"Wake up, wake up ....."

I don't know where I am, I just feel that my body is as light as smoke, and my surroundings are like a blank day, which is very dazzling. It was like a dream, and only a sound lingered in my ears.

"Bai Nianman, it's time to wake up. ”

I walked over, and at the very edge of the daylight was the figure of a man dressed in a plain white snow coat with silver trim sleeves, with his back to me. Although it is in front of my eyes, it makes me trance-like as if there is nothing.

"Raising herons.... Master!" A flash of inspiration came out of nowhere, and he recognized him at a glance with just a flickering of his back.

"Your wounds are already healed, why are you still waiting to wake up?"

I looked at the daylight in front of me, my mind was drowsy, and I shook my head and said, "I don't know." ”

"There is no one in this world that you care about, so naturally you don't want to wake up. ”

Hearing the sound, my body trembled, and there was a loud bang in my head, the wedding, the wedding dress, the wine, the blood stains reflected the flowers, and his closed eyes waved in front of my eyes one by one, and I unconsciously curled my shoulders and back, and I was in pain.

"That's what you think?"

I didn't have words, my eyes were hazy and I paused there, hugging my head tightly, always feeling that this was the only way to stop hurting so much.

"Back then, I was like you. ”

He muttered like a gentle breeze.

"Someone told me that everything is impermanent, that there must be life and destruction, and that if you cling to one thought, you will be trapped in one thought, and if you are not attached to birth and death, your mind will be silent and unable to think. ”

"You did?" I tensed and looked up at the long figure.

"I always thought what he said made sense, but I didn't listen to it. ”

He spoke so firmly and stubbornly, as if he had experienced all this with me.

"As long as she lives, I can do anything. At last his voice was much lower, as if he were muttering to himself.

As long as he lives, I can do anything!

I can break off, give up, and leave, I can not be happy, I can not marry him, I can just look at him from afar, look at him.

"Bai Nian is full, the red dust is a bitter dream, leaving unfinished fate, unseen people, unpaid wishes, and one day will return......"

The day in front of my eyes flickered, and I only felt that my body was surrounded by a cloud of white light, forcing me to the top, and I was suffocated for a moment. gasped suddenly, and when he opened his eyes again, the Que Qing on the side of the bed was wilting and leaning on the edge of the bed, and the familiar aroma of wood sandalwood came to his nose.

"One day I will return......

I muttered to myself, and the words echoed in my ears, and they seemed to be engraved on the tip of my heart, and they did not disappear for a long time.

"You're awake!"

Who knew that this movement startled Que Qing beside her, her eyes widened, she blinked at me, and screamed loudly, startling my head with a cold sweat.

I just woke up this time, and I am afraid that I will be stunned by her again.

"Do you know how long you've been asleep, but you're awake!" said Qiqing, crying with joy and hugging me tightly.

I was stunned, and Mu Ne asked, "How long have you slept?"

"I've slept for more than a month!" Que Qing looked at me with a dumbfounded eye and pointed her hand outward, "Look, Beichuan has passed the cold autumn." ”

I looked out the window and saw in the distance the huge trees, the leaves had already turned yellow, and when the wind blew, the leaves rose with the dust and swayed all over the sky.

I wrapped the futon around my body, and asked Qiqing to close the window a little tighter, not wanting to look at it more.

"Oh, I patronized to talk to you, and I forgot to tell my aunt about it! Wait here first, and I'll be back soon!"

It seems that I did sleep for too long, too long.

It's been so long that my ignorant heron master will call me in a dream, so long that I actually saw a trace of panic in the eyes of Aunt Jinhua, who has always been dignified, and so long that Bai Tong has already sent the brocade back to Nangong for me, and the land of Beichuan has entered the cold autumn from the hot summer.....

There are many people who come to look at me, look at me, some people are not even familiar with us, in other words, in other words, I must be a smile, but now, I watch them talk to me, but I can't listen to a word, and I can't show half a smile.

I know, I feel like I've lost something.

So in the past few days, I have walked all over Beichuan every day, seeing the appearance of the sky and the earth, the grass and trees are withered, the candles are burned out every night, and I am immersed in reading the obscure drug manager, and then I draw on the rice paper, and after a candle is burned, add another candle, and after a pile of paper is finished, I will draw another pile.

Bai Tong said, let me rest.

But I haven't found what I lost, I have walked all over Beichuan, seen all the grass and trees, and have not seen the same roadside flowers before the relocation of the mansion at the same time, I have looked at the sky, and I can't wait for a sunset outside the military tent to be full, I have read all the drug and poison managers in Beichuan, even if I close my eyes I can recognize what poison is and what is the medicine, I think this will not be wrong again, I will definitely be able to smell the poison in the wine in advance, so that he will not die.

I engraved all his face in my heart, his glances, smiles, gestures, and gestures, but I can't draw a good enough Danqing to set off his look. I wrote his name on a piece of paper a thousand times, but no one could make me blurt those three words out again.

It turns out that there are some things, if they are lost, they are lost, and they just can't be recovered.