Chapter 33: Confide
In the last days of Milong Mountain, Feng Zhiping didn't do anything, found a secluded place, and sat alone on the stone thinking about one question after another.
Born in the Wuhou family, he always thought that he was ready, and he only lacked a chance, a chance to cultivate like his two elder brothers, even any martial artist with mediocre qualifications.
Give him a chance, he can also fight the world with a sword, and laugh at the rivers and lakes and clouds and rain admired by everyone.
However, when he really started to get in touch with all this, he realized that he was not as strong as he thought.
Li Bo's death hit him hard.
It's not that he hasn't killed anyone, and he's seen people killed, but Li Bo is different.
Li Bo is his future fellow brother, a friend who promised to take him to appreciate the "beauty" of Cangshan, the straightforward and slightly irritable man is not as clever as Bei Siming, and will only express his enthusiasm in this vulgar way.
Feng Zhiping likes him very much, not because of those unashamed promises, but because of his directness, in him he can find the shadows of many Hou Mansion generals.
Now, the people are gone.
A heart is only sour at first, but after calming down, it becomes more and more colic.
He doesn't think he's a sentimental person, and now he is so sad about the death of a person who he barely knew each other for a long time?
Is it because of the death of a new friend, or is it homesickness because the familiar shadow is gone, or is it because others push oneself and panic about one's possible end?
Or is it as the second brother said, his strength and self-confidence are blind and hypocritical, optimistic and cheerful is just a disguise that refuses to admit incompetence and pretends to win sympathy, and he is a coward who is incompetent and courageless after all?
A small hand appeared in front of him, holding a piece of candy in his fingertips, Feng Zhiping immediately showed a cynical smile, but You Shuang'er spoke first.
"You said that eating sugar can make you feel better. ”
"I'm in a good mood!"
"Don't pretend, I just saw you wipe your tears. ”
"I didn't!"
"Twice. ”
"The sand is blind, I rub it!"
"You guy, you talk a lot of nonsense, open your mouth!"
The sugar cube is stuffed into the mouth, it is very sweet, but it is fragrant with osmanthus.
He doesn't hate the aroma, but insists that it should only be found in spice gouache, not food.
"Delicious, right?" You Shuang'er's eyes sparkled.
resisted the urge to spit out, and reluctantly squeezed a smile: "It's okay, make a living." That's right, I know that it hurts, and I'm a good daughter-in-law!"
"You're a person who behaves well with everyone else, why don't you treat me seriously!" the girl was annoyed, and her pink fist slapped lightly.
Feng Zhiping smiled and smiled, leaned his face closer and raised his eyebrows: "Because we are familiar with each other, daughter-in-law!"
"What nonsense are you talking about!"
You Shuang'er hurriedly looked around, and when she saw that no one was paying attention, she was relieved, and hit someone the shoulder.
"If you talk nonsense again, I'll beat out the candy you eat!"
"I'm afraid of you, brother, I'm the one who has walked on the back of the earth dragon!" he pointed triumphantly at himself, and he was very proud to mention it.
"Then I'll call another me out!"
The smug face froze instantly, and he almost couldn't help scolding his mother, Feng Zhiping hurriedly begged for mercy: "Uh, I was wrong, Senior Sister Shuang'er, no, Senior Sister Shuang'er, calm down!"
"That's pretty much it!"
Swinging his little fist triumphantly, You Shuang'er narrowed his eyes and breathed a long sigh of relief: "Alas, it's so good!"
Feng Zhiping's face darkened: "Okay, if you see that I'm not happy, you're happy, right? I know that you are not as kind as you!"
"Who do you say is not kind? Believe it or not, I'll call someone now!"
"I was wrong, calm down!"
"Good~!"
patted someone's head with satisfaction, and You Shuang'er's face paled.
"I said that it was good to be able to chat like this, since I was a child, my master did not let me have contact with outsiders, and even my brothers and sisters rarely communicated with me. I know Master's hard work, and I also know that my brothers and sisters are not snubbing me, they are afraid of irritating me, but I am still very uncomfortable. I also want to have friends, real friends, meditating alone and practicing swords, that kind of feeling you can't imagine if you haven't experienced it, it's really lonely. ”
"Actually, I know what it's like to be alone. ”
You Shuang'er was stunned, but when she saw Feng Zhiping smiling bitterly, she shook her head and didn't say much, she felt that she had guessed something.
"Are you an orphan?"
Feng Zhiping almost choked to death, and said angrily: "Borrow your auspicious words, my parents are both complete!"
"Then what are you lonely?"
"Martial arts!"
Thinking back to the past, Feng Zhiping's expression was indescribable.
"I'll admit I haven't had your condition, but I'm not lying to you, I have other physical problems. Since I was a child, I can't practice internal skills, I can only practice external skills, so I redouble my efforts, because I heard that there were people who only practiced external skills and practiced internal strength, and I believe that I can do it too! Many people persuaded me to give up, and some people pointed at my nose and scolded me for being a waste, telling me to honestly eat and wait for death, but I didn't accept it! I firmly believe in sincerity, I want those who laugh at me to see, I am sealed, Feng Buping is no worse than anyone else!"
Emotional almost leaked out, Feng Zhiping was full of fear, but he didn't know that the girl didn't care about it at all.
"Are you saying that your current cultivation is based on practicing external skills?"
The small mouth opened into a circle, and You Shuang'er was dumbfounded, and the look in his eyes was the same as when he saw the earth dragon.
"Uh, no, I met a strange person who cured my illness, and now I can cultivate. ”
"I'll just say, how can someone only practice external skills and practice internal strength!"
