Today's weather is unusually weird, hot, extremely hot, without the slightest wind, and the chirping of cicadas in the jungle suddenly adds a little irritability to this strange weather. Bailing Mountain is the highest mountain in Bailing Town, and you can see the neon lights of the provincial capital 600 kilometers away when you stand on the top of the mountain at night. At the foot of the mountain, there is a small village of dozens of families, there are some crooked paths in the middle of the tiled houses scattered in the village, and the surrounding of the village is some narrow bud rice fields, and there are some buds growing arbitrarily and unevenly, and there will occasionally be some busy footsteps on the road.

Bailing Mountain is the sacred mountain that this village has worshiped for generations, in the morning the mountain is full of clouds and mist, the glow is shining, it is indeed like the place where the gods live, and the old people who passed away in the village are also buried in this place. At this time, on the highest peak of Bailing Mountain, there was a lonely figure standing, with a white shirt and black pants that were unusually conspicuous there. His name is Lin Meng, he is the person in the village below, he is the first college student in the village to go out, two years ago, he was admitted to Beijing University as the champion.

Lin Meng has been very smart since he was a child, and he is deeply liked by his parents and people in the village, and when he was in school, Lin Meng's learning was also very good, whether it was elementary school, junior high school or high school, he was always the first in the school. Lin Meng's parents don't have much education, not only Lin Meng's parents, in Lin Meng's memory, the entire village except for the village chief's private school for a few days, the others don't seem to have any culture. Seeing that Lin Meng was so competitive, Lin Meng's parents were also very hardworking, cultivating a lot of land and raising a lot of livestock, so as to support Lin Meng to continue studying. Although it was hard, the family was still able to barely hold on.

When he was 12 years old, Lin Meng was admitted to the county's key high school, asking for more than 1,000 tuition, and the day before the start of school, his father searched all the cabinets in the house and every corner where he could put money, and finally the total amount was 865 yuan. The family sat at the old table of eight immortals, and the father drank the self-brewed wine in frustration, and his red eyes seemed to have indescribable powerlessness and self-blame. The mother stood up without saying a word, walked about and out, and did not return until very late, and came back with a few green hundred-dollar bills in her hand. "Your grandfather's family lent me 400 yuan for buying piglets, saying that when our piglets grow up, they would be divided into two for his family. Lin Meng jumped up with red eyes and said, "Otherwise, I won't read it, and the other young men in the village will go out to find work." The mother rushed over, slapped Lin Meng in the face, tears fell down, and then threw the money on the table, clicked up the wooden stairs, and went to sleep. The father and son looked at the table, no one spoke, and Lin Meng remembered that this was the first time his mother had beaten him.

After a long time, my father finally spoke: "Xiaomeng, you have been very sensible since you were a child, you should know how to do it, 1,200 yuan, it should be enough for your tuition and two weeks' living expenses, and the father in the back will figure it out." ”

"Hmm!" Lin Meng nodded softly holding back tears.

The next day, Lin Meng got up very early, and his mother was collecting things, quilts, basins, clothes, shoes, and ••••••, and then shining the same light in a pocket containing fertilizer, and after putting it away, he went to cook, and Lin Meng didn't see his father when he got up.

"Mom, what about my dad?" "Your uncle works in the coal mine in Baizui Town, I heard that the salary is okay, 10 yuan a day, and you can earn more than 20 yuan when you are more. ”

Lin Meng felt his heart tremble, but he didn't know what to say, he knew where his uncle worked. During the summer vacation of the second year of junior high school, he went there once, and there was a cousin in the village who also worked there. In the summer of that year, the leaders came to the factory, saying that the mine collapsed and pressed a lot of people, including the cousin in the village who did not come out, and the old and young in the village went, everyone held a hope that they could rescue a living person, but the reality is reality after all, hundreds of people, thrown out with hoes, are all corpses, 13 corpses are in a word, infiltrating people, when Lin Meng thought of this, the hairs on his back stood up one by one.

