Volume 1 Reminiscences of the Youth's Heart Chapter 178 The Mysterious Youth
Nie Donglai nodded and said with a light smile: "Everyone will have the life they want, some people like to live a dull life, some people want to live a vigorous life, no matter what, every decision deserves to be respected, isn't it?"
Where there are people, there are rivers and lakes, as long as there are rivers and lakes, it is impossible to avoid all kinds of vulgar people, some people like dogs to fight with people, always relying on the power of the projectile land behind them, arrogant and domineering; some people like vertebral cloth clothes, even if they have thousands of acres of fertile land and employ countless people, they cannot stop them (her) from pursuing the footsteps of elegance; some people are good and ruthless and brave, relying on two or three muscles to bully the good and fear the evil, do no evil, and do nothing good; some people are happy and charitable, and have only one sincere blood, helping the weak and compassionate.
Jian Xuan is very different from them, although he was born in a famous family, but he has always maintained an innocent heart, although he has chivalrous tenderness, he is afraid of killing chickens and sheep, although he has the ambition to hold the sword in the rivers and lakes, but he is soft-hearted, although he is born uninhibited, but he is always timid to show the sword, although he has the intention to help the weak and punish the strong, but he has always been depressed.
Maybe she herself is a combination of contradictions, maybe she is not suitable for the bloody wind of the rivers and lakes, in short, she disdains to rely on the family, but she has never escaped the fate of relying on the family, people like her, in this rivers and lakes full of disputes, are really different, maybe one day, she will finally get rid of her own shackles, fade the innocence of her nature, maybe she will always remain consistent, but Nie Donglai can't imagine that no matter what the result is, it is a relief for her, or a kind of harm.
But Nie Donglai understands that no matter what happens in the future, at least she is pure now, which is purely unbearable, so how could Nie Donglai not understand her?
Jian Xuan smiled brightly, like a blooming flower moistened by the spring breeze, and said: "Indeed, no matter what steps we are chasing, at least everyone's starting point is worthy of respect, whether it is good or evil, most of them are tempered by the day after tomorrow, I always believe that at the beginning of people, nature is good." ”
Although Nie Donglai didn't explain anything clearly, Jian Xuan understood that he was tantamount to explaining in disguise that he could understand himself, which made her feel quite relieved.
Even the respected elders in the family, few of them can understand her, most of them are puzzled and questioning her behavior, although they are also very concerned about her, but Jian Xuan always feels that there seems to be something missing between them, let alone peers who want to be about the same age, no one will understand her at all, Xu is the edification of the rivers and lakes has made them accustomed to deceit, Therefore, in their opinion, the contradictions and ideals pursued by Jian Xuan in his heart were just a joke.
Jian Xuan also understands that in a sense, her own thoughts are a manifestation of cowardice, but it is precisely these cowardices that have allowed her to maintain unprecedented innocence, even her brother is often puzzled by her behavior, and even has opposing opinions, but Nie Donglai is indeed the second person who understands her among her rare peers, which instantly makes her feel that her persistence has always been not a joke.
Before Nie Dong came, the first person to express her understanding, and the only one of her peers, was Mu Guitian, which is why she was very intimate with Mu Guitian, although Mu Guitian looked a little fat and brainless, but sometimes he was very emotional and delicate.
"At the beginning of a good person, his nature is good. ”
Nie Dong looked at her and praised: "It's rare for the sword girl to be so open-minded, a person lives a lifetime, she should have a clear conscience, so she can control the gossip of others?
After listening to Jian Xuan's words, Nie Donglai suddenly felt that her eyes lit up, she was a woman, and she was so open-minded, what could she not see?
Along the way, he always felt that the burden on his body was too heavy, and he was a little out of breath, but he didn't know how to get rid of it, after all, for him, the road ahead was boundless, and everything was unknown, but Jian Xuan's words instantly made him feel something, no matter what the truth was, no matter how long the road ahead, as long as he kept an initial heart, then there must be a road before the car reached the mountain, and the boat would naturally go straight to the bridge.
Jian Xuan looked at the young man beside him, he was like a mystery, unpredictable, as a person who lost his memory and lost his past, he was not as depressed and compassionate as she imagined, and he did not give up on himself and be cynical, as a delicate, intelligent person, he was willing to be wise and foolish, and it was rare to be confused, without the slightest hint of selling words and pretending to be smart.
When he was steady, Mount Tai collapsed on the top and his face did not change, nothing seemed to be able to attract his attention, when he was frivolous, his expression was full of ruffians, and his words and demeanors were frivolous, like those literati who lingered in the kiln of the Qinglou all the year round, and wanted to burn themselves.
Jian Xuan couldn't understand which one was the real him, or he was originally in between, but she preferred to believe that the mature and steady man who was far beyond his actual age, like a weathered old man, was the real Nie Donglai, because in him, although she saw frivolity and unruliness, she didn't see the slightest lust in his eyes, and she preferred to trust her own intuition, her intuition told herself that Nie Donglai was not a treacherous person.
Nie Dong came to see her staring at herself fixedly, and she didn't speak, so she had to touch the bridge of her nose and said curiously: "What's the matter?
He was a little unsure why, didn't this Jian Xuan come to find Mu Guitian? It stands to reason that he should be staring at Mu Guitian, right, why did he focus on himself? The most important thing is that her eyes made him a little unbearable, and that look seemed to be able to see through his clothes, over the flesh and skin, and see the inside of the internal organs, which made him feel weak in his heart.
"There are no flowers. ”
Jian Xuan retracted his gaze and said with a shallow smile: "But you are quite interesting, and it is a little difficult to figure out." ”
"Oh?"
Nie Donglai raised his eyebrows and said, "This is the first time I've heard of it, but no one has ever said the same thing to me before." ”
Anyway, in his limited memory, no one has ever talked about it, Master has never said it, Mu Guitian has not said it either, and Meng Furong has never said it.
"Really?"
Jian Xuan just wanted to say something, but after thinking about it, he didn't know what had happened before, so he had to give up and sighed: "Maybe it's my delusion!"
Since Nie Donglai has a limited memory, not only will he not get any answer if he talks too much, but it will only increase his troubles, so why bother discussing this meaningless question, as long as she understands it in her heart.