When she said this, she raised her eyes to look at Shen Fengming, and then looked back at Jun Li's face. Pen × fun × Pavilion www. ｂｉｑｕｇｅ。 info Jun Li's face was a little pale, and he didn't look at her, but he also looked at the two halves of the scrap paper pressed under her hand.

"Do you think he believes it?" his voice was a little unsteady and cold.

"Of course!" said the thorn affirmatively, "I know my father best, he won't be confused even if he gets angry again, and the more he attacks like this, the more it means that he actually believes it." He's angry that he can't contradict me, but it's not aimed at you!"

"You won your father, so happy?" Jun Li's voice was still a little cold, and his eyes finally lifted a little.

"I ......," the stinger shook his head, "you still don't understand." My dad has no reason to stop me from joining you now, and whoever made him fail to control me in the first place will be even more unbearable now! If he still insists on saying something, I can confront him. ”

She said, as if she was afraid that Jun Li would follow up with her next sentence, and hurriedly lowered her gaze. "But I, I haven't told you this before, because I know you're going to say about me. You've always been more verbose than my dad and treated me like a child. The most important thing is that I'm also a little scared - I'm afraid that if I do, but you tell me that I'm messing around alone, and you don't want to take me on the road at all, then I'm ...... I don't really know what to do. ”

Later, when she said this, her tone was a little glutinous and coquettish, which was the kind that Jun Li had always had to be soft and difficult to refuse in the past. But today's Jun Li's eyebrows were far from comfortable, and he was silent for a while, and then said, "You are just messing around alone." ”

"Huh?" Thorn couldn't believe he really replied, wanted to be sad, but felt that his voice was not harsh, wanted to be coquettish, but felt that his tone was not a joke, and looked up at him, but he was expressionless, even a little hypocritical.

Thorn didn't know if what he was holding in his heart indifferently was really dissatisfied with her, or something else. She only knew that this sentence really made her heart sad - because Jun Li, who she knew in the past, even if she was really unhappy, would not have wiped off her little girl's face like this. She said so much that she wanted to travel with him in this river and lake, if he smiled and didn't speak, it would be fine, but why did she say to her face like this today that she was just wishful thinking?

She reluctantly bit her lip and said, "I know, I'm making up my own mind, I'm not good - but I'm telling the truth, I'm ...... I really believe in you, I want people not to misunderstand you, I want to walk outside with you, I want to make you happy - don't you want to take me with you so much?"

"I don't blame you. Jun Li answered the question.

The thorn snorted softly, unable to say any more, for his answer was not what he asked, and perhaps it was already a kind of acquiescence.

Shen Fengming already felt that the atmosphere was not good, so he couldn't help coughing, and said, "If the little girl really likes to play outside, she should ask me to bring it." Your brother Jun Li is very busy, and there is still something to do when I turn back, but I ......"

"I don't want you to bring it, you're too fierce. The prickly head didn't turn, only pouted and interrupted him.

"Am I too fierce?" Shen Fengming seemed to hear a big joke. "You don't think he's fierce, you think I'm fierce?hmm, Taoist priest, the so-called 'sanctimonious', you pretended to be really home - the little girl really only knows appearance, how many have you deceived?"

Jun Li smiled reluctantly. "Yes, I'm 'sanctimonious'. But if I want to give you the thorn, I won't dare. ”

"Hear no, sting, he confesses that he is a hypocrite. Shen Fengming pointed at Jun Li and smiled. "I can't count on someone like him, you are such a cute little girl, don't pounce on him!"

The stinger didn't laugh, he couldn't laugh at all, and what he thought about over and over again was his "I don't blame you"—that sentence was equivalent to the real hypocrisy that he didn't want to take with her.

Jun Li had already taken a breath, and his expression changed to his usual warmth. "Thorn, no matter what, I have already written that letter, and promised to send you to Huizhou, unless I hand you over to your father, otherwise, I will not leave before that, you can rest assured, I don't want to-I don't want to live up to your trust, and in the end I will let you 'confront' your father, and I will fall behind. ”

He smiled slightly, but the thorn hung his head. "I just want you to at least heal your wounds. Her voice was so low that she couldn't see it any longer. "What if you ...... If you really refuse to take me and my second brother on the road in the future, I ...... I had no choice but to go home. ”

Jun Li couldn't bear to see her like this, but he could only harden his heart and acquiesce in her last temptation. In his world, he was never alone. Their correspondence is only a chance meeting and walking, but after all, they are leaving, and they will not occupy and become a part of his destiny - he can't and dare not imagine such a life that is seriously intertwined with others, so he wants to make parting a certainty earlier.

