Chapter Eighty-Five: Reliving the Dream of a Past Life 1
Looking at the face in front of him that was exactly the same as himself, Qingzi's pupils instantly shrank into a small dot, and his mind was like a flash flood, both rushing and chasing the waves, and being liberated.
It turned out to be her, it was really her!
But why?
Why do you have two selves?
Why do you turn against yourself?
Why do you not recognize yourself when you meet yourself?
I don't look at the sword, I don't hear the voice, I don't look at the face.
Even if he felt familiar, he couldn't recognize that this ghost cultivator who repeatedly wanted to kill himself turned out to be himself!
"For, why ......" At this moment, Qingzi felt that she had suddenly become so weak, and the words she spoke were like a whisper between the breath and hairspring, and the breeze blew and dispersed, and it could not reach the ears of others.
But she heard, her one she heard.
Her eyes were still empty, but she could clearly feel the pity that emanated from those eyes.
"Why did you sneak here when everyone had turned into smoke and dispersed?
It doesn't matter, but why have you changed, why are you suddenly so close to him when you should have resentment and hatred in your heart?"
The same voice rang in his ears with a question.
Qingzi looked up at her slightly, she knew what the other party meant by saying this, and she felt a little guilty in her heart, it was for Ci Yuehua.
She also wanted to explain all this misunderstanding, so she spoke: "It's not like this, he's fine, it's you who misunderstood him!"
However, this one with the same face as her is extremely stubborn.
Hearing that Qingzi actually said good things for him, he ruthlessly interrupted: "What's wrong with you? Are you crazy? You actually think that he is good to you? Have you forgotten everything that happened?!"
Qingzi: I haven't forgotten, but ......
She couldn't speak, she could only listen to her in front of her and continue.
"Yes, we are one, but now we are scattered, so you will be deceived by his appearance.
It's okay, don't be afraid, when we fuse, everything will be back to square one.
We have more memories of one life, and we will definitely not let ourselves fall into the same situation as in our previous life!"
As he spoke, the ghost cultivator pressed his forehead against Qingzi's forehead and fused his soul into it, allowing her to review her experience in her previous life again.
A trace of horror flashed in Qingzi's eyes, she couldn't move!
She doesn't want to be controlled by the other party, she doesn't want to go back to the painful time of no business in her previous life, she just needs her master!
But she couldn't move, let alone summon her divine martial arts, and her mind was controlled, forcing her to recall every painful encounter in her previous life.
She wanted to close her eyes so she wouldn't see, but ...... Those pictures seemed to come directly into her mind, and even if she closed her eyes, those memories appeared more clearly!
"Disciple meets Master!" As soon as Qingzi cleared the memory in his mind, a long and strong figure appeared in front of him, his eyes moved from the bottom to the top, and he was looking at a handsome and unparalleled face.
Of course, she wasn't the one who did the action. It's her in that memory, the figure of the master has been engraved into her mind, and she doesn't need to look at the face to recognize the other party.
And it was not her autonomous consciousness that called out this master, but also her mouth in memory.
At this moment, she was extremely excited, she hadn't seen her master for more than a month, and she really missed it.
However, after she finished her joy, her mood still did not calm down, not only excited, but also very nervous.
Qingzi knew that she had no control over this body at the moment, so she couldn't run to the front of her master and be coquettish to him.
Fortunately, in the next moment, this body satisfied her regrets.
"Qingzi" walked in front of Ci Yuehua in three steps and two steps, and tried to look up at Ci Yuehua, with a dazzling smile on his face.
This scene is very familiar, it was the first time she saw Ci Yuehua after she entered the sect in her previous life, and she went over to greet him excitedly.
The other party seemed to be startled by her and hurriedly took two steps back, even if his face was expressionless, but at this time, Qingzi could see the embarrassment and helplessness hidden on his face.
It's just that she didn't experience and see as much as she has now.
When he saw Ci Yuehua avoiding him, he felt a faint loss in his heart, which made Qingzi empathize, and even the joy that Fang Cai had was gone.
She tried to tell herself in her heart that this emotion was wrong, it was fake, and she shouldn't have such an emotion.
But that emotion did not dissipate as she wished, but still did not change.
She only thought sadly, "Does he really not remember himself?"
Don't remember yourself? Don't remember what?
This is an unsolvable question, just like before, she repeatedly thought about why she went up the mountain, and why she had to worship under Ci Yuehua's door.
