Suddenly my breathing became rapid, and I raised my hand almost without hesitation, and looked hurriedly into the palm of my hand, which was, of course, the expected emptiness.

However, in my pupils, I had already quickly sketched out a word according to the order in which those seemingly chaotic sword qi fell one after another.

It is reflected in my eyes, shot into my heart, and painted in the palm of my hand.

This word is the word "Juan".

If I'm not mistaken, this must be the girl's name.

I really didn't expect that at the last moment, it was the unreliable flying sword that gave me such a surprise.

I just don't know what kind of "repair" it will face after going back, at least I know that the girl suspected of being called "Juan" doesn't have a good temper.

"Juan......" I muttered, but I couldn't help but think of another girl in my mind.

The same petite and delicate figure, the same face, and the same talent are unparalleled in the world, but she wears pink all year round, and only pink can set off her beauty.

It was a precious garment woven from the most precious colored alien cocoon silk of the Oriental Castle, and it was one of the only two girls in the castle who could enjoy such treatment.

She is young, and the other girl is called Xi Jing.

"Sister Yao...... Cyan ...... Are you alright?" I thought, and I don't know when I'm already wet with tears.

After the farewell of the Castle of the East, I kept reassuring myself that they were safe.

This is the most stable, probable, and at the same time the most impressive estimate based on the circumstances at the time.

But after all, I didn't see it in person, so from time to time a trace of worry rose in my heart.

I don't know why I think of them at this moment, probably because I saw the shadow of the girl named Juan!

Of course, there is also a feeling called "heartbeat"!

At this moment, the past and reality are blended, thoughts and thoughts converge, the same heartbeat, similar heartbeat, but completely different moods.

For the untimely death, in addition to the love in my heart, there is probably a strong family affection in it, which is difficult to part with and cannot be separated.

When the final battle of Fort Orient came, we finally held hands, which was the testimony of two hearts who loved each other for the first time and finally came together.

But it all began, and it ended in a hurry, and since then, I have wandered the world and disappeared without a trace.

In the past nearly a year, I often dreamed of dying, in which she walked farther and farther, and her figure became fading and fading.

I don't know how many nights I woke up from a dream like this, and I burst into tears every time.

I often wonder if that moment was real, and if that scene really happened?

My feelings for the untimely death are strong and complicated, and she is the same for me!

I believe that even though we have held hands, in the eyes of the young, I have always been the child she is most familiar with, right?

It's just that this child has another identity that I have always been unwilling to admit and that she always wants to deliberately ignore - a younger brother.

Even so, we are not related by blood.

This title has brought us closer together, so that I can hang like a tail behind her from a young age, inseparable.

However, the same name has also built an insurmountable wall in the not-so-distant future in advance as we grow up......

On one side of this wall, two big characters are prominently written - ethics.

They were like living creatures in my dreams, making sarcastic noises from time to time, laughing at my incompetence.

On the other side of this wall, there are also two words that cannot be erased - habits.

We have long been accustomed to each other, especially each other in family affection, but we have forgotten what love should look like.

Or, we don't know what each other should look like in love!

Like most young and ignorant teenagers and girls, we have love in our hearts, but we don't know how to love.

Because of family affection, because of habits, our hearts are already together, no matter what happens, it is absolutely impossible to give up each other easily.

However, this leads to even the final hand-holding, which is just an extra layer of ritual that is pasted outside.

This kind of being together is different from the one I expected, and it is also different from the one that the girl imagined in her heart.

I often think that if the Demon Ancestor hadn't arrived that day, there would have been no sense of urgency for the end to come.

If we didn't have the tension that we might lose tomorrow at any time, maybe we wouldn't choose to pierce that layer of paper, but put this complex and contradictory mood of cutting and sorting out in the future to solve!

Drag on one day at a time, and unless Fort of the East is forever lonely between the Moon Forest and the Cloud Wall, this delicate relationship between us will continue.

Lang rode a bamboo horse and went around the bed to make green plums, and the legend of childhood sweethearts is beautiful precisely because it is just a legend most of the time.

Because it doesn't happen much, everyone will be full of expectations for it! But the complicated feelings and relationships between the parties are not something that outsiders can understand.

This, of course, also contains the attitude of the elders, specifically in the matter of me and the young death, it is the attitude of the castle lord Dongfang to win me.

Ever since I was a child, his attitude has always puzzled me, and this confusion is not something that can be prevaricated by simply indulging in spiritual practice and ignoring the world.

He has never taken the initiative, refused, opposed, or supported, and seems to look down on external things, everything is subject to fate, and we develop on our own.

is so indifferent that I often wonder if he is his own granddaughter, but the heat hidden in his heart always makes you feel it inadvertently.

But at the moment when I held hands with Xiao Yao, the relief on his face was from the bottom of his heart, exuding a strong taste of blessing.

I believe that if he had been able to push it at will earlier, this day would have come a long time ago!

But he didn't do this, he has always been contradictory and stubbornly insisting, but he doesn't know what he is insisting on.

All the confusion, all the mysteries, finally disappeared with me when I came to the outside world!

Maybe it's because I've experienced a lot, maybe it's because I've been freed from the life and death crisis brought by the demon ancestor, in short, many things that I couldn't think about before have become extraordinarily transparent.

I finally understood the ambiguity and helplessness of the castle lord in this matter.

Yes, his heart is full of contradictions, and it is this thick helplessness that is expressed.

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