118 I want to cry without tears

Shen Fengming was so shocked that he couldn't speak, and vaguely recalled that when he accompanied Mrs. Xia Chen Rongrong to the temple to offer incense during the Chinese New Year, she mentioned a name called "Jun Dao" when she prayed for blessings. Pen Fun Pavilion wWw. biquge。 Info thought for a moment and said, "I know what you mean - but it's all speculation." If it's true, it's not necessarily a bad thing. ”

"Isn't it a bad thing?" Suzaku sneered.

He didn't say much, only said, "I'll come over tomorrow morning, and I'll talk about it when I have time." ”

immediately said goodbye to Xia Zheng. Although he didn't say a few words to Xia Zheng from beginning to end, leaving him, the master, aside, Suzaku was not as arrogant as when he was in the palace, and Xia Zheng and his wife couldn't help themselves. Xia Zheng stepped forward and said, "Shen Gongzi, he didn't embarrass you, right?"

"No, no, no. Shen Fengming said busily.

"Are you talking about the Black Bamboo Society?" Xia Zheng looked suspicious.

"Uh...... The first said a sentence or two, but in fact, ......" Shen Fengming said, remembering what Suzaku said, his words changed sharply, and deliberately said, "Actually, he said a few words about his apprentice, which is the Taoist priest named Jun Li." He knew that I had a little friendship with the Taoist priest in the past, and asked me about a private matter. ”

Sure enough, seeing that Xia Zheng and Chen Rongrong's complexions had changed slightly, Xia Zheng asked, "What is the matter?"

Shen Fengming deliberately showed a puzzled look again, and Xia Zheng realized his gaffe and hurriedly said: "Oh, since it's a private matter, you shouldn't ask more." It's just that...... Can't you see that he cares a lot about this apprentice?"

"Well...... It's been so long since I've been away from the inner city, and Lord Xia should know better than me. Shen Fengming said.

Chen Rongrong on the side seemed embarrassed, and said: "It's not early, the meals have been hot several times, why don't you go to eat and say more here!"

Xia Zheng was just gone, but Shen Fengming clearly saw the two of them walking towards the atrium, and exchanged glances.

Sure enough, there was a problem. There must be a problem. Just not sure, what exactly is the problem. Is their attention to Jun Li as Suzaku guessed? Calculating the age, if Jun Li is really the son of the Xia family, he should be older than Xia Qi, and he is the eldest son of their family. What happened so long ago, who else in Zhuangzi would know except for the husband and wife?

He remembered the deputy manager Li Xifei. It's just that today because of Lou Qianshan's affairs, he is really exhausted, whether it is physical or mental, he doesn't want to get involved in other things anymore. What's more, after all, I still don't feel at ease at night, and I want to watch Lou Qianshan - other things, let's talk about it in the future.

Lou Qianshan finally fell asleep, the kind of sleep that didn't seem so dangerous. was pointed at by the Vermilion Bird, naturally he didn't want to move, the blood and qi did not circulate, and of course he could not bleed.

Chen Rongrong had already wiped the blood stains on Lou Qianshan's body, changed clean clothes, changed rooms, and replaced bedding. It was already spring, and the weather was not the coldest, but the brazier in the house was still blazing and roasting, and the thick quilt made Lou Qianshan, who was lacking in blood and cold to the bone marrow, sleep soundly. In this way, she looks clean and energetic again.

Shen Fengming was a little relieved, leaned against the table in a trance, and also had a dream. The dream was also warmed by the warmth of the room, and suddenly there was a warm song, which was sung by a familiar person.

Rainy and sunny,

The green water is full of new pools.

Shuangyan flew to the weeping willow courtyard,

The small pavilion draws a high curtain.

is so far away in "Qingping Le", he can't remember when he heard it, how did he fall into his dream so familiarly. The person who sang seemed to be far away from him, and if he looked carefully, he was in a deserted yard, but there were a few plum blossoms blooming beautifully outside, and as far as the eye could see, he could not see anyone else.

A good song turns sad in the second half, like the sun setting and the sky suddenly becomes cold. He suddenly remembered something, and hurriedly ran out of the courtyard where he was, and ran towards the song, which was still accompanied by some fragmentary piano sounds, and when he got closer, it was clear that it was no longer "Qingping Le", but it had become another song, full of sentimentality but full of expectation, seemingly sad but with longing. But when he heard this song clearly, he was suddenly startled, opened his eyes, and woke up.

- How did you dream of this one?

He rubbed his eyes. The brazier was dimmed, so it was no wonder that it suddenly felt cold. He hurriedly took a piece of dry wood and went to the basin to stir it up, and then sat down again, casually recalling this old dream, and the old song in the dream, and subconsciously, his mouth also sang it softly.

You can't do it,

Who stays in Middle-earth?

Beauty should be cultivated,

Pei Wu took the Gui boat......

He snorted twice, and suddenly burst into laughter. That day, I overheard okra singing this song in a small inn in Huizhou, and that illusion was really like returning to childhood. If it weren't for Jun Li suddenly coming and interrupting her singing, he really wanted to listen to it silently like that.