Her memories are still missing, but at this time she has no time to take care of them, but she is in a dignified mood.
She found that her mood was out of her control, and even if she knew what was going on, she couldn't make her mood better.
The consequence of this is that she is forced to live her past experience again, and if she was once heartbroken, it will not change now!
Thinking of this, she was a little afraid in her heart, but she couldn't think of what she was afraid of.
"Are you still used to living here?" said Qi Yuehua's tone was very light.
"Disciple, everything is fine. "Qingzi" still stared at the other party when answering the question.
Ci Yuehua's eyes flashed, and the eyes of the child in front of him were shining, like being decorated with fine stars, blinking and blinking, as if he wanted to turn himself into starlight and suck it in.
He retracted his gaze, tilted his head to the side, and his tone was as usual. "Let's go to class if we don't have anything to do, and I'm going to worship the teacher today. ”
"Yes!" "Qingzi" jumped excitedly, but did not leave immediately, but followed behind Ci Yuehua step by step, and walked into the Yingluo Hall with him.
Unlike this life, the apprenticeship went very smoothly, and without the slightest surprise, Ci Yuehua took out the "Kunlun Mountain Discipline Collection".
"You just came here, you don't know the rules of the mountain gate, this book is regarded as a meeting gift for you. ”
The appearance of this "Discipline Collection" made Qingzi appear two emotions in his body at this time, one was as silent and sullen as usual, and the more intense was the embarrassment and humility of the body.
Because, at that time, she didn't know the words, except for her own name, she didn't recognize anything!
Seeing Qingzi take it with a pale face, Ci Yuehua was puzzled, and it wasn't until the next day that when she was asked to recite it, she found that she didn't know a lot of big characters.
"Why didn't you say it earlier if you don't know how to read?" Ci Yuehua sat in front of the desk and looked at the green posture where her cheeks were red and she was about to be ashamed, and spoke slowly, so that people couldn't hear the emotion.
But "Qingzi" felt extremely embarrassed and ashamed, and didn't dare to look up at each other's expressions at all.
After that, the senior sister taught her to write every time.
In the days that followed, she couldn't get close to Ci Yuehua's body, and every time she wanted to get closer, she was avoided by him quickly retreating.
"The master doesn't like others to get too close to him, and he doesn't like others to disturb his purity. ”
This was what the senior sister told her, so when she met Ci Yuehua again, she didn't step forward anymore, just glanced at it from a distance, and immediately avoided leaving when the other party found out.
She didn't deal with Nie Jiao, and she was on the bar in the mountain gate many times.
She is a person who eats soft and not hard, is afraid of good and is not afraid of evil, and she will naturally not let go of the other party's provocation, so she fights once, and when she goes back, she will be pumped by Ci Yuehua's five feelings.
Obviously, he was wronged, but the other party didn't care about it at all, and only stared at one point - he did it himself!
"I sent you a discipline set, teaching you cultivation is not for you to use to do it to your own people, are you throwing the discipline of the mountain gate and the teaching of the teacher into the dog's stomach?"
At this time, Qingzi could still feel the sharp pain from the skin and flesh being opened, and at the same time, the sadness and grievances in her heart also spread up from her heels little by little, and she was about to drown her.
"Shizun is indeed ruthless, but it is also for your sake, and I am afraid that you will make a bigger mistake, don't be sad, huh?" Senior Sister's soft comfort sounded in her ears.
Eating the familiar taste of Zhenzi noodles, the grievances in "Qingzi" were even stronger, but she had no hatred, but she had less admiration for Ci Yuehua and transferred it to Ning Yin.
"Don't be upset, let's go, take you out for a drink, have a good drink!" Shi Lang casually reached out and patted her shoulder, hooked her neck, and went down the mountain together with a good look of the two brothers, good wine and food, not drunk and not returning.
In his place, the depression in Qingzi's heart was much smaller, and he returned to Yingluo Hall with a body of wine.
"Have you drunk?!" the cold voice pierced the heat of her scorching heat, and poured into her ears in a daze, dispelling her drunkenness.
Ci Yuehua stood in front of her door, staring at her sharply.
Qingzi felt as if her heart was being held tightly by a big hand under such a gaze, as if she had done something bad and was caught on the spot.
Of course, this is still the feeling of this body, if she is now, she will only feel empty.
"Disciple...... Disciple no, no ......"
