Nan Zhen personally opened.

Nan girl, when you read this letter, I was already gone.

Don't ask me where I've gone, you'll assume I'm out of this world. Don't try to find me anymore, you won't find it.

I've always wanted to say something to you, and I've always been unable to say it. In fact, the desperation needle in my body has been removed three years ago, and in the past three years, I have learned to summarize my past with my own emotions. But I've found that ruthlessness is actually quite good.

Once people have feelings, they have concerns, bonds, and burdens.

In the past, I didn't blink an eye when I killed people because it didn't matter to me whether those people lived or died. What should be killed, what should not be killed, what does it have to do with me?

The enemy of Shuzhou City, kill.

Enemies of the Medicine King Valley, kill.

Ordinary people who get in the way, kill.

When the sword cuts through a person's body, blood splatters out, like a red flower that suddenly blooms. It's the only thing I've been excited about in years.

But since I regained my normal emotions, I was scared.

Not the fear of fear, but the fear of sadness. What is my life?

It's good that I didn't kill Qingyang.

Actually, I like Qingyang a lot. It's not that men and women like it, it's that I like his cynical smile.

It's like the endless.

That's what I'm going to say to you. It may not seem like much to you, but for me, who had no feelings at the time, it was an extremely sad thing.

Wuya may not have mentioned me to you, after all, it was just a small matter to him.

For me, meeting him made me doubt myself for the first time in my life.

That year, Wuya captured the three villains in Central Plains City, and the name of the Red Swordsman began to be praised. At that time, I was still young and had not yet taken over Shuzhou City, and when I learned that Wuya had been looking for Sophia, I pretended to be Sophia and approached Wuya.

I didn't mean anything else, I was just bored. I want to see how many pounds and taels this admired young man is, and I want to know how many people who admire him will feel sorry for him if he is killed.

But the first time I met him, I hesitated.

He was smiling all the time, and he looked very happy. The way he smiled was very good-looking, and although I hated it too, I was more jealous because I wanted that smile too.

I hated myself for not having that smile. That faint, bright, brisk smile.

Instead of killing Wuyan, I saved his life.

One night, I followed Wuya to Bishui Villa on the northern outskirts of Central Plains City. The Bishui Villa is a gathering place for grass gangsters. The wicked people call this place a safe nest, they usually pick on the girls of the poor family, or catch or trick to come here, to be destroyed, the beautiful ones will stay in the villa for the pleasure of the dignitaries, and the poor looks will be killed directly. Wuya originally helped Situ Xiaojing, the female catcher at that time, to go there to explore the truth, but because of carelessness, she was ambushed and was seriously injured.

But I didn't know what I thought at the time, maybe it was a certain nerve misplaced, or maybe I couldn't get used to seeing a group of chickens and dog thieves in Bishui Villa, so I rushed in and took the injured Wuya all the way out of the encirclement.

At that time, Wuya was calculated, the injury was too serious, and he had a high fever that did not go away, and he was unconscious. That's how I took care of him all the time.

He woke up a few times in between, and when he saw what I thought was Sophia, he smiled faintly, and each time he didn't speak, and then he fell asleep again.

I thought about it for a long time, and I simply brought him to Allure and to Sophia. That was how they got to know each other, and Sophia and I have been friends ever since.

If you ask me if you regret it, maybe there is. I only regret that I didn't kill him at the time. But kill him, and no one will smile at me like him anymore.

Sophia promised to keep it a secret for me, and I thought I had done a good deed. After all, it was my first time, and I was happy that I didn't kill anyone.

I thought to myself, if you don't kill him, you can kill everyone else.

So I took more than 20 kung fu players and returned to Bishui Villa and killed a group of thieves inside. The owner of Bishui Villa is surnamed Zhang, and his nickname is An Le, and the name of An Le Wo is given by him. But his previous name on the rivers and lakes was Zhang Tianle, and he was one of the elders of the Tianzi Gang of Beggars. Before he died, he threatened me that the beggars would avenge him. It was also from that time that I became married to the beggars.

The power of the beggar gang has been divided since the evil god incident. Although Wang Tianbao, the contemporary leader of the beggar gang, and his brother Wang Tianzhi have outstanding characteristics, they have not been able to unify the beggar gang for more than ten years. And those scattered evil small forces are emerging in an endless stream, under the banner of beggars, preying on the common people, and harming one party.

After the Shaomu Mountain Martial Arts Conference, Wuya and Lu Huaishan, as well as Xilei, their title of the Three Heroes of the Central Plains resounded all over the rivers and lakes, and it was even more difficult to kill him.

