At night, snowflakes fell on Chang'an City again.

Because the copper flower lock was broken, his wife got angry, ignored him, and slept with her daughter after eating. The things he talked to Zimo during the day were still in his mind like a knotted hemp rope, and he couldn't bear the impulse in his body due to irritability, he didn't want to use "Xuanji Pure Root Recipe" to calm his dryness, and when he saw that his daughter was asleep, he threw himself on his wife, but he was pushed away.

"The slave is sleeping, very sleepy. ”

Ye Yunsheng had no choice but to walk out of the house, standing in the courtyard, silent, snowflakes falling, he stood for a while, laughed angrily, secretly thinking about which woman would push him away in the past, even a proud woman like Qingqing was caught by herself, and she couldn't resist with a blushing face...... Thinking about it this way, the heat in the body can't be suppressed.

He walked towards Dongshi, just wanting to buy a pound of wine and get drunk.

There was almost no one on the street on a snowy day, and when he was about to walk to the East Market, a person turned out of the fork in the road, and when he saw it, he asked in surprise: "I don't sleep at home at night, what is this going for?"

It was Fang Zimo, who had just met during the day.

Two swordsmen, neither with swords.

Ye Yunsheng glanced at the other party's clothes, wearing a white jade lotus crown, wearing a royal blue straight jacket, jade on his waist, and a gold-painted folding fan.

"Do you still have this thing?" he said, referring to the white jade lotus crown on the other party's head.

"I bought it with you in Yangzhou, but I was reluctant to lose it, what about your crown?"

Ye Yunsheng remembered that it was placed in the cellar, but he said, "I forgot where to put it for a long time." ”

Fang Zimo smiled, glanced at the brightly lit Dongshi not far away, and said, "Please let me drink?"

Ye Yunsheng shook his head, "You please." ”

"You don't even invite a glass of cloudy wine?"

"The wine invited by the people in the rivers and lakes is more delicious. ”

"Hahaha. Good. Please drink the wine of the rivers and lakes. ”

The two walked side by side towards the East Market.

"But what does the wine taste like?"

"The taste of the long time. ”

There is Fang Zimo, a big man in the rivers and lakes, who invites guests to drink late at night, and he will not go to the Nunnery Hotel, Flower Tea Shop and the like. The two of them did not enter the East Market, but walked directly from the path to the north for about 100 steps, and then crossed a peach blossom path planted by nearby residents to the door of a rich and noble family.

Ye Yunsheng looked at this family, suddenly sighed, and said, "I didn't think that after seven years, there would still be business here. ”

Fang Zimo didn't smile when he heard this, but said: "Generally, these businesses are longer than those of Jianghu people. ”

Ye Yunsheng didn't want to spoil each other's interest, and asked, "Do you come often?"

Fang Zimo laughed: "Occasionally." ”

After knocking for a moment, I saw a little lady open the door, said to them, and led the way. When you walk in, you will see the hanging plaque on the front porch "Hidden Peach Garden".

The interior of the house is elegantly furnished, the hall is spacious, and laughter is heard from time to time. More flowers and trees were planted on the left and right, and they walked into the path between the halls, and there were many curtain rooms behind them, and the little lady took them to an empty room and asked if there were acquaintances.

Fang Zimo said that if Xiaoli Blossom has leisure, she can come to accompany the wine.

The little lady nodded and withdrew, and after a while, a maid came up with wine and food, and when the food and drink began, the two girls walked in, and they were blessed, Ye Yunsheng and Fang Zimo also stood up, snorted, and invited to the table.

One girl is a new acquaintance of Fang Zimo, and the other is a light begonia who has just come to Chang'an for a few months, and she speaks a soft Wu language, which is very intoxicating.

The two girls drank a little wine, talked about some interesting stories about the literati, and occasionally did not go deep into the deeds of the rivers and lakes, all of which were just right.

Ye Yunsheng and Fang Zimo talked to the woman, and the words between the brothers were all in the wine.

After drinking the wine, it is naturally a matter of clouds and rain......

