to resign. Yuan Tao sat opposite Jian Fan, his voice was a little erratic, but it was like a fine and dense rain silk that wrapped Jian Fan tightly, and he couldn't shake off the slightest coolness. Jian Fan struggled to break free, and the water cup in his hand suddenly smashed on the table, and half of the hot water was shaken out.
Jian Fu stared at the water stains on the tabletop that gradually spread until the water droplets "popped" to the ground. Only then did he slowly meet Yuan Tao's gaze, "Why?"
"I didn't seem to be able to adapt to the programming work in the company, the pressure was too much, and I wanted to change companies. ”
Jian Fan pursed his lips, "I want to know the real reason why you want to resign, your reason is not convincing." In any company, as long as you are engaged in development, the pressure will not be small. In addition, the pressure of changing to a new environment will be even greater. ”
Yuan Tao frowned and thought about his words.
"Don't you want to be involved in my project? If so, I'm not reluctant. Jian Fan rubbed the back of his hand that was splashed with hot water and was slightly painful. It turns out that the pain is delayed. The brain will actively reject the feeling of dislike.
"No, I'd love to be part of this project. However, I don't know if I can do it. Moreover, many people in the ministry are questioning your decision. You can choose a more experienced developer and don't have to think about me. ”
"Yuan Tao, you don't believe me either? Do you think I'm joking? Do you also think that the reason why I chose you to join the project team is because we have a good relationship?" Jian Fan stood up, "Yuan Tao, I hope you stay." As for the reason, because this project really needs you. ”
Jian Cheng walked out of the conference room. Burdened with lingering frustration.
Why don't they believe in me? How do I get them to believe in me? Am I worthy of being trusted? Can I trust myself?
'Can I trust myself?' The same question was also tormenting Lin Jianxuan.
Mu Sen was bored fiddling with a violin in Lin Jianxuan's villa, and the creaking sound finally caused Lin Jianxuan to roar, "Put it down." Now that you've done everything I've explained, don't bother me anymore. ”
Lin Jianxuan shouted at Mu Sen and walked back to the study, slamming the door shut.
Mu Sen always looked like a dead face, smiled and walked to the door of the study with his violin, and opened the door with his shoulder, "Jian Xuan, I'm not sure you took the medicine, do I dare to leave?"
"Why do I have to take medicine every day? You liar, you liar who doesn't even have a medical license, why should I listen to you? Can I be cured of this disease?"
"Jian Xuan, you just have had a lot of mood swings recently, and you just need medication to adjust it. You have to believe in yourself. ”
Lin Jianxuan was irritable, holding the case with both hands, and clenching his teeth. The fluctuating rapid breathing made fine cold sweat ooze from Lin Jianxuan's forehead. "Can I trust myself?" Lin Jianxuan smiled bitterly, grabbed the white pill bottle in the drawer, poured out two pills and put them in his mouth, "How long will I take this nasty medicine?" ”
"Jian Xuan, you'll be fine. Have you forgotten that time in the United States. Mu Sen swallowed the next words, those days were undoubtedly the most painful memory for Lin Jianxuan, how could he forget it.
Lin Jianxuan sat down slowly, looking out the window aimlessly.
Mu Sen gave Lin Jianxuan a glass of water, "You still have to sort out your feelings, whether it's for your mother or for Jian Fan." Put your feelings aside and you can be relieved. ”
"Don't think you know me, I don't need feelings at all. ”
"I follow you like a fool, I know you better than you do. You really don't need feelings, you just want to be in control of everything. This is true for your mother, you do everything you can to make her sad and make her remorseful. ”
Lin Jianxuan impatiently crossed his arms in front of his chest, arrogant and ruthless, and interrupted Mu Sen's words stiffly, "Didn't I give Hua Baojia a chance? Don't let her in front of me." ”
"What about Jian Fan? She doesn't know who you are. You act recklessly, and you don't care about the normal order of the company, just to make things difficult and complicated. Isn't that interesting? If you like her, chase her, love her, and marry her. ”
Lin Jianxuan waved his finger disdainfully, "I repeat, I don't need feelings, let alone marriage." ”
Mu Sen was very worried about Lin Jianxuan's illness, and the rapid recurrence of his illness did not bode well. Mu Sen hoped that by stimulating Lin Jianxuan, he would completely release the depression in his heart, and was about to probe further, when Lin Jianxuan's mobile phone rang suddenly.
Lin Jianxuan answered, "Okay, that's it." ”
"Arsen, I'm going to rest for a while and then I'm going to meet someone. You send me over. Lin Jianxuan closed his mobile phone and walked out of the study to the bedroom.
Mu Sen shook his head and took a deep breath helplessly, thinking that Lin Jianxuan had taken the medicine, and after calming down, he would be liberated and could go to the company to find Ouyang. It seems that the day has been lost again.
Mu Sen was bored for another two hours before he saw Lin Jianxuan walking downstairs in exquisite casual clothes, although there was still a trace of fatigue in his expression, it did not affect Lin Jianxuan's innate inevitability at all.
Mu Sen raised his eyebrows, no wonder Ouyang called him the devil, behind the gloom was ruthlessness and determination, and the tenderness that should have been ruthlessly wiped out by himself. (To be continued.) )