My name is Pu Gucheng, I'm 20 years old, and I haven't seen my dad for as long as I can remember.

My mother said that my father had been dead for more than ten years, and he was dying.

I didn't realize at the time why my dad died of old age before I was even older.

Why am I still so young after twenty years?

Although I have lived for 20 years, I only remember the events of the last few years.

My mother moved me to a small village, where she taught me to read and write, and in my spare time I would go to play with my friends in the village.

Although my friends often said that I looked a little strange, I barely spoke, and they let me follow.

The friends will go to the river to catch small shrimp and go to the elm tree to pick up elm money.

They think I'm not good-looking, but they always give me some and I'm happy.

So I laughed happily.

The way they looked at me changed all of a sudden, I don't quite understand that look, but I think it should be like the book says, they saw the wolf mixed into the flock.

They are sheep and I am a wolf.

They picked up the stones from the ground and threw them at me, and although they were not small, they hit me, but I didn't feel any pain.

When they saw that it was useless to throw me, they shouted at the monster and ran away.

I didn't chase them because I felt like even if I did, I wouldn't be able to blend in with them anymore.

Maybe I've never been part of them.

So I cried, and the left side of my chest was a little uncomfortable, which is probably what the book says is sad.

I cried and went home and asked my mother, "Oh, why do they say I'm a monster?"

Niang is a person who loves to laugh, although I think there is something else hidden in my mother's laughter.

I didn't understand it at the time.

She listened to me, her smile froze on her face, and she crouched in front of me and touched my head, "Don't they like you?"

"Oh, yes, they stoned me. ”

My mother cried out when she heard this, and hugged me tightly.

I felt that I had said the wrong thing, so I quickly said, "Oh, it's okay, I don't hurt at all." ”

I don't know why, my mother hugged her tighter.

Later, my mother moved with me to another village, which has a more beautiful scenery and everyone here loves to laugh.

The children in this village were more enthusiastic and took the initiative to ask me to go out when they saw that I was a newcomer.

So I immediately forgot about the previous incident and had fun playing with them.

It's just that I remember to keep my mouth shut.

Although my friends were curious about why I didn't talk and rarely laughed, I was fooled.

There is a small lake on the edge of the village.

It was spring, and swans would fly into the lake.

Cuong is the oldest of the children, if not counting me, so everyone listens to him.

One day he said he was going to the lake to catch geese, and the friends agreed.

The goose looks beautiful, with a long neck, white feathers, and graceful curves.

Although I want to catch it, it doesn't affect me from praising it.

But under the beautiful appearance seems to hide a fierce heart, the goose chased my little friends, and the little friends all screamed and ran away, and I followed.

It took a long time for the goose to stop, and the friends were already out of breath.

I didn't.

They sat down on the ground and rested for a while, and began to talk about the goose, which was not caught, but still very happy, so happy that everyone laughed.

I felt ashamed to be chased by a goose, but I don't know why I was happy in my heart.

So I couldn't help but laugh, the kind with my mouth open.

......

I came to a new village, and I took the initiative to tell my mother that the geese in the lake were too fierce and that the village was not suitable for living.

This time I made up my mind that no matter how happy I was, I couldn't open my mouth to laugh or speak.

So I decided to pretend to be dumb.

Dumb people don't seem to be looked down upon, at least my new friends seem to be treated better, maybe that's what the book says, people always sympathize with the weak.

I don't like to be sympathetic, but if it makes me fit in.

I do.

I've been in this village longer than I've been before, and I feel like I'm already part of my friends.

Because I can't talk to my friends, I can only keep telling stories with my friends at home and my mother.

At this time, I will laugh very happily, and my mother will laugh too.

But I didn't realize that she didn't seem to be smiling purely.

Summer came, and my friends invited me to swim in the river to cool off.

Although I can swim, I hate water, I hate it.

I sat by the river and watched them, and they were not upset and hated me, and I was relieved.

The river is narrow and not deep, and there are several large rocks that are exposed to the water, and near the shore, the stones and aquatic plants at the bottom can be clearly seen.

It's just that there was a rain a few days ago, so the water flow is a little fast now, but the friends said it didn't matter.

It turns out that there may be something to do with it, a little friend suddenly drowned.

Other friends tried to bring it to the shore, but it didn't work.

I hated the water, but I ran over to save him.

It's just that I was in a hurry, and I stepped too one foot, and I slipped on the shore and hit my head on a big rock.

It hurt, it must have been a big opening, and I felt like I was bleeding, but I didn't care so much, I swam to him and swam to shore with him.

After spitting several mouthfuls of water, he said that he had a leg cramp.

After the horror, everyone noticed that half of my head and face were covered in blood, and they quickly washed me with water.

A man cried out in horror: "You have a big gash on your head, the length of a small half of your face!"

I felt like he was making some fuss because I wasn't in pain anymore.

It's just that why are their expressions more frightened now?

"You...... Your mouth ...... It's good to have a little bit......"

yes, I don't have any pain anymore, of course.

"Are you a youkai?"

Why is someone asking me that? Shouldn't a wound heal all at once?

I opened my mouth to defend myself, and then they all ran away again, including the one I had rescued.

It was hard in my chest, but this time it seemed like there was something more than sadness.

When I got home, I hesitated for a long time and couldn't help but ask my mother, "Hey, why do they all say I'm a monster?"

The mother didn't look particularly sad this time, and her face showed a look of memory, "You're not a monster." ”

Before I could rejoice, she continued: "But your mother, I am a demon, a fox demon.

It took me 100 years to enlighten my spirit, 100 years to cultivate, and 100 years to transform my form.

Your father is a human being, a scholar.

I met him in a city when I was just transfiguring, and he taught me a lot when he saw that I didn't understand anything.

I told him I was a demon, but we fell in love.

You are the child of me and your father, the child of man and demon, so you can't be considered a demon. ”

I didn't know what love was, but I seemed to understand something, "Hey, people only live for a short time?"

"Your father's life in the human world is not short, he has lived for fifty-three years, but it is still too short for a demon.

You are the child of humans and demons, and you probably can live for a long time, even longer than me, so your father died before you can remember. ”

I can't believe it, and I can't accept it.

It turns out that I just look like a human.

It turned out that I was not the same kind as the partner I had been looking for.

Even demons aren't my kind......

My mother suddenly touched my head and said to me in the tone she used to teach me to read: "Child, there are many people in this world, few demons, and even fewer children of people and demons, but it is not only the same kind that can coexist.

You may not find another person of your kind in the world, but you can certainly find someone who shares your heart, so don't be afraid to be alone. ”

I saw my mother in tears.

Although I didn't understand what my mother said, I nodded heavily.

......

I came to a new village, and I decided to find the person my mother said.

I'm ready to spend more time with people and then take the initiative to tell the truth.

After ten days of getting along, they were very scared when they heard that I was a monster and ran away. They never looked for me again, and when I went to them, they ignored me.

Probably because the time is too short.

......

I came to a new village.

After a month of getting along, they were very scared when they heard that I was a monster, they all ran away, and they never looked for me again, and they ignored me when I went to them, and even beat me.

Time is still too short.

......

I came to a new village.

After two months of getting along, they were very scared when they heard that I was a monster, and they all ran away, and they never looked for me after that, and when I went to them, they ignored them, saying that I had deceived them.

It may not be a matter of time.

......

I came to a new place, a place further north, and I didn't remember the name.

I was a little discouraged, but I didn't give up.

Since you can't find it, let's wait for him to come......