Seeing Lin Meng in a daze, his mother knew what he was thinking. "Hurry up and feed the pigs, I'm cooking, get ready, hurry up and get ready to eat!"

After eating, Lin Meng carried the bag on his back with a rope and went on the road, more than 30 kilometers from home to the town, more than 60 kilometers from the town to the county seat, there is only one shuttle bus to the town, it costs 6 yuan, but it takes half an hour to walk the mountain road to get the car. So Lin Meng chose to walk to the town, and then take a car to the county.

Lin Meng's high school is the same as high schools across the country, busy, very busy, and all you can see on campus is running. Lin Meng's grades are as good as ever, he is the first in every exam, and the teacher likes him very much and knows that his family situation is not very good, so he also helps him. The homeroom teacher often asked him to come to his house for dinner, and his father also found the class in the mine, and he has been safe and sound. Until••••••

On this day, Lin Meng was listening carefully to the English teacher talking about various English grammars on the podium, and suddenly the head teacher came to the door of the classroom and said that he was looking for Lin Meng. Lin Meng walked to the door of the classroom, and the homeroom teacher said, you come down with me, and then the two walked down the teaching building one after the other, and came to the playground of the campus, Lin Meng saw a familiar figure, his uncle. He hurriedly walked over. "Uncle, why are you here!", "Your dad had an accident in the coal mine!".

"Hum", his head seemed to be hit by a thousand pounds of heavy hammer, and his chest seemed to be pressed by tens of millions of tons of weight, and he couldn't breathe. After a while, he said "Is it serious?" with red eyes.

"Hey, it's gone!"

With a "snap", Lin Meng fell to the ground, and the teacher and uncle hurriedly jumped over and helped him up.

"It's okay, Uncle is here, there are still a lot of things for you to do at home!"

"Mourning, people always have to be strong to face a lot of problems!" the teacher also hurriedly comforted.

Back at home, there was a wooden board on the two long stools in the middle of the broken tile house, on which the father lay quietly, his black shiny clothes and pants were tattered and covered a little place, his face, some places had been smashed, and the general outline could still be recognized, it was indeed his father.

With a "snap", he knelt down, and the last trace of expectation along the way was completely shattered, and he completely wailed and cried, and a buzzing sound echoed in his head. It was a long, long time before he heard his mother speak in his ear. "Get some water, wash him up, and let him go clean!"

A week later, after the successful burial of his father, he and his mother came to the coal mine, found the boss, only to learn that this was a small coal mine opened by a private person, and finally after various tosses, the boss gave 5,000 yuan for the funeral fee, and it was hastily settled.

"I don't want to study anymore, I can help you when I come back!" the mother and son sat at the table.

"Xiaomeng, you have grown up and have your own ideas, but your father wants you to read it. The mother went away without saying much to him.

Lin Meng thought about it for a night, it was messy, and he went back to school the next day, but the busyness of the school made him quickly come out of the shadow of his father's death.

The college entrance examination came as scheduled, and finally Lin Meng was admitted to Jingcheng University, the best university in the country, as the national champion, and the school also gave Lin Meng a place for public-funded students. However, just when he was named on the gold list, the person who should share this glory with him the most fell ill. Years of hard work, as well as depression in the heart knot, the mother's thin body can no longer support, he carried his mother back and forth between the village and the town, but against people's wishes, only a month, the mother still left. Looking at this home, he was left alone, he squatted behind the door, his head buried in his knees, tears snapping, snapping, snapping on the ground. Helplessness, guilt, dazed...

On the day of the start of school, Lin Meng, who was at a loss, still chose to embark on the road of studying in the capital. In Lin Meng's cognition, reading should be like that, as long as you have good grades, but when you get to college, everything has changed, the students here are showy, and the teachers here are not always with you like in high school. When classmates walk together, they don't talk about studying, men and women talk about feelings, men and men talk about women, money, power, and status, and women talk about men, shopping, and money. Slowly, the laurels of Lin Meng's champion were gradually covered up by these, and he was gradually isolated from poverty, in order to make his own life, he found four jobs as a tutor, and he was busy on the way to various "homes" in addition to classes every day.