Xiao Lihua's body is incomparable to Zhang Qingzi, but most men don't get tired of good-looking women, especially the one who spends the night. Fang Zimo opened his eyes, looked at the dark roof, and listened to the smiling pear blossom beside him ask, "I can't sleep, what are you thinking?"

"Miss my inner man. ”

"Miss her, why are you still here?"

He sighed in the darkness, "Because she has a body, I can't touch her." ”

"Then I'm going to congratulate you. ”

"Unfortunately, the child is not mine. ”

There was a moment of silence in the room.

Just not far from the house, which was also almost completely decorated, Ye Yunsheng suddenly held his breath. His hand touching the hair of the shallow begonia also stopped, but with the woman's undulating head, weak and fragile...... It was probably a brother who didn't care about it, and listened to the movement on the other side of his ear, but he didn't expect to hear Fang Zimo's low words.

He quickly understood, he had put down his sword all these years, but he had not put down his internal strength, and he had practiced "Bright Light Divine Guard" and "Xuanji Pure Root Technique" day after day, I was afraid that Fang Zimo didn't know how strong his current skills were, let alone thought that he could hear it.

The touch of the tip of the begonia's tongue could no longer bring the slightest happiness, although he was still holding back his moans just now.

And the words from there came to my ears again.

"Do you know whose child it is?"

"I know the insider, there is only one person in the world who can make her willing. ”

"Are you going to kill this guy? I know you're very good at martial arts. ”

"No, it won't. ”

"I don't understand...... Why?"

"You won't understand. ”

Ye Yunsheng closed his eyes, but he still let the tears flow, he stroked them with his fingertips, and then put his fingertips on his temples.

As long as you have enough internal strength, insert it......

He is not afraid of failure, he is not afraid of being ridiculed, but he is afraid of hurting the friends around him who care about him, so he would rather waste this swordsmanship. Morning and evening, blood and tears, sweat, big dreams, give up forgetting, and live the life of an ordinary person.

Again he hated himself, hated himself.

If he hadn't quit the rivers and lakes, Zhang Qingzi would have married him, and at that time, he entrusted Qingzi to Fang Zimo, why did he regret it later? Zimo didn't do anything wrong, and it wasn't anyone's fault that he couldn't have a child.

His whole body tightened, and then like a punctured air bag, it deflated little by little. He sat up, let the light begonia wipe it with a hot soft cloth, and then silently put on his clothes and leaned against the corner. His mood was completely low, and there was nothing more helpless and painful than doing something he regretted and remembering in his mind.

I can't change the past, and I am full of despair for the future.

He didn't even know how he got home, he didn't know how he fell asleep.

I only remember that when he said goodbye to Fang Zimo, he promised that he would go to Zhao Yuanwai to teach swordsmanship.

When I woke up the next day, the snow was heavy and the snow on the street was already submerging.

He did the same work, burned the same noodles, pushed the same cart on the street, and did business in his old position, but he was more tired and indifferent than usual.

It was almost late in the evening when he got home, and when it was dark when his wife and daughter were asleep, he married the sword box from the beam of the house, and went directly to the Holy Hand Lao Li.

This time, Lao Li was not in the Huangquan Medical Garden, but in the stone hall outside, sitting at the table, a few dishes of side dishes, a pot of hot tea, more than a dozen candles on the ground beside him, plus the oil lamps hanging on the stone wall, the whole stone hall was full of light.

When he saw Ye Yunsheng, he said angrily: "Don't care about the meal, put down the money, and wait for me to give you the medicine." ”

Ye Yunsheng put the sword box on the table, and several saucers jumped.

"Sword?"

"I remember you used to say that you liked this sword. ”

Holy Hand Lao Li's face changed, he put down his chopsticks and put his hands on his knees.

"Are you willing to give me this sword?"

Ye Yunsheng had no waves, as if the things on the table had been completely ignored.

"Actually, I should have figured it out...... No one is in the rivers and lakes anymore, what are you still doing with this sword. ”

Holy Hand Lao Li still didn't stretch out his hand, he thought carefully for a moment, and then said, "I don't want your sword. ”

"Why?"