Later, when he chose a concubine in the Forbidden City, he also hoped that okra could play this "Xiangjun" again, but she didn't play it, but chose the song next to it. The memories that were evoked always seemed to be broken and incomplete, and even this night's dream was just as incomplete.

- It's a pity, it's a pity that I'm not as blessed as that Taoist priest. He smiled bitterly in his heart. You can't talk to each other every day, you can listen to her sing if you want to. Otherwise, I have to respond to her with the song "Mrs. Xiang", I can't let the beauty be lonely.

But in that dream, the memories of that distant childhood came back to them. In my memory, beauties always have to be lonely for some reason. The people that beauties miss are always unable to respond to their thoughts for some reason.

He thought that he was almost lonely, wiped his face that was a little uncomfortable from the fire, and changed his position to sleep next to each other for a while, but he heard a soft "hey" from the bed.

As soon as he closed his eyes, he opened them, suspecting that he was hallucinating, but when he walked over, he saw that Lou Qianshan was really awake, and looked at him timidly.

"How woke up. Isn't it comfortable?" he leaned to look at her.

Lou Qianshan shook his head. "It was a little cold at first, and then I woke up. What song are you humming?"

"Uh, that ......" Shen Fengming was unexpectedly heard by her, so she had to say: "I hummed casually, I didn't want to disturb you." ”

Lou Qianshan smiled lightly: "It's not noisy, it sounds good." When I'm ready, can you teach me?"

"I ...... I'm not very good either. Shen Fengming was a little at a loss. "You'd better go to sleep first, it's the middle of the night, don't be so energetic. ”

Lou Qianshan was a little depressed. "I know, you don't like me. She said softly. "No one will like a girl like me. ”

"No, I didn't mean that. Shen Fengming saw that she was serious, so he had no choice but to say some good things. Unexpectedly, Lou Qianshan raised his eyes and looked at him, and said, "I am already pregnant with a child, who else will want me?

Shen Fengming was slightly stunned, unexpectedly she talked about this topic. Lou Qianshan was already crying: "I heard you talking to Suzaku just now." I...... I'm pregnant...... I...... I didn't know it!"

Shen Fengming wanted to ask her, "Who is that child", but finally couldn't help but ask, and only said: "Don't think too much, you have a good rest, your body is better, everything is still the same as before." ”

"Suzaku came to you, what did you say?" Lou Qianshan asked him with wide eyes.

Shen Fengming didn't like her to ask about these things again, her face turned colder, and she said, "It has nothing to do with you." ”

Lou Qianshan's face was also slightly and inconspicuously a little colder, and with an "oh" sound, he retracted all his expressions.

It seems that a little cold color can eliminate all the warmth, and those cares and loves, or touched sadness, after the sky gradually brightens, really turn into a kind of strangeness as usual. What was once a moment of excitement and comfort turned into vigilance, vigilance, and a little bit of disbelief.

Suzaku arrived very early, and at the same time, there was Jun Li, so that Xia Zheng was stunned for a long time, and even forgot to question Suzaku's move to take Lou Qianshan away.

Lou Qianshan didn't expect such a thing, but the moment she heard Suzaku's words, she still showed a smile of victory on her face—that smile was aimed at Shen Fengming. She didn't understand the complicated expression on his face. She thought he was surprised, jealous, and perhaps remorseful, but she didn't know that it was a decision he had known before.

Because I knew it earlier, it was more complicated. But how can he ?—— that he should be regarded as benevolent and righteous to Lou Qianshan, right?

However, when he watched Jun Li carry Lou Qianshan on his back and put him in the carriage, he suddenly remembered something and stepped forward and said, "Miss Lou, there is one more thing for you." ”

Lou Qianshan poked his head out of the car and said, "What?"

Shen Fengming stepped forward and whispered a few words in her ear. Lou Qianshan's complexion changed suddenly, and his lips, which had finally recovered some human color, moved.

On the road from Xiajiazhuang to the inner city, Lou Qianshan, who was originally a little proud, became silent, didn't say a word, lowered his head, as if he was thinking about something, but he couldn't figure it out.

Everything finally came to a turning point. After all the inhuman pain she had suffered, God seemed to have finally favored her a little bit and given her that glimmer of light. Suzaku personally took her back to the inner city, which was enough to make her proud. Except for Cheng Ping, no third person has been treated like this.

But Shen Fengming's last few words made her proud, and she couldn't be proud anymore, just like knowing that the "favor" she was getting now had actually made her lose everything again.

- "Last night you asked me who else would want you, and I remembered that Shan Xianfeng had told me that he had no intention of marrying you. I don't know what happened to you, but I don't think the world wants you, at least. ”

She didn't know why when she heard this, she knew for the first time a feeling called wanting to cry without tears.

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[Off-topic: I received an update ticket yesterday, although it was only 1, but after all, it was the first time, and it was not easy to turn a blind eye. Fortunately, the heart is not too dark, and I didn't ask for 12000. I've always been running naked while writing and sending.,The manuscript is actually only 6000.,I'll send the next 3000 later.,Alas.。 In view of the fact that the manuscript of the other book has also been used up, the one that has signed the contract has been signed, and the one that will be given priority in the future~]