In retrospect, how could she be so happy when she spoke to herself? And when she finally shouted the word "Jun Dao," she didn't know whether it was joy or melancholy, if it weren't for Guan Mo's sudden arrival, the feeling at that moment would have seemed to be a sharp cone into her heart. Pen Fun Pavilion wWw. ｂiquge。 ｉｎfo

He stood in the middle of the street, a little panicked. "Jun Dao", these two words, seem to have endless possibilities, he doesn't dare to guess. Looking up, it's a drowsy day. Shen Fengming must accompany Xia Zheng and Mrs. Xia by himself yesterday, and those words were like an indescribable hint, which made him feel uneasy.

Suddenly slapped on the shoulder by a hand, he almost jumped up with a shock, and when he turned around, he saw Shen Fengming's face. "What's the matter with you, standing here stunned, shouting that you don't move for a long time. Shen Fengming was a little stunned, but seeing his bleak complexion, of course he couldn't be stunned. "Where do you live, and are you still in the mood for a couple of drinks with me?"

Jun Li calmed down a little and pointed to the side, "I'm fine—I'll live here, but I don't drink." ”

"I'll drink it if you don't drink it, and if you don't drink it, I'm about to lose my soul. Shen Fengming heard him say that it was okay, so he pulled him into the lobby of this inn, sat down, and really asked for some wine, and without speaking, he drank three glasses first, and then glanced at Jun Li and said, "You really don't drink?"

Jun Li shook his head: "Are they all awake?"

"Well, I've almost woken up, only Mrs. Xia is still asleep, but it shouldn't be a big deal. ”

"Mrs. Xia......" Jun Li muttered to himself.

After the dishes were all served, the two of them ate silently for a while, and Shen Fengming said, "Uh...... Jun Li, will you come with me to say hello to the owner later?"

Jun Li was a little strange that his tone this time was a little different from usual, neither calling himself "Taoist" nor "Lord Xiangjun", and his expression was a little nervous, and he couldn't help laughing, "What's the matter, haven't your soul come back yet?" ”

Shen Fengming didn't deny it, but continued: "I mean, although Master Xia Zhuang said that they had a Gu poison attack, but now that they are sober, most of them can remember that there was a person like you on the side before, and it would be a little deliberate for you to avoid it again." ”

Jun Li looked at his cup: "I have nothing to do, I just think that they have always regarded me as a Suzaku all the way, and it will be difficult for me to let go, if I really show up to go together, it will only increase each other's troubles." - Why, what did Natsu-sama say?"

Shen Fengming picked up the cup and took a sip of wine instead. And then take another bite. Until he drank this cup, he said: "Don't ask me first--I ask you--did Lord Xia Zhuang say anything to you during the time of the Gu poison attack?"

Jun Li was a little puzzled, so he only shook his head and said, "I didn't say too much—speaking of which, it was Mrs. Xia who asked me a lot of questions, some of which were ...... Something I didn't expect. ”

"Then you don't think there's anything wrong?"

Jun Li frowned. "What do you mean? ”

Shen Fengming's hand dripped and turned the empty cup, as if he was hesitant and couldn't make up his mind. But in the end, he still raised his head, looked at Jun Li, and said, "Before I came out, the owner of Xia Zhuang specially stopped me and asked me, 'Is Jun Li also here'." He knew that it was you before, but now that he can't see you, he is worried that everything is his demon, just an illusion, and he is not sure. ”

"And how do you answer him?"

Shen Fengming smiled bitterly. "I naturally didn't know it first, anyway, the owner of Xia Zhuang didn't know that I was so familiar with you, he just ...... It's just that he was a little emotional, so he grabbed me and asked. I can't bear to see him so disappointed, because I know he wants to see you even if he shouldn't. ”

Jun Li was a little unclear when he heard it, and he wanted to open his mouth to ask, but was stopped by Shen Fengming with one hand. "Don't speak, just listen to me. ”

He kept silent, looking at Shen Fengming, who was still a little weird until now. Shen Fengming paused again, took the wine jug, filled it with another glass, and drank it all with his neck up. That face really seemed to have some wine, and he looked at Jun Li again.

"Daoist, I, Shen Fengming, treat you as a friend. He began to say something he had never said before, "But because I'm a friend to you, I don't know whether I should tell you or not." But today I have decided that the kinship of parents and children in this world cannot be deprived even if there is a great reason, and there are some things that should not be avoided. ”

Jun Li's hand trembled slightly, as if he realized something. "Don't ...... Stop it. He unconsciously whispered to stop him, as if to prevent himself from knowing a truth that would never be recovered.