The freshman year has passed like this, after a year of "struggle", the classmates have basically taken off the singles, and only Lin Meng is still single, but he doesn't think so. Classmates are not like this, this day a buddy in the same dormitory, Yang Tonggang, confirmed the relationship with his girlfriend, and Yang Tong, who has a lot of money, asked everyone to celebrate with him.

"Today buddy, I took off the single, and in the evening, I will be in the country, brothers. ”

Yipin National Mansion, Lin Meng passed by, the most luxurious hotel in the capital, that kind of high-end place Lin Meng really did not have the opportunity to go.

"Oh, Brother Tong is also off the list, it's rare, the big guy is gone!" Chen Tao echoed.

"Lin Da Xiucai, still look at it, you have watched it for more than 20 years, and it is not the same school and dormitory as me, a person who does not learn and has no skills. One of the roommates, Wang Bin, shouted loudly.

Lin Meng basically didn't talk much with them, but he heard Chen Tao, who was also from the countryside, mention that Wang Bin's father seemed to be their county magistrate or something. Lin Meng's personality was originally very gentle, but when he heard this, he was still quite uncomfortable, so he sat up from the bed and glared at Wang Bin.

"Everyone is a classmate, don't be like this, not to mention I'll treat you later!" Yang Tong hurriedly came over and said.

Yang Tong's family is in the capital, what does the family do, Lin Meng has not heard him say it, but judging from his dress, it should be not bad, and the person who usually has the best relationship with Lin Meng in the dormitory should be Yang Tong, he has no shelf, and he is easy to talk, so Lin Meng said more to him.

"Lin Meng, let's have dinner together in the evening!"

"Okay!"

In the evening, everyone came to Yipin Mansion together, all with their girlfriends, and only Lin Meng came alone. Entering the lobby, Lin Meng was flashed by everything in front of him, really, he grew so big, he had never seen such a solemn and gorgeous place, he followed everyone blankly and walked like this. Eventually, he came to a private room, and as for how he got here, he did forget a little.

"Let's sit, just order, come to Xiaowen, sit here!" Xiaowen is Yang Tong's girlfriend, just like the name, Wenwen is quiet. The box can only be described in two words, luxury, incomparably luxurious, majestic atmosphere of calligraphy and painting, no one can study, the ornaments around are jade, the shape is exquisite, the form is different, behind the screen is a rockery piled up with jade, the mountain trickles with spring water, the mountain rains and fogs, it is very beautiful. Once everyone is seated, the food is served.

After three rounds of wine and five flavors of food, everyone began to chat, only Lin Meng sat on the side, and no one paid attention to him.

"Poor boy, such a delicious dish, such a high-end dish has never been drunk, even if you are poor, you don't understand things, right, today's day of Brother Tong's big day, don't you know that there is a toast, there is a life, no one teaches the old countryman!" Wang Bin said contemptuously.

"Xiaomeng has toasted, everyone drinks, everyone drinks!" Yang Tong said with a haha.

He slapped the table and stood up, pointed at Wang Bin with his right hand, clenched it with his right hand, his nails were sunk into the flesh, usually they could insult themselves as much as they wanted, but they didn't mention their parents, Wang Bin's words made him think a lot, his father's tragic death, his mother's helplessness••••••

I really wanted to rush over and kill him, but I didn't have the strength, what should I do after killing him, Lin Meng has been a very rational person since he was a child.

"Brother Tong, you eat, I've eaten well, you eat slowly, I'll go first." ”

"Brother, don't worry, he's like this, come and sit down and eat slowly. ”

"Forget it, I still have to go to make up for class, and I'm full, so I'll go first!"