There was a rustling sound of grass in the distance, and I thought I was approaching and coming back unintentionally. Thorn sucked his nose hard, lifted his mind and pushed the letter to Jun Li and said, "You put it away, don't tell the second brother about this matter yet, anyway, my father won't come for the time being." ”

After she finished speaking, she hurriedly drilled out of the house to meet her unintentional, Shen Fengming looked at her back and sighed, and said, "What did I say in the morning?"

Jun Li didn't answer, and Shen Fengming was angry. "It's all here, Taoist, you don't want to tell me that she's not interesting to you, are you? It's useless for you to pretend to be deaf and dumb, you still have to hurt people's hearts!"

As he spoke, he heard the thorn outside: "Second brother, why have you been there for so long, come and help me!" I saw her pushing her unintentionally to the back of the house from a distance, thinking that she didn't want him to meet Shen Fengming again. Shen Fengming also understood, stood up and said, "You can do it yourself, I'll go back first." "Turn around and leave.

"Feng Ming!" Jun Li called out to him dumbly.

"What?" Shen Fengming turned around, and in the blocked light, he saw Jun Li's face as pale as tissue paper, and the whole person even felt trembling. His heart tightened, and he hurriedly stepped forward and said, "Could it be that the injury has flared up again?"

"Stabbing her...... She's still young, she doesn't know anything, she won't mean that, right?" Jun Li seemed to lose his mind, didn't answer his question, a pair of eyes, just looked at him hopelessly.

Shen Fengming was stunned. Jun Li didn't know what he was thinking, he didn't seem to hear a word of what he had just said. But that hopeless look clearly revealed the weakness of his heart.

Since it wasn't an injury, he let go of it. "You ask me, how do I know. He was a little stunned, "Ask yourself!"

"I don't know. Jun Li's eyes wandered away, scattered as if he didn't know where to put it, just as he didn't know how to put that heart. "I'm afraid of ......" In the end, it was just an ethereal convergence of these three flickering words.

These three words made Shen Fengming suddenly feel something. "You can't be ......" He seemed to calm down before asking, "More afraid than 'then'?"

Jun Li turned his gaze back, looked at him, and nodded.

He knew what he meant by "then"—it was the first time he knew that there was a woman in the world who was devoted to him. He was also scared and at a loss, but his heart was still clear at that time.

But what about today? Shouldn't the heart be clearer today—after seeing through everything, after making up one's mind? How could he be so frightened by the little girl's half-understood explanation?

Shen Fengming also looked at him in disbelief for a long time. "Daoist priest......" he muttered, "you...... Are you really tempted?"

"I didn't ......," Jun Li said weakly, so powerless that he didn't believe it, sitting with his knees crossed, like the most helpless silhouette in the world. "I just hope ...... Neither did she. ”

But Shen Fengming didn't give him this answer. He knew that Jun Li couldn't deceive himself anymore, so he had to stop himself and let his best friend deceive. But he did not want to indulge his self-deception in this way.

"I can't help you. He also said it a little harshly, because he somewhat understood the pain in Jun Li's heart. But after all, he himself is not such a person, and it is not bad to come forward and scold him for cowardice and hypocrisy, how can he say something against his will again.

He left him alone and left. Jun Li sits. He had good reason to believe that he had been amorous—for the stab didn't mention anything special to him. But the unconcealed brightness of joy when he spoke, and the feeling that his cold words had suddenly darkened for a moment, lingered—even though he barely looked up at her.

He had been able to hide his thoughts about her without a trace, just as he had been at ease with dissolving another woman's lovesickness for him. But it turned out that it was because all the mood changes were not responded to—they were just sinking into the sea and chatting as sustenance. And if there is a response, it turns out to be so turbulent!

He was afraid of such a sudden echo. He also knew that he must have been cowardly and ugly in his pretense of coldness, but he—didn't he—already know his hateful cowardice?

But what is the mouthful of blood that blocked his throat? The turbid blood that came out last night when he wanted to vomit but didn't dare to vomit was the stirring in his heart that had been forced down by himself, and now it rose to his throat so sweetly. He wanted to vomit as soon as possible, but would it be fine if he vomited?

For some reason, what he remembered at this time was the sentence he said when he separated from Ling Li last year.

"Do you think that if you deliberately do not get close to others, you will not suffer the pain of loss?"

He once thought it was ridiculous, because if he had never been close to each other, he would not have gained it, let alone lost it. But it turned out - it felt like sand seeping through the fingers, vaguely felt that something had been gained, but it was really never obtained, and suddenly the hand was empty, only to realize that he was powerless to grasp anything, and after all, he was still stunned.