Shen Fengming was stunned. "Do you know why I had to keep you here last night, not that I really think I can be better than you and can deal with Guan Mo, but---I know that the owner and the lady must prefer to be the one around you at that time. They already knew, and I knew it, even Suzaku knew it-Jun Li, you are their own son, the eldest son of their Xia family--I don't believe that the owner and the lady of the village will be able to hold back a word when they are accompanied by you this day, even if you hide from them, you can't change this fact!"

Jun Li's face turned pale, and all the near and distant past events poured out, making his hands really tremble, and those pair of chopsticks couldn't hold anything, couldn't hold it. He knew, he had long known that since Master Fengyun Dao Chang passed away, he had actually been getting closer and closer to this truth, even if this truth was not said from Shen Fengming's mouth today, it was already very close to him.

"Are you...... Also have a premonition?" Shen Fengming saw him like this, and reached out to subconsciously hold the empty wine glass. "I didn't dare to tell you because I knew why you left your parents in the first place, and I knew all the hardships, but—"

"You know, why do you still say it!" Jun Li pressed the table, and suddenly interrupted him, his eyes were angry, as if Shen Fengming in front of him was not a friend, but a living culprit who pushed himself into despair. But he also knew that this was not the case - how could the culprit be him, it was simply this heaven who had already condemned his life's fate. He said it or not, and nothing would change.

"I just don't want to see you running away and hiding like this, as if you can overcome fate like this!" Shen Fengming's voice also rose. "I have seen them pray for you, and they think of you day and night. After so many years, although they have abandoned you, they have never really abandoned you -- on the contrary, because you are not around, they think more and suffer more! Don't you always want to know who your parents are? I don't believe in orphans in the world, who doesn't want to find their biological parents, who doesn't want to be with their family for a day, and now that you are so close, but you want to be so estranged, I-I really can't stand it!"

"So you want me to see them? You know what kind of fate I have, but you want me to see them? Shen Fengming, you ...... You must be too self-righteous! If I had known this, I would not have promised you to stay here last night, you know that you are harming people!"

"I'm hurting people? I just know that because you followed all the way, because you were here last night, they are all alive and well now, and they suffer the least. Jun Li, why would you rather believe in such a nonsensical so-called fate, rather than believe the facts in front of you? I will never believe that this God will be so cruel that it will take people's lives and cause people to be separated by relatives overnight!"

"You are not me, naturally it is easy to say - but in me, that fate has been fulfilled again and again, you - if you were me, you would know how small a person is in front of the four words 'fate'!"

Shen Fengming stared at him with red eyes that were so excited that he was silent, and then slowly spoke again.

"Well, let's not talk about the sidelines, but just say -- in your heart, do you want to see your parents and brothers? Do you want to see them make you happy, or do you feel good when you don't see them? You say 'fate,' but if I were you, if this God was really so ruthless to me, I would resist to the end! If you give in, it will only get worse; if you resist, maybe there will be a glimmer of life-at least, and you have been happy and happy, isn't it better than just being so miserable forever?"

But Jun Li's expression was already cold to hard. "I'm not going to see them. This voice was so hard that Shen Fengming only heard it, and he knew that all arguments were probably unnecessary.

"You ......" he seemed helpless, "you are so stubborn!"

"This is Master's most important instruction to me before he died," Jun Li said slowly but resolutely. "He said, 'If you find out who your parents are by chance, don't go to them as if you still don't know.'" I will never forget this sentence until I die, and I do not want to take another risk that I will regret for the sake of a momentary whim—you don't have to say anything more. ...... It's still a long way to go to Meizhou, and I'm still the same as before, far away from you, just cut off for you. ”

"It's not that you can't let go of them, and you don't want to follow them all the way?" Shen Fengming still didn't give up, "You will follow all the way from the capital to this place, which shows that everything is doomed in the dark, why are you obsessed with that one ......?"

"Yes, I can't let go of it—I can't let it go in the first place, and now that I know the truth, I can't let it go! But so what? I can only protect them in my own way. You only tell them that I am in the capital and have never been here, and what they saw me last night and today is all illusions, all nothingness, and all their ...... to me To me, the so-called eldest son, who has never called them daddy...... Imagine ......!"

As if he could no longer speak, his face was so calm that he turned his head and closed his eyes in almost despair, trying to hide some expression.