"If you are told to sit down, you will sit down, a poor man, and he still puts such a big score, and he doesn't know which big leader's salary he thinks! It's damn!" Wang Bin shouted loudly.

Lin Meng didn't bother anymore, and reincarnated out of the box.

"Fuck off, poor man, people like us are not within the reach of low-level people like you. Wang Bin's insulting words came from behind, and there was ridicule from a group of classmates.

Lin Meng got out of the hotel and walked down the street alone, it was already dark, the fog was very big, and it was gray, and he walked as fast as he could, as if the faster he walked, the less he could hear their taunts. "Why?", "Why?", "Why?", he asked himself countless times in his mind. His father once told him that "reading is the only way to change the fate of the poor!", and the teacher once told him, "Reading is the only way to change the fate of the poor!". But in reality, in order to study well, my father paid the price of my life, and my mother also paid the price of my life. The teacher didn't, and when he was admitted to the national champion, he became the director of the county education bureau. I studied hard and was admitted to the highest university, which is the same result as others who exchange money and power. And such a result is not to glorify yourself, but to turn into humiliation. It turns out that "striving for the city is not a way to change one's own destiny, but a way to help others change their destiny." ”

Although they are rich and powerful, but that is their own business, why can they be arrogant, why can they insult themselves at will, the more Lin Meng thinks about it, the more angry he becomes, the more uncomfortable he feels, and the faster he goes, the water on his face is falling down drop by drop, I don't know if it is dew or sweat. He was getting more and more drowsy, and drowsy, when suddenly a car sped past him, splashed all the water in the pond on him, and sped away. His eyes gradually turned red, and when he looked up, he saw that he was almost at the school gate. He silently stepped into the school, and when he returned to the dormitory, his classmates had already returned, everyone had drunk a lot, and they were talking and laughing wantonly in the dormitory, Lin Meng pushed the door open and went in. Suddenly, there was a brief silence in the room.

"Yo, the poor are back!" Wang Bin snorted. Lin Meng ignored him, walked directly to his bedside and sat down, undressed, and prepared to sleep, hoping to wake up tomorrow, the world is not like this, these hateful people are dead. He lay down on the bed and pulled the quilt over to cover his head.

"Damn, pretending to be dead, I made Lao Tzu's face lose all my face today, is that it?" Wang Bin pulled his quilt under the bed and scolded, obviously not wanting to let him go like this. Lin Meng glanced at it, Yang Tong hadn't come back yet, and the others were all leaning on the bed with their arms in their arms, looking like they were watching the excitement.

Lin Meng got off the bed, picked up his quilt, put it on the bed, and was about to go back to bed to sleep, as soon as he turned around, Wang Bin kicked it directly to the bed from behind, he turned around and fought with Wang Bin in his arms, several other classmates couldn't stand it, rushed over and pressed Lin Meng to the ground, Wang Bin began to greet Lin Meng with both hands and feet. After fighting for a while, everyone estimated that they were tired, so they let him go. Lin Meng squirmed his body slightly, and the pain in his heart made his tears come out. Wang Bin walked over, took out his bird, and poured it down on Lin Meng's head, he tried his best to stand up, but he didn't have a trace of strength up and down.

"To be a garbage is to have the consciousness of being a garbage, don't be embarrassed!" Then a few people walked out of the dormitory with their backs.

Lin Meng curled up on the ground, the tears of humiliation could no longer wash away the anger in his heart, he gritted his teeth and slowly sat up, climbed to the stool under the bed, and sat down hard. After sitting on the stool for more than an hour, he slowly regained some strength, but his whole body still hurt. He stood up with his cupboard, walked to his desk, took out his letterhead and pen, sat down again, and began to write.

"The world:

I also tried hard to live a quiet life in this world, my father left, for a bad bad dream, he left in a daze, and later, my mother also left, for the same bad bad dream. I have also tried to persuade myself countless times to end this endless nightmare, and countless times I have wanted to end this terrible fate and leave with them. It was that rotten dream that held me hostage and made me here. I thought that as long as I treated the world well, the world would treat me well, but it didn't. Go to the magnates of NM, go to the money of NM, and go to the damn world of NM, all die!

