"My sword?" Liu Xunyi looked at Qin Wei's sword with a blank expression, and muttered to himself as if crying and laughing, "People like me...... Do I still deserve to have a sword? A person like me cannot defend his family and country, punish evil and promote good, keep his beloved woman, and cannot keep his trusted brother, and he tries his best to do his best for the common people in the world, but in the end he has become the most heinous and unforgivable 'the world's greatest evildoer'. The court regarded me as a rebel, and the martial arts regarded me as a traitor, a person like me...... What's the use of living in the world?"

"Liu Xunyi, who are you living for?" Xun Qin's tone was neither yin nor yang, plain as water, "They say that you are a rebel and a traitor, and you are really 'the number one villain in the world'? They say that you are heinous and unforgivable, and you are really guilty of great evil, and you are useless? The Liu Xunyi I know is not compatible, maverick, and never goes with the flow, and everyone is the same." If others don't believe you, don't even you believe in yourself? If you think you've done a lot of evil, why don't you use this sword now to apologize for your crimes? It also saves us from hiding all day long for you, and we are afraid of it. ”

"Xun Qin, I am already alone, the enemy of the world, and I will die sooner or later. You can save me for a while, but you can't save me for a lifetime, but you will put yourself in a quagmire and innocently cause trouble, why bother?"

"Who said I was going to save you for the rest of my life?" Xun Qin raised his eyebrows lightly and teased, "You and I have no relatives and no reason, wouldn't it be wronged to save you for the first time?"

"This ......"

"Why don't you call me 'Grandma', maybe I'll think about it. ”

Looking at Xun Qin, who was in trouble, Liu Xunyi had mixed feelings, crying and laughing.

He really didn't understand, he was clearly speaking from the bottom of his heart, and he was full of sadness, and he wanted to talk to Xun Qin about the bitterness of life in his heart, but he didn't expect Xun Qin not only refused to appease, but deliberately ridiculed.

Could it be ...... Do you look like you're joking, or is what happened to you a big joke?

"Alas!"

Thinking of this, the depressed Liu Xunyi couldn't help but let out a sigh, slowly closed his eyes, and seemed unwilling to fight with Xun Qin anymore.

Seeing Liu Xunyi's depression, Xun Qin not only felt guilty, but "fluttered" out laughing out loud, and jokingly said: "What? Our Liu Zhifan and Lord Liu are not only physically weak, but even their hearts have become vulnerable?"

"Miss Xun Qin, where did I offend you? Even if I have offended, now that I have tasted retribution, can Your Excellency open the net and let me go?" was sneered at by Xun Qin, Liu Xunyi was both bored and helpless.

"Now it's not that I won't let you go, it's that you won't let go of yourself. Suddenly, Xun Qin's expression was full, and the banter on his face disappeared in an instant, replaced by a thick solemnity, "Liu Xunyi, do you know who the most terrible enemy in the world is? It's yourself! It's not terrible to be an enemy of the world, and it's not terrible to be chased and killed by thousands of troops, what is really terrible is that you are cowardly before you fight, you are not defeated by your opponent, and you can't raise your head because of the fear in your heart." Who said that if you are alone, the enemy of the world will definitely die? Whether you can turn over depends on whether you have strong enough faith and the resilience to become more and more courageous, rather than a wanted notice or a chase warrant. What's more, you keep saying that you are alone, what is it for me to go all the way to Lin'an to save you? Miss Pan, a weak woman, is to return to Lin'an alone at the risk of her life? What is Qin Ku who helps you hide from the world behind the scenes? You only say that you can't keep your beloved woman and trusted brother, but you ignore our friends who have braved the world's condemnation and shared weal and sorrow with you, such a selfish Liu Xunyi...... Is it really worthy to talk about the common people in the world and the morality of the rivers and lakes?"

"I ......"

"Who are you living for?" Xun Qin ignored the distraught Liu Xunyi and asked again, "Are you born with soft bones?

"I ......"

"In Tianji Pavilion, you rely on Zhao Yuan, and you can fight hard. In the rivers and lakes, you rely on Luo Tianjin, and you can laugh at it. In Mobei, you rely on the court of the Great Song Dynasty, and you can never give up when you go to the soup and fire. At that time, the reason why you were not afraid of the sky and the earth was because you knew that there were people behind you to support you, and even if the sky fell, you could hide under their wings and survive. Now, you gradually lose all your dependence, and with it the backbone of your heart collapses, you are afraid, you are timid, you are afraid, you cannot find your place, you cannot even find the meaning of life. You begin to panic and fear, but you don't want to admit your defeat, so you pretend to be fearless and return to Lin'an, determined to die with the Privy Councillor. You use death as an escapist and a shortcut out of suffering. Xun Qin did not shy away from revealing the scars in Liu Xunyi's heart, and said righteously, "The more this is the case, the more it proves that you are afraid." What you fear is not death, but loss! What you fear is not the pressure of the enemy, but isolation! What you fear is not the thorns in the road ahead, but that there is no way out! Admit it! After more than 20 years of 'bullying others,' you like and rely on this feeling of wagging your tail and begging for mercy and kneeling to survive. Someone asked you to kneel, you were at ease, full of courage, brave and good at fighting, and now suddenly let you stand up, you are honestly afraid, trembling, not only your heart is like a cat scratching, you lose all your courage, and even your hands and feet...... I don't know where to put it, yes or no?"