"You still want to lie?!" Qi Yuehua's voice was even angrier.
"Qingzi" immediately knelt down and admitted his mistake, "The disciple knows his mistake!"
Qingzi could feel how nervous and scared she was at this moment, because just now she saw the disappointment in Ci Yuehua's eyes!
Her master would have been disappointed!
Or because of her!
At this moment, a touch of panic appeared in the heart of "Qingzi", afraid of his own changes, and afraid of the changes in Qi Yuehua's eyes on him.
Qingzi watched all this wordlessly in her body and sighed silently.
That's where their relationship began.
After that, it is a matter of making mistakes, being punished, making mistakes again, and being punished again.
And Qingzi also clearly felt that this body's feelings for Ci Yuehua were slowly changing, respecting, admiring, and respecting.
Slowly, they changed their taste, lost, aggrieved, unwilling, resentful, dead-hearted, and hopeless.
Little by little, day by day, in this way, the original emotions were slowly discarded and transferred to another person.
And Ci Yuehua's gaze when she looked at her also changed, no, it's not that her gaze has changed, but that her gaze has decreased!
Sometimes I would rather close my eyes than look at the child standing in front of me with an indifferent face!
The long days in this memory, when she thought that the two of them would be the most ordinary master and apprentice like this, when they reached a certain cultivation, they would break away from each other and stay away.
The feelings in this body have changed again!
Ci Yuehua's peaceful gaze was never given only to Ning Yin, and later it was also given to Shi Lang, but it was not given to her.
Calm and waveless, a pool of stagnant water!
Their harmony between master and apprentice, and the warmth and harmony stung her eyes and completely isolated her from the outside!
At that time, her heart was unwilling!
Once, she saw Ci Yuehua's eyes turn to her, and she stopped talking.
Qingzi instantly felt that the heartbeat of this body was like a drum, and a trace of expectation overwhelmed all emotions.
She was expecting what the Master would say to her.
Then, when the other party shifted his gaze and spoke to Ning Yin again, the anger in his heart surged up, burning the previous glimmer of hope into ashes.
Qingzi sighed again, although these two lives lived in the same place, the trajectories of their lives were very different.
Before, she felt that she and Ci Yuehua had reached the point where they were later because of the lack of communication between the two, but now when she looked at it again from the perspective of a bystander, she found that it was not just that.
Maybe there's fate!
At this moment, she suddenly felt that in fact, her fate in this life was different from her previous life, and she didn't know why she had this thought, as if she suddenly had such a flash of inspiration!
When she raised her eyes again, she secretly hid not far from the stove room, and she saw that Ci Yuehua was reaching out to knead the dough, her eyes were looking at a certain place gently, and she was saying something in her mouth.
At this moment, this body doesn't know what it's doing, but Qingzi in the body knows that the master at this time is making chrysanthemum core plum blossom cake.
is different from the bitterness of this body, in this life, she accompanies him every time Ci Yuehua makes pastries, and beats him one by one.
So seeing this extremely familiar scene at this time, she subconsciously wanted to step forward and give him a hand.
This body is also honestly moving forward, and Qingzi, who came back to his senses, thought that he had the initiative of this body, but found that it was the body that was secretly hidden in another place to see the warmth and veins inside.
Shizun cooks, senior sister lights the fire, and she is isolated outside!
A touch of wetness swept across Qingzi's face, and she couldn't move, but she also knew that she was crying at the time.
The sadness spread to her heart, and Qingzi only felt that her heart palpitations could not be recovered, and she shrank into a ball.
She felt uncomfortable, and for the first time asked herself, what was wrong?
Obviously, I came here to repay my kindness, why did I become what I am now?
"As a teacher, you never ask for much edification, but only hope that when you walk in the world, you will walk upright and sit upright. ”
"It's also common to have an argument with a disciple in the door, but you can't do it first when the other party hasn't done it, and in this case, your politeness will become ignorance. Even if the teacher wants to protect you, he can't let you get out safely. ”
"You are still young now, you have to put your mind on cultivation, as a teacher is not to let you have fun, but you have to stop in moderation, you can't indulge yourself, cultivating immortals is a boring thing, if you are indulged in pleasure, you will regret it in vain!"
Every time he said a word, Ning Yin, who lit the fire, responded.
"Qingzi" felt even more sad and unwilling, but Qingzi inside looked very strange.