"Because I'm not Ye Yunsheng, I don't deserve this sword. Lao Li's gaze fell on Ye Yunsheng's face, and he still had the same cold and bored eyes as before, but the words he said were warm and enthusiastic: "Even if you quit the rivers and lakes and no longer use the sword, I don't want you to lose it...... No matter how you live, whether you are useless in the world or not, you are my friend after all. ”

Ye Yunsheng closed his eyes, and after a while, he opened and looked at the sword box on the table, and he said in a low voice, "I really can't take out a hundred taels of silver." ”

Holy Hand Lao Li sneered and said, "I know you can't take it, it doesn't matter, you just need to promise me one thing." ”

"What's the matter?"

"Some time ago, I saved someone who shouldn't have been saved, and then someone asked for my life, so I didn't even dare to go out on the street. ”

"I can't help you, I'm quitting. ”

"I can't break the rules, I can't treat people with medical treatment, and I can't lose money. ”

Ye Yunsheng pushed out the sword box and said, "Take the sword and give me medicine." ”

Holy Hand Lao Li's round eyes looked at him seriously: "Either agree to my conditions, or make Zhang Qingzi's belly bigger, anyway, Fang Zimo has no children." ”

Ye Yunsheng was furious all of a sudden, and the stone table was shattered with one palm, and he scolded with a sword box: "Believe it or not, I'll tear your beak!"

"Come on, I'm afraid you're a birdman!

"I can't beat you up if I sell noodles?"

"Do you believe it or not, if I hook my finger, more than a dozen Meridian Soul Breaker Nails will shoot at you, and there will be overwhelming impermanence scattered spews out?"

"You hook, fast hook, my one hundred and sixteen hands chasing light and shadow swordsmanship is good-looking?"

The two men who were both fast in age stared at each other and quarreled like children. It took a long time for Ye Yunsheng to lose his breath, and he sat back on the stone bench weakly, staring blankly at the debris all over the ground.

"What's the origin of the guy who killed you?"

"I don't know, anyway, I came here to make trouble, I used a sword, I was afraid of the poison of my secret weapon, so I scolded me a few words, you agreed, I will let people go to him for an appointment, anyway, the rules of the rivers and lakes. ”

Ye Yunsheng knew that as long as the other party agreed, he would go to the duel for Lao Li, and if he lost, he would pay off his debts on behalf of Lao Li with one life, and if he won, the other party would let Lao Li go. Of course, this is the rules of the rivers and lakes, no one will break the rules, and if the people in the rivers and lakes know, there is no need to go to the rivers and lakes.

"Give me the medicine, you can arrange the time and place. ”

"Tomorrow morning, I'll ask my apprentice to come to you. ”

He went home first and put away his sword, and kept taking Lao Li's medicine all the time and rushing to Dongshi.

In the cold street, the ground had become icy, and it was very slippery to walk on it, and he slowly walked to the entrance of the East Market step by step.

Zhang Qingzi was sitting in a wine shop drinking, and looking over from here, her side face could be seen. He watched this face change from an innocent girl, to a rebellious heroine, and then to a woman who was unwilling to be lonely.

He used to like to look at her face very much, and he liked to see her well-defined cheeks and her eyes with hidden stars.

But tonight he was a little afraid to come closer.

Zhang Qingzi turned his head slightly and waved the wine bottle in his hand at the lamplight. So, he walked from the dark and silent street to the noisy liquor store.

She just watched him come in from outside and sit down, and found that he was in a very bad mood, and poured a glass of wine without asking anything.

He takes a drink, she pours one.

Until the flasks on the table were empty, she took his hand and walked out of the wine shop.

The snow fell and fell on the two of them.

The night sky was darker than before, and there seemed to be a huge cloud covering it, but it was impossible to see it from a little distance.

They walked around a corner, and at the corner of a deserted alley, she tugged at the hem of his shirt and kissed him on the lips.

He finally couldn't hold back his tears.

She was stunned for a moment, and suddenly figured it out.

She could see Ye Yunsheng's hidden thoughts, but she couldn't see through her husband's.