Xun Qin's words were like an initiation, which made Liu Xunyi's restless heart completely silent.

Liu Xunyi, who was stunned, silently recalled his past and examined his heart. In a trance, even he couldn't see his true self clearly, but he was vividly analyzed between the lines of Xun Qin's words, and he could see it at a glance.

The haze and gloom hidden in his heart, liver, spleen, lungs, and kidneys were mercilessly smashed out by Xun Qin, and the bloody desire mixed with his selfishness that he did not want to admit was exposed in broad daylight, making him feel a burst of unprecedented shame and remorse.

"In the final analysis, the Liu Xunyi of the past is not the real Liu Xunyi at all. Your courage and resourcefulness, chivalrous courage, iron bones, and stubbornness are actually illusions, the duties and missions entrusted to you by the official position of the imperial court and the status of the rivers and lakes, and the courage and courage lent to you by Zhao Yuan and Luo Tianjin, not the original face of Liu Xunyi. "Xun Qin is unrelenting, his attitude is getting tougher, and his words are getting sharper, "The real you are what you are now, you are unambitious, sentimental, complaining, and self-indulgent......"

"Enough!"

Liu Xunyi, who was ridiculed for being useless, finally couldn't help the indignation in his heart, and supported his body with a tenacious will that refused to give in. Letting his head be dizzy and sweating profusely, he still stubbornly looked at Xun Qin, who was neither humble nor arrogant, and said intermittently: "I just don't want to spend my life, not the complaining ...... you say."

"Don't make excuses for your cowardice, that will only make people laugh. Xun Qin said contemptuously, "If you really stand up to the sky and are indomitable, you should live for yourself and let others grovel in front of you, instead of you wagging your tail and begging for food from others." If I were you, instead of seeking death, I would do everything possible to live. Because only if I am alive can those who hurt me be afraid and unable to sleep. Only if I am alive can I slash the enemy and be ashamed. Those who hurt me, I will see them kneeling before me and weeping bitterly, prostrating themselves and begging for mercy. Those who deceive me, I will make them repent of their mistakes and regret them for the rest of their lives. As for what I have lost, I must regain it at all costs. Let the world know that Liu Xunyi is not a puppet at the mercy of others, let alone a coward who ravages wantonly......"

"Do you think I'm willing to accept my fate? Do you think I have no fighting spirit? Do you think I don't want to resist?" In the face of Xun Qin's aggressive compulsion, Liu Xunyi finally said his inner obsession, "I think! I think about it all the time! I think more than anyone else! But what about reality? I have neither the fate of Cheng Xiang in distress, nor the ability to turn things around, I can't even fight Qin Wei, how can I fight against the privy council deputy envoy? How can I fight against the emperor and the imperial court? As for the breeze in charge of the martial arts in the Central Plains, I am even more different from him. ”

As for this, Liu Xunyi couldn't help laughing at himself, and said bitterly: "You may think that I am not ruthless enough, cunning and vicious enough...... I'll admit that I'm really not cold-blooded enough compared to them. But can I really turn defeat into victory by relying only on ruthlessness and cunning? In the face of the general trend that has become a foregone conclusion, in the face of the common hatred of the enemy and the martial arts of the imperial court and the martial arts, and in the face of joining forces to kill them, how much storm can I set off even if I have great ability?"

"I can help you!" Seeing that Liu Xunyi's heart door had been opened, Xun Qin took advantage of the situation to enter, "As long as you want, I can not only help you come back to life, but also help you avenge your shame and make a comeback." ”

"You?" Liu Xunyi was secretly shocked in his heart, and said suspiciously, "What is the purpose of you first taking the risk to save me, and now you are generously helping? If I remember correctly, the last days of our time in the Xianwang Mansion were not very pleasant......

"The past is like smoke, why mention it again? Liu Xunyi, I only ask you one word tonight, I hope you can answer me honestly. Xun Qin looked at him quietly and left and right.

"You...... What do you want to ask?" Seeing that Xun Qin was serious, Liu Xunyi couldn't help but feel nervous.

"Do you want to clear your grievances? Do you want to take revenge? Do you want to ...... Take back the woman you love?"

"Shhh

With just one word, Liu Xunyi's face changed, and an irrepressible excitement poured into his heart, making him feel chest tightness and shortness of breath, and cough violently.

"Xun Qin, you...... Can you really help me?" Liu Xunyi, who had regained his faith, looked at Xun Xun in disbelief.

"Do what you say, never break your word!" Xun Qin was confident, and the words were sonorous, "but for now...... You have to do one thing well. ”

"What's the matter?"

From now on, you must not only live, but also live better!"

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