I've been to this world, but you've not been kind to me,"

Fold the paper and put it on the table, stood up, slowly pushed open the cabinet, and by chance, he found that the corner of the cabinet against the wall was supported by bricks, he took out the bricks, and the cabinet pushed back. Then he slowly climbed onto the bed with a brick and lay down.

At about half past ten in the evening, Wang Bin, Chen Tao and two classmates came back drunk and drunk, supporting each other and talking indistinctly. When I returned to the dormitory, I threw the door and a few people were ready to go to bed, and they all worked hard, but no one climbed into bed, and after a while, there was a snoring sound in the dormitory, it turned out that several people had fallen asleep on the ground, and Wang Bin was still sleeping, while constantly tilting his head and vomiting, so he was not nauseous.

Lin Meng got up slowly and gently, and in the dark, his red eyes were indescribably weird. Looking at the "corpse" in the place, he felt extremely disgusted, he took out the bricks hidden behind him, and slowly approached Wang Bin. "Snap" is a moment, he repeated this action four times, and then from the beginning, repeating this action over and over again, he didn't know how many times he smashed, anyway, he had no strength, so he stopped.

This is Lin Meng, on the contrary, he is unusually calm, he has no superfluous expression, and his eyes have returned to their usual calmness, as if everything in front of him has nothing to do with him anymore. He walked to the cupboard, changed his clothes, simply packed his things, carried his backpack diagonally, walked out of the dormitory, took out the key, locked the door, and walked out of the campus.

I took a taxi to the airport, bought a plane ticket, sat in the waiting hall, and silently looked at the busy people without a trace of expression. This is the first time in his life that he has taken a plane, he is not cramped and uneasy, his world is only himself from the moment he walks out of the dormitory, so quiet, so peaceful.

Three hours later, he left the airport in Yun Province, took a taxi to the train station, bought a ticket back to the county, and on the bus he closed his eyes and fell asleep. At four o'clock in the morning, he walked out of the county train station, it was a little cold in the county, he tightened his clothes, and pulled out his pocket with a little change. It is impossible to take a car back to Bailing Town, and there is no car to sit on at this point, he walked alone on the road in the direction of home, out of the county seat, the road became potholes, and the surroundings were also dark, and the shadows of the trees in the distance were full of shadows, like wild ghosts, looking at it was all panicked.

At this time, a truck came from behind, Lin Mengshen stopped it, the car stopped completely, and a head stuck out. Speaking in a thick dialect, he said, "Young man, this morning, what do you want?" "I came back from the capital, I didn't have a car, I went back to Bailing Mountain Village." "Just by the way, I'm going to Baizui to pull coal, come up!"

The driver was very talkative, and Lin Meng also chatted with him without a ride.

"Studying in the capital, Gua Wazi, you can go to the capital to study at university. My two cubs, very stupid, refuse to read, you say, don't read him can be a whole hammer, buy a car for him, don't work hard, don't see a person for a day, and some bosses gamble every day, this thing is something that people like us can afford to play. ”

"No, smoke, come to one, it's going to take more than an hour!"

Lin Meng took the cigarette, he hadn't smoked it before, lit the fire, inhaled violently, and choked on tears.

"Hahahaha, I haven't smoked before, you have to suck slowly, don't suck too hard!"

"College student, I used to be fine, but now I heard that I don't have a job, and I have to find a job by myself when I come out, and I don't know if it's useful after reading it!" The master glanced at him, saw Lin Meng's brows twisted into Chuanzi, and felt that it hurt him, so he immediately changed the topic.

"What are my parents doing, rural people, it's not easy to provide for a college student, but in two years, you should be able to get through. ”

"Mom and Dad have passed away!"