So I made a stumbling block, and borrowed the relationship between the plum blossom woman Xilei and his sister Xiwen, I created several incidents, and led the contradictions to the three heroes of the Central Plains, but inadvertently promoted them to cooperate with Wang Tianbao and drastically eliminated the cancer of the beggar gang.

You don't say it's ridiculous.

No one knew about me, and no one thanked me. I was like a fool.

But it doesn't matter if you want to say it, I will be happy to see the endless smile.

But no matter how much I studied, I couldn't learn how to laugh.

Not only Wuya, but also Lu Huaishan, Xi Lei, and the people around him all had that faint smile hanging on the corner of their mouths.

Later, I realized that it was a polite smile, a trusting smile, and a free and easy smile.

Treating strangers is polite, treating friends is trust, and treating the whole rivers and lakes is free and easy.

How could I possibly learn.

If you talk about friends, Sophia counts as one. That's why I've always loved staying in Allure. Later, I inherited the title of the lord of Shuzhou, and Sophia also became the first beauty in Allure. It was at that time that Mr. Wen Ghost came to Allure. After a late night conversation, I teamed up with him to plot the Allure Rebellion.

It's a pity for Sophia, it's a pity for Wuyi, and it's a pity for you.

I also lost.

But maybe I should be glad that I can't love someone, so let me hate someone.

The apprentice of King Lu Huaishan, Qingyang, is also the same person as Wuya, the same chic, the same unaware of the height of the sky, the same, with a faint smile.

At that moment, I actually felt that this kind of laughter was so disgusting. If I can't have it, I'll destroy it.

Who knew that Qingyang actually burned down my Splendid Pavilion and burned my human skin mask, God knew me, and gave me a reason to hate him.

It's ridiculous, it's not a taste to hate someone for many years.

And now, I can let go of all this.

Let go of stubbornness, let go of hatred. Let go of the ridiculous, let go of the pathetic. Everything is put down.

I can finally be a whole person, a whole woman.

I will go to strange places, meet strange people, and live a life that seems casual to you but strange to me. I also have to learn to be polite, to trust, and to be free.

I will also love others. I will also have friends, my friends, and me, and we will also have, like boundless, like Qingyang, with a warm smile.

Nan girl, I am such a person, I just want to be such a person.

I should thank you for all my feelings. It was your presence that made me let myself go.

Maybe one day you'll be like me, and then you'll feel my feelings.

Speaking of Shuzhou City, I still have to remind you of the relationship between Shuzhou City and the Medicine King Valley, the city lords of Shuzhou City in the past dynasties are all from the Medicine King Valley. The battle of the city lord is not inheritance, but the residence of the capable. The city is not what you think it is, and I can only tell you that if you don't kill people, you will always be killed.

I used to like to kill, and it wasn't because I was bloodthirsty. It's because if I kill someone, others will be afraid of me. I have a few kung fu players under my command, known as the five poisons of Shuzhou City.

But it's these people you should be most wary of. Among them, the spider Alu, who has already dedicated himself to Hu Longfei, the young master of the Medicine King Valley, sits in the dream of her young master's wife; the scorpion Haotian and the poisonous snake Aqiu, the two of them have long been opposed, but they lack the timing and means; many years ago, the four-step elephant disappeared after the assassination attempt of Hu Yingying, and everyone thought he was dead, but I am sure that he is still alive, but he has changed his identity, if someone wants to assassinate you, he must be one of them.

The only thing you can trust is the Blue Bird. She was a good girl and a poor person. I originally wanted to give the blue bird to Qingyang, but I don't know if Qingyang has this blessing. The blue bird can't speak, but her ability is our hole card, protect her, and the birds in the sky and earth are your spies.

Become the city lord of Shuzhou, and you can freely enter and exit the Medicine King Valley. Hu Yingying has lived in seclusion for several years, and it is not easy to kill him. That's all I can do for you.

In the end, you only need to remember one thing, after returning to Shuzhou City, find a person named Mama Lin, I was brought up by her, she will tell you my preferences and habits on weekdays, and after you learn to master it and can imitate my appearance, you will kill her, so that no one will know our secrets again.

Have you ever killed someone with your own hands? Maybe, maybe not. Mama Lin is someone I have always respected and the only one who is good to me, but only by killing her can I cut off my past.

I know you'll hesitate, but you have to understand that if you want to become me, Mama Lin must die.

Only by being ruthless can you do ruthless things. No matter whether Wuya will know your true face and true appearance in the future, he will turn against you.

This is the path you choose, and you have to finish it on your knees.

Finally, bless me. Thank you for pulling me out of the abyss and forgiving me for falling into the abyss.

Live well. Live to the end of everything.

After all, your hometown is not in Shuzhou, but in Allure.

Monroe word.