Chapter 19: Mental Tribulation and Physical Distress (1)
Yun Susu quarreled with Xu Guangzheng again because of Wu Jingjing.
Wu Jingjing was Xu Guangzheng's college classmate, and she had an ambiguous relationship in school, but at that time, both of them were masters and could not develop into the depths. Coincidentally, after graduation, the two entered the same unit, and they both broke up with their ex, and the two continued to be ambiguous. The two families are well-matched, the two have the same education and ability, and the parents of both sides are acquaintances, so everyone recognizes that the two of them are a couple, and only one of them is left to confess.
It was at this time that Yun Susu appeared.
Ever since he met Yun Susu on that old street full of fallen leaves in late autumn, Xu Guangzheng was like falling into evil, completely leaving Wu Jingjing behind, and launched a crazy and indomitable pursuit of Yun Susu.
Yun Susu reminded him of the famous modern poem:
Holding an oil-paper umbrella, alone
It's long, long
Lonely rain alley
I hope it will be
A clove like that
A girl with a grudge
He felt that Yun Susu was the girl with a grievance like a lilac, with the color of cloves, the fragrance of cloves, the silence of cloves, the sorrow, sadness, and confusion of cloves, and the eyes of lilacs.
He is obsessed with the poetic image in his own heart, puts this image on Yun Susu, and stubbornly launches his own imaginary pursuit of the most ideal girlfriend for Yun Susu.
Poor Yun Susu, a stupid child who has been working hard for his livelihood, has never seen such a formation, and without knowing the existence of Wu Jingjing, he soon fell completely.
Wu Jingjing is a proud person, it has always been a man who runs with her, seeing that Xu Guang is such a half-hearted style, she feels that her self-esteem has been hurt, and it is a waste of time to even redeem it, so she turned around and went to hook up with other men.
Wu Jingjing has talked about several boyfriends since then, but they all broke up for one reason or another, and finally became an older leftover girl over thirty.
This time she returned from a business trip alone, and she didn't know what stimulation she was outside, and she remembered the past and regretted it. called Xu Guangzheng, pretending to have too much luggage, and asked Xu Guangzheng to pick up the plane.
Xu Guangzheng became a husband and father at this time, and he had realized that there was not so much poetry in reality, although Yun Susu was good-looking, there was little sweetness of cloves in his personality, but he preferred to be straightforward and strong like chili.
When receiving a call from Wu Jingjing, Xu Guangzheng recalled the past and thought that it was not easy for Wu Jingjing to open his mouth once, and he couldn't let his family drop his face on the ground, so he drove to the airport according to his words. I thought that I would be able to rush back to Puyang in the afternoon and would not miss picking up the children from school, but I didn't expect that he wouldn't be able to rush home until dark.
When Yun Susu came home from work and opened the door tiredly, he found that there was no one in the house. Call Xu Guangzheng and turn off the phone, call Mrs. Yun and shut down, call your parents, and the mother complains in a weird way on the other end of the phone: "Child, you can't ask us." You should ask your money-making man, your capable in-laws, or your dear grandmother. I don't have knowledge or culture, but I don't dare to pick up the children for you - I can't afford to pay for the bad education. β
Yun Susu's mind was blank, how could he have time to listen to these complaints, threw down his mobile phone, grabbed the electric car key and ran downstairs, ran to the door of the community, and saw two children holding hands and walking in with schoolbags. Yun Cheng was saying, "It's easy that no one will pick it up today, let's finally be free again." Brother invites you to eat ice cream this time, next time you invite brother to eat spicy skewers, remember? Okay, let's eat it! Don't let my mother see it, and hit our butts again!"
As a result, they didn't have their butts blooming, it was their mother who hugged them and cried tears, and then their father came back in the middle of the night and was scratched by his mother.
Wu Jingjing has since become a thorn between Yun Susu and Xu Guangzheng, and it hurts both of them when they touch it.
"Don't worry, I won't get divorced, we have two children. I just saw her crying pitifully, and I couldn't bear to leave her alone. I just wanted to help her. After all, I have been a classmate for four years and a colleague for eight years, and I should be covered by her even if I am a rock. β
"My money will be put here for you in the future, now you can rest assured, right? In fact, in my heart, you still have a big position occupied by your mothers and sons, and Wu Jingjing is just... In the future, when she becomes a family, I will leave her alone, I promise. I just can't wipe my face now, she's a woman who is talked about, and it's pitiful, I can't fall into the well. β
"I promise that I will never go out alone with her again, but I can't delete her WeChat, if I delete her at this time, what will happen to me? Besides, as soon as I delete it here, she will immediately know, think about it, how sad she is! Maybe she will do something irrational, what should I do at that time? If something happens to her, I really can't take care of you mothers and daughters. β
Xu Guangzheng expressed his maintenance of the family to Yun Susu over and over again, and at the same time proudly showed Yun Susu his and Wu Jingjing's remarkable, sacred and wonderful extramarital affair, forcing Yun Susu, who originally wanted to look at the two children and compromised himself not to divorce, could no longer bear it.
Yun Susu held Yun Qing with his left hand, Yun Cheng with his right hand, and a big backpack on his back, walking on the old streets of Puyang, bursting into tears.
In the depths of winter, the old streets are windy, sparsely populated, and extremely cold and bleak.
Their former home was in the family courtyard of Xu Guangzheng's unit, and the neighbors did not call her "Susu" or "Xiaoyun", but "sister-in-law" or "younger sister", so that house and compound could only be Xu Guangzheng's home, not her Yun Susu's.
She stood in the old street at dusk, not knowing who to go to with her child.