At this time, the atmosphere became quiet for a while, and only the car clicked over the potholes on the road. At six o'clock in the morning, there was a touch of red floating in the white sky of the fish belly, Lin Meng got out of the car, said goodbye to the driver with great gratitude, and put all the money on his body under the cushion of the co-pilot's car, slightly revealing a corner. Turning over the mountain of Baizui Village is his own village, pushing away the home that has not come back for almost two years, the house is full of dust, the pillar is leaking rain, there is a little moss, the old table of eight immortals for eating stands in the middle of the house, he quietly stares at the stools around the table, staring at it, he sees his father drinking there, his mother knitting a sweater next to him, and his head glances at his father from time to time. Lin Meng smiled slightly, "Mom and Dad, I'm back" With this sound, everything was like a bubble again, floating away and breaking up.

He slowly knelt down, kowtowing one after another. "Mom and Dad, I miss you, take it with you! ”

"Xiaomeng, you're back. Uncle's voice sounded outside the door.

"Yes, uncle! I'm back. ”

The burly man walked in, saw the tears in the corners of Lin Meng's eyes, and knew that the child must have been wronged.

"Why are you back, it's not a holiday yet, there's no money, I still have a little here, your brother has heart surgery, it's okay, push it, you take it and use it first, your studies are important." Wait for this year's grain to be sold, and then figure out a way. ”

"No, uncle, I don't want to read it! I don't want to do anything if I read it, and I don't want to go out and find a job by myself!"

"Gua Wazi, what kind of stupid thing to say, it's better to find a job than in this ravine!"

"It's okay, uncle, you go and get busy, I want to stay by myself. ”

"Okay, I'll call you when we eat!" the uncle walked out helplessly.

Lin Meng slowly glanced at every object in the room over and over again, these were all used by his parents and himself, they were so kind. You can see the figure of your parents in every object, and you can look at it over and over again. After a long time he went out softly, and closed it gently, as if he was afraid to disturb the peace of mind. Walking slowly towards the mountain behind the mountain, there were people who were farming in the village or going or returning on the road, and Lin Meng stopped to greet them. At nine o'clock, Lin Meng finally climbed the Bailing Mountain behind the village, stood on the top of the mountain, looked at the surrounding mountains and mist lingering, and really felt like he was in a fairyland. He recalled the bits and pieces of having his parents by his side, and he was so happy and happy at that time.

Yang Tong went shopping with his new girlfriend last night, and he went shopping late, neither of them went back to school, and he didn't come back until nine o'clock today, and he took out the key to open the dormitory door to see, and the terrifying scene made his scalp start to tingle. "Ahh Several people from the dormitory next door rushed out and ran to the door, they were all stunned, not knowing what to do, Yang Tong was the first to react and hurriedly rushed down the dormitory. After a while, security guards, teachers, and police officers rushed up.

The teacher saw the folded letterhead on the table and opened it.

"The world:

I also tried hard to live a quiet life in this world, my father left, for a bad bad dream, he left in a daze, and later, my mother also left, for the same bad bad dream. I have also tried to persuade myself countless times to end this endless nightmare, and countless times I have wanted to end this terrible fate and leave with them. It was that rotten dream that held me hostage and made me here. I thought that as long as I treated the world well, the world would treat me well, but it didn't. Go to the magnates, go to the money, go to the damn world of the nm, all die!

I've been to this world, but you've not been kind to me,"

One by one, everyone was silent. The evidence has been searched, and all the evidence points to Lin Meng.

Lin Meng still stood on top of a large rock in the middle of the mountain with his eyes closed, and below was a bottomless cliff, and he could only see the clouds and mist rushing. "Xiaomeng, Dad misses you", "Xiaomeng, Mom misses you", "Mom, I miss you so much, take me away, I'm so lonely." Mom and Dad took his hand, he moved his feet, step by step, and finally, his body leaned, and in addition to the sound of the wind, he also heard the sound of an alarm••••••