Past?Present?
Chu Han quickly calmed down again, thinking carefully, everything he saw was white, so what happened to the takeout he just ordered?
Chu Han opened a certain group to look at it again, and found that a certain group had also become white.
Chu Han was a little surprised, could it be that his memory was confused?
Chu Han felt a sudden feeling of dizziness, and it took a while to ease up.
What appeared in front of me was my childhood home again.
Chu Han's entire room was white because his father liked white and didn't allow anything other than white to appear in the house
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Chu Han's biggest fear when he was a child was injury, because the injury would bleed, the blood was not white, and his father would be angry.
Chu Han was most afraid of his father's eyes when he was angry, smiling, but there were monsters hidden inside, as if they were devouring themselves!
Everything after his father gets angry, Chu Han will forget, but he will always remember those eyes!
Chu Han rarely saw his mother, his mother didn't hate herself, but she never liked herself!
Later, they separated, and Chu Han also left the white house!
Chu Han slowly forgot, forgot what his parents looked like, and slowly faded his memories when he was a child.
Later, Chu Han would always slowly downplay everything he had experienced, and he didn't forget it, but he couldn't recall it.
Chu Han has always known his past memories, but this feeling is very vague, even if he is just a bystander of this memory.
It's obviously something that I've personally experienced, but I can't go to see my relatives carefully, and everything is white every time.
It's like the house I grew up in! Everything before the age of ten was white!
Chu Han went to the doctor, this is a rare mental illness, there have been similar medical records before, but there are many places that are different!
I took a lot of medicine and received a lot of treatments, but it didn't have the slightest effect!
Chu Han later gave up, thinking that if he would forget sooner or later, it would be better not to feel it!
Chu Han began to rely on the Internet, accepting everything on the Internet more than before!
Later, Chu Han found that as long as it wasn't himself, he could remember other people's things, other people's stories, other people's lives, he could remember everything!
This discovery made him ecstatic, and the best way to accept someone else's life is to be!
Every character in the book seems to come to life, and she likes it no matter what kind of character she likes.
Chu Han wants to create a self, a self who will never experience the vast white world!
So, Chu Han fabricated a character for himself like the author gave the character design.
Then I hid in my home and slowly adapted to my new "self"!
The new "self", the memory will never be white again, even the parents in the memories have a new color!
Chu Han felt very happy, she also enjoyed this kind of life, and slowly forgot that she was no longer white in her memories, and she was all covered by her new self!
Chu Han enjoyed it very much, no longer touched the past, and quietly started to be an otaku!
But now, Chu Han saw his past self, and he once again looked at his past like a bystander!
In the past, my self was numb, my whole body was white, and even my skin was sickly incandescent!
He watched his daily monotonous and numb life, repeating the same thing every day!
Before the age of ten, all the things other than white that could not be turned into white, Chu Han had never touched it!
Chu Han felt a burst of fear again, the same fear that he was about to disappear!
The past self seems to be staring at the present self, and the past self seems to be opening his mouth to say these things!
Chu Han frantically wanted to escape from here, and in the process of escaping, he saw more and more of what he had experienced in the past!
These are crippled as children, because his world must be white, and he has no way to escape from whiteness, and he has no strength to escape!
When he left here, he couldn't adapt to the colorful life outside.
It's like a bird that has never experienced freedom, and once it loses its cage, it dies!
But the past self erases the past with evasion, and uses fake things to shape the new self.
The current Chu Han is a little confused, he can't tell whether the past self and the current self are changed, or replaced!
Is it the same person now and in the past, or two people!
Are you fake? or is it real?
Chu Han ran towards the exit of this white world, the place where she left in the beginning!
Chu Han deeply understood that he didn't belong here, and the outside was the world he should be in!
Chu Han is getting closer and closer to the exit, but his past self suddenly appears in front of him!
Chu Han, you instantly felt a splitting headache!
He asked loudly, "Are you going to kill me again?"
Chu Han endured the pain and subconsciously retorted: "I didn't!"
Chu Hanneng in the past said with a smile: "You have, but you forgot! You forgot me, you killed me, you erased me!"
Chu Han's head suddenly didn't hurt, but he shouted loudly in a little panic: "I am myself, the past is and is myself! You are not me, I haven't forgotten anything, I don't have you in my memory at all." ”
Chu Han in the past smiled sarcastically: "You forgot again." ”
Chu Han retorted loudly: "That's right, you are not my memory at all, I shouldn't be here!"
Chu Han in the past stopped smiling, looked at the door silently, and said: "I can't leave here, because once I leave, I will disappear, once I longed to leave, but after leaving, I became you, and I will be bound here for the rest of my life!"
Chu Han said emphatically: "I'm not you!"
Chu Han in the past opened his mouth and laughed again, and asked sarcastically: "Then, who are you!"
Chu Han replied as a matter of course: "I am Chu Han, I have never changed!"
Chu Han in the past laughed even louder: "You even forgot your name!"
Chu Han's head hurt again, but his heart became more and more determined, this is not his memory, he is not like this, he is Chu Han, whether it was in the past or now, he has never changed!
Chu Han in the past walked over a little helplessly, lightly tapped his hand on his head, and said, "Since you forgot again, then I will help you remember it again!"
Chu Han in the past said to himself: "Don't worry, whether it is me in the past, or you now, as soon as I become you, I will let you see it all again!
Chu Han was inexplicably scared after hearing this, Chu Han deeply understood that he didn't want to see it, and he was afraid to see it!