"Give me the medicine. ”

He took out the pill and handed it to her palm, "I'm a bastard like a pig and a dog, I can't hurt him anymore." ”

She stepped back and swallowed the pill in one gulp. She was ready, but under the stimulation, her heart was surging, and she actually laughed.

"You're not a bastard like a pig or a dog, you're just useless in the world. You have only lost once in your life, that is, to yourself, and you will never have the courage to win it back. I don't hate you, I don't hate myself, I just love the wrong person, I don't regret it...... Who has been hurt? Who hasn't been hurt?"

When Ye Yunsheng saw her like this, he knew that the more crazy and proud he was, the more sad and sad he became. He wanted to be comforted, but what he said was an explanation for himself.

"If you promised to quit the rivers and lakes with me at that time, how could I hand you over to Zimo?"

Zhang Qingzi, who had never even cried when his biological father was stabbed to death by the enemy's sword, had tears in his eyes at the moment, and his voice was hoarse.

"Ye Yunsheng, I practiced the sword, not to let it go and live an ordinary life. I don't want to die of old age, I don't want to lie pitifully on the sickbed panting, I want to die under the sword of my opponent, I will be shaved on my face, my arm will be cut off, and my stomach will be cut, and I will be willing! If I lose, I will lose, and I can still accompany Zimo to win back! I will never think about quitting and live my own little life after losing! If you want me to let go of the dignity of the people in the rivers and lakes and withdraw from the rivers and lakes with you, then we will have to wait for us to win back! You are afraid of hurting us...... As early as seven years ago, Zimo's hearts and I were both broken by you!"

He closed his eyes.

Is it that when you close your eyes, it's like falling asleep, and you can't feel anything?

Why does my heart hurt so much like being cut countless times by a knife?

"Do you think you're like this, happy?"

Zhang Qingzi covered her stomach, Lao Li's medicine was amazingly fast.

Perhaps silence is the answer. She didn't want to say anything, she jumped up, borrowed strength on the wall on the side of the alley, and her figure rose and fell a few times, and it was already far away.

He felt that one of the most important things had been lost and could not be regained, and suddenly loneliness pressed on his back like a force of ten thousand catties. He could only give in, carry it slowly, and walk in the direction of home.

There are daughters who sleep beautifully and quietly, there is darkness that makes people forget everything, and there are old guys on the beams.

............

On the way back, I don't know who is pulling the erhu.

The sound rippled in the snow, making the night wind sentimental.

Listening, it looks like an old man walking at the end of the road, maybe he thinks of a lonely grave at the foot of Zhongnan Mountain, maybe he thinks of his best friend who has no news in the distance, or maybe he thinks that he will return to nature tomorrow. The music is full of pessimism.

He followed the muffled notes to a corner.

The moon shines through the clouds, drawing the ground into a circle, and the old man holding the erhu sits in the center of the circle, his eyes closed, as if he is intoxicated by the music.

"Old man, can you change to a more joyful tune?"

He dropped two coins and sat down on the edge of the circle.

The old man opened his eyes and looked at the money on the ground, and turned around, and the strings trembled and seemed to be brisk.

It's like reminiscing about the good old days of my youth.

It's just a brisk moment, sad and eternal, and for some reason the song has gone to a place that makes people lose their souls.

He brushed his face, withdrew from the circle, and looked up at the snowflakes falling from the sky—the snow fell on his face, a chill to the bone. He felt like he was dead, and when he took another step, he finally figured it out - this erhu, no matter how it seems to be pulled, it is a sad tune.

When he got home, he gently closed the door behind him, just like the person who closed the curtain, the audience in front of the stage did not want the play to end, but he just wanted to end it quickly, to end this long-destined bitter love scene, to end the repetition and repetition of the numb waiting.

He walked to the bed and picked up the "Xuanji Pure Root Technique" that he had practiced for nearly 20 years, not to fight, but to see his daughter.

At a glance, the world is beautiful, as if a gentle whisper is in the ear: "Daddy, have a good dream." ”

All the sounds that coiled in my head disappeared in this instant.

He curled up beside the bed and went into the darkness.

If you are not there, what are your troubles?