Patting her chest, You Shuang'er smiled and said, "No wonder your swordsmanship is so good, even she praises you, she rarely praises people!"
"She? you mean?"
You Shuang'er nodded, Feng Zhiping was stunned, he didn't expect that cold Nizi to praise people, it doesn't seem to be so ruthless.
"What else did she say, didn't she say that I was very good-looking, did she apologize for the offense that night?"
You Shuang'er shook her head: "That's not true, but I scolded her, and she promised that she would not attack you again in the future, unless you were as unruly as you were just now." ”
"Then why didn't she come out just now, didn't she listen?" Feng Zhiping wondered, and secretly mentioned three points in his heart.
"Because she's tired! After you disappeared, the people from the Blood Knife Gate came again, she spent a lot of energy, and now she can't beat me!" You Shuang'er looked proud.
"You still fight a lot?"
Feng Zhiping was shocked, trying to imagine what it would be like to fight with himself.
The girl stuck out her tongue: "No, we don't usually quarrel, she likes to be quiet, I like to be lively, so most of the time she is resting, and she only shows up when I am tired or in danger." ”
"That's right. Feng Zhiping was clear, "So you have self-control, so why doesn't your master allow you to contact people?"
"That's now, not before!"
Looking back on the past, You Shuang'er made a bitter face.
"In the past, we didn't even know each other's existence, and we would often switch without warning, sometimes appearing or disappearing at the same time, and we had no memory afterwards, which caused a lot of trouble. My father inquired in many ways and learned that my master might have a way, so he sent me to Diancang Mountain, where I could only go home twice a year, and the rest of my time was spent practicing. The practice was very hard, but we gradually became aware of each other and became able to communicate, until recently when the exercises were completed and our self-control was greatly enhanced, and then we asked Master's permission to travel in the mountains. ”
"And how did you pay it that night?"
"I'm not mad at you!"
With a glaring of eyes, You Shuang'er pouted and said, "You were light-spoken that day, I didn't care, but I committed her taboo, so I forcibly appeared to teach you a lesson." I tried hard to persuade her, but she didn't listen, but fortunately, Senior Brother Chang stopped her, and then we had a big quarrel and didn't speak for three days. ”
Feng Zhiping wiped the cold sweat.
It turned out that before leaving, this girl's spirit was not only because of guilt, but also because of quarrels.
Thinking about scolding himself in the mirror, he felt a little funny, and involuntarily said: "Your illness is quite fun, if there is one in my body, I will be fine, I can work in two shifts, day and night." ”
"Do you really think so?"
You Shuang'er's eyes were gloomy, and Feng Zhiping wanted to explain that he had no malicious intent, but she shook his head and interrupted.
"You only know the fun, but you don't know the pain inside. Because of this disease, I have not been able to make friends since I was a child, I can't even go back to my home, and Master also said that if we can't become one person, there is a high chance that something will go wrong in the future. ”
"What's the big problem?"
Holding his knees, You Shuang'er put his chin on his knees and whispered, "Master didn't say it, but I guess it's probably a matter of life and death." ”
Feng Zhiping opened his mouth, not knowing what to say, he could only pat her back gently.
Nuan Shuang'er has always been a lively and cheerful silly girl in his heart, but now she is talking about life and death, full of heaviness that should not belong to her age and personality, and he is very uncomfortable to watch.
Thinking about each other, he was desperately cultivating to go home, she was also going home, and even more so to live, he suddenly realized that he and she were the same kind of people, both of whom were fools who refused to succumb to fate and struggled.
If you are not stupid, why do you have to practice martial arts so far, who dares to believe that one day your dream will come true and meet a god who has reborn you?
"Don't be afraid, you will definitely live a long life! Don't forget that you are my daughter-in-law, marry a chicken and a dog with a dog, I am a scourge for thousands of years, and you will not be far behind!"
"Who is your daughter-in-law! Don't talk nonsense in the future, she will definitely not be able to spare you when it reaches my master's ears!"
The annoyed pink fist split his head and covered his face, Feng Zhiping pretended to be afraid and hugged his head, and the corners of his mouth buried in his knees were gently hooked.
This is the You Shuang'er he knows, and heaviness is not suitable for her at all.
"I found out that you are just bad in your mouth, but your heart is actually very kind, Senior Brother Li Bo would be very happy if he knew that you missed him so much. You Shuang'er suddenly stopped and said, her voice low and soft.
The style is changing too fast, right?
Feng Zhiping raised his head, and saw that the little hand pressed it again, and the sugar cube entered his mouth, damn it, it was still osmanthus flavor!
Filling a piece into his mouth, You Shuang'er pretended to be arrogant and waved his hand, muttering: "There is no wine here, let's replace wine with sugar, and we will be friends after eating this piece of sugar! Don't worry, I will cover you when you enter Cangshan in the future, and if you have any trouble, tell me that I will let the master teach them! Hey, by the way, Master, you can worship my master as a teacher, so that you will be my junior brother in the future!"
I'll go, where did this girl learn this set of words, have you watched too many plays?
Feng Zhiping couldn't cry or laugh, and said politely: "Thank you, but I really don't want to be an inner disciple, and my position Elder Wu has been arranged, so I won't worry about you." ”
"It's arranged?" You Shuang'er was surprised, "Where???
"Neither. Feng Zhiping patted his chest proudly, "From now on, I will be a glorious handyman in Cangshan!"
Let's go.
His jaw fell, and the sugar almost fell out, You Shuang'er tilted his head and looked at Feng Zhiping in a daze, his eyes seemed to be looking at a fool.
"Honorable, handyman?!"