Being hugged tightly by Zhao Xin, smelling the faint fragrance on her body that is both familiar and unfamiliar, feeling her concern for herself, a long-lost tranquility and steadfastness made Liu Xunyi deeply intoxicated and unable to extricate herself.

"Suddenly, one day, I found myself living in an ethereal and illusory dream. What you think and do is just a self-righteous opinion. All enthusiasm, all efforts, all efforts and even all achievements...... It's a self-deception. From beginning to end, I was like a cricket trapped in a bamboo cage, thinking that it was the 'sky', but in fact I was just a frog at the bottom of the well, sitting in the well and watching the sky. Liu Xunyi gently leaned his head on Zhao Xin's shoulder, and muttered to himself in a trance, "When I accidentally got out of the bamboo cage, I found that my food, clothing, housing, joys, sorrows, life and death, were actually a joke, and I was just a poor worm pinched in my hands." No matter how hard and desperate I work in the bamboo cage, in the final analysis, it is just a game of 'fighting crickets'. ”

"In that case, why did you get out of the bamboo cage?" Zhao Xin gently soothed Liu Xunyi's back with her hand, and said softly, "You can break free from the shackles, which means that you are not willing to be fooled, doesn't it?"

"To be precise, I didn't 'drill' out of the bamboo cage, but was 'thrown' out by someone. Liu Xunyi smiled contemptuously, his tone full of self-deprecation, "Because my failure in a game made them feel ashamed and even tricky, so I was ruthlessly discarded by them and left me to fend for myself." ”

"Who are they?" Zhao Xin asked, "Tianji Hou?"

"Heavenly Machine...... Maybe it's just a cricket that's a little bigger than me. ”

"Xunyi, why do you have this thought?"

"For so many years, whether it is in the imperial court or in the rivers and lakes, whether it is in the Tianji Pavilion or the Xianwang Mansion, whether it is facing the Tianji Marquis or the Northern Xianwang, I have boasted that I can rely on some cleverness and the blessing of God, I can do whatever I want anywhere and in front of anyone, and I can deal with any complex and difficult situation calmly and easily......"

At this moment, Liu Xunyi was depressed and discouraged, and he didn't know if he was talking about Zhao Xin or himself?

"I have been practicing martial arts since I was a child, and thanks to God's great love, I have been endowed with extraordinary qualifications, so I can always comprehend every martial art faster than others and cope with every test more easily. In fact, Qin Wei is not lazier than me, and even sometimes more diligent than me, but the result has always been inferior to me. Even in front of Hou Ye, others are not as important as me. From apprentice to lieutenant, at least Bao, although he dare not say that it is smooth, but his luck is always better than that of others in Tianji Pavilion. Of course, my luck is not only in Tianji Pavilion, but also outside. The little prince who is stammered by everyone disdains all his subordinates, but is willing to condescend in front of me. What's more, even the former lord of the Great Song Dynasty ...... I am also very fond of it. Later, he did errands for Tianji Hou and Beixian Wang. Although I have experienced twists and turns, I have repeatedly saved the day and escaped death, which makes me subconsciously believe that I am blessed by the heavens, which is unusual. This subtle 'self-confidence' gradually paralyzed my mind, and even made me feel that everything that was beneficial to me seemed to be the result of it. I can't see Qin Wei's struggles over the years, nor can I see the hard-won achievements of others, because these things are ...... to me It seems to be a matter of course. Therefore, blind self-confidence is deeply rooted in the bone marrow, which makes me have a strong illusion that with my ability to 'Liu Xunyi', I can become a famous figure both in the court and in the rivers and lakes. can be mixed with the wind and water, like the sun. can achieve an earth-shattering feat......"

As for this, Liu Xunyi seemed to be deeply touched by his naivety, and the corners of his mouth couldn't help but raise an indescribable wry smile.

Zhao Xin silently listened to Liu Xunyi's self-reflection, neither pandering nor refuting.

"However, all the proud 'blessings' and 'unusualness' came to an abrupt end until the moment I returned to Lin'an. It seems that overnight, I have gone from a hero sought after by everyone to a rebellious traitor who is spurned by everyone, and from a hero with a lot of flowers to a street rat that everyone shouts at. Liu Xunyi continued, "Whether it is the court officials or the heroes of the rivers and lakes, they all regard me Liu Xunyi as a rebel who has lost his conscience and will take revenge. In their eyes, I am a masked and heartless, honey-mouthed villain, a traitor without a king and a father, an unkind and unrighteous traitor, a scum with chicken intestines and dog belly, and goose claws. No one in the rivers and lakes believes me, everyone in the court guards against me, and I am humble and stealing, and I am not even as good as a dog...... What martial arts, what talent, what courage and resourcefulness, courage and loyalty, in the face of human warmth and coldness, the world is all useless, worthless. How strong is martial arts? How is talented? What about being brave and loyal? In the end, they are not puppets to be manipulated by others, and they are not to be trampled on by others?"

"Xunyi, I know you have been wronged, but why should you give up on yourself......"