Old Lady Yun? She didn't dare, she didn't have the strength to resist Old Lady Yun's cursing now;
Parents and brothers? Their estrangement with Yun Susu and Mrs. Yun for many years, and the conflict with Xu Guangzheng and his parents, have long fermented into a stomach of resentment, and they are afraid that they will attack her children;
She had submitted an application four or five months ago, but because she had no backer and would not give gifts, she could only watch others go to the real estate department to receive the keys;
She is a woman with two children, living in a crowded rental house, and her safety cannot be guaranteed; and her salary is not high, and she is already struggling to support herself and her two children, and I am afraid that she will not have any money left to pay the rent. What's more, the winter in Puyang is very cold, and there is no heating in the general rental house, and the children are used to living in a heated house, and their bodies can't stand it.
The hands of the two children were already cold, and she had to make a decision.
After thinking about it again, she still walked into the Yun family's courtyard, but was scolded by Mrs. Yun and fled; then came to her parents' house, and was beaten out by her brothers; in desperation, she learned to cry in the real estate department of the unit, and was used as a negative teaching material by the dean, and the conference meeting criticized her by name; she was really forced to have no choice, she had to lead the child back to the home with Xu Guangzheng, but when she opened the door, she saw Wu Jingjing walking out of her bedroom in her pajamas, sitting at the dining table she had bought from thousands of choices, serving porridge with her favorite set of bone china tableware, sitting with her children's father, and eating with a smileγγγ She led the child out, fled to a remote street, rented a small house to settle down temporarily, but in the middle of the night, she was broken in by someone and coerced with a knife... She protected the children behind her and wrestled with them, while they were not paying attention, picked up Xiao Yunqing, who was not running fast, pulled the bigger Xiao Yuncheng, grabbed the door and fled, they ran and ran as hard as they could, tired and afraid, their hearts were about to run out, I don't know how long they ran, before they ran out of those dark streets and returned to the familiar old street...
The two children were crying all the time, and she couldn't help but cry out as she hugged them, just thinking in her heart: When will the great god come?
Great God... Countless past lives ago, she had a pair of kind parents, six loving brothers... Suddenly, she understood.
The mirror image of the old street was distorted, blurred, and disappeared.
She and her children were not displaced, and Mrs. Yun arrived in time to receive her parents when she was kicked out of her parents' house by her brothers. The heart-wrenching ordeal that followed was just her imagination, and it didn't really happen.
It turned out that her failed marriage with Xu Guangzheng, the safety and life security of her and her children, had always been a heart disease hidden deep in her heart; it turned out that she did not trust Mrs. Yun as she had shown; it turned out that even if she became a monk, she still had no sense of security in her heart.
That's what she's demons about.
She has a clear conscience and can enter the Tao, but her heart disease has not been cured, so the demons in her heart are still there. This is the judgment of Heavenly Dao on her.
Let's leave it to another day to overcome it slowly. Fortunately, she already knew what her demons were and how to overcome them. Once she had a goal, she knew what to do.
Wiping away the tears on her face, she sat back in the center of the formation and continued to absorb the aura, consolidate her cultivation, and summarize her insights into the Dao.
Eight or nine days passed, Yun Susu was woken up by hunger, and at this time, a month had passed since she sat in the center of the formation and entered the tribulation, which was considered a complete deed and a successful tribulation.
She stood up in her clothes, only to feel that her body was light, her spirit was complete, and the spiritual platform was clear, and she could see all the scenes within ten meters without opening her eyes: under the spirit gathering array, a happy earthworm was arching the soil; outside the life and killing array, a few ants in a circle of confusion were turning around, unable to find their way home; under the gravel, a barnyard grass stretched out timidly grass tips; on the slanting branches of the wild jujube tree, a spider the size of a peanut was weaving a beautiful web...
This is divine consciousness, it used to be a vague intuition, and now this intuition has also advanced into divine consciousness with her initiation, although it can only be released ten meters outward, and it can't predict good luck and evil, but as a rookie who has only cultivated for two years, she is already very content.
She looked inward again, and "saw" a large cloud of white mist in her lower abdomen, which was the aura she absorbed when she entered the Dao, half of it came from the gift of nature, and the other half came from the circle of high-grade spirit stones in the Spirit Gathering Array. There was a five-colored cylinder in the center of the white mist, which was her spiritual root. The five colors indicate that she is the full spiritual root of the five elements, the cylindrical shape, which is the balance of the five elements of her spiritual root, and the height of the cylinder represents the affinity between her spiritual root and various spiritual qi, that is, the so-called spiritual root value in the cultivation world.
She took out the prepared Ouija Disc from the treasure bag, put her hand into the groove, and the Ouija Disc really lit up with five tall pillars of light: she was the Five Elements Spiritual Root, the spiritual root value was balanced, and the affinity of each department had reached about eighty-five points.
The smile on Yun Susu's face gradually expanded, how bright and bright the sunflowers in the sun were, how bright and bright she was.
She actually possessed a high-grade hybrid spirit root! It must have been one of her countless previous lives that she had done a good deed to save all mankind, right?
Yun Susu smirked and pounced on the old lady Yun outside the formation, wanting to lie to the old lady Yun before the children spoiled her, she first sprinkled an old lady Yun who had not been sprinkled for twenty years, but as soon as she raised her eyes and saw the situation on the opposite cliff, it was like a basin of cold water extinguishing her full of fire, she suddenly stopped her figure, looked at the opposite cliff and screamed:
"Yun Qing, Yun Cheng, what's wrong with you? Gu Lao Zu, you, you, what are you doing?"