"In the past, I was ugly and conservative, ignorant and blindly obedient, and I was obviously played with in the palm of my hand but I didn't know it. When I gradually tasted the cruelty of striving for fame and fortune, and tried to fight with my complacent martial arts and talent, I found that the 'capital' I had worked so hard to accumulate was so vulnerable that I could not regain what I had lost, and I even saw the woman I loved...... You have to wait until a fluke after an accident. Xin'er, I can fly the eaves and walk the wall, but I can't jump over the high wall of the palace. I can divide gold and stones, but I can't break the confinement of worldly rules. I was able to fight my way through the thousands of troops last night, and what was the result? I will still send you to the prairie today, and watch you marry another man. I can't even protect the woman I love, so what's the use of having martial arts?"

Liu Xunyi's words expressed the depression and pain of the past few months, and also expressed the endless sadness and grievances.

Isn't Zhao Xin like this? Empathetic to her, she didn't know when her heart was like a knife, and she burst into tears.

"If heaven and earth are compared to a chessboard, all people in the world are chess pieces. Zhao Xin smiled with tears in her eyes, and her tone was very sad, "You only say that you are a poor cricket, but you don't know that you are also carrying a bamboo cage in your hand." Not only you and me, but probably everyone in the world. You are in the hands of the Marquis of Tianji, why is the Marquis of Tianji not in the hands of the Prime Minister? The Prime Minister is also in the hands of the emperor, and even the emperor ...... It may not be as free as we see, maybe he is also in the hands of someone, otherwise how can he be humiliated and humiliated, and seek perfection? In fact, each of us is like this, neither the highest nor the lowest, but more than the upper and more than the lower. It is like a battlefield where two armies face each other, some people charge forward without fear of life and death, and some people stay in the rear to supply supplies. In contrast, dying on the battlefield is a 'normal and mediocre' thing, and surviving by luck is the work of 'blessing from heaven'. Of those who survived, some were seriously injured, while others were slightly injured or even unscathed. In this comparison, those who are seriously injured are 'normal and mediocre', while those who are lightly injured and uninjured are also 'blessed by heaven'. Looking for clothes, you are the same, you may be unbeatable compared to some people, but you are far away from others compared to you, this is the cycle of heaven, and no one can change it. Isn't it true that you martial arts practitioners often put a sentence on your lips? There is a saying that 'the strong have their own strong hands, and a mountain is higher than a mountain', why do you just not understand such a simple truth?"

Zhao Xin's words were like a rain in a long drought, and Liu Xunyi's heart was shocked, and the mouth gradually opened.

"Xin'er, that's why you're willing to wronged yourself, right?"

"The blessing of the evil depends on it, and the blessing of the evil lies in waiting. Zhao Xin shook her head slowly, "Since ancient times, how many daughters of the emperor's family have been able to marry their beloved? They are not wronged, so how can I talk about grievances? If because of my affinity, I can save the people of the Great Song Dynasty from the attack of war, not only is it not a grievance, but a great honor for me. ”

"Xin'er ......"

It wasn't until this moment that Liu Xunyi suddenly realized that although he had known Zhao Xin for many years, he had never really understood her. The thoughts and beliefs that the heirs of the imperial family have been instilled in since childhood are completely different from the children of ordinary people's families.

Just as Liu Xunyi grew up in Tianji Pavilion, he was instilled with the idea of "loyal to Tianji Hou" since he was a child.

This is a subtle influence, which may not be visible on weekdays, but once you encounter a major right and wrong, wind and waves, you will definitely follow the thoughts and beliefs that have long been melted into your blood, and no one or anything can be easily changed.

Zhao Xin may be a weak woman, but the royal thoughts imprinted in her heart are arrogant and unswerving.

In this section, maybe even Zhao Xin herself doesn't know, everything is just her choice to follow her heart.

In the choice between "children's private feelings" and "the righteousness of the family and country", Zhao Xin finally chose to sacrifice her life for righteousness, although women do not let their eyebrows be praised. But in terms of the relationship between men and women, she is far more sensible, more resolute, and more cruel than men.

is not only cruel to Liu Xunyi, but also very cruel to himself.

"Looking for clothes, you and I have the same heart, so no one has to pretend to be ruthless. Zhao Xin held Liu Xunyi's cheeks with both hands, and her tearful eyes were full of tenderness, "I know your character, you know my tenderness, even if you pretend to be, you can't hide each other's eyes." Instead of wronging yourself and deceiving each other and saying goodbye with hatred, it is better to go through the last journey frankly, bury the most sincere mutual in your heart, and keep it for the second half of your life...... The heavens are on each side, each with its own joys and sorrows. ”

"Xin'er ......"

"Looking for clothes, although we can't live together day and night for the rest of our lives, at least we still rely on each other now. I don't care about how long it lasts, I only care about the days with you, even if it's a day, a moment, a moment, a breath...... I'm satisfied, too. Zhao Xin's every word and word is like a drop of water through a stone, moisturizing things silently, gradually melting Liu Xunyi's rock-solid heart, "Promise me, forget all the sorrows and sorrows, and don't try your best to shake each other's minds." Cheer up, regain your former vigor and carefreeness, and accompany me on the last journey happily, okay?"

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